Father's Land Mother's River
Chapter 81 Fog
Chapter 81 Fog
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Thick fog rose and gathered in the depths of the ocean, and under the cover of night, it silently hit the coast.
Li Qiuxia was looking down on a toothfish on the beach.The tooth piece fish weighed about two or three catties, and was stranded in a calf-deep puddle. The flat body of the fish was hidden under the sand, and only two small bulging eyes on one side were exposed to observe the movement.
When the glare of the accumulator lamp Li Qiuxia wore on her head shone on those two timid and vigilant eyes, she couldn't help laughing silently.
Tooth fish is a rare fish species. It has been rarely seen in recent years, and it can be sold for tens of dollars per catty.If you can catch this fish, tonight is not in vain.
She raised the harpoon in her hand high and inserted it forcefully, perhaps because she was too nervous and excited, the harpoon was inserted too far.The frightened toothfish jumped out suddenly, swam around in the puddle, muddied the water, and then hid again.
Li Qiuxia was a little annoyed at her miss, and stood there waiting for the sea to clear up, and continued to search for the toothfish. How could she easily give up on the prey she was about to get.
After catching this piece of tooth fish, I don't plan to sell it anymore. Why should good things go into other people's mouths, so it's time to reward myself and Wu Wendou.
Wu Wendou hasn't returned to his hometown for two years. Although he didn't say anything, everyone knows that he is taking care of himself and Yanzi.Will he go back this winter?He is good at everything, but he refuses to give a clear explanation, which makes people unable to understand his thoughts, and makes people feel empty and unsure.
The seawater in the puddle gradually became clear. Li Qiuxia held her breath and held her harpoon intently, searching around in the puddle. This time she must not miss again.
At this moment, she felt her face was wet, and the battery light suddenly became dim and blurry.She shivered violently all over her body, and hurriedly raised her head to look for the direction of the coast.
It's too late!The dense fog was like an impenetrable black curtain, which caught off guard and shrouded Li Qiuxia in the boundless darkness.You can't see the stars when you look up, and you can't see the lights on the shore when you look around. The bright lights of the battery lights with sufficient power, like fireflies in the fog, can only illuminate the place in front of your feet.
She lost her shores.
Losing the coast means being trapped in the sea, and if you can't walk to the coast before the high tide, you will be swallowed by the sea.She was flustered suddenly, a layer of cold sweat permeated her body, and she ran around aimlessly on the beach, relying on her memory to find the direction of the coast.
People who live by the sea are most afraid of wind and fog.Ten years ago, Li Qiuxia married in this small fishing village, and she didn't understand Dahai's temper, nor did she know the risks faced by those who go out to sea.All she knew was that the people in the fishing village were rich, and eating seafood was as convenient as eating tortillas.
When I was in junior high school, good classmates exchanged food with each other.A classmate who lives by the sea often brings clam meat with stir-fried leeks or clam meat with scrambled eggs for lunch. The delicious taste is something she can’t forget for a long time, and it’s for this reason that she wants to marry into a fishing village by the sea. .
She got her wish, her husband Haisheng owns a fishing boat, and she can eat all kinds of seafood.Every time Haisheng went to sea, he gained something more or less, and saw cash every day. If she hadn't seen the unpredictable changes of the sea, she would be very satisfied and happy.
Once, Haisheng sailed out to sea at night with the tide, but he had not returned by dawn.She walked out of the house worriedly, only to see thick fog covering the sea.People in the fishing village gathered by the seaside, comforting each other with words of comfort, and the nervousness was like a mist among the people.
After inquiring, none of the fishing boats that went out to sea last night came back.Only then did Li Qiuxia realize the horror of the situation, and she stood on the shore waiting with her seven-month pregnant belly.
It was not until noon that the fog gradually dispersed, and the fishing boats returned to the port one by one.When he saw the wet Haisheng standing at the bow of the boat, his heart was finally relieved, and tears of worry flowed down involuntarily.
Afterwards, she asked Haisheng how he spent that night in the sea.Haisheng said that when encountering heavy fog, he could only drop anchor and wait for the fog to clear, and he must not run wild.
Since then, Li Qiuxia has erected a tall wooden pole in the yard, and hung a tall fluorescent lamp on it.Whenever Haisheng goes out to sea at night, she lights up the lights in the yard, so that Haisheng can see the direction of home even in the sea.
Haisheng told her not to waste electricity, there is always a layer of mist floating on the sea, even if there is no fog, the lights on the shore cannot be seen in the far sea.She still has the light on, and only because of a bright light can she feel at ease in her heart.
The northerly wind has been blowing all day today, only weakening towards evening.The weather forecast is sunny, excellent weather, and the tide will be low tonight.He made dinner early, served it on the table, and called Wu Wendou into the yard for dinner.
Wu Wendou was sitting in the yard mending the net, with the bamboo shuttle in his hand skillfully threading in and out of the torn mesh.The trawl nets of the fishing boats fanned out in the courtyard, exuding a strong fishy smell.
Li Qiuxia walked down the steps in front of the house, stood beside Wu Wendou, looked at the sky and said, "The weather is getting colder and the wind is blowing harder. It's about to freeze, and the fishing boat can't go out to sea a few times."
Wu Wendou lowered his head and gave a "hmm", the shuttle in his hand didn't stop.
Li Qiuxia then asked: "After the fishing boat landed, what are your plans? Will you go back to your hometown?"
The shuttle in Wu Wendou's hand was stuck in the mesh, and he looked back at Li Qiuxia and said, "Let's see the situation."
He had to wait and see what was going on, he was not quick and decisive, and he lacked the boldness that a man should have.Li Qiuxia didn't force him either, for those who are slow, they have to take their time.
She said: "If I don't plan to go back to my hometown, I want to set up a stall in the seafood market, selling frozen fish and sea oysters, buying one by one and selling the goods one by one. I have worked with Haisheng before, because there are Gregorian calendar years and Spring Festival, this winter The income is not much less than that of going to sea. If you go back to your hometown, I can’t do it alone.”
Wu Wendou lowered his head to mend the fishing net again, and said in a muffled voice, "Let me think again."
"Think about it, think about it." Li Qiuxia kicked Wu Wendou, her tone sarcasm: "Think about whether it's a good thing for a young man to live with a little widow, think about whether being a stepfather to Yanzi is worth it, think about it." I wonder if I can still find a beautiful girl. Think about the taste of 'steamed buns' or 'pancakes', I can't sleep at night, hugging the pillow and beating my head, thinking clearly."
A series of questions made Wu Wendou laugh dumbfounded, his back was shaking non-stop, and he couldn't help but replied: "Maybe some people don't eat 'mantou' and eat 'pancakes', it depends on personal taste."
Li Qiuxia suppressed a smile and asked, "What flavor do you like?"
Wu Wendou mended the last hole in the net, stood up and said, "I am not what you think. There are parents, brothers and sisters in my hometown, can I miss them? The journey is too far away, and it is not easy to go home. I have to weigh it carefully. .”
There is always something to be said, and Li Qiuxia is too lazy to ponder it carefully.The two worked together to roll up the fishing nets and pile them on one side of the yard. They stood in the yard washing their hands and faces, waiting for the swallows to come home from school and having dinner together.
Swallow is in the second grade of elementary school. After returning home from school, she ran into the yard and shouted happily: "Mom, I won a little red flower for my lowercase script."
"Really!" Li Qiuxia took off her schoolbag for her daughter and stroked her head, feeling a little sore in her heart.Since Haisheng's death, her daughter has seldom been so happy.She said to Wu Wendou: "You still know how to teach children."
Wu Wendou picked up Yanzi and said, "Uncle will accompany you to do your homework every night, and let you get little red flowers every day, okay?"
"Okay." Yanzi hugged Wu Wendou's neck and said, "Uncle, you are a hundred times stronger than my parents, and they never care about me."
Wu Wendou said: "You can't say that, your parents are working hard, but they just can't help you with your homework."
Wu Wendou carried the swallow into the house, and Li Qiuxia followed behind, feeling very relieved.Wu Wendou likes Yanzi, and Yanzi relies on Wu Wendou, maybe this will become an important opportunity to keep Wu Wendou.
After dinner, Wu Wendou accompanies Yanzi to do her homework and teaches her to write lower characters, very patiently.Handwriting is also good. According to him, he went to high school and came out to find a way out of poverty when his family was poor.
Li Qiuxia sat on the sidelines and watched, feeling that she was an outsider, neither she nor Haisheng knew how to tutor children.Seeing that the time was approaching seven o'clock, it was estimated that the tide would be ebbing, so he asked Wu Wendou to let Yanzi go to bed early, change into the old sea clothes, tie the battery tightly around his waist, and push on the bicycle to prepare to go out.
Wu Wendou followed into the yard, and said worriedly, "Why don't you go. It's cold, and the cold in the waist and legs is easy to catch the root of the disease. When you get old, you will find yourself on the upper body."
Li Qiuxia took the opportunity to light a fire: "I raise the child by myself, there is no man to count on, so I don't care about the cold or not."
Wu Wendou stood there silent.Li Qiuxia hates it in her heart, she can't kick a fart with ten feet, and can't pierce a drop of blood with a thousand awls, she looks like a wimp and wants to find a big yellow girl, just wait and endure.He walked out of the courtyard door in a fit of anger.
Spring recedes white and autumn recedes late, and the autumn wind recedes only at night when the spring tide recedes.It was late October, and Li Qiuxia, who had just stepped out of the house, immediately felt chills.There is a large temperature difference between morning and evening at the beach. Although there is no wind, the cold air on the sea can still penetrate the clothes and invade the muscles and bones.Walking down the hillside to the seaside along a small path in front of the door, I habitually look back at the small fishing village.
Dozens of fishing villages are located at the foot of the mountain, facing the sea, scattered in a crescent shape, brightly lit.The lights in her own yard are also hanging high and bright. This is the light that Wu Wendou turned on for her, so that she can see the direction of home even in the sea.
Since she has no intention, why bother to waste electricity in vain, she doesn't appreciate it.
She only worries about swallows.Two years ago, after a family accident happened, Yanzi became very sensible. This is where she feels most worried and owes her children the most.
