Ordinary people's rice bowl

Chapter 55 Preoccupied
After returning home, Lao Mu watched his wife and children fall asleep, quietly came to the yard, sat in the moonlight and smoked a suffocating cigarette, staring at the pomegranate tree in the yard, the flowers had turned pale under the moonlight, Looking up at the last quarter moon in the middle of the night, he didn't feel sleepy at all.

In school, Tian Cheng's study was far inferior to his own, and because of this he lost the opportunity to enter a higher school. Even if he studied well, he didn't see his own greatness, especially when he heard Tian Cheng's life plan just now, and compared himself with Tian Cheng In Tiancheng's heart, he was filled with the people of the whole village, and he wanted to take advantage of the wind of reform to benefit the people. From this point of view, he and Tian Cheng were no longer on the same starting line, and he was only on the three-foot podium. Kid King, what else can you do?The ancients said "I am born to be useful". It seems that this statement is really penetrating. Everyone has their own strengths, and this strength is their own advantage. What is the high-achieving students of Peking University and Tsinghua University, but there are also a few who have been promoted to universities. This is what I am proud of.But Tian Cheng is different, he not only does a good job in serving the villagers, but also leads them to become rich, what a noble spirit.As Lao Mu thought about it, he admired this little brother who usually respected his big brother from the bottom of his heart.

"I want to avenge you, I want to avenge you!" The son's ravings from the ear room pulled Lao Mu back to his thoughts, and Lao Mu heard it clearly, not only asking himself: "Who is the son avenging for?" Mu understood the truth of thinking day by day and dreaming at night. He suddenly remembered Tian Cheng's words to remind him to care about his son. Could it be that his son had an incomprehensible relationship with others at school? If Tian Cheng knew about this, he would definitely tell him Yanming, why not just say it?

Old Mu couldn't figure it out, Mu Zhen was a bit afraid of trouble since she was a child, and never caused trouble outside, so how could she make trouble with others?Old Mu felt that Tian Cheng might be overthinking, or he might be overthinking himself.Old Mu remembered the scars on Mu Zhen's face when it rained that day, it seemed that what Tian Cheng said was not unreasonable, if there was nothing wrong, why did Mu Zhen go to school and come back with injuries on her face, if it was true as Mu Zhen's explanation, this is He touched it, so why didn't there be any traces on his body? At this time, Lao Mu thought about it, regained his energy, and he walked to Mu Zhen's window lightly, and looked at Mu Zhen who was sleeping through the window under the moonlight, and suddenly felt something was wrong in his heart keep it from yourself.

Lao Mu took another puff of his cigarette, and puffed out the smoke. The smoke seemed a little faint under the moonlight, and it slowly dispersed.In the smoke, Lao Mu let go of his thoughts.In fact, human beings are like this smoke, which comes and goes quietly without leaving any traces. This is a person's life.Everyone came to this world for a while, what did they gain, power?money?desire?Rich?In fact, they all left with nothing in the end, and Lao Mu remembered the "Good Song" in "A Dream of Red Mansions". No matter what power, wealth, money, or beauty you were born with, in the end, when you left At that time, nothing was yours, and everything disappeared with your departure.

man!We are born to do the things in front of us well, don't care about personal gains and losses, the important thing is to leave the spirit behind, and be able to guide the direction for future generations. This is a saint, this is a great man, and we are all ordinary people, so naturally we are not so grand Ambition, what ordinary people want is a golden rice bowl, an iron rice bowl, even such a small request, and they have to fight for it for a lifetime, for half a century, and it is uncertain what they will get in the end?
The more Lao Mu thought about it, the more confused he became. What should he do next?What should an ordinary person do?In front of his job, he really lost his way and lost the word "true" in his heart.

Old Mu stubbed out the cigarette butt that was about to burn his hands, then went back into the room, drank a glass of cold water, lay down on the bed, and soon there was a new snoring sound.

(End of this chapter)