Portable space

Zhang Taiping lay on the bed with empty eyes, the white square ceiling seemed to reflect that smiling face full of pity.The girl's name is Zhang Xiaowei, oh, she can't be called a girl anymore, because she married as a woman five years ago, and even her daughter is four years old. Their ending is not that girls love vanity, dislike poverty, and love wealth, but love love. Unfaithful, but full of too much helplessness and God's will, which has to start with Zhang Taiping's life experience.

Zhang Taiping grew up in an orphanage and did not know who his parents were.I just heard from Grandma Zhang, the oldest person in the orphanage, that she was sent to the gate of the orphanage on New Year's Eve in 82.At that time, he seemed to be only about one year old, his little face was flushed with cold, but he didn't cry or scream, and saw people's small eyes rolling.A jade pendant engraved with the word "Taiping" is worn on the neck with fine linen silk.Grandma Zhang believed in Buddhism, and she felt destined to her at first glance. After looking at the jade pendant around his neck, she named him Taiping, following her surname Zhang.The birthday is set on New Year's Eve.

Zhang Taiping was raised by Grandma Zhang herself like her own grandson. She was smart since she was a child, but she was weak and sick.Even with the special care of Grandma Zhang, who is the dean, she is still as thin as a stick, just like the children in African refugee camps, showing a long-term malnutrition state.

When he was 12 years old, Grandma Zhang passed away.This is not only a spiritual blow to him, but also a physical challenge.After Grandma Zhang left, he, who was treated equally, was in a state of hunger all day long, not because he was given less food, but because he always had to eat three or four times the food of children of the same age to feel full.Two hours later, the feeling of hunger will sweep through the body again.

When Grandma Zhang was alive, she took him to the hospital for several checkups, but every time the result was that he was healthy and healthy, but his blood sugar was a little low, so he should go back and eat more sugar. Not a big deal.

However, the strange thing is that no matter how much you eat, your stomach will never be satisfied.It's like a bottomless pit, no matter what you fill it is still empty.

When he was in middle school, food was provided by the cafeteria. Fortunately, he met a sympathetic aunt.Every time he eats, he is always 10 minutes slower than others, and then enters through the back door until he is full.

The stomach is full, but the thin body cannot be changed, and there is even a tendency to develop into a bone spirit. Going out late at night can always scare people who have something to worry about.The horrible and bad appearance is destined not to be recognized by classmates.Poverty and suffering are potions for maturity.While other children are still looking for all kinds of interesting things to enrich their childhood, he already knows that his chances of learning in school are hard to come by.Because of the alienation and avoidance of his classmates, he devoted all his energy to his studies.So junior high school students all know that the first grader is a skeleton ghost!

His senior high school entrance examination scores were among the best in the region, and he was admitted to a private high school for free, and he also received a monthly living allowance of 200 yuan.

The better news than his results is that his body has finally turned around. Although he is still a big belly king, after a summer vacation, some flesh has finally grown between the skin and the bones. He looks like a human being and is no longer as scary as before. .

Life in high school was no different to him than in junior high school.After all, high school students are much more mature than junior high school students, and their likes and dislikes towards a person are not as obvious as junior high school students. Some people are willing to associate with him and hang out together.But the quiet and closed personality he developed in the three years of junior high school made him unable to integrate into laughter and extreme sports.Coupled with the maturity far beyond his peers and the ever-present hunger, he can only study, study, and study alone in the corner!

In the second year of high school, a girl who transferred to another school came.Her name is Zhang Xiaowei.

It is very honorable that Zhang Taiping, who has been sitting alone in the corner, has become her deskmate.

The girl doesn't look stunning, but she is petite, and when she smiles, two small dimples appear on her apple-like round face, which makes her look extra cute.The small nose is always wrinkled and wrinkled, adding a bit of lively breath.

Girls who have just transferred from another school cannot yet integrate into the various small circles that have been formed in the first year of high school.So Zhang Taiping, who was still working hard, was lucky enough to be accompanied by girls and curious eyes who glanced over from time to time when others were chatting or exercising.

The beginning of Zhang Taiping and the girl was in a physical education class.Zhang Taiping clearly remembered that day was September 21, [-].

On this day, the girl ate a large piece of ice cream at noon, and she felt pain in her stomach during physical education class in the afternoon.It was only then that the sloppy girl remembered that she couldn't eat cold food during her menstrual period.The girl who felt that she had committed a crime had no choice but to ask for leave and go back to the classroom to rest.

