I really don't want to be a doctor

Chapter 5 Tears and Rain

Jing Xiaoran kept recalling her past life and all kinds of things in her mind, some were sweet, some were sad, but more of them were pain and helplessness.

Xia Shan, a beautiful and generous girl, was Jing Xiaoran's deskmate in junior high school, and they had been together since high school.

The concept of "class belle" or "school belle" is not popular in county middle schools. If there is, then Xia Shan must be on the list. In this student era when love was not recognized, the relationship between the two lasted for three full years.

Xia Shan's academic performance is very good, and she was admitted to the most famous key university in the province, and it is one of the top three universities in China.Because of Jing Xiaoran's part-time job all year round and the need to take care of Xiaoxiao, his academic performance is only at the middle level, and his college entrance examination score just exceeded the score line of the second school.

The two chose to break up after the college entrance examination. During that time, Jing Xiaoran fell into uncontrollable grief. He still called Xia Shan every day, begging her and begging him, hoping that she would change her mind.

Xia Shan didn't answer the phone, so he ran to her home to look for her, but her parents told them that the time was wrong, one was a top student in a famous university with good family conditions, and the other was a poor boy who didn't enter a medical school, and they were doomed. impossible.

If so, Jing Xiaoran's business will give up.Only one day during the summer vacation of her junior year, Xia Shan found her and hoped to get back together.

Jing Xiaoran was ecstatic, and agreed without hesitation.

The two of them rubbed each other's ears, and on a dark and stormy night, Jing Xiaoran had sex with her.It was the first time for Jing Xiaoran, but not for Xia Shan.

Jing Xiaoran didn't feel anything, only knew that since this was the case, he had to shoulder the responsibility of a man.He studied hard and worked hard to get admitted to the most famous medical school in China as a graduate student, hoping to give Xia Shan a bright future.

But at this moment, Xia Shan broke up again and disappeared.Jing Xiaoran looked for her all over the world, but couldn't find her. He even almost lost the chance to go to graduate school, but he returned in vain.

When they met again, what Jing Xiaoran received was a wedding invitation.He had already graduated with a Ph.D. and became a small doctor in the emergency department.She came back from abroad and brought back a handsome and wealthy foreign husband.

On the day of the wedding, Jing Xiaoran was drunk, watching the two people on the wedding stage kissing and swearing to be husband and wife, tears streaming down his face, he couldn't ask any more questions about why Xia Shan disappeared that year.

Xia Shan gave him hope and shattered his hope.

This is the story of Jing Xiaoran and Xia Shan in the previous life.

The rain outside the window was getting heavier and heavier, and the memory of the previous life became clearer and clearer. The tears in the corners of Jing Xiaoran's eyes could not help but flow out.

"Brother..." At some point, Xiaoxiao ran to his side, without saying a word, just hugged him gently.

Jing Xiaoran wiped away tears, said with a smile: "Brother is fine, but sand got into his eyes."

Xiaoxiao buried her head in Jing Xiaoran's arms, and said in a weak voice, "Brother, how could you come up with such a reason for leaving your feet..."

Jing Xiaoran: "..."

Xiaoxiao: "Brother, you can cry if you want, just like in the morning."

"When I cried before, you hugged me, now you cry, and I hug you too."

While talking, Xiaoxiao's voice was full of tears, Jing Xiaoran quickly hugged her up, her little red face was quietly covered with tears.

Jing Xiaoran felt pain in his heart, and gently wiped away her tears: "Xiaoxiao, why are you crying?"

Xiaoxiao choked: "Then why is brother crying?"

Jing Xiaoran was silent, and he gently wiped away Xiaoxiao's tears.

"Brother, I don't want you to cry."

"Brother, you are the most powerful brother,"

"Brother, no matter what, you still have me, I am brother's sister."

"Sister..." Listening to Xiaoxiao's immature words, Jing Xiaoran recalled the scene after she broke up with her in her previous life. Xiaoxiao made herself happy every day and comforted herself to get out of the predicament. During this period, Xiaoxiao even had an illness once.

Looking at Xiaoxiao's cute and innocent face, Jing Xiaoran suddenly felt relieved.

Yes, if you missed it in the previous life, you will miss it, grasp this life, grasp the present, grasp every moment of the moment.

"Xiaoxiao, brother promise, I won't cry anymore." Jing Xiaoran smiled, then stretched out a little finger, "Let's pull the hook."

"Yeah." Xiaoxiao quickly stretched out her little finger.

"Hanging on the hook..."

"No change for 100 years!"

"What if it changes?" Xiaoxiao pouted and looked at Jing Xiaoran, obviously she didn't believe her brother.

"You can do whatever you say." Jing Xiaoran said.

"That's good." Xiaoxiao tilted her head and bit her fingers, as if she was making a difficult decision, "I want to eat a lot of cones!"

Xiaoxiao opened her hands in an embrace position.

Jing Xiaoran couldn't help but laugh.

The hour hand of the clock on the wall stopped at five o'clock, and there was only one hour left before the appointed time.

"It's raining a lot today."

The door opened, and Jing's father and Jing's mother met and returned.

Looking at the old faces of his parents, Jing Xiaoran's nose was slightly sore. It's really embarrassing for them to work hard all these years.

