Father's Land Mother's River

Chapter 65 Believe in Love
In the afternoon, Zhao Guangzhi, vice-chairman and deputy editor-in-chief of the Federation of Literary and Art Circles, presided over a seminar to discuss the direction and path of literary creation in combination with the influential works of several writers in the city.

Liu Xiaonan's novella "Congjun Ji" was also the main topic of this seminar because it was reprinted in many publications and had many review articles.

Several editors and writers spoke one after another, analyzing and commenting on the pros and cons of this novel from different angles, and giving Liu Xiaonan many pertinent opinions and suggestions.

Liu Xiaonan humbly jotted down every sentence in his notebook. He felt like a primary school student with too much to learn.But only a few novels have been published, so what is there to be proud of?

That night, Liu Xiaonan didn't write a word, met new friends, and listened to the conversations of editors and writers.A fresh air washed over his inner world, and the second dream that Gu Yu gave him was gradually abandoned in the back of his mind.

The next morning, Liu Xiaonan got up early for a walk, and met Yue Xuelian unexpectedly.Yue Xuelian asked him if he had any new ideas for the novel, and he said that he hadn't thought about it maturely.

Walked silently all the way, and unknowingly came to the small river outside the town.Liu Xiaonan squatted down, holding the river water in both hands to wash her face.Yue Xuelian said it was so dirty.

Liu Xiaonan stood up, wiped the drops of water from her face and said, "The river water is not dirty, people are dirty."

Yue Xuelian said: "My father said that he was full of bad habits and that you lacked the courage to criticize. If I provide you with material, would you dare to write about my parents truthfully?"

Liu Xiaonan looked at Yue Xuelian with deep surprise: "Why don't you write it yourself if you have the material?"

Yue Xuelian looked at the misty distance and said: "I can't write, my heart bleeds when I pick up a pen."

Liu Xiaonan was a little scared: "Isn't it good to pry into the privacy of the elders?"

As soon as the words fell, Yue Xuelian couldn't wait to say: "When I was young, my parents often quarreled. My father even beat my mother. The content of the quarrels was the same. It was nothing more than suspicion that my mother was not innocent outside. I was so scared that I had to watch. The faces of my parents speak. In fact, my parents love me very much, but I can’t feel happy. Later, I couldn’t see my father, and my mother said that my father went to work far away. I didn’t know until I grew up that my father was sent to I went to the Northwest for labor reform. I missed my father, but my mother took me to marry an old man. I thought my mother would wait for my father to come back."

Seeing blood every sentence, Liu Xiaonan interrupted Yue Xuelian: "Stop talking, I don't want to hear it."

Yue Xuelian continued: "So, I don't believe that your father and mother are innocent. Even if they were innocent, it was due to the pressure of the environment at the time. It was not because they didn't want to, but because they didn't dare. You wrote that they had pure emotions. Your imagination."

Liu Xiaonan was very puzzled: "Why did you tell me this?"

"I hate them!" Yue Xuelian yelled at Liu Xiaonan, a pair of small canine teeth gleamed coldly: "I was not happy when I was a child, and I was depressed when I was a teenager. The old man's children are all in the army, and they are all married. But guarding our mother and daughter like thieves, the old man’s salary is controlled by them, only living expenses. From time to time, he said some ugly words to threaten our mother and daughter. I locked myself in the room and studied hard , I don’t see anyone. When I was in high school, I moved into the house assigned to my mother by the hospital alone. I cooked and studied by myself. I have lived alone until now. I still dare not fall in love. I don’t believe in love. , full of fear of marriage.”

No wonder Mr. Yue said he was lucky, but he didn't realize how lucky he should be.A female college student, the proud child of heaven, stayed in school to teach, which made countless people envious.Who knew that she was under such a huge mental pressure, she looked cold and aloof on the surface, but she was extremely fragile and lonely inside, sentimental, no wonder she hardly heard her laughing.

Liu Xiaonan didn't know how to comfort Yue Xuelian, but he knew how to write a novel.He said to Yue Xuelian: "Our fathers have gone through too many hardships. Why bother to uncover their bloody scars? I just want to write about their beautiful side. I would rather let your father scold me for not having courage, and I would rather linger in literature forever." outside the gate."

Liu Xiaonan returned to the guest house, tore up the original manuscript without hesitation, spread out the manuscript paper, and neatly wrote the words "Father's Land, Mother's River" on the front page.He made an agreement with Yue Xuelian that after the entire manuscript was written, it would be handed over to her for "review".

However, after only one day, Yue Xuelian couldn't wait any longer. Since it was about the common parents, she should participate in it.She took back the draft written by Liu Xiaonan, and organized it for him while reading.She said it speeds up the writing process.

Liu Xiaonan started writing from the first accident that happened to her father.His mother took him, who had just turned one year old, to the mine to take care of his father. Seeing the barren land around the mine, barren hills without trees, and people around the mine having difficulty with water, she gave up the opportunity to end the separation with his father.