Especially when the child was left alone at home at night, Yanzi said she was not afraid, but she was worried, and she had to look up from time to time in the direction of home in the sea.Although I can't see anything, it is at least a comfort to myself.At that time, she didn't dare to leave her home too far, and only made a living on the nearby beaches.
It's all right now, with Wu Wendou taking care of Yanzi at home, she feels at ease, she can go further, and people will get more gains in places that people don't often go to.She turned on the lamp head fixed on top of her head with a wide rubber band, got on her bicycle and rode westward along the path by the sea.She is going to a place called Dagangzi.
After riding for nearly an hour to reach the destination, the tide has receded a long way, and the tide will indeed recede.She was secretly happy, locked the bicycle and hid it, put on the impermeable leather fork, took the harpoon and net bag, and went into the sea like a clumsy penguin.
Dagangzi is a sandy tidal flat far away from the coast. It is separated from the muddy tidal flat on the coast by a trench that is not too deep and not shallow. It can only be climbed when the tide is low, so there will be a lot of seafood.
Because of its remote location and dangerous sea conditions, people die here every year, and few people visit it, let alone at night.Therefore, Li Qiuxia was alone on the coast.
On the pitch-black beach, only a solitary lamp flickered.Li Qiuxia trudged on the mudflats. The strong adsorption force of the mud made it difficult for her to walk. Her body swayed from side to side and back and forth. After walking not far, she was already sweating.Such nights and such solitude have become accustomed, under the weight of life, a woman becomes fearless.
Walking out of the mud flats and wading through knee-deep trenches, the mud flats under my feet became hardened.She stood on the big post and looked back towards the direction of the coast. Wherever she looked, the lights like fireflies were clearly discernible.
But now, where is the coast, and where is home?
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Li Qiuxia was sweating all over, but she couldn't find the exact direction of the coast.Originally blind, like being in a pile of cotton, what is within reach is the soft darkness that cannot be torn, torn, or pierced. How can you tell east, west, north, south?
A gust of cold air rushed from the feet all over the body, and the hot sweat that came out was sticky and condensed into cold and damp water vapor in the airtight leather fork.
She stopped, panting, and looked around blankly.Can't run anymore, it will only use up energy and calories in vain.She remembered what Haisheng had said about how to deal with the foggy weather, and stood there trying to calm herself down, hoping that the wind would blow away the fog.
The thick fog showed no signs of dissipating, but instead became thicker and thicker. It was damp on the head and face, forming small water droplets and flowing down the hair and cheeks drop by drop.Suddenly, I felt the sea water flowing under my feet, and the tide was beginning to rise.
Li Qiuxia became panicked and anxious again, threw away the net bag full of seafood, and ran around without distinguishing between east, west, north, and south.
The more I ran, the deeper the sea became, and I had lost my knees.Li Qiuxia bumped into a row of shelves.This is a kind of fixed net gear used by local fishermen. It is about 80 meters long. Every ten meters or so, a wooden pole with a thickness of the wrist and a height of four to five meters is inserted to fix the fishing net. The farthest from the shore is more than 3000 meters. The nearest one is more than 2000 meters away.
There is always a solid sandy beach under her feet, which shows that she has been going around in circles on Dagangzi.She was sure that she was very close to the shore and did not run into the deep sea, but she didn't know the exact direction of the coast, so she decided not to run anymore, and if she continued to run, she might get farther and farther away from the shore.
She moved forward along the fishing net, touched a net pole, grabbed the net rope and climbed up.Standing on the net rope with both feet, hold the net pole tightly with one hand, untie the battery light with the other hand, and hang it on the top of the net pole, hoping that someone will find it after the fog clears.
The only thing to do now is to wait—wait for the fog to clear, for the tide to ebb.
Li Qiuxia stood on the net rope and hugged the wooden pole, wanting to cry without tears.The blisters on my feet were all driven off by myself, so I can't blame others.
In late autumn, there should be no fog.The tide receded very far tonight, and there were a lot of fish, shrimp, crab and shellfish. On the quiet beach at night, only Li Qiuxia was busy on the beach.A beam of light from a solitary lamp dances irregularly on the vast sea, cutting the darkness into different shapes.
Since she divorced Haisheng, she has been making a living by catching the sea to support herself and Yanzi.There is no one in the village to go to the sea, and every family has fishing boats, so it doesn't make much sense to go to the small sea, which leaves enough room for her to live.
Before the divorce, Haisheng had a small eight-horsepower fishing boat, which could not withstand strong winds and waves, and only thought about changing to a twelve-horsepower boat in the future.There must be at least two people on a boat. In order to save money, Haisheng refused to hire people, and pulled the anchor and cast the net by himself, which was very tiring.
After Yanzi grew up, Li Qiuxia proposed to go to sea with Haisheng to share some of his fatigue.Haisheng resolutely disagreed: "You won't be able to bear it when you get on the boat, you'd better stay at home honestly."
Of course Li Qiuxia understood Haisheng's intentions.Those women who go out to sea with men, have been exposed to the wind and sun all year round, pull anchor and drag the net, not to mention their thick waists, they also look particularly old.Haisheng often said: "I can't bear to let you become like that."
That is to say, from then on, Li Qiuxia ignored Haisheng's objection and began to go to sea. Although the income was not very impressive, the accumulation was to share the pressure of life for Haisheng.
When the fishing boat comes ashore in winter, the two of them are not idle, and set up a stall in the vegetable market in the town to sell frozen seafood.At that time, the two of them were single-minded, only wanting to save enough money to exchange for a big boat.
In the spring of that year, not long after the sea thawed, Haisheng came back from the sea and caught a barracuda weighing more than a hundred catties.Haisheng regretfully told Li Qiuxia that if he had a helper, he could catch more fish.
Maybe it was a coincidence, maybe it was God's will, when Li Qiuxia came back from selling fish, she met a young man from other places who was looking for a job at the entrance of the village.Listen to the accent, he is a southerner.
The young man claimed to be Wu Wendou, and he was alone without any luggage.Li Qiuxia brought Wu Wendou home. Haisheng saw that Wu Wendou was not tall, thin and thin, he didn't look strong, and he had no experience in sailing a ship, so he decided to try it out for a few days.
Li Qiuxia arranged for Wu Wendou to live in the next room, and prepared a half-new set of bedding for him.After several trips to sea, Haisheng was very satisfied. Wu Wendou learned everything quickly, had a lot of strength, and worked quickly.He intends to keep him, but it is also a little worrying. How can anyone who goes out to work without bringing his own luggage, wouldn't he be a fugitive?
Secretly talking to Li Qiuxia, Li Qiuxia laughed at Haisheng's boldness: "You can break him twice with your body, and you are afraid that he is a fugitive? Besides, is there such an honest fugitive who never looks around? Look at the look in his eyes, he never chatters around, but he is a bit upright. Didn’t he say that before working part-time, he met a black-hearted boss, who withheld wages, and was watched by thugs, and he threw away his luggage and sneaked out.”
Haisheng followed, "Besides his short stature, he is unambiguous and handsome. I was a little afraid of him. I asked him, and he said that he lived in the mountains, and his family couldn't afford to build a new house and marry a wife." He said that if he does well here, he wants to make a home here. Why do I feel that he is here for you, he is willing to listen to you and always has a smile on his face. You treat him like The family members are willing to do anything for him.”
Li Qiuxia couldn't help laughing, she was tall and burly and suspicious, but she was just helping Wu Wendou burn a hot kang to wash clothes.She said: "People's hearts are fleshy. We treat him well, and he is willing to work for us wholeheartedly. This is called retaliation."
After negotiating the wages, Wu Wendou stayed. After the fishing boat went ashore in the cold, he returned to his hometown, and he would come back in the spring.
When she saved enough money, Li Qiuxia suddenly changed her mind.No matter how big or small the ship is, going to sea is always risky.A few years ago, a large ship in the village went out to sea, and when the ship crashed, people died, and a good family was scattered all at once.
She took a fancy to the way of raising shrimp, and when she told Haisheng, Haisheng disagreed; "You have a big heart. Do you know that the investment in raising shrimp is high, and the risk is even greater."
Li Qiuxia said: "You haven't seen how rich the shrimp farmers are."
Haisheng said: "You only see those who make money but not those who lose money. Once you fail, you will lose everything."
Li Qiuxia said: "How do you know you will fail if you don't raise it? What if you cultivate it?"
Haisheng said, "I know how to make a boat, but I don't know how to raise shrimp."
No matter how she said it, it didn't make sense, so Li Qiuxia used a woman's trump card in a fit of anger to prevent Haisheng from touching her.In the past, when Haisheng came back from the sea, he would fall asleep when he was so tired, and when he woke up, he would push her down on the kang regardless of the day or night, and she was willing to obey.
Apart from this, she was in charge of all the big and small matters in the family, and Haisheng never cared about it.But raising shrimp is not a trivial matter after all, Haisheng is very stubborn, and the two had conflicts for the first time.
Haisheng couldn't bear it anymore after half a month. Li Qiuxia beat, pinched and clamped her legs to resist. She was afraid of waking the child up. Finally, Haisheng succeeded.
Taking advantage of Haisheng's high spirits, Li Qiuxia expressed her dissatisfaction and grievance: "You are only so promising. I have suffered hardships with you, so you can't throw away your broken fishing boat and do something big, and let me and the children do something big." Have a good and comfortable life?"
Haisheng kept his head down and went about his business, humming to show that he had listened.Li Qiuxia continued nagging on and on, which made Haisheng distracted and lost all interest, so he had to finish the job in a hurry.
Li Qiuxia, who was teased just now, expressed her dissatisfaction again: "I just said a few words to you, and you're so angry?"
Haisheng said angrily, "It's all up to you."
Li Qiuxia thought she had found the most effective way for women to deal with men, but she didn't know that she left a deep hidden danger in men's hearts.
Under Li Qiuxia's repeated insistence and considering the hardships and dangers of going to sea, Haisheng gritted his teeth and reluctantly sold the fishing boat, and borrowed a sum of money from the bank with his house as collateral to build a 200-acre fishing boat by the sea. Shrimp rings.
In the spring of the new year, Wu Wendou came back from his hometown and changed his job to guard the shrimp rings for Haisheng.