"Parents are back~" Xiaoxiao jumped up happily, as if she had forgotten the crying just now.

"Mom, did you bring me something delicious?"

Mother Jing laughed out of love, raised her hand slightly to pat her on the head: "You little girl knows how to eat, what did you eat with your brother at noon?"

Xiaoxiao giggled, and immediately jumped away: "This is a secret between me and my brother, don't tell my parents." After she finished speaking, she blinked at Jing Xiaoran.

Jing Xiaoran smiled and nodded cooperatively: "Mom and Dad, I have to go out later, you can eat first at night, don't wait for me."

"Do you have any money?" Father Jing asked.

"Don't worry, Dad." Jing Xiaoran said.

Jing's mother handed Jing Xiaoran an umbrella: "Then you come back earlier, I'll leave some food for you."

Jing Xiaoran nodded, and went out with an umbrella.

"The old place she mentioned should be there." Jing Xiaoran held an umbrella and walked slowly under the heavy rain, trying to avoid puddles on the road.

Jing Xiaoran and Xia Shan began to fall in love in high school, but the high school campus is not allowed to fall in love, so the two often meet in the gazebo in a small forest behind the school.

Although the college entrance examination has just been completed, students of other grades on campus are still in class.

"Student, which class are you in? It's time for evening self-study, why are you still wandering outside?"

In less than 10 minutes, Jing Xiaoran arrived at the gate of the school. Just as he was about to go in, the guard stopped Jing Xiaoran.

"Master, I just finished the college entrance examination in the third grade of high school. I left some things in the classroom. I want to go back and get them." Jing Xiaoran took out his student ID card and handed it to the guard.

The doorman didn't answer, he waved his hand and said, "Okay, go back quickly, it's raining heavily tonight, be careful of the puddles on the road."

"Thank you, sir." Jing Xiaoran thanked him, then walked to the place in his memory.

Along the way, familiar teaching buildings and playgrounds slowly appeared in Jing Xiaoran's eyes, probably because of the heavy rain or late self-study, there was no one on campus.

Jing Xiaoran quickly found the gazebo on the back mountain. The gazebo formed a natural barrier under the torrential rain, and a wild cat who didn't know where it came from shivered and curled up in the gazebo.

The gazebo is not big, and it’s a bit worn out. Most of the red paint on the gazebo has peeled off. There are still some discarded food wrappers on the tables and chairs in the middle. It seems that many students come here to eat and rest.

Jing Xiaoran walked into the gazebo, put the umbrella aside, the little wild cat stood up in fright, and quickly rushed to a corner of the gazebo.

The torrential rain continued to wash the muddy ground mercilessly, the dryness and heat in the air had already been dispelled, and the slight coolness made people feel refreshed.

pop... pop... pop...

The sound of rainstorm and footsteps mixed together, Jing Xiaoran saw the figure in his previous life that haunted him as soon as he turned his head.

Xia Shan was holding a black umbrella, her long hair was draped over her waist and shoulders, and she was wearing a pair of translucent sandals. The pleated skirt was stained with a lot of rain, forming water marks.

She walked into the gazebo slowly, put away her umbrella, and revealed a pure face.

"Here we come." Xia Shan said softly, she looked at Jing Xiaoran with nothing in her eyes.

"It's raining so heavily, what can we talk about on the phone?" Jing Xiaoran said, he quietly looked at Xia Shan, at the pure and beautiful girl in front of him, at the girl who made him feel so much pain .

Xia Shan caressed her slightly damp hair, her eyes no longer looked at Jing Xiaoran, but looked at the sky in the rainstorm.

"Xiao Ran, don't you know what I want to say?" Xia Shan's tone was flat.

"I know." Jing Xiaoran said with a smile, but the smile was so unnatural.

Silence, both of them were silent, except for the sound of the rainstorm hitting the roof in the gazebo, the only thing left was the moaning of the little wild cat from time to time.

Xia Shan noticed the little wild cat and walked towards it slowly.The little wild cat didn't seem to be afraid of Xia Shan, and kept rubbing against her palm, sticking out its tongue and licking lightly.

"Jing Xiaoran, let's break up." Xia Shan squatted on the ground with her back to Jing Xiaoran, although her voice was small, it still reached his ears clearly.

Jing Xiaoran looked up at the rainy sky, where a bolt of lightning flashed suddenly.

"En." When the word came out, the pain and unwillingness in Jing Xiaoran's heart suddenly dissipated, dissipating in the vast rainy night.

Suddenly there was a thunder in the sky, and the little wild cat shrank into a ball in fear.

Xia Shan looked back at Jing Xiaoran in surprise, she didn't feel sad, didn't refuse, and didn't plead.

She stood up, and the little wild cat was still shivering and curled up at her feet.

"Xiao Ran, you have changed." Xia Shan's bright eyes seemed to be covered with mist.

"Xia Shan, haven't you changed?" Jing Xiaoran didn't look at her.

There was a thunderstorm outside the gazebo, and the two stood facing each other inside the gazebo.

"I'm leaving." Xia Shan opened the umbrella and walked out of the gazebo without any hesitation.

Looking at her leaving back, Jing Xiaoran slowly shed a tear from the corner of his eyes.

No, it might as well be rainwater.

(End of this chapter)