I would rather separate the two places, but also guard a river and the fertile land on both sides of the river.This leads to the story of the top three in the [-]nd high school entrance examination of No. [-] Middle School.

He wrote about how his father dropped out of school due to family changes, how he fled his hometown on a cold night, how he reunited with his old classmate Lin Yidan in the mine, and inserted into the relationship between Mr. Guan and his grandparents—he wanted Yue Xuelian to believe in love and love. The power and innocence of love is beautiful.

Yue Xuelian let the stone tablet left by Mr. Guan suppress his impetuous spirit, so why didn't that stone tablet suppress her father's heart?He wrote about how his father and Lin Yidan lived together for ten years. They abided by the moral bottom line, shouldered family responsibilities, raised their children, and went through the most difficult years hand in hand—he wanted Yue Xuelian to believe that there is true love in the world.

He wrote how Lin Yidan sacrificed himself and married an old man in the army for the sake of his daughter's future.

He wrote about how Mr. Yue went to jail, how he voluntarily filed for divorce in order to save his wife and daughter, how he tenaciously survived in the harsh environment and high-intensity labor reform, just to see his wife and daughter again; Interfering with the lives of his wife and daughter, he returned to his hometown to teach in a small town alone.

Fragments of these events were heard sporadically from the mouths of his father, mother, and Mr. Yue. He wrote in No.1 title, connecting these events from the perspective of "I".

Of course, his imagination and good wishes are also integrated into it.He had never met Lin Yidan before, so he used Yue Xuelian as the prototype to describe her mother, except that a pair of small canine teeth were hidden.

He wrote about the conflict between his father and "I", about how his father taught himself agricultural technology and scientific farming; "I" corrected the direction, how to encourage "I" to pursue love bravely.
The biggest advantage of PEN is the freedom of writing, abundant time, editors around, and the ability to ask for advice anytime, anywhere.As long as you spread out the manuscript paper, no one will bother you. When you are tired from writing, you can climb mountains, take a walk and soak in hot springs.

Liu Xiaonan was completely immersed in his own spiritual world. When the waiter in the guest house came in to bring boiling water for cleaning, he just stood up and moved his place.

Liu Xiaonan once heard two waiters discussing quietly in the corridor: These people, old and young, can spend all day writing on the table, and they are not too tired to panic.

He smiled silently. Most people live in the real world, but writers can transcend reality and create a spiritual world that belongs only to them.

Whenever I finish a piece of work, seeing the world made up of words in my mind is like holding a newborn baby in my arms. The sense of spiritual joy and achievement is difficult for those who have not been deeply involved in it. of.

Liu Xiaonan settled down, and spent three whole days writing more than 4 words eloquently. The progress was very fast, and it was at the final stage.

However, how to deal with the end of the novel, he had a difficult time.According to his original intention and the inevitable climax of the novel, "I" and Mr. Yue's "daughter" gradually understood the father's generation, and gradually developed feelings in the common love of literature.Their love blossomed and bore fruit, and healed the pain in the hearts of their parents.

Will Yue Xuelian be misunderstood by writing this way?If you don't write it like this, you won't be able to achieve the goal of curing diseases and saving lives.After much deliberation, Liu Xiaonan decided to follow her original intention and finish the ending first, and not reveal it to Yue Xuelian for the time being.

Yue Xuelian sorted out Liu Xiaonan's previous drafts, and marked her own revisions in brackets for his reference.But also provides an interesting detail.

When Liu Xiaonan's father and her mother were in school, they were nicknamed "a piece of loyalty" by their classmates.A few days ago, when she was chatting with her mother, she mentioned that Uncle Liu's son had published a relatively influential novel, and her mother inadvertently revealed it when she recalled the past.

Liu Xiaonan looked at the manuscript that Yue Xuelian compiled for him, and she admired it from the bottom of her heart.As expected of a graduate of the Chinese Department of the university, the handwriting is neat and clear, and the revision comments are clear and clear, just like the finishing touch.And made up for the flaws in his writing, and put on appropriate clothes for the characters in his works.

Happily, she has rewritten the image of the mother.She cared so much for her mother, showing that she didn't hate her parents much, and also understood and forgave her parents.

Liu Xiaonan raised her head from the manuscript paper and said, "If this novel can be published, just sign our names, and it will be considered as a joint completion."

Yue Xuelian warned: "I dare not steal the fruits of your labor. If you really do that, I will never talk to you in the future."

"Okay." Liu Xiaonan had to back down: "How do you write the ending? My brain froze."

"You don't know how to write?" Yue Xuelian didn't believe it at all: "Are you testing me, or are you afraid that I will see the end? If you are testing me, I think that according to the story and the direction of the characters, the two juniors in the novel You should understand your parents, and maybe even have feelings; if you are afraid of me or don’t want me to see the end of the novel, I think you wrote it like that.”