After the shrimp seedlings were put into the shrimp ring, Li Qiuxia realized that raising shrimp was not as easy as she imagined.After the shrimp seedlings were put in, they began to lead an uneasy life.Every day, the quality of the water and the growth of shrimp seedlings should be observed.
With the gradual growth of shrimp seedlings, the amount of bait input also increases. In addition to financial constraints, they also bear huge psychological pressure.Haisheng guarded the shrimp circle day and night, for fear of any accidents.
It is not uncommon for other shrimp farmers to suddenly die of all prawns overnight.
Finally, it was the day when the shrimp was released.When she saw the prawns being dragged ashore alive and kicking in the net, and the prawn dealers rushed to buy them with cash, Li Qiuxia suddenly felt that she was very remarkable, with foresight and courage.If you continue to work like this, you will be able to pay off the loan in a few years, and the good days of prosperity will not be far away.
That night, Haisheng, who had been nervous and busy for a year, could finally go home and get a good night's sleep.Li Qiuxia rewarded Haisheng well with her body, and she didn't forget to say a few words when the heat was in full swing: "You listened to me, right? You have been guarding that broken fishing boat, what great things can you do?"
Haisheng's heart fluctuated from hot to cold, like lighting a fire and then pouring a basin of cold water on top of it.
After repaying part of the bank loan, Li Qiuxia was intoxicated by the great joy of successfully raising shrimp, and suddenly became relaxed.Earning money is easy, so you don't have to get up early and rush to the sea to squat in the market, busy for three melons and two dates.
With nothing to do, Li Qiuxia became obsessed with playing mahjong, and she didn't feel sorry for losing a few hundred yuan. Sometimes she even forgot to cook and pick up her children from school.
Haisheng was very upset: "I earned a board, but you lost a door. Do you want this house anymore?"
Li Qiuxia disapproved: "If I hadn't forced you to raise shrimps, you would still have to brave the wind and rain to go out to sea. What's wrong with me playing? I'm qualified to play. Without me, would you be where you are today?"
In the words, there was a meaning that he did not take Haisheng seriously.
Later, Haisheng often stayed away from home, and gradually there were rumors that Haisheng had a woman outside.When questioning Haisheng, Haisheng refused to admit it. Li Qiuxia beat and scolded Haisheng and kicked him out of the house.
A few days later when Haisheng returned home, he was naturally scolded by Li Qiuxia again, and even mentioned divorce.
Haisheng didn't agree, so he ran out of the house to drink with some friends, and when he got drunk at night, he wanted to go home again.The courtyard door was locked tightly, and she kicked and bumped into the courtyard door with loud noises, but Li Qiuxia refused to come out to open the door when she heard it.
Haisheng decided to climb over the wall, managed to climb to the top of the two-meter-high wall, and fell into the yard by mistake.My ribs hurt so badly, my head broke out in a cold sweat, and I woke up from the wine.On the icy ground, she lay down for a long time before standing up reluctantly, panting for a while, but Li Qiuxia did not come out, so she reluctantly opened the courtyard door and staggered out of the house.
At noon the next day, Li Qiuxia heard that Haisheng had broken three ribs. She hurried to the hospital, but saw another woman taking care of Haisheng.
The winter of that year was particularly cold. There were large chunks of ice floating on the sea. Standing in the yard, one could hear the muffled and piercing creaking sounds of the ice flakes colliding with each other.
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The tide was rising fiercely, and soon passed the two-meter-high trellis net. As the tide continued to rise, sea water poured into the leather fork.The leather fork was no longer able to keep out the cold, on the contrary, it had added resistance, and the tide pulled Li Qiuxia to shake on the net pole.
The net pole is the only fixed object in the vast sea. If the net pole falls down, it will be pulled away by the tide. There is no possibility of survival, so she had to take off the leather fork.
Without the protection of the leather fork, he was soaked in the icy sea water from the waist down, and the biting cold spread from his legs to his whole body.When the sea water reached her chest, Li Qiuxia was already shivering from the cold.
It took twelve hours from high tide to the next low tide, and she didn't know if she could survive the twelve hours.The desire to live made her calm down, and she took off the belt around her waist to tie herself firmly to the net pole, preventing her from being pulled away by the current once she lost consciousness.
The tide stopped rising up to the neck.Her whole body was immersed in the icy seawater, leaving only one head for her to breathe. The heat in her body was quickly sucked away by the seawater, and her feet were slowly numb upwards.
In the silent night, the heavy fog cut off all her connections with the world.Facing the approaching death step by step, he could only watch helplessly but could not escape, and was tortured mercilessly both physically and psychologically.
Li Qiuxia turned her head to the sky and wailed loudly. This was the only resistance she could do in the face of death.The mournful cries didn't travel far, before being swallowed up by the roar of the waves and the thick fog.
The desperate Li Qiuxia shouted in her heart: "God, are you punishing me?"
After Haisheng's ribs healed, he left home with foreign debts and shrimp rings.
After the divorce, Li Qiuxia would defiantly go into the sea from Haisheng's shrimp rings every time she went to sea.She still couldn't bear to let it go, after all, she had devoted all her efforts to this shrimp circle, and she also carried many good wishes.
Thinking of the shrimp rings that I worked so hard to get easily by that shameless adulterer, my heart felt like being stung by a jellyfish, full of scars and unbearable pain.
Haisheng and that woman kept avoiding her and didn't dare to see her. With nowhere to vent their grievances, they cursed viciously: All the shrimps are dead, let's see if you, Haisheng, can still support that slut.
God doesn't seem to listen to her, the prawns are growing very well.She is not reconciled, she must not easily take advantage of the pair of dogs and men, and sharpen the harpoon extremely sharply.
After catching up to the shore one night, a thin layer of mist floated on the sea, and no one could be seen more than ten meters away.She went down to the water, put the sharp harpoon into the water, and tore hard at the shrimp net of the shrimp ring gate.
There is a fat head fish in the sea, with a big head, big mouth, big belly, and it feeds exclusively on shrimps and crabs.
It is said that the Dragon King set a lifespan for the fish and allowed the fat head fish to grow freely.The fat-headed fish secretly rejoiced, growing a foot in a year and a foot in ten years, so he dared to compete with the Dragon King.
The Dragon King was furious when he found out, and changed the lifespan of the fat-headed fish to one year.Since then, the fat-headed fish has become ferocious and cruel, and even devoured its smaller counterparts.
The shrimp blocking net of the shrimp ring is to prevent the prawns from escaping and the fathead fish from entering the shrimp ring when changing the water.The fat head fish can eat more than a dozen shrimps a day, which is particularly harmful to the cultivation of prawns.Li Qiuxia didn't know what kind of damage the harpoon would cause to the shrimp net, but she felt particularly relieved.
When the prawns are released after autumn, Haisheng sets off firecrackers and cannons, and the scene is very lively.According to his estimation, there should be more than ten tons of shrimp.
Unexpectedly, the water in the shrimp ring was almost drained, and only a few hundred catties of shrimp were caught.What is left is a large number of worthless fathead fish, and I am afraid that even the cost of shrimp fry will not be recovered.
Haisheng sat paralyzed on the dam of the shrimp circle, his eyes turned black, how could there be so many fat-headed fish in the shrimp circle?After careful inspection, it was found that there was a place on the net that was as big as a bowl that had been artificially torn apart. While scolding Wu Wendou, he wanted to report the crime.
In order to clear up his responsibility, Wu Wendou secretly took the initiative to say to Haisheng: "There are no outsiders on Xiaquan, only Li Qiuxia often walks from the dam of Xiaquan to drive the sea. Even if she did it, I guess it is not intentional to harm you. , she still wants you to come back to her."
Haisheng hesitated with red eyes.Turning his head, he found that the woman beside him had already sneaked away.He jumped into the water, frantically hacked the shrimp net with a machete, and fell over when he landed.Wu Wendou sent him to the county hospital where he was diagnosed with cerebral hemorrhage.
With a brain stem hemorrhage, Haisheng has been in a coma and urgently needs a craniotomy, but no one came to sign the letter.Haisheng's parents had passed away, several brothers and sisters pushed back and forth, but no one was willing to sign the letter.
Whoever signs means that he has to bear all the consequences, including medical expenses, including postoperative care.No one can even afford to pay off Haisheng's debts, nor is he willing to.
Haisheng's life is at stake, and he cannot delay any longer.Wu Wendou came back from the hospital to look for Li Qiuxia, hoping that she could come forward to save Haisheng.
Li Qiuxia said cruelly: "We are already divorced, and his life and death have nothing to do with me."
In fact, these days, Li Qiuxia couldn't sleep all night.
Wu Wendou said: "He is still Yanzi's father. He could have reported to the police, but he gave up after hearing that you might have damaged the shrimp net."
When Li Qiuxia arrived at the hospital, what else could she do except hold Haisheng's hand and shed tears of pain and regret?
The doctor said that even if an operation is performed, there is no guarantee that Haisheng can be saved.Even if it can be revived, there is no guarantee of complete recovery. The biggest possibility is that the patient will remain in bed for a lifetime like a vegetable.
Li Qiuxia flinched, and she didn't dare to sign the letter.
Haisheng's brothers and sisters came together to reach an agreement with Li Qiuxia: as long as Li Qiuxia was willing to bear everything Haisheng had to do, they would leave the shrimp rings to Yanzi, which was equivalent to returning them to Li Qiuxia in disguise.
Li Qiuxia signed it.Although Haisheng came back to life after the operation, he was still in a state of unconsciousness, only breathing more than a dead person.The family ran out of money, so they had to take him home from the hospital, and let fate count as long as he could live.
Those who need to pay later come to the door, the unpaid bank loans, the bait money owed on credit for shrimp seedlings, each of which is not a small amount.In desperation, Li Qiuxia had to reluctantly sell the shrimp rings and pay off all the debts.
Li Qiuxia was plotted against by Haisheng's brothers and sisters.
Li Qiuxia was devastated.Wu Wendou did not leave and went back to his hometown, and stayed with Li Qiuxia and Haisheng throughout autumn and winter, helping Li Qiuxia take care of Haisheng.
At night, Wu Wendou and Haisheng slept on the same kang, and wiped his excrement and urine to turn Haisheng over.Li Qiuxia and Yanzi slept on another kang, and they were able to breathe and relieve temporarily.
