Entertainment: Mysterious Girlfriend

Chapter 7 [10] That feeling came back
"Yi Hang, Yi Hang, look at me... what's wrong with you..." In a trance, I felt a sound hovering above the roof. At this moment, the familiar voice was deafening to me.

"Hello, is it 120..." "Don't call 120, and don't talk..." I tried my best to say this.Every word I uttered seemed to drain some of my strength and ache my muscles.

Guan Mulin didn't talk to me again, I vaguely felt that he was hugging me.I didn't think much about it, I just kept looking for a slightly more comfortable position to curl up in.I felt drops of wet liquid dripping down my face, it was very hot.

I don't know how long it took, but I finally got better.I was covered in cold sweat, he hugged me tightly, at this moment my hand didn't even have the strength to clenched a fist. "Don't be afraid, I'm fine..." I stroked his face lightly, his eyes were red with tears dripping down.

"Anxiety, not heart disease." I closed my eyes again, trying to save myself a little energy. "Yi Hang, it's all my fault." "It's not your fault, but you can't carry two people out here in one day."

The next day, Xi Zhangying, as a "sister", asked for leave to accompany me to the only hospital here.After the initial diagnosis, the doctor judged that it was indeed an acute anxiety outbreak.

After prescribing the medicine and sitting in the car, Xi Zhangying handed me water and asked me to drink the medicine first. "Did you get scared yesterday?" "Hmm..." "You should cultivate well. If you need anything, you can send me a message."

"Sister Ying, Xia Lin..." Xi Zhangying seemed a little displeased when I mentioned this name. "She's fine, don't worry. She's getting an infusion in the hospital now, and she'll be fine in a few days after anti-inflammatory." She said to take me to eat something, but I couldn't eat.She had to send me back to the hotel.

I am terrified of these medicines because every time I start taking them again, I have to re-accept my body to their side effects.I don't want to go back to the chaotic state where I can't create, I can't think every day.

Because I hadn't eaten, my stomach hurt so bad after I just took the medicine that I was rolling on the bed.My mind kept flashing back to Xia Lin's bloody wrist and the blood-stained beads.

But that piece of blood also released the fear that I had shut up.I will never forget the moment when I found countless nude photos of girls in the hard drive of my ex-boyfriend.Among them, including me.

Whenever I wander in my sleep late at night, I always dream that people I know look at me strangely.I dreamed that they were whispering together, talking about my body.He didn't cheat, he didn't love anyone.

In his eyes, we are just data one after another, just fools one after another.It's just, one after another, the prey shared among those groups.I can't accept that he discusses my mental illness with others in a proud tone, as if it proves how powerful his personality is.

Any creature that uses PUA to play with others is, in my opinion, a poor worm who has never had any real good intentions.

I thought about drawing, but my hand couldn't hold the pen.Back again, this feeling came back again.Everything is just to cover up that he is a poor creature who cannot escape from the sense of fear and powerlessness.

I sat on the ground and lit a cigarette, and I didn't have the strength to go to the bathroom to turn on the ventilation.I just let the smoke hang around me, and I don't want to see anything anymore.

Tear off the failed painting from the table, throw it into the trash can, and throw the cigarette butt in it.I watched it ignite the drawing paper with my own eyes, ignited the fire inside, and then the burning ashes floated up little by little, and flew out.I don't know why, I just want to burn it.

"Yi Hang! Open the door Yi Hang!" Suddenly Guan Mulin's voice came from outside the door, so I had to move tremblingly to the door. I felt my feet were so numb. For some reason, my tongue was not only numb, but also felt from the inside out. Chill out.

A puff of white smoke rushed out of the door, and I suddenly realized that there was so much smoke in the room.Guan Mulin rushed in, opened a bottle of mineral water and poured it in. "Yi Hang, if I come in one minute late, the fire alarm may go off!" "I'm sorry..." I have no feeling or awareness of this matter.I just want to destroy this thing that can't be drawn anymore.

Guan Mulin immediately went to the bathroom to turn on the exhaust, then came back and hugged me tightly, and gently ran his hands through my hair. "Yihang, I won't let you have trouble... No..." "Guan Mulin, you don't have to feel guilty. You don't know me yet. The composition of people is complicated." After I finished speaking, I sat down on the sofa.

Stepping on the coffee table with bare feet, the smooth glass touch makes me feel that these feet are still mine.But it's a bit like being drunk or numb, this touch is always unreal.

"Guan Mulin, I want to go home." I murmured. "You wait for me for another two days, and I can send you back." "I want to go home now." I felt that my consciousness had drifted away.

