Dragon Clan: Returning from Rebirth, My God Lu Mingfei Tu preaches the Tao

Chapter 375 I Have No Heart 】

The entire basement fell into an atmosphere of silence.

Everyone wants to do their best to speak out what is in their hearts, but they don't know how to speak.The cutting is constant, and the reasoning is still chaotic.

This tragedy has twisted into a knot, from which no one can get their own relief.

Yuan Zhisheng smoked silently, and the white smoke curled up, permeating the entire basement.

He felt that what the young girl said was correct.

The previous scenes of kabuki were specially performed by Yuanzhinv for him, and Yuanzhi knew it from those scenes of kabuki.He was wrong.

In his heart, he always thought that this evil spirit killed his younger brother, that's why the childish girl committed such atrocities.

But it wasn't until Yuan Zhisheng learned from those kabuki that the girl has always been the girl. From the beginning, there was no so-called evil spirit, and there was no so-called Kazama Ruri. Said to have fallen into another illusion.

But in the same basement, Yuan Zhisheng pierced his younger brother Zhinv's heart with the long knife in his hand.

I can't imagine how much the childish girl hates him these years. This hatred may have been distorted into reality. What exactly does he need to say and do to untie this knot? Now he feels that no matter what he does, he will never be untied. Do not open this knot.

However, in another dream, Yuan Zhisheng saw another side of his younger brother or another life of the other party in that shrine.

so good……

In that life, the young girl found the meaning of her own life.He is no longer inferior or sensitive. His life is full of direction. This direction guides him and allows him to seek the beauty that belongs to him. He has become the priest of the shrine, and he is destined to become a person admired by the villagers in the future.

If everything that happened before was really just a mistake, then Yuan Zhisheng just solved the mistake in a simple and rude way.Doesn't the young girl feel pain in her heart for the murders she has committed?After all, the other party is a sensitive and kind child. After knowing the atrocities he has committed, won't he feel distorted in his heart?

It was this distortion that caused the young girl to fall into a very crazy state.

Yuan Zhisheng could fully imagine this scene. As an elder brother, not only did he not protect his younger brother properly, but when the other party made a mistake that he didn't even know about, his elder brother just pierced his heart with a long knife.

This will solve all problems once and for all.

This kind of behavior made the young girl feel desperate.

In the rest of his life, the atrocities he had committed would produce horrible memories over and over again in his heart, and he couldn't get rid of them at all, and he would fall into a twisted and painful vortex every day. Life is like living in hell.

Ridiculous, really ridiculous, before Yuan Zhisheng even hoped to be forgiven by Yuan Zhinv, now it seems that his thoughts are really naive.

For a person who has always been living in the abyss of pain, it may be a miracle that the person he once hated so much did not directly attack him with a knife.

"Yuanzhisheng, why don't you speak? Are you feeling sad? Haha, isn't your heart always firm as a rock? You are the patriarch of the Snake Ba Family, and you are the emperor in the darkness of this country. How can you allow that?" What about your own weakness?
Stop acting that hypocritical and hateful look, Yuan Zhisheng, show your determination to stab me to death in this basement, that is the real you.

Stop pretending!

If you continue to pretend, it will only break the last sliver of my fantasy about you, and even the last sliver of goodwill will be wiped out. "

Yuan Zhinv walked around Yuan Zhisheng step by step, like an actor, a sarcastic actor.

He intends to use the most vicious language, like a knife piercing Yuan Zhisheng's heart again and again, he wants to make this man feel extreme pain, just like what this man did to him back then.

However, Yuan Zhisheng did not speak from beginning to end, even the expression between his brows did not change, he was just smoking a cigarette, the white smoke made his stern face looming.

"Children..."

After a long silence, Yuan Zhisheng finally spoke.

He called out to the boy in front of him.

But this call made Yuan Zhinv slightly shocked, because the man's tone was very similar to the way he used to call him to get up in the morning. This long-lost feeling made him feel a little bit in a trance.

The female hummed subconsciously, as if responding to the man's call.

He stopped talking, just stared at Yuan Zhisheng in a daze.

"Children, in fact, we were able to meet, especially with Ming Fei's help, we were able to temporarily reconcile, I am really happy, really.

At that time, I felt that although we would no longer have the same brotherhood as usual, at least we would not face each other with swords and swords, and we would not fight each other on opposing positions like the elders and the Dragon King until the last drop of blood was shed.I dare not expect that we can be as usual, but occasionally we may have a meal together, go fishing together, or when you perform Kabuki on the stage, I can sit in the audience and enjoy silently , maybe that's enough for me.

When I thoroughly understood everything in this dream, and understood all the tragedies that happened to you, I realized how naive and ridiculous my fantasies were.I even feel ashamed now.I was wrong, and it was ridiculously wrong.

It was I who abandoned you in this basement, and it was I who made you feel miserable and hopeless in the deepest hell.

But please believe that my heart is also very painful these years. I even struggle every day. In the end, I am exhausted. I just want to escape from this place, escape from Tokyo city, escape from Japan, escape to France, go to that beach to sell me Sunscreen, because I dare not face the past, and I dare not face you again.

I was a coward from birth. When I pierced your heart with such determination in the basement and wanted to kill you impatiently, it was actually a sign of my cowardice, because only that would make me naively think that Ended that pain, avenged you, and implemented the justice in my heart.

But these years, in the dead of night, I discovered that I have not been relieved, my heart is full of pain, and I am already scarred. "

Yuan Zhisheng told all this slowly, as if he was talking to himself, but also as if he was pouring out his true feelings to his younger brother.

"Hahahahahaha... Yuan Zhisheng, are you joking here? Or do you think you can impress me with such words and make me regain my love for your brother.

