I'm not a big star

Chapter 339 I Was Kidnapped!

Chu Qing's voice was deep and desperate.

But it's not completely despair, but there is a hint of indignation towards the world in despair, a somewhat cynical tone.

When Chu Qing opened his eyes again, the world he saw seemed to be a black and white world without any color, and it seemed that everything else was exactly the same without any waves.

From mild to severe, depression patients are a process of gradually losing hope in life. From the beginning, they can barely live in this world, and then encounter many unbearable things and start to blame themselves, start to feel inferior, start to escape, and finally feel that the world For myself, it is full of malice everywhere, full of a sense of betrayal, and has gradually lost the desire to live and turned into a walking dead.

This is Chu Qing's understanding of patients with depression...

"Boring? Qingzi... how can you think like this." Chu Qing's acting skills are very good, at least when Chu Qing opened his eyes again, Su Yurou was infected by Chu Qing's sense of despair, she asked subconsciously.

"Every day when I open my eyes, I see the same things. Every day I have to show a fake smile. Every day I see people doing things that seem to be involuntary. Sometimes I want to be free and want to leave, but you don't care. No matter how far away you are, how strange a place you have been, everything you face is exactly the same without any difference... In this world, where does freedom come from?" Chu Qing's expression at this time barely showed a longing and hopeful expression, as if He is pursuing hope, but hope will never be seen.

Not only is there no hope, but even despair.

This sentence is the original sentence of Zhang Fa in "The Buddha". When Zhang Fa's depression gradually reached the advanced stage, Zhang Fa had thought of leaving this world more than once. Chu Qing felt that this sentence was very suitable.

At this time, Chu Qing's whole temperament has completely turned into a dejected look.

"You... Qingzi, it's not like this, we should be happy... each of us should be happy."

"Happy? But, where does happiness come from? I'm not happy..." When Chu Qing looked at Su Yurou again, there were bursts of gray in Chu Qing's eyes, and the corners of his mouth slightly revealed sneer.

In theory, there are two types of depression, one is depression that fails at everything, and the other is depression that feels that life is not fun.

Chu Qing chose the latter.

He tries to play the role...

"At least...we have a future...at least...we can, we can have a lot of babies, and then raise them and watch them grow up slowly!" This is the contradiction between sickness and depression patients, depression A sick patient is always full of despair, but a sick patient is always full of delusions and hope. Seeing Chu Qing's despair, Su Yurou felt a little anxious.

She didn't agree with Chu Qing's words, very much!

So she started to refute Chu Qing in turn, and even started to give examples of various hopeful things in life...

She was completely substituted into the role by Chu Qing's performance!
She has completely believed that the sense of despair deep in Chu Qing's heart is not a fake but a true portrayal of her heart...

"But... I don't want to live like this. It makes me... very unfree. I'm actually very unhappy in whatever I do..." Chu Qing lowered her head after observing Su Yurou's expression. no spirit.

"Qingzi, don't be like this, okay? Didn't you say that my cooking skills are very good? In the future, I can help you cook a lot of delicious food. I promise that the taste of the food will be different every day. I will accompany you to do whatever you want. What are you doing, okay, how wonderful it is to live, we will be very happy, I promise, don't think about other messy things, okay?" Su Yurou began to panic, she took Chu Qing's hand and shook it slowly with.

She began to fear that Chu Qing would suddenly lose his mind.

"Hehe." Chu Qing chuckled, a little hollow, then subconsciously looked at the sky...

He condensed all the negative emotions and low emotions in his body onto his face, but instead of venting them, he suppressed them.

This depressive emotion infected Su Yurou even more, and even caused Su Yurou to have the illusion that Chu Qing was about to leave this world.

A precursor to suicide?

Su Yurou also wanted to persuade Chu Qing.

However, how to persuade?
Su Yurou opened her mouth, but she couldn't say anything. She didn't know why she felt that no matter how she comforted or told Chu Qing now, it didn't make any sense.

Qingzi seems to have no intention of living anymore.

Chu Qing's expression made Su Yurou very heartbroken.

She saw Chu Qing close her eyes again.

"Actually, I've been pretending to live a positive life. I've been trying to behave like a normal person. I've been hiding my deepest thoughts...but I... really hate this world." Chu Qing squatted down, lowered his head slowly, and when he lowered to a certain level, he raised his head again with a long sigh.

His expression was indeed lifeless.

It is actually very difficult for a person who is originally very positive to suddenly let him act as a person in despair, just as you make him look positive when he is in despair. The two auras are completely opposite and it is difficult to control.

In fact, Chu Qing was beginning to find it difficult to control his pessimistic emotions, so he chose to lower his head to cover up the blemishes on his expression...