"Yi Hang, it's not safe for you to go by yourself now, I don't worry." He sat next to me and gently put his arms around me. "Did you not eat, I brought you something light, eat some." "I can't eat." "Just two bites, you still need to take medicine."

I just realized that he had a bag when he came in.He picked up a chopstick of green vegetables and fed them to my mouth, so I had no choice but to swallow them.But immediately started retching.He distressedly helped me smooth my hair and put the broken hair behind my ears.It's hard for me to make any expression now, my body hurts so much.

"When you got sick yesterday, I thought about many possibilities. I finally found out that I couldn't accept any of them." He held my face in his hands and asked me to look at him. "I can't accept that you leave me in any way." Guan Mulin's eyes were always red.

"Guan Mulin, I'm in so much pain." I couldn't cry, as if my lacrimal gland had been cut off by life, I could only say some inexplicable words.He took my hand and interlocked my fingers.His palm is very warm, like when he took me down the sandy mountain that day.

"Scared, aren't you?" He held me in his arms and patted my back gently. "Well..." "Don't be afraid, I'll be with you." He took my cigarettes and lighter away in my pocket, "I won't smoke anymore, we won't smoke anymore." I Without retorting, she rested her head on his chest.

"I don't need to film today, I will accompany you today, okay?" I leaned into his arms and nodded.As if I were an animal and he was my keeper, I felt extra safe.

Didn't sleep much last night, always woken up with a panic attack.He carried me to the bed and lay down with me, tucked into a quilt.The couch he slept on last night was not in bed with me at all.I blushed and turned my back to him. "I don't want to lie down with you..."

He didn't bother, he just put his arms around my waist and hugged me. "Go to sleep, don't worry, I won't do anything to you while others are in danger." Seeing that he did not make any other movements, I closed my eyes uncontrollably, my eyelids were so heavy.

I don't know how long it took, but I woke up in a daze.It seems that I have not entered deep sleep.In the dream, it seems that someone has been chasing me, and I have been running.But no matter how hard I ran, I couldn’t escape, and I felt a deep sense of powerlessness, "My stomach hurts..." His big hand pressed on this part of my stomach, "Help you warm." He actually didn't sleep, After he finished speaking, his head rested on my shoulder.

I leaned obediently in his arms and finally felt a little more relaxed. "Yi Hang." "Huh?" "You can trust me." I smiled and didn't speak.

In the evening, Guan Mulin went out on business.I drove to the hospital again, although the doctor said that I was not advised to drive in this situation.I think I must look very distraught now.

About going to the hospital, I didn't say hello to Guan Mulin or Xi Zhangying, they would definitely stop me.I went to the inpatient department and looked from ward to ward in the corridor, trying to find out where Xia Lin was.After all, this hospital is so small, it is estimated that the inpatient department will not be very large.

When I was about to give up, I noticed that there was a single ward with people who looked like Xia Lin.I leaned on the glass of the door and squinted my eyes to look carefully. It was indeed her, with layers of gauze wrapped around her wrist.There was another person inside, and I was hesitant to knock on the door,
But then the door opened. "Who are you looking for?" A man who appeared to be in his 30s came out, probably her staff member. "I..." "Let her in." Hearing Xia Lin's voice, the man looked back and motioned for me to go in. He went out and closed the door.

The disinfectant in the room smelled very strong, so I put the bunch of sunflowers I brought on her desk.It is really difficult to buy flowers here at night, I ran to several places. "Xia Lin, are you better?" I sat on the chair next to her, and I didn't know what to say in this embarrassing situation.

Her face was pale, her lips were bloodless, and her hair was disheveled.An intravenous drip was attached to one hand, and the bracelet on the other cut wrist disappeared. "I can't die. Why did you come here?" I dug out from my bag the scar-removing medicine I just bought from the hospital pharmacy, which was the kind Guan Mulin gave me before. "Here's this for you. I'll use it when your wound heals." Her eyes fell on the medicine box, she suddenly smiled, and then tears fell.

"It seems that you are really his girlfriend." I looked at her suspiciously. "I used to buy this kind of medicine for him, because he was always injured. Before, I suspected that he was just trying to make me give up, and he just found someone to lie to me." She looked at me with blank eyes. "I..." I actually wanted to explain our relationship.But I was afraid that if I said it, it would cause trouble for Guan Mulin.So I still didn't say it.

"Don't trust Xi Zhangying." She said this suddenly.Xi Zhangying? "Why?" "You don't need to know." She closed her eyes again and didn't talk to me again.I had to get up and leave, closing the door of the ward.

(End of this chapter)