Yuan Zhisheng, you are already a mature patriarch, you have almost become the emperor of the whole of Japan, can you stop speaking in such a playful tone.

In fact, sometimes I also think about it.

If you had taken me away and left Shikatori Town, the two of us worked hard together in Tokyo, even if our life was a little bit harder, but as long as we brothers are always together, guarding each other and relying on each other, wouldn’t I not fall? For today's evil spirits? "

The childish girl said in a leisurely tone.

In a sense, Yuan Zhisheng's words just now caused ripples in his heart and touched the deepest part of his heart.

If Yuan Zhisheng really had the determination to take him away instead of leaving him alone in the town, would there be a very different ending?
It should be...

When Yuan Zhinv worshiped her brother so much, Yuan Zhisheng was everything to him. Yuan Zhisheng would do whatever he asked him to do, and he would not do what he was told not to do. How could he become a villain like this?

But thinking about Yuan Zhinv's heart was full of ridicule.

It's too late, it's really too late, it's meaningless to say these things now, if he approves of Yuan Zhisheng's words, doesn't it mean that he is as funny as Yuan Zhisheng?
That's funny, who can change the time and change the past?Unless you don't know what happened at the beginning, even if you are a person, he can really change the past and go back to the past, but if you already know what happened in the past, can you really go back to the past?
The answer is definitely not.

Facts are facts, the cold facts are there, like iron rules, no one can shake them!

Thinking of this, Yuan Zhinv suddenly felt very irritable. He looked at Yuan Zhisheng, and said in a roaring tone:
"Yuanzhisheng, I am no longer the former Yuanzhi girl, don't speak to me in that tone anymore, I am not your younger brother, don't preach to me, what is my fate? It is not your turn to help me Pointing fingers.

Regardless of whether you took me out of the town before, I am me, and I have many choices, why should I follow behind you?I want to be the king of kabuki, and I want people all over Japan and even the whole world to be intoxicated by my singing and dancing.I want everyone to know that it is not me who wants to be attached to you, but you who want to be worthy of me.

Yuan Zhisheng, after talking so much, don't you just want to win?Don't you just want to get out of my dream?You used to be like this, you always thought you were going to win, you always exuded a very annoying, inexplicable confidence about you.But in my opinion, that is simply hypocrisy, and even more a sign of lack of self-confidence..."

Yuan Zhinv's tone was very cold, he changed from a crazy actor to that noble concubine who walked out of the ages in a blink of an eye, it seems that he has seen all the joys and sorrows in this world, and also seen all the so-called emotions in this world .

But isn't this so-called calmness a kind of extreme spiritual distortion?

"Brother, do you want to know how I lived alone in the small town after you left? Come on, come on, let me tell you now, when you were here before, our drunk mother was always there Exploit us, but back then you could work and earn money, and he could get some money from here to buy wine anyway.

But after you left, he kept exploiting me. My strength itself is weak, and I don't have your cheerful personality, or even various excellent conditions, so I can't make any money. The alcoholic adoptive father was so displeased with it that I would be whipped with a cane every day.

Those vines broke one after another, and they lashed my body desperately. I was beaten to pieces, but I gritted my teeth and didn't cry for help, because I knew that the more I shouted, the more I cried. The harder he hits, the harder he hits.

A few times I even felt that I would be beaten to death by him. At that time, no, I was terribly scared during that time.

I have had nightmares every night since then, dreaming that this alcoholic adoptive father suddenly rushed into the bedroom, strangled me, threw me into the freezing wind and rain, and took off all my clothes.

And this is just one of the injustices I have been treated in the small town, even a trivial one.

When I was with you before, because of your halo, although I was mediocre, at least those classmates would not do anything bad to me, but since you left, they will have the resentment they received, those The discomfort in my heart was all imposed on me. Several times I was blocked in the toilet by them and beat me.Even those so-called teachers couldn't speak for me, I could see disgust in their eyes.

Yes, it's disgusting, like the kind that sees a very disgusting bug crawling in front of them, even if the most disgusting bug is covered in bruises and will die at any time, they will not have any sympathy , They will even hide away, for fear of disgusting themselves, and even the kind of grumpy ones who will step on it and explode directly.

It can be said that since you left, my world has become a disaster, and this small town is the so-called hell. I live in hell every day, enduring everyone's beatings and making things difficult for me.But I am not desperate. Every time I am injured, I will return to our secret base, where no one or anything can disturb my peace. There is Kabuki, which I like very much, and I repeat it over and over again Listening and watching, imitating over and over again, and getting unimaginable happiness from it.

Actually brother, do you know?I didn't hate it from the beginning to the end, and I didn't even treat those people in the small town with much hatred.Even if I had the power, I wouldn't kill them, because I think they just don't understand me, so in my part of the fantasy, my subconscious thought, is that my Kabuki performance is very ecstatic, and they are all for it I was moved, and later they all respected me and admired me, and I also gained satisfaction and happiness from this.

It can be said that in my deepest dream, I did not complain, nor did I have the so-called pleasure of killing them after gaining strength. I just showed my superb performance of kabuki and made them admire and eager for me. And a care that cannot be ignored.

Brother, this is the real me. I am not a ghost from the beginning to the end, but you are the only one in this world, and you are the only one who treats me as a ghost, and even kills me in the end, throwing me into the deepest hell , My body has been cold all these years, and I can never keep warm.

Because I have no heart at all, my brother. "

In the cold basement, Yuan Zhinv said in a leisurely tone, like a female ghost who has been dead for many years, telling her life mournfully.

Yuan Zhisheng stopped talking, he really didn't know what to say, he just felt that he was about to suffocate.

(End of this chapter)