In the end, Haisheng failed to survive that winter, and passed away in a state of unconsciousness and pain, no longer a drag on others.
After taking care of Haisheng's funeral, Wu Wendou hesitated to leave, but Li Qiuxia used her body to hold him back.At the beginning of spring, Li Qiuxia told Wu Wendou that there was still a little money left from selling shrimp rings, enough to sell an eight-horsepower fishing boat.If he is willing, she buys the boat and he makes the boat, and the income is divided in half.
Wu Wendou agreed, and she turned on the dazzling lights in the yard for him.But, would he take the risk to save her in the fog?
4
Li Qiuxia's body was completely numb and she no longer trembled.The consciousness in the brain is gradually blurring and weakening, and the eyelids are so heavy that it is difficult to open them once they are closed.Although the remaining bit of consciousness told her that if she fell asleep, she would never wake up, but she still wanted to fall asleep and have a sweet dream.
The only concern in her heart is her daughter Yanzi, which made her feel a little bit of pain.The only remaining consciousness shouted loudly in my heart: Swallow, poor swallow
The swallow in sleep seemed to hear her mother calling her, and suddenly woke up.Sleepy-eyed, she called out to her mother, but she didn't hear her answer, and she looked around but couldn't find her.
She looked at the time, it was twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, and her mother should have come back long ago.Pushing open the door, I saw that the sky was full of fog and I couldn't see anything. The fluorescent lights on the tall wooden poles in the yard were like distant stars.
Where is mother?She was frightened, ran down the room crying and crying without clothes, shaking the door panel and calling for Wu Wendou.
Wu Wendou was awakened by the cries of the swallows, and when he opened the door and saw the impenetrable fog, he couldn't help shivering a few times.She said in her heart that something was wrong, something must have happened to Li Qiuxia.
The cry of the swallow also alarmed the people in the fishing village. Several fishermen rushed over to ask, and shook their heads after hearing it.How do you go to the sea to find someone in such a ghostly weather?If they don't make it right, they'll put themselves in it too.
If she didn't look for her, Li Qiuxia would have no hope of surviving.It was up to Wu Wendou to make up his own mind, and no one could say anything, they all smoked in silence, the room was filled with choking smoke and the sound of coughing one after another.
Wu Wendou seems to be seeking an answer from these experienced fishermen: "Is it possible for people to survive in the sea in such a foggy day?"
He only needs an answer, even if it is vague, and he can sit at home and wait for the fog to clear with peace of mind, and he can avoid the punishment of conscience and emotion.
No one spoke.The shivering swallow cried loudly: "Mom is alive, mother is alive, I heard my mother calling me."
Wu Wendou hugged Yanzi into his arms and said, "Don't cry, I'll go find your mother right away."
After the swallows were settled, Wu Wendou walked into the lower room where he lived and left a letter in a small wooden box.By the time he was out in the yard, staring up at the dim fluorescent lights hanging alone in the fog, he had already decided what he was supposed to do.
Several fishermen accompanied Wu Wendou to the pier and helped Wu Wendou recheck that the machine was filled with oil.A person pulled Wu Wendou aside, and kindly reminded that it is enough to fool the child, and if you really want to find it, you have to wait until the morning and the fog clear.
Wu Wendou knew that no one was willing to go out to sea with him to find someone, so he strengthened his belief that it was time to do what a man should do.
This is an explanation to Li Qiuxia and Yanzi, and an explanation to himself.
Wu Wendou sailed the boat carefully and slowly into the sea, without a target or direction, just driving in a daze based on a feeling, he knew which sea area Li Qiuxia often sailed to.
The fog was thick, and the headlights on the boat could only reach less than two meters away.Even though he was quite familiar with this sea area, he still felt chills on his back and fear.
Wu Wendou held the tiller firmly, and kept wiping away the drops of water formed by the mist on his face.Thinking that the hope of finding it is extremely slim, maybe when I see Li Qiuxia again, I will see a corpse that has been soaked in sea water and lost its original appearance, and my heart feels like another piece of flesh has been gouged out, blood dripping and it is difficult to revive.
He once abandoned a woman.
Not long after he and the woman got married, they walked out of the mountains together to work. He didn't expect this to be the beginning of a nightmare.He was tying steel bars on the construction site, and the woman was cooking on the construction site. Although it was hard work, there was still hope in his heart.Work for a few years, save some money, and repair the old house at home.
However, in broad daylight, the contractor pulled the woman into the simple room where he lived alone.The woman pushed and agreed, and the relationship between the two became an open secret.He went to the contractor to argue, but was beaten up by the contractor.
While applying medicine to his wound, the woman persuaded him that he was rich and powerful, so he couldn't afford to provoke him.
Later, women often stayed overnight in the simple room of the contractor.He thought, bear with it, the family is poor, it is not easy to marry a woman.When the bill is settled at the end of the year, I will take the woman back to my hometown and hide far away.
That night, he had something urgent to discuss with a woman, so he plucked up the courage to knock on the door of the contractor's room.The foreman came out cursing and swearing in his clothes. When he saw him, he looked at him contemptuously like an ant.
He submissively proposed to let his woman go back first, and discuss things.The head of the contractor is talking to the air, he and her have not finished their business, and they will let her go back when they are done.
The woman should have heard him come to her, but she didn't come out of that dirty place.At that moment, he felt that he was very small; at that moment, he felt that he should still be a man.
The moment the contractor turned around, he took out the fruit knife in his pocket, and without thinking about it, he stabbed at that stiff back.Once, twice, he didn't bring the fruit knife to hurt people, but to strengthen himself, so as not to be hurt by others.
The contractor fell down, and he ran back to the work shed in a daze for a few seconds, and fled overnight with the little money he had.Going north all the way, I finally came to a small fishing village and settled down at Haisheng's house.
In order not to arouse others' suspicion, when the sea was closed in winter, he went to another place to hide, and came back when spring began.
In the matter of Haisheng and Li Qiuxia's divorce, he couldn't tell who was right and who was wrong.Out of instinct, he felt that Haisheng didn't cherish his woman enough, and he also felt that Li Qiuxia was a bit too much.
Most of the time, he felt that Li Qiuxia was a poor woman.She is a hundred times stronger than her own woman, she should not pull the child alone, she should have a man who loves her and loves her by her side.
In the fog that day, he saw Li Qiuxia tearing at the shrimp net with a harpoon, but he didn't go to stop it.He could feel the anger in that despair.
He just didn't expect that a hole in the shrimp net would ruin Haisheng's fortune.Haisheng wanted to report the crime, but he was frightened. Once the police arrived, he might not be able to hide himself.
He had no choice but to tell Li Qiuxia, hoping that Haisheng would cherish his past feelings and not report the crime, but unexpectedly, he pushed Haisheng to a dead end.He felt that he had hurt someone again.
In the hospital, seeing the strong and strong Haisheng dying, he secretly felt that human life is nothing more than that, but it should not be cruelly deprived of it by others.Isn't the performance of the Haisheng brothers and sisters depriving a person's life in a non-illegal way?The guilt in his heart was relieved a lot.
After Hai fell ill, he had an excuse to stay, instead of hiding like a stray dog in the cold winter.Nowhere is as safe as Li Qiuxia's home, and he can feel the warmth of a family.
After Haisheng died, he should have left, but he didn't know where to go, the days of being homeless were really hard.
Li Qiuxia's body and an eight-horsepower fishing boat stopped him from escaping.One time when she went to sea at night, she accidentally found Li Qiuxia lighting a bright light in the yard.At first, I didn't pay much attention to it, but every time I came back from the sea, I could see the soft light, and then I realized that the lamp was lit for me.
That lamp made him feel warm and made him feel at home all the time, no matter how hard or tired he was, he was willing to do so.Facing the beckoning warm light, he felt very painful and confused. Is this his home?Do I still have the qualifications and rights to own such a home?
Sometimes, he purposely chooses to lose his memory and forget that he is a fugitive.Li Qiuxia and Yanzi brought him too much happiness and stability, which made him feel a sense of responsibility, and he was capable and necessary to bring the same happiness and happiness to the mother and daughter.
Over the past year, although he still lives in the lower house, his relationship with this family has undergone subtle changes.Living in the lower room is just to avoid suspicion, so that the swallow will not be stimulated.At other times, he is more like a master of the house, enjoying everything a man can enjoy.
As cooler weather threatens to freeze fishing boats ashore, this interdependence is about to unravel.Li Qiuxia trusted him completely, and she hinted at him time and time again, pushing him to the cusp of the storm, making it difficult to make a decision and choose.
Leaving means wandering, which is not what Li Qiuxia expects, nor is he willing; staying means giving Li Qiuxia some kind of hope. On the surface, she accepts everything about her, but the truth behind it will harm her.
This sudden fog made him no longer waver.He can't abandon her, he can't lie to her.He tore off a piece of paper from Yanzi's notebook and wrote a few short sentences.If he dies, please send the little money he has accumulated in the past few years back to his hometown according to the address, leaving it to his elderly and poor parents.
He didn't dare to deposit his money in the bank, and he didn't dare to send it to his parents. It was all in that wooden box.
If he is lucky enough to save Li Qiuxia, it will be the glory of his life.Regardless of whether the contractor is dead or alive, there should be a conclusion, explain everything to Li Qiuxia, and then turn himself in.
With a mortal determination he sailed out to sea, into a thick fog.
The fog seemed to be loosening, sometimes dense and sometimes sparse.Wu Wendou's eyes widened, and he searched the sea anxiously.I don't know if this silly woman knows how to save herself. If she finds her earlier, she will have more hope of living.
A gust of wind blew by, and in a gap where the thick fog dissipated, a faint light flashed, which was fleeting, but it was still firmly captured by Wu Wendou, who was highly concentrated.He adjusted the course and called out Li Qiuxia's name loudly.
Li Qiuxia, who was already in a coma, was awakened by familiar and urgent shouts.She heard the chugging sound of the diesel engine on the ship getting closer, and she could vaguely see a ray of light through the fog.
Besides Wu Wendou, who else would venture out to sea in this thick fog to find himself?
A warm current surged through her body from the bottom of her heart, she opened her mouth wide, and even though she couldn't make a sound, there was still a shallow and stiff smile on the corner of her mouth.
