Father's Land Mother's River

Chapter 160 Looking Back Again

When Liu Xiaonan knocked on the door of Dong Xiaojun's house, Dong Xiaojun was waiting for him at home.There is no need to hide it, Liu Xiaonan cut to the chase: "You and Xiaoyun are really at an irretrievable point? Should we reconsider calmly?"

"I have already considered it mature." Dong Xiaojun replied calmly and simply: "It's not that we have no feelings at all, but it is difficult for us to live together. I filed for divorce not because she wanted to go abroad to work, but because I put up with her a lot Years, I don't want to bear it any longer."

Liu Xiaonan listened harshly, and felt very uncomfortable.Xiaoyun doesn't remember the hard work she has done for your family, but her eyes are only on her shortcomings.

He restrained his emotions, and said softly and firmly: "Last time when you quarreled and you hit her, I didn't tell you a word, but I went back and criticized Xiaoyun severely with your sister-in-law. I don't understand , What point does Xiaoyun need you to endure?"

Dong Xiaojun looked embarrassed, and said sadly: "Xiaonan, I know you are doing it for our own good. I also know that Guan Xiaoyun is impeccable and almost perfect in your eyes. I only want to say one thing, if This matter happened to you, if you don't mind, if you can bear it, then everything is my fault. Guan Xiaoyun has been comparing me with other men, and keeps saying how other men are. I don't have the men from other families who can make money, I don't have the men from other families who can do great things, and I don't have the men from other families who care about my wife. In a word, in her eyes, I have nothing to compare with the men from other families. I live in the shadow of men from other people's families all day long, and I don't have any personal dignity. Although I don't want to divorce her, she forced me to take this step."

Guan Xiaoyun's men from other people's families probably included himself.

Liu Xiaonan felt a little sad, Guan Xiaoyun shouldn't have said such stupid things in family life, ignoring strengths and magnifying weaknesses, why is she so unwise?

Everyone is unique. Comparing other men with your own is like comparing other people's children with your own. This is a big taboo.

"If what you say is true, I have nothing to say," he said.

Dong Xiaojun couldn't control the suppressed anger, so he simply said everything: "Guan Xiaoyun usually envies two kinds of women, one is the woman who doesn't have to work, eats, drinks and has no worries and is superior, and the other is the woman who is out of the way and still treats men as treasures. To put it bluntly, she always felt that she was in the body of a lady, but lived the life of a maid. I couldn't meet her requirements, so I gave her freedom and let her live the life she wanted."

All of this, I'm afraid I can't get rid of it.Liu Xiaonan didn't want to say anything, didn't want to belittle Guan Xiaoyun.If you leave, you will leave, Guan Xiaoyun can live a good life without anyone, and you don't have to beg others in a low voice.

After leaving Dong Xiaojun's house, Liu Xiaonan drove to his alma mater to find Meng Xiangxiang, and briefly explained to her the result of the conversation with Dong Xiaojun.

Meng Xiangxiang didn't comment on Guan Xiaoyun, she asked Liu Xiaonan: "What are your plans?"

Liu Xiaonan said: "You try to persuade Guan Xiaoyun to give up the idea of ​​going abroad for labor. How easy is it for a single woman to go abroad to work? I have to discuss with you in advance. If she wants to do something by herself, we should help her tide over the difficulties." .”

Meng Xiangxiang said: "It's right to help Xiaoyun. You can arrange it however you want. It's just that I may not be strong enough to persuade her. It's better for you to come forward in person."

Liu Xiaonan said: "When Guan Xiaoyun has made up his mind, it is very difficult for others to make him change. Let's let nature take its course and do our best."

Meng Xiangxiang comforted: "Don't be too anxious, no one can say for sure what will happen to them in the future."

After leaving Meng Xiangxiang, Liu Xiaonan drove to the labor agency that Guan Xiaoyun mentioned, and found Guan Xiaoyun who was going abroad for training.

The two stood in the corridor talking, Liu Xiaonan said to Guan Xiaoyun: "I have discussed with your sister-in-law, as long as you give up the idea of ​​going abroad to work, and you want to do something yourself, we will fully support you."

Guan Xiaoyun didn't appreciate it: "What did you go out to do this early in the morning? Did you touch your nose? I told you earlier that I make decisions about my own affairs, so don't blindly participate, okay?"

Liu Xiaonan said: "Can I ignore your affairs? This is what I think. I have a store whose rent is coming up soon. If you take over the sale of a clothing department store or something, it will be better than your labor service abroad. Or it will come to me. Farm, help me with daily chores, receive someone or something."

"Being your little secretary?" Guan Xiaoyun said disdainfully: "Let your Meng Xiangxiang be suspicious all day long and disturb your relationship? Forget it! I will go out by myself and rely on no one. the day I want."

