departure tomorrow

Chapter 61 Strange Life

Su Nan swiped the screen boredly with her mobile phone, alas, what should I do...

Zhu Hao had school activities in the afternoon, so he didn't have time to talk to her. Xu Linlin went to another place to participate in a dance competition, Wang Lihui was in school, and both parents went to work.

Su Nan sighed and sat on the bed, it was rainy today, Su Nan looked up at the pattering rain.

I don't know when, Su Nan's knee hurts when it rains, Su Nan touched her knee, alas, that's all, let it be.

Su Nan looked out the window in a daze.

When is the head.

"Have a chat?"

The hero blocked Su Nan's dazed sight.

"What are you talking about?" Su Nan looked away.

"About you." The hero sat beside Su Nan.

"I'm fine." Su Nan looked at the hero.

"Aren't you tired?" The hero looked at Su Nan.

Su Nan suddenly couldn't speak.

"Very tired." The hero sighed.

"Why are you sighing?" Su Nan lowered her head.

"Because..." The hero thought for a while, "I don't know, it's just inexplicable..."

"Me too... I'm so tired for no reason..." Su Nan stared at the scar on her wrist.

"Have you thought about starting over?" Da Xia asked.

"How do I start over? Those memories are lingering in my mind like a brand, how do I start over?" Su Nan looked up at the hero.

"Then you're still persuading people in the same way, saying that you have to start over." The hero joked.

"Everyone knows how to persuade others, but I can't do it myself, alas." Su Nan shook her head, "Ah, these days, do you know what is the saddest thing?"

"what?"

"Things that I don't want to recall during the day will reappear in my dreams at night." Su Nan sighed, "It's as if the light hits others, and it becomes cloudy forever for me. .”

"You still have to have some hope in life, so that you can continue to live." The hero advised Su Nan.

"If you have hope, you will be disappointed, so it's better to have no hope. This way of life will be called a surprise," Su Nan said.

"It seems to make sense." The hero nodded. "Why do you always feel that you are living your life day by day, and you have no expectations at all." The hero asked Su Nan.

"Why should there be expectations? In that case, you will be very sad if things don't meet your expectations." Su Nan explained.

"Oh, you're right."

"If you can't talk, don't talk." Su Nan reprimanded the hero.

"Good good."

"It's really strange." Su Nan said suddenly.

"what happened?"

"The so-called life." Su Nan frowned, "Tell me, what is the purpose of living?"

"For...the parents who have worked so hard all their lives...for...the wish from childhood to adulthood...for...the so-called happiness..." Daxia thought seriously.

"For others?" Su Nan was puzzled.

"Then you can't be so selfish and live only for yourself?" Da Xia said.

"Why can't you live for yourself?"

"If it were you, living only for yourself, I might be talking to you at your grave." The hero smiled.

"You can pull it down, am I such a fragile person?" Su Nan gave the hero a blank look.

"Are you sure?" The hero looked at Su Nan's wrist.

"Okay, it seems to make sense." Su Nan accepted his fate.

"Aren't you just living hard for those?" The hero knows everything about Su Nan.

"Tell me, why am I?" Su Nan didn't believe it.

"Those who love you and the people you love." The hero said flatly, "You are really strange, obviously, those people dragged you into the abyss, but you just took these as salvation. "

"Those who bully me? How could I regard them as salvation." Su Nan said quickly, "Okay, okay, I know what you are talking about, but no one is perfect, no one is perfect."

"You always think like this, that's why it's like this now." The hero accused Su Nan.

"Think about it this way, if I live, I am the only one who is sad, but if I die, I am happy, but they are the ones who are sad." Su Nan explained seriously.

"Su Nan, sometimes you can be selfish. Of course, I'm not telling you to commit suicide. I mean you can... um... Anyway, sometimes you have to do it for yourself." The hero didn't know What did you say.

"If possible, I really want to leave, but I'm really scared, death is just a new beginning." Su Nan sighed.

"What do you mean?" Daxia didn't understand.

"What if there is a reincarnation? Isn't that equivalent to living again and experiencing pain again?" Su Nan said.

"In case there is a reincarnation, what you should believe is that everything will start again, which is a good start." The hero persuaded Su Nan.

"But I don't believe it anymore, like... I don't think life can be happy." Su Nan looked up at the hero, "Everything I've experienced tells me that you won't be happy."

"Su Nan, everything will be fine." The hero comforted Su Nan.

"I hope." Su Nan lowered her head again. "Then what do you think the life of a normal person is like?"

"Well, I successfully completed kindergarten, elementary school, junior high school, high school, and university. After graduation, I worked in an ordinary company, married an ordinary person, had children, and then slowly died of old age." The hero thought for a while, "This is what ordinary people do. For the rest of your life."

"But how many people can do it." Su Nan continued, "Is it really the life of an ordinary person? Then I am destined to be unworthy."

"You have to think this way, you are destined to be an extraordinary person." The hero couldn't think of how to explain it.

"You really know how to comfort people." Su Nan smiled.

"That's it, thank you, hero." Su Nan smiled and watched the hero disappear slowly.

Only Su Nan was left again.

Looking at the empty room, the rain outside the window is still falling.

When will this rain stop?
The rain will stop, life is also a matter of time.

"Drip drip."

Su Nan turned on the phone, it was Zhu Hao.

Zhu Hao: The event is over, what is Xiaobao doing?

Su Nan smiled, it really is a nickname every day.

Su Nan: Your little treasure is watching the rain.

Zhu Hao: Why are you looking at the rain? Look at me.

The glib one was indeed Zhu Hao.

Su Nan: Look at your size.

Zhu Hao: Don't just look at the head, look at the body too.

Hehehe, Su Nan smirked.

Su Nan: Rogue.

Zhu Hao: Alright, I won’t tease you anymore, today’s event went super smoothly, thanks to you.

Su Nan was puzzled.

Su Nan: Me?

Zhu Hao: Because you are my lucky star.

Su Nan suddenly felt warm in his heart.

Su Nan: Yo, sweet mouth, then I'll take it seriously.

Zhu Hao: It's really a treasure.

Hehehe, alas, Su Nan was really lucky to meet Zhu Hao.

Su Nan: Okay, okay, you are also my lucky star.

Zhu Hao: Alright, my lucky star, I'll go back to the dormitory first.

Su Nan: Good.

Putting down the phone, Su Nan didn't seem to be so sad, who cares, life and death are also a matter of the future, just live well now.

This strange life, let's go on.

(End of this chapter)