(End of this chapter)
1
Thick fog rose and gathered in the depths of the ocean, and under the cover of night, it silently hit the coast.
Li Qiuxia was looking down on a toothfish on the beach.The tooth piece fish weighed about two or three catties, and was stranded in a calf-deep puddle. The flat body of the fish was hidden under the sand, and only two small bulging eyes on one side were exposed to observe the movement.
When the glare of the accumulator lamp Li Qiuxia wore on her head shone on those two timid and vigilant eyes, she couldn't help laughing silently.
Tooth fish is a rare fish species. It has been rarely seen in recent years, and it can be sold for tens of dollars per catty.If you can catch this fish, tonight is not in vain.
She raised the harpoon in her hand high and inserted it forcefully, perhaps because she was too nervous and excited, the harpoon was inserted too far.The frightened toothfish jumped out suddenly, swam around in the puddle, muddied the water, and then hid again.
Li Qiuxia was a little annoyed at her miss, and stood there waiting for the sea to clear up, and continued to search for the toothfish. How could she easily give up on the prey she was about to get.
After catching this piece of tooth fish, I don't plan to sell it anymore. Why should good things go into other people's mouths, so it's time to reward myself and Wu Wendou.
Wu Wendou hasn't returned to his hometown for two years. Although he didn't say anything, everyone knows that he is taking care of himself and Yanzi.Will he go back this winter?He is good at everything, but he refuses to give a clear explanation, which makes people unable to understand his thoughts, and makes people feel empty and unsure.
The seawater in the puddle gradually became clear. Li Qiuxia held her breath and held her harpoon intently, searching around in the puddle. This time she must not miss again.
At this moment, she felt her face was wet, and the battery light suddenly became dim and blurry.She shivered violently all over her body, and hurriedly raised her head to look for the direction of the coast.
It's too late!The dense fog was like an impenetrable black curtain, which caught off guard and shrouded Li Qiuxia in the boundless darkness.You can't see the stars when you look up, and you can't see the lights on the shore when you look around. The bright lights of the battery lights with sufficient power, like fireflies in the fog, can only illuminate the place in front of your feet.
She lost her shores.
Losing the coast means being trapped in the sea, and if you can't walk to the coast before the high tide, you will be swallowed by the sea.She was flustered suddenly, a layer of cold sweat permeated her body, and she ran around aimlessly on the beach, relying on her memory to find the direction of the coast.
People who live by the sea are most afraid of wind and fog.Ten years ago, Li Qiuxia married in this small fishing village, and she didn't understand Dahai's temper, nor did she know the risks faced by those who go out to sea.All she knew was that the people in the fishing village were rich, and eating seafood was as convenient as eating tortillas.
When I was in junior high school, good classmates exchanged food with each other.A classmate who lives by the sea often brings clam meat with stir-fried leeks or clam meat with scrambled eggs for lunch. The delicious taste is something she can’t forget for a long time, and it’s for this reason that she wants to marry into a fishing village by the sea. .
She got her wish, her husband Haisheng owns a fishing boat, and she can eat all kinds of seafood.Every time Haisheng went to sea, he gained something more or less, and saw cash every day. If she hadn't seen the unpredictable changes of the sea, she would be very satisfied and happy.
Once, Haisheng sailed out to sea at night with the tide, but he had not returned by dawn.She walked out of the house worriedly, only to see thick fog covering the sea.People in the fishing village gathered by the seaside, comforting each other with words of comfort, and the nervousness was like a mist among the people.
After inquiring, none of the fishing boats that went out to sea last night came back.Only then did Li Qiuxia realize the horror of the situation, and she stood on the shore waiting with her seven-month pregnant belly.
It was not until noon that the fog gradually dispersed, and the fishing boats returned to the port one by one.When he saw the wet Haisheng standing at the bow of the boat, his heart was finally relieved, and tears of worry flowed down involuntarily.
Afterwards, she asked Haisheng how he spent that night in the sea.Haisheng said that when encountering heavy fog, he could only drop anchor and wait for the fog to clear, and he must not run wild.
Since then, Li Qiuxia has erected a tall wooden pole in the yard, and hung a tall fluorescent lamp on it.Whenever Haisheng goes out to sea at night, she lights up the lights in the yard, so that Haisheng can see the direction of home even in the sea.
Haisheng told her not to waste electricity, there is always a layer of mist floating on the sea, even if there is no fog, the lights on the shore cannot be seen in the far sea.She still has the light on, and only because of a bright light can she feel at ease in her heart.
The northerly wind has been blowing all day today, only weakening towards evening.The weather forecast is sunny, excellent weather, and the tide will be low tonight.He made dinner early, served it on the table, and called Wu Wendou into the yard for dinner.
Wu Wendou was sitting in the yard mending the net, with the bamboo shuttle in his hand skillfully threading in and out of the torn mesh.The trawl nets of the fishing boats fanned out in the courtyard, exuding a strong fishy smell.
Li Qiuxia walked down the steps in front of the house, stood beside Wu Wendou, looked at the sky and said, "The weather is getting colder and the wind is blowing harder. It's about to freeze, and the fishing boat can't go out to sea a few times."
Wu Wendou lowered his head and gave a "hmm", the shuttle in his hand didn't stop.
Li Qiuxia then asked: "After the fishing boat landed, what are your plans? Will you go back to your hometown?"
The shuttle in Wu Wendou's hand was stuck in the mesh, and he looked back at Li Qiuxia and said, "Let's see the situation."
He had to wait and see what was going on, he was not quick and decisive, and he lacked the boldness that a man should have.Li Qiuxia didn't force him either, for those who are slow, they have to take their time.
She said: "If I don't plan to go back to my hometown, I want to set up a stall in the seafood market, selling frozen fish and sea oysters, buying one by one and selling the goods one by one. I have worked with Haisheng before, because there are Gregorian calendar years and Spring Festival, this winter The income is not much less than that of going to sea. If you go back to your hometown, I can’t do it alone.”
Wu Wendou lowered his head to mend the fishing net again, and said in a muffled voice, "Let me think again."
"Think about it, think about it." Li Qiuxia kicked Wu Wendou, her tone sarcasm: "Think about whether it's a good thing for a young man to live with a little widow, think about whether being a stepfather to Yanzi is worth it, think about it." I wonder if I can still find a beautiful girl. Think about the taste of 'steamed buns' or 'pancakes', I can't sleep at night, hugging the pillow and beating my head, thinking clearly."
A series of questions made Wu Wendou laugh dumbfounded, his back was shaking non-stop, and he couldn't help but replied: "Maybe some people don't eat 'mantou' and eat 'pancakes', it depends on personal taste."
Li Qiuxia suppressed a smile and asked, "What flavor do you like?"
Wu Wendou mended the last hole in the net, stood up and said, "I am not what you think. There are parents, brothers and sisters in my hometown, can I miss them? The journey is too far away, and it is not easy to go home. I have to weigh it carefully. .”
There is always something to be said, and Li Qiuxia is too lazy to ponder it carefully.The two worked together to roll up the fishing nets and pile them on one side of the yard. They stood in the yard washing their hands and faces, waiting for the swallows to come home from school and having dinner together.
Swallow is in the second grade of elementary school. After returning home from school, she ran into the yard and shouted happily: "Mom, I won a little red flower for my lowercase script."
"Really!" Li Qiuxia took off her schoolbag for her daughter and stroked her head, feeling a little sore in her heart.Since Haisheng's death, her daughter has seldom been so happy.She said to Wu Wendou: "You still know how to teach children."
Wu Wendou picked up Yanzi and said, "Uncle will accompany you to do your homework every night, and let you get little red flowers every day, okay?"
"Okay." Yanzi hugged Wu Wendou's neck and said, "Uncle, you are a hundred times stronger than my parents, and they never care about me."
Wu Wendou said: "You can't say that, your parents are working hard, but they just can't help you with your homework."
Wu Wendou carried the swallow into the house, and Li Qiuxia followed behind, feeling very relieved.Wu Wendou likes Yanzi, and Yanzi relies on Wu Wendou, maybe this will become an important opportunity to keep Wu Wendou.
After dinner, Wu Wendou accompanies Yanzi to do her homework and teaches her to write lower characters, very patiently.Handwriting is also good. According to him, he went to high school and came out to find a way out of poverty when his family was poor.
Li Qiuxia sat on the sidelines and watched, feeling that she was an outsider, neither she nor Haisheng knew how to tutor children.Seeing that the time was approaching seven o'clock, it was estimated that the tide would be ebbing, so he asked Wu Wendou to let Yanzi go to bed early, change into the old sea clothes, tie the battery tightly around his waist, and push on the bicycle to prepare to go out.
Wu Wendou followed into the yard, and said worriedly, "Why don't you go. It's cold, and the cold in the waist and legs is easy to catch the root of the disease. When you get old, you will find yourself on the upper body."
Li Qiuxia took the opportunity to light a fire: "I raise the child by myself, there is no man to count on, so I don't care about the cold or not."
Wu Wendou stood there silent.Li Qiuxia hates it in her heart, she can't kick a fart with ten feet, and can't pierce a drop of blood with a thousand awls, she looks like a wimp and wants to find a big yellow girl, just wait and endure.He walked out of the courtyard door in a fit of anger.
Spring recedes white and autumn recedes late, and the autumn wind recedes only at night when the spring tide recedes.It was late October, and Li Qiuxia, who had just stepped out of the house, immediately felt chills.There is a large temperature difference between morning and evening at the beach. Although there is no wind, the cold air on the sea can still penetrate the clothes and invade the muscles and bones.Walking down the hillside to the seaside along a small path in front of the door, I habitually look back at the small fishing village.
Dozens of fishing villages are located at the foot of the mountain, facing the sea, scattered in a crescent shape, brightly lit.The lights in her own yard are also hanging high and bright. This is the light that Wu Wendou turned on for her, so that she can see the direction of home even in the sea.
Since she has no intention, why bother to waste electricity in vain, she doesn't appreciate it.
She only worries about swallows.Two years ago, after a family accident happened, Yanzi became very sensible. This is where she feels most worried and owes her children the most.