Liu Xiaonan said: "Meng Xiangxiang is not the kind of person you imagined, and no one can disturb our relationship."

Guan Xiaoyun pushed Liu Xiaonan: "I appreciate the kindness of both of you. You don't have to worry about it anymore, just go about your business, I still have to go to class."

Liu Xiaonan gave up the idea of ​​further persuading Guan Xiaoyun.Everyone has their own way of life, no one can replace another, and no one can forcibly interfere with other people's choices.

He went back to the farm and sat in his office sulking.Guan Xiaoyun has come to this day, he feels that he has an inescapable responsibility.

What a happy girl Guan Xiaoyun used to be, she was tall and strong like a young white poplar growing freely by the river.She made Chinese tunic suits and big pants for him, and she once wanted to support him by herself and let him study with peace of mind.

They were engaged by their parents, and the reason why they finally chose Meng Xiangxiang was because they found Guan Xiaoyun's shadow in her.

He even wondered what kind of life he and Guan Xiaoyun would have lived if the textile factory did not go to the countryside to recruit workers, and he took over his father's shift to work as a miner in the mine.

He squatted on the concrete floor, dipped a brush in water to write, and slowly drove away some miscellaneous thoughts in his mind.It is not impossible to go abroad to work. With his ability, Guan Xiaoyun might be able to break out into another world.

Guan Xiaoyun was still doing well, and he came out of the shadow of divorce in a few days, and his inner strength was far beyond Liu Xiaonan and Meng Xiangxiang's imagination.Every night when I came home, I would help Meng Xiangxiang make dinner and take care of the two children.

After dinner, he followed Meng Xiangxiang to learn English, starting from the simplest basic conversations, and studying until midnight, which was a lot of effort.

As long as there are no major problems in the farm, Liu Xiaonan will go home early, as if the focus of work has shifted to home.

In fact, it is true. My sister-in-law teaches English, and he wants to take the child out to play, play games with the child, tell stories to the child, and take a bath.After the two children fell asleep, they had to serve tea and water to the two women.

More than a month has passed, and after Meng Xiangxiang's cramming, Guan Xiaoyun has basically mastered some basic English conversations, and the more he learns, the more fluent he is.She joked with Liu Xiaonan and Meng Xiangxiang by herself, and spoke English in her dreams at night. After working so hard while studying, she was admitted to university early.

Only then did she go back to Liuzi Street and tell her parents about her divorce.

Guan Deyu called Liu Xiaonan and asked for details.Liu Xiaonan told the third uncle truthfully what she had learned, emphatically explaining that Guan Xiaoyun was indeed at fault first, and Dong Xiaojun was largely to blame for their divorce.

He reassured third uncle that he and Meng Xiangxiang would take good care of Guan Xiaoyun.

What Liu Xiaonan didn't expect was that another person's experience also affected his heart.

After dinner that day, he was about to take his two children out to play, when Wang Aiqing came to the door and blocked him at home, saying that he had something to tell him.He asked the two children to go back to the room to play, and let Wang Aiqing into the living room.

Meng Xiangxiang, Guan Xiaoyun put down his book and greeted Wang Aiqing.Wang Aiqing already knew about the divorce between Guan Xiaoyun and Dong Xiaojun. She didn't care about complaining about Guan Xiaoyun, so she sat down and said to Liu Xiaonan: "Xiaonan, we have known each other for so many years. Sister Wang has never asked you to do anything. Today, Sister Wang I'm asking you for one thing, and you must agree."

Liu Xiaonan said, "Master Wang, why are you so serious? What's between you and your brother is my business."

"It's not about me and your elder brother." Wang Aiqing held Liu Xiaonan's hand firmly and said, "Xiaonan, please help Wu Yanli. Only you are capable enough to help her."

Guan Xiaoyun asked: "What happened to my master?"

"You don't make people worry." Wang Aiqing took the opportunity to choke Guan Xiaoyun, and she said to Liu Xiaonan: "Today, I went to a warehouse with your elder brother to pick up goods, and saw Wu Yanli cleaning there, dirty and tired. I asked Why doesn't she find some other light work to do? She said that there is no time limit for cleaning in the warehouse, and she can only take care of the children by doing half a day's work. Half a month ago, he committed suicide by jumping down a chimney."

Exclaimed in unison!Wang Aiqing felt that Liu Xiaonan's hand was suddenly clenched, which made her hand hurt.

She said: "Xiaonan, I remember telling you before that there seemed to be something wrong with Wu Yanli's house. At that time, no one knew that it was her child's problem. She didn't show up even when you got married and moved. I don’t want to talk about the child with everyone. I forgot the name of her child’s disease. Anyway, she couldn’t walk and was paralyzed in bed. Her husband was also laid off this year. She was under too much mental pressure and suffered from severe depression, which is intermittent Mentally ill, climbed up the chimney in the factory and jumped down."

