The Happy Life of Small Officials in Northern Song Dynasty

Su Jin didn't know how to describe his mood. Simple anger, sadness, disappointment, and depression could no longer express his inner feelings; is this the Song Dynasty in his impression?I once thought that this was an era of prosperity like a dream, elegant and exquisite. With my own efforts and some advantages, I could live a healthy life in this era. His dream is about to be shattered.

Su Jin didn't know when her life became so bad. Everyone around her was living a comfortable life, but all she encountered was trouble. Why?

After deliberation, Su Jin understood the crux of the problem. The reason for this situation was the uncompromising character brought by her later generations.

In charge of Su Ji Industry, if he hadn't chosen to fight against the Chamber of Commerce, then he would not have been imprisoned later, and he would not have been in trouble with the prefect of Luzhou and the big bosses of the Chamber of Commerce.

When I met Yan Biyun, if I could calmly retreat after knowing Yan Biyun's identity, and didn't entrap myself in it, I wouldn't have the situation like today; what happened to Xia Siling, if I knew that she was a daughter from the beginning Choosing to stay at a respectful distance won't hurt the woman's heart and make her cry away.

Su Jin fell into a kind of contradiction. The reluctance in her character to be restrained made her incompatible with the code of conduct of this era. If she adapts to it, her life will get better and better. Of course, the depression in her heart is inevitable. Like now, the two choices given by Yan Shu, there is no doubt that if Su Jin compromises, the official career will be prosperous in the future, and the future will be bright. Since then, she has endured the humiliation and self-blame in her heart.

If there is no compromise, the future of Su Jin can be foreseen, an era in which power can be turned into clouds and rain, and the fate of the little people depends on the eyes of those in power.

Su Jin asked himself: Was it wrong for me not to compromise with the chamber of commerce, avenge my father, and fight for the right to life?Of course you are!I fell in love with a woman, and this woman also likes me, is this also wrong?Of course you are!The fault is that one's own behavior has touched the self-interest of others.

The chamber of commerce wants to monopolize the murders and set fires, collude with the government, exploit the common people, and cover up bandits, so their actions are not tolerated by them; and the reason why Yan Shu can propose such a choice is nothing more than the fact that falling in love with Yan Biyun will greatly damage his reputation , the opponents in the court will use this to attack him, so that the black yarn on his head will not be guaranteed.

All of this is due to self-interest. Su Jin's current dilemma is only because he is just a commoner. Faced with this kind of oppression, Su Jin is powerless to resist.

"Su Jin, make your decision quickly. I will return to Beijing immediately, and Biyun will follow me back to Beijing, but I don't have time to spend time here with you. Actually, this choice is not difficult at all." Yan Shu reminded.

Su Jin sighed, looked up at Yan Shu and said, "Master Yan, the choice is actually very simple for me, but before that, I have a few words to ask Mr. Yan."

Yan Shu's expression was indifferent, he took a sip of tea and said, "Say, I never listen to nonsense, so I will make an exception for you today."

Su Jin smiled slightly and said, "Then I have to thank you for your generosity. What I want to ask is, do you really love Miss Yan?"

Yan Shu said: "Nonsense, she is my most beloved niece, and I regard her as my own, not even my own children."

Su Jindao: "Master Yan, do you know what is a woman's greatest wish in life?"

Yan Shu said: "Women... I haven't thought about this, you come and tell me."

Su Jin said: "My lord is avoiding it. In fact, my lord knows better than anyone else. Those boudoir poems written by my lord have deeply probed into a woman's heart. Since my lord didn't say anything, I will explain it clearly for my lord, as the saying goes." Men are afraid of getting into the wrong profession, and women are afraid of marrying the wrong man' This statement is not unreasonable. A woman's greatest wish is probably to find a good wife, a stable and happy husband and child, and spend a lifetime. Throughout the ages, boudoir words have been bitter. There are quite a few of them, whether they are parting from love, or feeling distressed, or encountering unkind people, without exception, they are all related to men, does Lord Yan think so?"