Especially when the child was left alone at home at night, Yanzi said she was not afraid, but she was worried, and she had to look up from time to time in the direction of home in the sea.Although I can't see anything, it is at least a comfort to myself.At that time, she didn't dare to leave her home too far, and only made a living on the nearby beaches.
It's all right now, with Wu Wendou taking care of Yanzi at home, she feels at ease, she can go further, and people will get more gains in places that people don't often go to.She turned on the lamp head fixed on top of her head with a wide rubber band, got on her bicycle and rode westward along the path by the sea.She is going to a place called Dagangzi.
After riding for nearly an hour to reach the destination, the tide has receded a long way, and the tide will indeed recede.She was secretly happy, locked the bicycle and hid it, put on the impermeable leather fork, took the harpoon and net bag, and went into the sea like a clumsy penguin.
Dagangzi is a sandy tidal flat far away from the coast. It is separated from the muddy tidal flat on the coast by a trench that is not too deep and not shallow. It can only be climbed when the tide is low, so there will be a lot of seafood.
Because of its remote location and dangerous sea conditions, people die here every year, and few people visit it, let alone at night.Therefore, Li Qiuxia was alone on the coast.
On the pitch-black beach, only a solitary lamp flickered.Li Qiuxia trudged on the mudflats. The strong adsorption force of the mud made it difficult for her to walk. Her body swayed from side to side and back and forth. After walking not far, she was already sweating.Such nights and such solitude have become accustomed, under the weight of life, a woman becomes fearless.
Walking out of the mud flats and wading through knee-deep trenches, the mud flats under my feet became hardened.She stood on the big post and looked back towards the direction of the coast. Wherever she looked, the lights like fireflies were clearly discernible.
But now, where is the coast, and where is home?
2
Li Qiuxia was sweating all over, but she couldn't find the exact direction of the coast.Originally blind, like being in a pile of cotton, what is within reach is the soft darkness that cannot be torn, torn, or pierced. How can you tell east, west, north, south?
A gust of cold air rushed from the feet all over the body, and the hot sweat that came out was sticky and condensed into cold and damp water vapor in the airtight leather fork.
She stopped, panting, and looked around blankly.Can't run anymore, it will only use up energy and calories in vain.She remembered what Haisheng had said about how to deal with the foggy weather, and stood there trying to calm herself down, hoping that the wind would blow away the fog.
The thick fog showed no signs of dissipating, but instead became thicker and thicker. It was damp on the head and face, forming small water droplets and flowing down the hair and cheeks drop by drop.Suddenly, I felt the sea water flowing under my feet, and the tide was beginning to rise.
Li Qiuxia became panicked and anxious again, threw away the net bag full of seafood, and ran around without distinguishing between east, west, north, and south.
The more I ran, the deeper the sea became, and I had lost my knees.Li Qiuxia bumped into a row of shelves.This is a kind of fixed net gear used by local fishermen. It is about 80 meters long. Every ten meters or so, a wooden pole with a thickness of the wrist and a height of four to five meters is inserted to fix the fishing net. The farthest from the shore is more than 3000 meters. The nearest one is more than 2000 meters away.
There is always a solid sandy beach under her feet, which shows that she has been going around in circles on Dagangzi.She was sure that she was very close to the shore and did not run into the deep sea, but she didn't know the exact direction of the coast, so she decided not to run anymore, and if she continued to run, she might get farther and farther away from the shore.
She moved forward along the fishing net, touched a net pole, grabbed the net rope and climbed up.Standing on the net rope with both feet, hold the net pole tightly with one hand, untie the battery light with the other hand, and hang it on the top of the net pole, hoping that someone will find it after the fog clears.
The only thing to do now is to wait—wait for the fog to clear, for the tide to ebb.
Li Qiuxia stood on the net rope and hugged the wooden pole, wanting to cry without tears.The blisters on my feet were all driven off by myself, so I can't blame others.
In late autumn, there should be no fog.The tide receded very far tonight, and there were a lot of fish, shrimp, crab and shellfish. On the quiet beach at night, only Li Qiuxia was busy on the beach.A beam of light from a solitary lamp dances irregularly on the vast sea, cutting the darkness into different shapes.
Since she divorced Haisheng, she has been making a living by catching the sea to support herself and Yanzi.There is no one in the village to go to the sea, and every family has fishing boats, so it doesn't make much sense to go to the small sea, which leaves enough room for her to live.
Before the divorce, Haisheng had a small eight-horsepower fishing boat, which could not withstand strong winds and waves, and only thought about changing to a twelve-horsepower boat in the future.There must be at least two people on a boat. In order to save money, Haisheng refused to hire people, and pulled the anchor and cast the net by himself, which was very tiring.
After Yanzi grew up, Li Qiuxia proposed to go to sea with Haisheng to share some of his fatigue.Haisheng resolutely disagreed: "You won't be able to bear it when you get on the boat, you'd better stay at home honestly."
Of course Li Qiuxia understood Haisheng's intentions.Those women who go out to sea with men, have been exposed to the wind and sun all year round, pull anchor and drag the net, not to mention their thick waists, they also look particularly old.Haisheng often said: "I can't bear to let you become like that."
That is to say, from then on, Li Qiuxia ignored Haisheng's objection and began to go to sea. Although the income was not very impressive, the accumulation was to share the pressure of life for Haisheng.
When the fishing boat comes ashore in winter, the two of them are not idle, and set up a stall in the vegetable market in the town to sell frozen seafood.At that time, the two of them were single-minded, only wanting to save enough money to exchange for a big boat.
In the spring of that year, not long after the sea thawed, Haisheng came back from the sea and caught a barracuda weighing more than a hundred catties.Haisheng regretfully told Li Qiuxia that if he had a helper, he could catch more fish.
Maybe it was a coincidence, maybe it was God's will, when Li Qiuxia came back from selling fish, she met a young man from other places who was looking for a job at the entrance of the village.Listen to the accent, he is a southerner.
The young man claimed to be Wu Wendou, and he was alone without any luggage.Li Qiuxia brought Wu Wendou home. Haisheng saw that Wu Wendou was not tall, thin and thin, he didn't look strong, and he had no experience in sailing a ship, so he decided to try it out for a few days.
Li Qiuxia arranged for Wu Wendou to live in the next room, and prepared a half-new set of bedding for him.After several trips to sea, Haisheng was very satisfied. Wu Wendou learned everything quickly, had a lot of strength, and worked quickly.He intends to keep him, but it is also a little worrying. How can anyone who goes out to work without bringing his own luggage, wouldn't he be a fugitive?
Secretly talking to Li Qiuxia, Li Qiuxia laughed at Haisheng's boldness: "You can break him twice with your body, and you are afraid that he is a fugitive? Besides, is there such an honest fugitive who never looks around? Look at the look in his eyes, he never chatters around, but he is a bit upright. Didn’t he say that before working part-time, he met a black-hearted boss, who withheld wages, and was watched by thugs, and he threw away his luggage and sneaked out.”
Haisheng followed, "Besides his short stature, he is unambiguous and handsome. I was a little afraid of him. I asked him, and he said that he lived in the mountains, and his family couldn't afford to build a new house and marry a wife." He said that if he does well here, he wants to make a home here. Why do I feel that he is here for you, he is willing to listen to you and always has a smile on his face. You treat him like The family members are willing to do anything for him.”
Li Qiuxia couldn't help laughing, she was tall and burly and suspicious, but she was just helping Wu Wendou burn a hot kang to wash clothes.She said: "People's hearts are fleshy. We treat him well, and he is willing to work for us wholeheartedly. This is called retaliation."
After negotiating the wages, Wu Wendou stayed. After the fishing boat went ashore in the cold, he returned to his hometown, and he would come back in the spring.
When she saved enough money, Li Qiuxia suddenly changed her mind.No matter how big or small the ship is, going to sea is always risky.A few years ago, a large ship in the village went out to sea, and when the ship crashed, people died, and a good family was scattered all at once.
She took a fancy to the way of raising shrimp, and when she told Haisheng, Haisheng disagreed; "You have a big heart. Do you know that the investment in raising shrimp is high, and the risk is even greater."
Li Qiuxia said: "You haven't seen how rich the shrimp farmers are."
Haisheng said: "You only see those who make money but not those who lose money. Once you fail, you will lose everything."
Li Qiuxia said: "How do you know you will fail if you don't raise it? What if you cultivate it?"
Haisheng said, "I know how to make a boat, but I don't know how to raise shrimp."
No matter how she said it, it didn't make sense, so Li Qiuxia used a woman's trump card in a fit of anger to prevent Haisheng from touching her.In the past, when Haisheng came back from the sea, he would fall asleep when he was so tired, and when he woke up, he would push her down on the kang regardless of the day or night, and she was willing to obey.
Apart from this, she was in charge of all the big and small matters in the family, and Haisheng never cared about it.But raising shrimp is not a trivial matter after all, Haisheng is very stubborn, and the two had conflicts for the first time.
Haisheng couldn't bear it anymore after half a month. Li Qiuxia beat, pinched and clamped her legs to resist. She was afraid of waking the child up. Finally, Haisheng succeeded.
Taking advantage of Haisheng's high spirits, Li Qiuxia expressed her dissatisfaction and grievance: "You are only so promising. I have suffered hardships with you, so you can't throw away your broken fishing boat and do something big, and let me and the children do something big." Have a good and comfortable life?"
Haisheng kept his head down and went about his business, humming to show that he had listened.Li Qiuxia continued nagging on and on, which made Haisheng distracted and lost all interest, so he had to finish the job in a hurry.
Li Qiuxia, who was teased just now, expressed her dissatisfaction again: "I just said a few words to you, and you're so angry?"
Haisheng said angrily, "It's all up to you."
Li Qiuxia thought she had found the most effective way for women to deal with men, but she didn't know that she left a deep hidden danger in men's hearts.
Under Li Qiuxia's repeated insistence and considering the hardships and dangers of going to sea, Haisheng gritted his teeth and reluctantly sold the fishing boat, and borrowed a sum of money from the bank with his house as collateral to build a 200-acre fishing boat by the sea. Shrimp rings.
In the spring of the new year, Wu Wendou came back from his hometown and changed his job to guard the shrimp rings for Haisheng.