Wang Aiqing shed tears, and Guan Xiaoyun shed tears.

Liu Xiaonan stood up, walked to the French windows of the balcony, and looked at the sea reflected by the setting sun in the distance.The sea is calm and the waves are dancing with a little golden light. The tourists on the beach are walking leisurely, enjoying the quiet time before evening.

The world is so big, so big that a person's miserable fate is like a raindrop falling into the sea, which cannot stir up any ripples.

Meng Xiangxiang also shed tears. Although she was not familiar with Wu Yanli, what happened to her was really heartbreaking.

She knew that Wu Yanli must be someone related to Liu Xiaonan, so she walked over to Liu Xiaonan and said, "Xiaonan, promise Sister Wang that you will do your best to help those in need."

Liu Xiaonan nodded and said, "You have met Wu Yanli, I don't know if you have any impression. When Xiaoyun got married, you ate at the same table with her."

Meng Xiangxiang thought about it for a while and said, "I seem to have a little impression. Is it the female worker with eyes like a spring? She is very beautiful and happy."

Liu Xiaonan said: "Yes, it is her. She looks at the world with a pair of pure eyes, but the world rewards her with bad luck."

Meng Xiangxiang said, "Can I do something for her?"

Liu Xiaonan supported Meng Xiangxiang's shoulders with both hands, pushed her to sit next to Wang Aiqing and Guan Xiaoyun, walked into the bedroom by herself, and came out with a white mohair scarf and a gray sweetheart neck sweater in her hand.

He put these two things in front of Meng Xiangxiang, and said to her, "These two things were woven for me by Wu Yanli back then. Today, in front of Master Wang and Guan Xiaoyun, I must put this Let me tell you clearly."

Meng Xiangxiang understood everything immediately, and all the answers were in the book "Longitude and Latitude".

"Longitude and Latitude" is Liu Xiaonan's autobiographical novel. Every character in the book can find its shadow in reality, and the hero's first love corresponds to Wu Yanli in reality.

If the description in the book is accurate, the relationship between Xiaonan and Wu Yanli only stays in the hazy stage, and dies before they can say the word love.

Meng Xiangxiang lightly stroked the scarf and sweater, and said to Liu Xiaonan: "This is a commemoration of the most pure and simple emotion, and it is worth cherishing forever."

Guan Xiaoyun wiped away tears, and said to Meng Xiangxiang choked with sobs: "Sister-in-law, I was present when my master gave Xiaonan these two items, and I have the most right to speak. This scarf is for the two of them on the same machine When I was working, my master gave it to Xiaonan. At that time, Xiaonan was not yet famous, and she was not qualified to date a girl in the city openly. This sweater was given to me by my master when Xiaonan was in college. I handed it over to Xiaonan. At that time, my master was married, and she told me that Xiaonan was the pride of all of us. All she could do was knit a sweater for him, cheer him up for He is strong. In fact, Xiaonan and my master have nothing, and have never had a decent relationship at all."

Meng Xiangxiang said to Guan Xiaoyun: "You are wrong, this is the most beautiful and precious memory of youth in a person's life."

Wang Aiqing recalled the past: "At that time, Xiaonan, Yu Zhiyong and Xiaoyun had just entered the textile factory from the countryside, and Wu Yanli, Wang Ping, and Dong Xiaojun had just started working. I, an old educated youth, led a group of young and beautiful young men. Girl, we work together and laugh together, and we are happy every day. Xiaonan also wrote my story into a novel. When I think of those good times, I can’t help but cry.”

Guan Xiaoyun said: "Now it's the parents who are dead and the mother is married, and I only care about myself. What's the use of thinking about those things, I don't want to think about them."

Wang Aiqing scolded angrily: "If you say divorce at a young age, you will get divorced. Sooner or later, you will regret it. I don't bother to talk about you." , He took out the scarf and sweater to show you his openness and attitude. I believe that you will support him in helping Wu Yanli."

Meng Xiangxiang said: "Sister Wang doesn't know something. Xiaonan wants to build his farm into an ideal home, and I am also a member of this home."

Liu Xiaonan said to everyone: "After these two things came into my hands, I didn't wear them around once. I just kept them for preservation. I think that today, there is no need to keep them anymore. Xiaoyun , you tell me where the thread ends are, and I will dismantle these two things with my own hands."

"Don't!" Meng Xiangxiang pressed his hands on the scarf and sweater, looking at Liu Xiaonan: "You can't destroy your youthful memories with your own hands. On the contrary, you should wear them this winter, they will warm your heart, It will also warm another heart that has been torn by fate."

(End of this chapter)