my rude female boss

Chapter 1930 I used to love you the most
As soon as Shen Yan finished speaking, she first walked forward by herself.

Looking at the figure of Shen Yan leaving in front of me, I was also startled.

It's such a time, what else do you want to say to me?I don't know, I really don't know, and I can't guess what Shen Yan is thinking at this moment.

To follow, or not to go?

My heart is tangled and hesitating at this time.

However, I only hesitated for a few seconds.

If I don't go there now, maybe, if I want to see Shen Yan again in the future, if I want to meet her again in the future, it may be impossible to have a meal with her like this.What's more, now it's just me and Shen Yan who are alone?
Perhaps, this is really what Shen Yan said just now, this is the last lunch for the two of us together.

Shen Yan just walked away, and soon, I also followed.When we first came here, it was a coincidence that when Shen Yan asked if there were any boxes, one was actually vacant.

Shen Yan eats in the restaurant here, and most of the people here know Shen Yan and know her status in our company. Therefore, once she comes, and there is a private room, the manager of the lobby has nothing to say, just directly It was arranged for us.

Shen Yan entered the box first, and then I followed.

As soon as I entered, I felt a little uncomfortable on my forehead.

As soon as Shen Yan entered, she sat down directly without looking at me.

As soon as Shen Yan sat down here, I felt a little embarrassed on my side.

what should I do?
Do I continue to sit down with the past, or just stand like this?

Am I sitting across from her, next to her, or beside her?

I was having headaches in my head right now, and I couldn't figure out why.

Just when I thought of this, Shen Yan's eyes turned to me soon.

As soon as her eyes fell on me, it seemed that at this moment, I didn't hesitate anymore and sat directly opposite her.

In this way, it may be the most suitable position.

As soon as she sat down, the waiter came over, and Shen Yan ordered what she wanted to eat first.

However, what Shen Yan ordered was actually not her favorite food on weekdays, at least, in my impression, it was not her favorite food.

Regardless of these, even if I had a slight doubt, I didn't say it out loud.

After a while, after Shen Yan ordered lunch first, she handed over the menu to me. I had already eaten lunch, so I said no, these are enough.

The two of us couldn't finish what Shen Yan ordered just now, why do we need to order more?
What's more, I really don't have the mood to come to An Mi to eat again in this regard.

After handing over the menu to the waiter, I turned my gaze to Shen Yan in front of me again. I was a little afraid just now, but now, I am not so afraid to meet her eyes.

Maybe, I have nothing to be afraid of.

I just looked at Shen Yan, and at the same time, she also looked at me.

Now, there is a little embarrassment between the two of us.

What's the situation?
I don't understand the situation at all now, Shen Yan is looking for me now, what could be the matter?

Looking at Shen Yan in front of me, I really don't understand the current situation at all, I don't know what I should say at this time, maybe, I don't know whether I should speak or not.Just like that, looking at Shen Yan, after a while, I didn't speak, but Shen Yan spoke first.

"Are you really planning to leave?" Shen Yan asked again.

Before I spoke, I was looking forward to it, and I also had a little bit of thought. Perhaps, Shen Yan asked me to come here at this time, and she also wanted to explain to me.

Even if there is no explanation, you can even apologize to me.

Maybe, maybe...

Maybe I will not be so persistent, I will turn around?
But now, when Shen Yan speaks again, her voice is still cold and arrogant. Now, my heart is even colder.

Hehe, I am really naive and ridiculous enough.

What time is it?

I'm still naively fantasizing about it!

I really have enough idiots!

"Since there is no reason to stay here any longer, why should I stay here any longer?" I replied, my heart was cold, and my words were also very flat.

"You should know that if I become the general manager of the Yunhai region, the position of creative director is likely to be yours." Shen Yan said again.

"Ha ha……"

I laughed.

I smiled helplessly, looking at Shen Yan, I didn't hide my smile at all.

When I smiled, Shen Yan frowned.

"What are you laughing at?" Shen Yan asked again.

"Shen Yan, do you think I really care about the position of creative director?" I asked back.

While asking back, my eyes kept looking at Shen Yan. I don't know what kind of expression I have at this time, I'm afraid it's sad.

If I could see it, I don't know if I would sympathize with myself at this time and feel pitiful.

Maybe it's poor.

When I just said this, Shen Yan frowned, her lips moved a few times, as if she wanted to say something, but she didn't say anything.

"You think, I have worked so hard for such a long time, and I have taken such a big risk in Hong Kong. I have such an enemy with the Yang family, and I have worked so hard for such a long time, just to let myself Is life better?" I asked back.

After I finished speaking, I tilted my head and opened my mouth.

I wanted to laugh, but found that I didn't make a sound.

I don't know what's wrong with me, originally I told Bai Lulu all the thoughts in my heart, the grievance in my heart, and the helplessness in my heart.

But now, Shen Yan just said a casual sentence, just a very ordinary and plain sentence, but it touched my heart all at once.

It seems that all my efforts, in Shen Yan's eyes, are not worth mentioning at all.

It seems that everything about me is completely invisible in her eyes.

That being the case, I worked so hard, I was so crazy, what was the reason for my previous adventures?But today, everything about me, everything about me, is just a joke, just a joke!

Ridiculous, really ridiculous!
I wanted to laugh, but when I raised my head, I couldn't make a sound.

Now I am like a drunk person who looks up and wants to drink, but there is no alcohol.Want to laugh, but silent, inner turmoil.

I just want to cry now.

He raised his head and kept his tears from flowing.

In front of Shen Yan, I was too humble, I was humbled too many times, for loving her, I was humbled too many times.

Now, as I prepare to leave, I just want to leave myself with a little bit of dignity.

In front of her, I must not cry!
No, even if I get out of this box and cry to death on the road, I must never cry in front of her.

I'm sorry for Shen Yan, I know I'm sorry for her.

But now, I don't think it really matters.

I really don't care.

What can there be?
My efforts are not worth mentioning in her eyes, she doesn't know about me at all, so why should I be sad, what more sad should I have!
Slowly put away his head, and then looked at Shen Yan in front of him.

There was a smile on my face, and my smile must be very ugly now.

But right now, it's my best effort.

This is my kindest expression, and it is also the expression I can make, although it can't hide my mood, it can't hide my sadness.

Shen Yan's gaze is on me, and her gaze obviously has a different color, but now, I really can't control so much.

"Shen Yan, I used to love you, and I used to love you the most! The person I want to be with the most in my life is also you! It's just that when I knew it was impossible, I just wanted to help you out of the predicament, but now , I know, these are just my own fantasies! I loved you, and now, thank you, thank you for letting me go, let me forget you! I don't love you anymore, I want to leave you, I want to start my new life! Starting today, there will be no more you in my world, and I will not dangle around in your world!"

Speaking of this, I swallowed my tears, slammed the door and walked out of Shen Yan's room.

As soon as I went out, I went straight into the toilet, lay on the toilet bowl, and cried loudly.

(End of this chapter)