After the shrimp seedlings were put into the shrimp ring, Li Qiuxia realized that raising shrimp was not as easy as she imagined.After the shrimp seedlings were put in, they began to lead an uneasy life.Every day, the quality of the water and the growth of shrimp seedlings should be observed.
With the gradual growth of shrimp seedlings, the amount of bait input also increases. In addition to financial constraints, they also bear huge psychological pressure.Haisheng guarded the shrimp circle day and night, for fear of any accidents.
It is not uncommon for other shrimp farmers to suddenly die of all prawns overnight.
Finally, it was the day when the shrimp was released.When she saw the prawns being dragged ashore alive and kicking in the net, and the prawn dealers rushed to buy them with cash, Li Qiuxia suddenly felt that she was very remarkable, with foresight and courage.If you continue to work like this, you will be able to pay off the loan in a few years, and the good days of prosperity will not be far away.
That night, Haisheng, who had been nervous and busy for a year, could finally go home and get a good night's sleep.Li Qiuxia rewarded Haisheng well with her body, and she didn't forget to say a few words when the heat was in full swing: "You listened to me, right? You have been guarding that broken fishing boat, what great things can you do?"
Haisheng's heart fluctuated from hot to cold, like lighting a fire and then pouring a basin of cold water on top of it.
After repaying part of the bank loan, Li Qiuxia was intoxicated by the great joy of successfully raising shrimp, and suddenly became relaxed.Earning money is easy, so you don't have to get up early and rush to the sea to squat in the market, busy for three melons and two dates.
With nothing to do, Li Qiuxia became obsessed with playing mahjong, and she didn't feel sorry for losing a few hundred yuan. Sometimes she even forgot to cook and pick up her children from school.
Haisheng was very upset: "I earned a board, but you lost a door. Do you want this house anymore?"
Li Qiuxia disapproved: "If I hadn't forced you to raise shrimps, you would still have to brave the wind and rain to go out to sea. What's wrong with me playing? I'm qualified to play. Without me, would you be where you are today?"
In the words, there was a meaning that he did not take Haisheng seriously.
Later, Haisheng often stayed away from home, and gradually there were rumors that Haisheng had a woman outside.When questioning Haisheng, Haisheng refused to admit it. Li Qiuxia beat and scolded Haisheng and kicked him out of the house.
A few days later when Haisheng returned home, he was naturally scolded by Li Qiuxia again, and even mentioned divorce.
Haisheng didn't agree, so he ran out of the house to drink with some friends, and when he got drunk at night, he wanted to go home again.The courtyard door was locked tightly, and she kicked and bumped into the courtyard door with loud noises, but Li Qiuxia refused to come out to open the door when she heard it.
Haisheng decided to climb over the wall, managed to climb to the top of the two-meter-high wall, and fell into the yard by mistake.My ribs hurt so badly, my head broke out in a cold sweat, and I woke up from the wine.On the icy ground, she lay down for a long time before standing up reluctantly, panting for a while, but Li Qiuxia did not come out, so she reluctantly opened the courtyard door and staggered out of the house.
At noon the next day, Li Qiuxia heard that Haisheng had broken three ribs. She hurried to the hospital, but saw another woman taking care of Haisheng.
The winter of that year was particularly cold. There were large chunks of ice floating on the sea. Standing in the yard, one could hear the muffled and piercing creaking sounds of the ice flakes colliding with each other.
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The tide was rising fiercely, and soon passed the two-meter-high trellis net. As the tide continued to rise, sea water poured into the leather fork.The leather fork was no longer able to keep out the cold, on the contrary, it had added resistance, and the tide pulled Li Qiuxia to shake on the net pole.
The net pole is the only fixed object in the vast sea. If the net pole falls down, it will be pulled away by the tide. There is no possibility of survival, so she had to take off the leather fork.
Without the protection of the leather fork, he was soaked in the icy sea water from the waist down, and the biting cold spread from his legs to his whole body.When the sea water reached her chest, Li Qiuxia was already shivering from the cold.
It took twelve hours from high tide to the next low tide, and she didn't know if she could survive the twelve hours.The desire to live made her calm down, and she took off the belt around her waist to tie herself firmly to the net pole, preventing her from being pulled away by the current once she lost consciousness.
The tide stopped rising up to the neck.Her whole body was immersed in the icy seawater, leaving only one head for her to breathe. The heat in her body was quickly sucked away by the seawater, and her feet were slowly numb upwards.
In the silent night, the heavy fog cut off all her connections with the world.Facing the approaching death step by step, he could only watch helplessly but could not escape, and was tortured mercilessly both physically and psychologically.
Li Qiuxia turned her head to the sky and wailed loudly. This was the only resistance she could do in the face of death.The mournful cries didn't travel far, before being swallowed up by the roar of the waves and the thick fog.
The desperate Li Qiuxia shouted in her heart: "God, are you punishing me?"
After Haisheng's ribs healed, he left home with foreign debts and shrimp rings.
After the divorce, Li Qiuxia would defiantly go into the sea from Haisheng's shrimp rings every time she went to sea.She still couldn't bear to let it go, after all, she had devoted all her efforts to this shrimp circle, and she also carried many good wishes.
Thinking of the shrimp rings that I worked so hard to get easily by that shameless adulterer, my heart felt like being stung by a jellyfish, full of scars and unbearable pain.
Haisheng and that woman kept avoiding her and didn't dare to see her. With nowhere to vent their grievances, they cursed viciously: All the shrimps are dead, let's see if you, Haisheng, can still support that slut.
God doesn't seem to listen to her, the prawns are growing very well.She is not reconciled, she must not easily take advantage of the pair of dogs and men, and sharpen the harpoon extremely sharply.
After catching up to the shore one night, a thin layer of mist floated on the sea, and no one could be seen more than ten meters away.She went down to the water, put the sharp harpoon into the water, and tore hard at the shrimp net of the shrimp ring gate.
There is a fat head fish in the sea, with a big head, big mouth, big belly, and it feeds exclusively on shrimps and crabs.
It is said that the Dragon King set a lifespan for the fish and allowed the fat head fish to grow freely.The fat-headed fish secretly rejoiced, growing a foot in a year and a foot in ten years, so he dared to compete with the Dragon King.
The Dragon King was furious when he found out, and changed the lifespan of the fat-headed fish to one year.Since then, the fat-headed fish has become ferocious and cruel, and even devoured its smaller counterparts.
The shrimp blocking net of the shrimp ring is to prevent the prawns from escaping and the fathead fish from entering the shrimp ring when changing the water.The fat head fish can eat more than a dozen shrimps a day, which is particularly harmful to the cultivation of prawns.Li Qiuxia didn't know what kind of damage the harpoon would cause to the shrimp net, but she felt particularly relieved.
When the prawns are released after autumn, Haisheng sets off firecrackers and cannons, and the scene is very lively.According to his estimation, there should be more than ten tons of shrimp.
Unexpectedly, the water in the shrimp ring was almost drained, and only a few hundred catties of shrimp were caught.What is left is a large number of worthless fathead fish, and I am afraid that even the cost of shrimp fry will not be recovered.
Haisheng sat paralyzed on the dam of the shrimp circle, his eyes turned black, how could there be so many fat-headed fish in the shrimp circle?After careful inspection, it was found that there was a place on the net that was as big as a bowl that had been artificially torn apart. While scolding Wu Wendou, he wanted to report the crime.
In order to clear up his responsibility, Wu Wendou secretly took the initiative to say to Haisheng: "There are no outsiders on Xiaquan, only Li Qiuxia often walks from the dam of Xiaquan to drive the sea. Even if she did it, I guess it is not intentional to harm you. , she still wants you to come back to her."
Haisheng hesitated with red eyes.Turning his head, he found that the woman beside him had already sneaked away.He jumped into the water, frantically hacked the shrimp net with a machete, and fell over when he landed.Wu Wendou sent him to the county hospital where he was diagnosed with cerebral hemorrhage.
With a brain stem hemorrhage, Haisheng has been in a coma and urgently needs a craniotomy, but no one came to sign the letter.Haisheng's parents had passed away, several brothers and sisters pushed back and forth, but no one was willing to sign the letter.
Whoever signs means that he has to bear all the consequences, including medical expenses, including postoperative care.No one can even afford to pay off Haisheng's debts, nor is he willing to.
Haisheng's life is at stake, and he cannot delay any longer.Wu Wendou came back from the hospital to look for Li Qiuxia, hoping that she could come forward to save Haisheng.
Li Qiuxia said cruelly: "We are already divorced, and his life and death have nothing to do with me."
In fact, these days, Li Qiuxia couldn't sleep all night.
Wu Wendou said: "He is still Yanzi's father. He could have reported to the police, but he gave up after hearing that you might have damaged the shrimp net."
When Li Qiuxia arrived at the hospital, what else could she do except hold Haisheng's hand and shed tears of pain and regret?
The doctor said that even if an operation is performed, there is no guarantee that Haisheng can be saved.Even if it can be revived, there is no guarantee of complete recovery. The biggest possibility is that the patient will remain in bed for a lifetime like a vegetable.
Li Qiuxia flinched, and she didn't dare to sign the letter.
Haisheng's brothers and sisters came together to reach an agreement with Li Qiuxia: as long as Li Qiuxia was willing to bear everything Haisheng had to do, they would leave the shrimp rings to Yanzi, which was equivalent to returning them to Li Qiuxia in disguise.
Li Qiuxia signed it.Although Haisheng came back to life after the operation, he was still in a state of unconsciousness, only breathing more than a dead person.The family ran out of money, so they had to take him home from the hospital, and let fate count as long as he could live.
Those who need to pay later come to the door, the unpaid bank loans, the bait money owed on credit for shrimp seedlings, each of which is not a small amount.In desperation, Li Qiuxia had to reluctantly sell the shrimp rings and pay off all the debts.
Li Qiuxia was plotted against by Haisheng's brothers and sisters.
Li Qiuxia was devastated.Wu Wendou did not leave and went back to his hometown, and stayed with Li Qiuxia and Haisheng throughout autumn and winter, helping Li Qiuxia take care of Haisheng.
At night, Wu Wendou and Haisheng slept on the same kang, and wiped his excrement and urine to turn Haisheng over.Li Qiuxia and Yanzi slept on another kang, and they were able to breathe and relieve temporarily.