Yan Shu said: "It seems to make sense, but what do you mean by saying this?"

Su Jin said: "I want to expose your hypocrisy, Lord Yan. What you said about loving Ms. Yan is empty words. Ms. Yan died before she was married. She is an unmarried woman. If you don't try your best as her uncle Dealing with the Pang family to break up this fictitious marriage contract, but allowing Ms. Yan to waste her beautiful youth. From 16 to 21 years old, a woman's best time is gone in vain. How many five years are there in life? How many 16-year-olds, 17-year-olds?"

Unexpectedly, Yan Shu did not get angry, and quietly listened to Su Jin's words.

"You swear that you love Ms. Yan, but in fact, all you care about is your reputation and the black yarn on your head; you choose to turn a blind eye because you are afraid that Ms. Yan will break off the engagement and marry someone else to you. Master Yan, whom everyone admires, is smeared, from the bottom of his heart, you are not loving Miss Yan, you are loving yourself."

"If you really love her, with your Lord Yan's power, no matter how powerful the Pang family is, there is no room for maneuver in this matter. It's not that you can't, but you just don't want to do it; watching your niece Qingchun gradually It’s hard to imagine how you can drink and write lyrics with peace of mind, and I even suspect that those lyrics you wrote are all groaning and posturing, because people like you who ignore other people’s sufferings are not worthy of writing such moving lyrics Come."

"When Ms. Yan met me, and I fell in love with her, you didn't bless us, happy for the niece you said you loved the most, but interfered, threatened me and forced me to give up, this is the true reflection of your heart , you are afraid, you are afraid that our love will bring you unnecessary troubles, you are afraid that people say that there is a woman in the family who is not disciplined, you are afraid that your political opponents will attack you because of this, you are afraid that the emperor will punish you for this matter. You, but have you ever thought about what will happen to Biyun? Is it possible that you will be so old for the rest of your life, and you will still be alone when your hair is full of gray hair, and you will not be able to experience the life journey that a woman should have? You are not afraid that your niece will regret it. Lifelong? Are you so selfish that you can ruin the life of your loved ones just for your own favor and face?"

Su Jin's tone was fierce, trembling all over, and there was a sense of grief and indignation in his heart. Go all out, today is going to go all out, he must obey the call of his heart, even if the emperor is sitting opposite him, he has already died once, for these words The consequences are no longer important.

Yan Shu listened quietly to Su Jin's words, looked at Su Jin's excited white face and lips, remained calm, and only asked, "But what is your choice?"

Su Jin shouted angrily: "My choice is not to compromise! Unless Ms. Yan personally tells me that she will never see me again, I will never let you succeed."

Yan Shu said, "Don't be too impulsive. Young people shouldn't be so hasty when they speak and do things. Do you know what your decision means?"

Su Jin laughed loudly, and said madly: "At most, it's death. People are always going to die. I'm not afraid of death. What can you do to me?"

Yan Shu said: "You can give up your life for a woman? Don't you think your life is too boring?"

Su Jin bared her teeth and said with a smile: "You won't understand me. I'm not afraid of death not because of Miss Yan, but because of my heart. A person whose heart has been suppressed and distorted lives like a pile of rotten meat. I don't want to do it." That pile of stinky meat, so I am not afraid of how you deal with me, I obey the call of my heart."

Yan Shu laughed loudly, got up and applauded endlessly, his eyes sparkled; Su Jin looked at Yan Shu in a daze, wondering what the hell this guy was doing.

"Yun girl, come out, this kid has passed the test." Yan Shu laughed.

In astonishment, Su Jin saw that the curtain leading to the compartment was lifted slightly, and Yan Biyun, whose face was full of tears, was standing there beautifully.

Su Jin suddenly understood what was going on, opened his mouth in a daze, and shouted in his heart: "Damn, I fell for this old man."