messenger from the wasteland

Chapter 58

The light wind blew on her face, penetrating the coolness of the morning into her heart, and Chu opened her eyes, those quiet eyes.She didn't fall asleep, and she didn't rest last night.

She seemed to be still immersed in the star river that filled the sky at night, immersed in the feeling of embracing the world.

That kind of unreserved tolerance includes everything about her, including her sins.

The world embraced her selflessly as if it were its own child.

Maybe the world treats everyone like this, it seems that it has never cared about you, but it always accommodates you and is willing to accept everything about you.Whether you are good or bad, you are being contained, you have never been expelled.

To be in the universe is to be in its arms.

When you think you are alone and cry, it holds you; when you think you are alone, it holds you; There, never leave you.Because, you have never left this universe.

The greatest mother who conceives life is always there.

Or perhaps, this is the greatest consolation for the lonely, who have never been truly lonely.

When they clenched their hands, they held nothing, but when they let go, they held everything.

Maybe B3068 firmly believes in this, so it is always looking forward to it.

Chu turned his head to look at B3068, it was still sleeping, every night it would sleep to save energy, and in the daytime it would turn on the energy panel to receive sunlight.

Chu slowly approached B3068, bringing his face closer to its face.

She looked at this old and lonely robot, and at first felt that they were similar but completely different.

When she was lonely, she chose to be numb, not to see, not to listen, not to ask, not to think, she exiled herself.

But B3068 has always embraced the world, even though time has eroded it, even though it has never received a response.

You know, Chu had an idea at this time, this time, she felt more like a redeemed person.

She was waking up, and she gradually became aware of it in mission after mission.

When Hillman taught her how to laugh; when glory bestowed her faith; when the swallows in spring repaid her kindness; when Sakurako lay on her back; when the girl told her that we are family; At B3068, when pointing to the starry sky for her.

She felt that she was waking up bit by bit, looking at the world again.

What did you see?
She still doesn't know that her eyes are still blurred, but what she knows is that she is opening her eyes, and one day, she will see the world clearly again.

She began to look forward to what she would be like at that time.

Chu stretched out a hand, and put it on B3068's face slowly and softly.

"Drip."

B3068's light green eyes flickered for a moment, it woke up, and the first thing it saw was Chu who was close at hand.

"Drip!"

It seemed to be frightened again, and it backed up with hands and feet, and then hit the rock pile with a "bang".

Fragmentary small stones fell down and smashed on its head with a bang, burying half of its body.

And B3068 sat there with dazed eyes, his head was beating and steam was coming out.

It's a timid and shy robot, there's no denying that.

"Ha ha."

Seeing B3068's appearance for the first time, he covered his mouth and laughed softly.

Seeing that Chu smiled, B3068 stared blankly. It thought that Chu liked watching it spray steam, scratched its head, held hands as if blushing, and sprayed two steams vigorously.

The initial laughter was not so hoarse, although it was a little deep, it was also pleasant to hear. The laughter spread far away, as if the rocks and ruins were all listening.

After the morning laughter ended, Chu stood up, and she asked B3068.

"Where are we going today?"

B3068 patted the stone on his body, sat up, looked around, and then raised his hand to point in one direction.

"Drip drip."

It is going there today to test the environment, it has never been there, maybe it can find a good living environment there.

Today, it is still full of expectations.

Looking forward to the return of human beings from the starry sky, and looking forward to being able to see the beauty of the earth for the first time.

So it, as always, never gave up, and continued to search without knowing how to give up.

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Once upon a time there was a young man who went to the priest.

He came to the priest in desperation and asked the priest.

"God loves the world, why has He never saved me?"

replied the priest.

"God loves the world not because he is meticulous, but because he never criticizes."

Even though all people in the world are selfish, He never criticizes, and bestows air, light, soil, and clean water to bless the birth of man.

(The god here refers to the world that embraces us. It has never been harsh, because we simply cannot bear its harshness. In this vast universe, one harshness is enough to destroy people.)
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There was a light rain in the afternoon, and the cold rain washed the ground, making the color of the ruins darker and darker, but between the clouds, the sun was still faint and never receded.

B3068 and Chu sat in a corner to shelter from the rain, listening to the sound of fine rain, they looked at the gloomy sky outside.

The wind blew the raindrops swaying, many of them fell into the corner of the wall and drenched on the two of them.

B3068 silently raised his hands to cover Chu's head. His huge palms were like open umbrellas, keeping the raindrops out.

Raising her head at the beginning, she looked at B3068's light green eyes, and gently leaned back against its body.

I don't know when it started, but she has been able to enjoy this kind of ordinary time quietly and calmly.

"Thank you."

Chu said to B368.

"Drip."

The electronic audio of the B3068 is drowned out by the sound of rain.

In the gray ruins, the streets are full of cracks, and in the rain, a small grass grows between the cracks.

It was beaten by the rain, bent over again and again, and stood up again and again. It swayed with the wind and stood tightly on the roots.

Its light green is washed more vividly by the rain, and its leaves are stretched more by the wind.

It is the only different color in the ruins. In the rain and in the darkness, it seems to be slowly smudged, blurring the deserted, drowsy, wandering rainy day.

And the gray planet seems to be showing a smile.

Even if you have been lonely, even if you have nothing, even if you are exhausted physically and mentally, scarred.

Tomorrow, please still look forward to it, don't give up looking, please believe that the world that belongs to you is waiting for you in a place you can't see.

It is smiling, with arms outstretched, waiting to take you into its arms.

(Here, in the new year, please allow me to offer my best wishes to you, for this world that is not necessarily so beautiful but deeply loved.)
(End of this chapter)