In the end, Haisheng failed to survive that winter, and passed away in a state of unconsciousness and pain, no longer a drag on others.
After taking care of Haisheng's funeral, Wu Wendou hesitated to leave, but Li Qiuxia used her body to hold him back.At the beginning of spring, Li Qiuxia told Wu Wendou that there was still a little money left from selling shrimp rings, enough to sell an eight-horsepower fishing boat.If he is willing, she buys the boat and he makes the boat, and the income is divided in half.
Wu Wendou agreed, and she turned on the dazzling lights in the yard for him.But, would he take the risk to save her in the fog?
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Li Qiuxia's body was completely numb and she no longer trembled.The consciousness in the brain is gradually blurring and weakening, and the eyelids are so heavy that it is difficult to open them once they are closed.Although the remaining bit of consciousness told her that if she fell asleep, she would never wake up, but she still wanted to fall asleep and have a sweet dream.
The only concern in her heart is her daughter Yanzi, which made her feel a little bit of pain.The only remaining consciousness shouted loudly in my heart: Swallow, poor swallow
The swallow in sleep seemed to hear her mother calling her, and suddenly woke up.Sleepy-eyed, she called out to her mother, but she didn't hear her answer, and she looked around but couldn't find her.
She looked at the time, it was twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, and her mother should have come back long ago.Pushing open the door, I saw that the sky was full of fog and I couldn't see anything. The fluorescent lights on the tall wooden poles in the yard were like distant stars.
Where is mother?She was frightened, ran down the room crying and crying without clothes, shaking the door panel and calling for Wu Wendou.
Wu Wendou was awakened by the cries of the swallows, and when he opened the door and saw the impenetrable fog, he couldn't help shivering a few times.She said in her heart that something was wrong, something must have happened to Li Qiuxia.
The cry of the swallow also alarmed the people in the fishing village. Several fishermen rushed over to ask, and shook their heads after hearing it.How do you go to the sea to find someone in such a ghostly weather?If they don't make it right, they'll put themselves in it too.
If she didn't look for her, Li Qiuxia would have no hope of surviving.It was up to Wu Wendou to make up his own mind, and no one could say anything, they all smoked in silence, the room was filled with choking smoke and the sound of coughing one after another.
Wu Wendou seems to be seeking an answer from these experienced fishermen: "Is it possible for people to survive in the sea in such a foggy day?"
He only needs an answer, even if it is vague, and he can sit at home and wait for the fog to clear with peace of mind, and he can avoid the punishment of conscience and emotion.
No one spoke.The shivering swallow cried loudly: "Mom is alive, mother is alive, I heard my mother calling me."
Wu Wendou hugged Yanzi into his arms and said, "Don't cry, I'll go find your mother right away."
After the swallows were settled, Wu Wendou walked into the lower room where he lived and left a letter in a small wooden box.By the time he was out in the yard, staring up at the dim fluorescent lights hanging alone in the fog, he had already decided what he was supposed to do.
Several fishermen accompanied Wu Wendou to the pier and helped Wu Wendou recheck that the machine was filled with oil.A person pulled Wu Wendou aside, and kindly reminded that it is enough to fool the child, and if you really want to find it, you have to wait until the morning and the fog clear.
Wu Wendou knew that no one was willing to go out to sea with him to find someone, so he strengthened his belief that it was time to do what a man should do.
This is an explanation to Li Qiuxia and Yanzi, and an explanation to himself.
Wu Wendou sailed the boat carefully and slowly into the sea, without a target or direction, just driving in a daze based on a feeling, he knew which sea area Li Qiuxia often sailed to.
The fog was thick, and the headlights on the boat could only reach less than two meters away.Even though he was quite familiar with this sea area, he still felt chills on his back and fear.
Wu Wendou held the tiller firmly, and kept wiping away the drops of water formed by the mist on his face.Thinking that the hope of finding it is extremely slim, maybe when I see Li Qiuxia again, I will see a corpse that has been soaked in sea water and lost its original appearance, and my heart feels like another piece of flesh has been gouged out, blood dripping and it is difficult to revive.
He once abandoned a woman.
Not long after he and the woman got married, they walked out of the mountains together to work. He didn't expect this to be the beginning of a nightmare.He was tying steel bars on the construction site, and the woman was cooking on the construction site. Although it was hard work, there was still hope in his heart.Work for a few years, save some money, and repair the old house at home.
However, in broad daylight, the contractor pulled the woman into the simple room where he lived alone.The woman pushed and agreed, and the relationship between the two became an open secret.He went to the contractor to argue, but was beaten up by the contractor.
While applying medicine to his wound, the woman persuaded him that he was rich and powerful, so he couldn't afford to provoke him.
Later, women often stayed overnight in the simple room of the contractor.He thought, bear with it, the family is poor, it is not easy to marry a woman.When the bill is settled at the end of the year, I will take the woman back to my hometown and hide far away.
That night, he had something urgent to discuss with a woman, so he plucked up the courage to knock on the door of the contractor's room.The foreman came out cursing and swearing in his clothes. When he saw him, he looked at him contemptuously like an ant.
He submissively proposed to let his woman go back first, and discuss things.The head of the contractor is talking to the air, he and her have not finished their business, and they will let her go back when they are done.
The woman should have heard him come to her, but she didn't come out of that dirty place.At that moment, he felt that he was very small; at that moment, he felt that he should still be a man.
The moment the contractor turned around, he took out the fruit knife in his pocket, and without thinking about it, he stabbed at that stiff back.Once, twice, he didn't bring the fruit knife to hurt people, but to strengthen himself, so as not to be hurt by others.
The contractor fell down, and he ran back to the work shed in a daze for a few seconds, and fled overnight with the little money he had.Going north all the way, I finally came to a small fishing village and settled down at Haisheng's house.
In order not to arouse others' suspicion, when the sea was closed in winter, he went to another place to hide, and came back when spring began.
In the matter of Haisheng and Li Qiuxia's divorce, he couldn't tell who was right and who was wrong.Out of instinct, he felt that Haisheng didn't cherish his woman enough, and he also felt that Li Qiuxia was a bit too much.
Most of the time, he felt that Li Qiuxia was a poor woman.She is a hundred times stronger than her own woman, she should not pull the child alone, she should have a man who loves her and loves her by her side.
In the fog that day, he saw Li Qiuxia tearing at the shrimp net with a harpoon, but he didn't go to stop it.He could feel the anger in that despair.
He just didn't expect that a hole in the shrimp net would ruin Haisheng's fortune.Haisheng wanted to report the crime, but he was frightened. Once the police arrived, he might not be able to hide himself.
He had no choice but to tell Li Qiuxia, hoping that Haisheng would cherish his past feelings and not report the crime, but unexpectedly, he pushed Haisheng to a dead end.He felt that he had hurt someone again.
In the hospital, seeing the strong and strong Haisheng dying, he secretly felt that human life is nothing more than that, but it should not be cruelly deprived of it by others.Isn't the performance of the Haisheng brothers and sisters depriving a person's life in a non-illegal way?The guilt in his heart was relieved a lot.
After Hai fell ill, he had an excuse to stay, instead of hiding like a stray dog in the cold winter.Nowhere is as safe as Li Qiuxia's home, and he can feel the warmth of a family.
After Haisheng died, he should have left, but he didn't know where to go, the days of being homeless were really hard.
Li Qiuxia's body and an eight-horsepower fishing boat stopped him from escaping.One time when she went to sea at night, she accidentally found Li Qiuxia lighting a bright light in the yard.At first, I didn't pay much attention to it, but every time I came back from the sea, I could see the soft light, and then I realized that the lamp was lit for me.
That lamp made him feel warm and made him feel at home all the time, no matter how hard or tired he was, he was willing to do so.Facing the beckoning warm light, he felt very painful and confused. Is this his home?Do I still have the qualifications and rights to own such a home?
Sometimes, he purposely chooses to lose his memory and forget that he is a fugitive.Li Qiuxia and Yanzi brought him too much happiness and stability, which made him feel a sense of responsibility, and he was capable and necessary to bring the same happiness and happiness to the mother and daughter.
Over the past year, although he still lives in the lower house, his relationship with this family has undergone subtle changes.Living in the lower room is just to avoid suspicion, so that the swallow will not be stimulated.At other times, he is more like a master of the house, enjoying everything a man can enjoy.
As cooler weather threatens to freeze fishing boats ashore, this interdependence is about to unravel.Li Qiuxia trusted him completely, and she hinted at him time and time again, pushing him to the cusp of the storm, making it difficult to make a decision and choose.
Leaving means wandering, which is not what Li Qiuxia expects, nor is he willing; staying means giving Li Qiuxia some kind of hope. On the surface, she accepts everything about her, but the truth behind it will harm her.
This sudden fog made him no longer waver.He can't abandon her, he can't lie to her.He tore off a piece of paper from Yanzi's notebook and wrote a few short sentences.If he dies, please send the little money he has accumulated in the past few years back to his hometown according to the address, leaving it to his elderly and poor parents.
He didn't dare to deposit his money in the bank, and he didn't dare to send it to his parents. It was all in that wooden box.
If he is lucky enough to save Li Qiuxia, it will be the glory of his life.Regardless of whether the contractor is dead or alive, there should be a conclusion, explain everything to Li Qiuxia, and then turn himself in.
With a mortal determination he sailed out to sea, into a thick fog.
The fog seemed to be loosening, sometimes dense and sometimes sparse.Wu Wendou's eyes widened, and he searched the sea anxiously.I don't know if this silly woman knows how to save herself. If she finds her earlier, she will have more hope of living.
A gust of wind blew by, and in a gap where the thick fog dissipated, a faint light flashed, which was fleeting, but it was still firmly captured by Wu Wendou, who was highly concentrated.He adjusted the course and called out Li Qiuxia's name loudly.
Li Qiuxia, who was already in a coma, was awakened by familiar and urgent shouts.She heard the chugging sound of the diesel engine on the ship getting closer, and she could vaguely see a ray of light through the fog.
Besides Wu Wendou, who else would venture out to sea in this thick fog to find himself?
A warm current surged through her body from the bottom of her heart, she opened her mouth wide, and even though she couldn't make a sound, there was still a shallow and stiff smile on the corner of her mouth.
(End of this chapter)
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