"Qingzi... I know you are suffering, you are suffering, I will not let you suffer so much in the future, okay, can you trust me once? I can really guarantee it." Su Yurou also squatted down with Chu Qing.

Chu Qing was silent, he didn't move or say a word, as if he couldn't hear anything.

Patients with severe depression should be unable to listen to what others say, and no matter what others say, they cannot dispel the depression in their hearts.

Everything went smoothly, like the scripted dialogue lined up in The Buddha.

The only regret is that the sun is shining brightly, not the scene after the sunset in the pagoda, which lacks a little sense of the scene, but Chu Qing feels that her exaggeration has begun to make sense.

Of course, in the following performance Chu Qing felt that she had to do her best, even if she used too much force.

"Qingzi...Qingzi...you...what's the matter?"

When Chu Qing bowed his head, he was actually brewing an explosive emotion. At this moment, he was really caught in that desperate situation.

"I am very good."

Chu Qing opened his eyes.

The pupils were bloodshot, but the expression on his face was a forced smile, but this kind of smile was quite forced no matter how you looked at it, and it was no longer as rosy as a normal person but pale.

"You..." Su Yurou was taken aback by Chu Qing's expression, even a fool would know that Chu Qing was quite desperate deep inside.

"Would you please leave me alone?"

"I'll accompany you..."

"No, let me stay alone for a while, I promise you, I will come back later, and even if I want to run, I can't run away from you, can't I?" Chu Qing turned her head.

Nonsense, how can I run if you accompany me?
The weather on the mountain is very cold, so cold that it makes people shiver.

"That……"

"I'm hungry, can you go back and make me something to eat now?" Chu Qing still had that expression, but there was a little hope in his expression, yes, he began to feel hope.

This sense of hope created an illusion for Su Yurou, as if only what Su Yurou made was the source of Chu Qing's hope.

At this moment, Su Yurou's mind went blank.

Qingzi wants my cooking, he wants to eat my cooking!

"Then, Qingzi, you...promise me, don't get overwhelmed, okay?" Perhaps it was because of Chu Qing's series of excessive forceful performances before that Su Yurou's worry about Chu Qing's escape changed into Chu Qing's mentality of not being able to survive. So when Su Yurou stood up, she looked at Chu Qing very worriedly.

"I... hey..." Chu Qing struggled again and let out a long sigh, "I won't do it for now, my mind is messed up now, and I really want to be alone."

"Well, okay, but...you promise me not to get overwhelmed, I'll cook for you right now, just wait for me." Su Yurou really stood up and walked towards the house.

"Well, okay, I'm fine..."

Chu Qing lowered her head and did not answer Su Yurou's words, as if she continued to immerse herself in her own world.

Su Yurou was very worried about Chu Qing, more worried about Chu Qing than ever, she turned her head from time to time, only to see that Chu Qing was still sitting there motionless...

The wind was blowing on his cheeks, making him feel a little bit bleak...

Su Yurou gritted her teeth and left...

Just when Chu Qing could no longer see Su Yurou, he stood up abruptly, the sluggish expression just now was completely gone, and he rushed down the mountain immediately.

When will you not run at this time?

After returning to the house, Su Yurou started cooking, but when the fire started, Su Yurou faintly felt that something was wrong.

Yes, what is wrong?
Everything is normal, isn't it?

Su Yurou continued to wash the rice and cook, but after the rice was put into the pot, Su Yurou felt excited all over!
It's only morning, and there are still a few hours before lunch, what do you cook for yourself!And how could Qingzi who just had breakfast be hungry?Not a big eater!
cheated!
Su Yurou quickly took out her phone.

The red dot in the phone has gone very far!
"Qingzi, you lied to me again, you big liar!" Su Yurou slammed the pot on the ground and rushed out of the room.

This time the time span is a bit longer...

A few minutes later, Chu Qing saw Su Yurou rushing towards him again...

He knew that if Su Yurou caught him again this time, he probably would not have any chance to escape.

Never get caught!
At this moment, Chu Qing saw a police station.

Although it was the second day of the Lunar New Year, there were people on duty in the bureau.

Chu Qing rushed in.

"I want to report the crime!" At this moment, Chu Qing yelled at the front desk in the bureau.

"What's wrong?" Seeing Chu Qing's expression, the receptionist stood up in shock!
"I'm Chu Qing, I've been kidnapped!" Panting, Chu Qing grabbed the hand of the front desk, as if she had caught a savior.

The front desk stares.

At this time, Su Yurou also rushed to the bureau, seeing the bureau, Su Yurou's eyes froze slightly.

She suddenly realized that something was wrong!
Qingzi actually rushed into the police station...

(End of this chapter)