Very smart!Liu Xiaonan stopped hesitating and took out the draft of the ending of the novel.Yue Xuelian read in front of him, without any slight expression on her face, just like a teacher marking a student's composition.

Liu Xiaonan felt very at ease in her heart.What I have always wanted to say in my heart is that the truth of art is not equal to the truth of life, and the truth of life is not equal to the truth of art. It is purely fictional, please don’t take the number and other nonsense.

After reading it, Yue Xuelian pondered for a moment and said, "That's it, I have no objection to your writing like this."

Liu Xiaonan asked, "What did you see in this draft?"

Yue Xuelian said: "I saw sincerity again."

While the two were talking, Zhao Guangzhi knocked on the door and walked in. He sat down and said to Liu Xiaonan, "I've been reading your desk for the past few days, and I didn't come to disturb you. How's the progress?"

Liu Xiaonan handed over the draft and said, "I just finished the first draft."

Zhao Guangzhi took the manuscript and read a few pages, looked up at Liu Xiaonan meaningfully, then lowered his head again.Liu Xiaonan and Yue Xuelian sat aside and waited patiently.

Less than halfway through, Zhao Guangzhi put down the manuscript and said to Liu Xiaonan: "After reading the beginning, I was taken aback. I thought you were writing about a topic that few people have been involved in. Looking further down, it completely changed, but it was also very interesting." It is novel and profound, different from ordinary scar novels. Revise and transcribe it as soon as possible, I want this manuscript."

Liu Xiaonan asked: "In the beginning, what subject did I get involved in?"

Zhao Guangzhi said: "You have accidentally touched a major theme, that is, the relationship between man and nature. Human beings live on the earth, how to live in harmony with nature is the eternal topic that human beings should pay attention to. In the future, you Use your heart to write about the impact of the natural environment on human living conditions and spiritual realm.”

Zhao Guangzhi's words were completely incomprehensible to Liu Xiaonan at this time.However, he kept it in mind.

More than ten or twenty years later, when the phenomenon of nature's revenge against human beings such as sandstorms and smog frequently appeared in people's field of vision, when green mountains and green waters became the mainstream topic of general concern in society, he thought of Zhao The words of the teacher.

What is learning?Foresight and foresight to see everything is knowledge.Liu Xiaonan was deeply impressed.

Zhao Guangzhi joked with Liu Xiaonan: "The font of this manuscript seems familiar, and the comments are especially exquisite. It adds a lot of color to your novel, and it can be said to be a perfect match. Could it be that literature has built a bridge for you to write the essence of love?"

Yue Xuelian hurriedly explained: "Mr. Zhao, you misunderstood. Xiaonan's father and my parents were classmates. The characters in this novel are based on our common parents, so I participated in it."

Zhao Guangzhi laughed loudly: "So it is like this, rare, rare."

On the morning of the fourth day of the PEN meeting, Yue Xuelian had to go back early, the school still had a lot of business, and her tasks during the PEN meeting had been completed.

Liu Xiaonan sent her to the station. The past few days of getting along with each other gave him a better understanding of Yue Xuelian. He wished her secretly in his heart, hoping that she would be brave enough to find his true love.

The town's station is open-air, long-distance buses are parked there, the doors are open, and there are not many passengers.There was still a while before the departure, and the two stood beside the car chatting.

Yue Xuelian asked suddenly: "Brother, do you believe in love?"

Liu Xiaonan said: "I believe it. Gu Yu is not my first love. My first love is an ordinary female worker in a textile factory. She is pure and kind-hearted, and has an extraordinary sense of beauty. However, our love has not yet been spoken, but it has been revealed by reality. Ruthlessly strangled in the bud. We are still working in the same section. Whenever I see her, my heart hurts. My heart hurts, my heart really hurts, and I believe she feels pain too. She dedicated her first kiss to me, I put her in my heart, I really loved her, and I dare not forget."

Yue Xuelian was very puzzled: "Aren't you in love with Gu Yu? Can you have two girls in your heart at the same time?"

"I still pretend to be Guan Xiaoyun in my heart. After all, we had a marriage contract, and I also pretended to be you, my junior sister and Teacher Xiaoyue. There is no distinction between priority and inferiority. It's just that the responsibilities to bear are different. I don't think this is immoral. Gu Yu and I evolved from our childhood friendship to our current love, and there is still a deep trench between us. I still dare not say the word 'love'. I will try my best to fill this trench, When I am qualified to love, I will speak out."

Yue Xuelian looked into the distance and said casually: "Brother, if you didn't fall in love with Gu Yu at this time, would you love me?"

Liu Xiaonan looked at Yue Xuelian in embarrassment, not knowing how to answer.

"You're kidding." Yue Xuelian laughed softly, "You're so frightened that your face turned pale."

Liu Xiaonan was relieved, it was great that she could laugh out loud!
(End of this chapter)