Pushing open the classroom door, the girl was surprised by the deskmate lying on the table.The girl thought with great interest: "He won't have a good friend too!".

However, as she approached, the girl heard cooing and cooing.

Naughty, she squatted quietly beside the bench to confirm that it was indeed coming from the belly of her deskmate.

Looking up, what he saw was a pale face covered with sweat.

"Are you hungry?" she asked softly.

Zhang Taiping didn't answer, just closed his eyes and bit his lips tightly.

The girl took out the snacks that were always ready in her bag, pushed them to him and said, "Here you are."

Zhang Taiping still didn't move, but the sweat on his face dripped down his chin to the ground.

"Be obedient, this is really bad for your health." The girl's voice was surprisingly soft.

The soft voice seemed to have magical power, Zhang Taiping finally raised his head.Through the blurred vision, what came into view was a pair of sincere and slightly pitiful bright eyes.

"Eat!" The girl gave her a big smile, with two shallow dimples on her face.

Zhang Taiping mechanically tore open the packaging bag of snacks under the guidance of this sound like the sound of nature, and then put it in his mouth.

He didn't know if there were any angels in this world, and he had never seen them before.However, at this moment, he believed that the angel was by his side.

Since then, the girl brought two breakfasts every day, and there was always a lot of snacks in the bag.They get to know each other and become friends.

For Zhang Taiping, the happiest two years passed by like a shuttle.

His grades are always among the best.Although the girl has been improving with his help, she is still far from his achievement.

After the college entrance examination, while waiting for the grades, the girl was obviously depressed and full of worries.He knew the reason, but he deliberately didn't ask. Instead, he secretly looked at the girl's volunteer form when filling out the volunteer, and said goodbye with a smile in the girl's weeping eyes.Then I found a job during the holidays, and slowly waited for the moment to surprise the girl.

The first choice of university is Northwest Agriculture and Forestry, because both he and the girl like this imperial capital full of historical vicissitudes and classical connotations.The main thing is that girls' first choice is here.

Without any suspense, he came to this campus two days before the start of school, which might be about to witness their sweet time.

Taking advantage of the aftertaste of surprise, their freshman life is sweet and enviable.

However, God always seems to like to give people a thunderbolt from the blue, watching people's helplessness and pain.

After the summer vacation of the freshman year, Zhang Taiping felt the hunger he had before high school again, even worse than that.Just like waking up from hibernation and wanting to eat, the stomach frantically absorbs the energy in the body.What's worse, what he absorbed at this moment was not only the energy of the food in his stomach, but also his vitality.

Some of the muscles accumulated in the past four years quickly shriveled within dozens of days.Every morning, there will be a few strands of white hair that are as dry as straw, and wrinkles will gradually appear on the skin.

He once thought of committing suicide by himself, but he couldn't do it under the silent pleading of the girl full of tears.

Knowing anyone at this moment can be a pain.He understands girls' dreams, what girls pursue, and what girls want most.However, can I give all of this now that I am neither human nor ghost?

Guilt and self-blame erode his heart like a devil. He can't give the girl happiness, and he can't give the girl happiness.Then seek relief, a better relief for girls.

He began to snub the girl, using his ugly appearance to hurt her satirically.

In fact, the girl in his heart fully understands, but a relationship doesn't just mean letting go.

So, he used self-harm to drive the girl away.This time he succeeded.The price of success is two broken hearts.

In the days without girls, Zhang Taiping started a devilish college life.

He was crazily soaking in the library as if he was crazily eating.Not only refer to all the materials related to agriculture, but also involve a large amount of traditional Chinese medicine materials.

Has received a professional master's degree, doctorate.I went to take the Chinese medicine qualification certificate again.Then I frantically visited the well-known old Chinese doctors in various places, because the obsession in my heart is still there.

He once wondered with a kind of nervous thought whether there was a head in his body.

I also went to the fortune-telling blind man on the street to make a divination, and the blind man gave the saying "the lone star of the evil spirit".Although I haven't read many novels, I still understand the hidden meaning behind this word.So he kicked the blind man's stall with resentment and walked away. The blind man didn't ask her for money, but watched him leave behind with regretful eyes.

Seeking medical treatment failed, taking medicine was useless, and fortune-telling failed to meet the desired statement, and the mind was completely dead.

Now he works as an administrator on the country's largest Huafen fruit tree trading website, and at the same time writes novels on the country's largest novel website.After a year, there are also 40 million.He deducted the cost of high-energy substances that he needs all the time, and the cost of basic living expenses, and donated the rest to the orphanage that raised him.