deliberate kiss

Chapter 302
His body was deteriorating due to Lin Xuansu's poisoning day and night before, and the time left was running out, he knew it very well.

He also thought very clearly, if it really came to the day when the oil ran out, he didn't want to hurt Lin Xuansu.

She has already suffered a lot in her life because of him, if possible, he doesn't want her to suffer any more.

Everything is his own fault, he has no right to blame her.

But probably because of the alcohol, he actually developed a bit of courage, and walked towards the door that he had never pushed open.

The lights in the room had already been extinguished. In such a deep night, Zhou Bingquan pushed open the door for the first time through drunkenness.

On the other side of that door was the only woman he had ever loved in his life.

Even in the eyes of the latter, he is so unbearable.

Lin Xuansu couldn't remember how long she hadn't had a good night's sleep, or in other words, since the Lin family tree fell and the monkeys dispersed, it has become a luxury for her to not wake up from a good dream.

She woke up almost the moment Zhou Bingquan's footsteps sounded.

She sat on the bed, watching the swaying man walking towards her step by step in the lonely night.

How ridiculous, looking at his decadent appearance, she only felt infinite pleasure.

"Susu?" Zhou Bingquan vaguely saw Lin Xuansu sitting on the bed, thought he had made a mistake, blinked uncertainly, and called her name.

Lin Xuansu turned on the light at the head of the bed, looked at Zhou Bingquan's drunken appearance, and frowned impatiently: "It's late at night, why are you so drunk!"

"I'm not crazy, I just want to see you." Zhou Bingquan smiled bitterly, stood in front of Lin Xuansu, and said, "Susu, what's wrong with you today? Jingwei finally came back to accompany us to celebrate New Year's Day, you Why all of a sudden."

"Suddenly?" Lin Xuansu interrupted him abruptly, looking straight at him with a pair of eyes: "Zhou Bingquan, do you still have the face to feel suddenly? What right do you have to talk to me like that?"

Zhou Bingquan was stunned, and for a moment he felt speechless amidst Lin Xuansu's harsh words.

His lips trembled, and it took him a long while before he said, "Why do you talk to me like this? Susu, I already depend on you for everything. Wasn't it you who wanted to restore the mother-child relationship with Jingwei before?"

"But it can't be repaired!" Lin Xuansu's words were in pain. She roared angrily, with tears in her eyes: "As for why it can't be repaired, Zhou Bingquan, don't you know the reason? It's all because of you!"

Zhou Bingquan's figure was shaking. He felt mentally weak after drinking alcohol, and now he couldn't stand still. He fell to the ground, infinitely embarrassed: "Susu, you can't blame me, I couldn't disobey my father back then. Those things I don't want to either."

"Don't use your father as an excuse. It's you who wanted to make achievements, so you attacked my Lin family!" Lin Xuansu suddenly sneered when she said this, with a contemptuous and cold tone: "Oh, no. Not just Because you want to make achievements, but also because of brother Xiuyuan, right?"

"Don't mention this name to me!" Zhou Bingquan's emotions suddenly became very agitated. He suddenly raised his head with a ferocious expression: "Lin Xiuyuan is just an adopted son of the Lin family. What right does he have to covet you? He is not worthy at all!"

"But I love him." Lin Xuansu smiled slightly, her tone became gentle, like poisoned sugar: "I love him, I love him"

"Stop talking! He's dead! What's the use of loving him? You're still my woman, Zhou Bingquan, who bears children for me. You'll be with me for the rest of your life!" Zhou Bingquan's tone became more and more excited. ruthless.

He had almost forgotten about Lin Xiuyuan, why did she remind him of it?
why.
And Lin Xuansu just felt refreshed seeing him go crazy.

She picked up the knife she had prepared earlier in the morning from under the pillow, and walked towards Zhou Bingquan step by step.

"You just asked me why I originally wanted to restore the mother-child relationship with Jingwei, but I said such a thing to him today, and I can answer you why now!"

Lin Xuansu tilted her head slightly, looking at the old and vicissitudes of life man who fell to the ground.

She said softly: "Zhou Bingquan, because I hate you, I really want to just forget about everything before, accept my fate and survive, survive for my Jingwei, and make up for everything I owe him, but I find that I can't do it." I still can't do it until now! I hate you, I really hate you! Because of you, I can't even face my son!"

Zhou Bingquan looked at Lin Xuansu with red eyes, and the next moment, tears fell from his eyes: "Xuansu, don't hate me."

It was an extravagant hope, and Zhou Bingquan himself knew it.

When Lin Xuansu's father and mother both died, everything between him and Lin Xuansu became his extravagant wish.

Lin Xuansu will not look back, let alone love him.

But at this moment, the woman in front of her suddenly said in a strangely gentle voice: "But after today, I don't intend to hate you anymore."

Zhou Bingquan should be able to detect something wrong in her tone, but at this moment, great ecstasy overwhelmed him, and he just felt joy: "Susu, I knew that you will be able to communicate. Don't worry, from now on, I will definitely make it up to you..."

The voice stopped abruptly, and Zhou Bingquan looked at the blade passing through his chest with a bit of disbelief.

"I don't hate you anymore, as long as you die, I will forgive you." Lin Xuansu said softly, but her tone was crazy: "Don't you want to make amends? You go to the Nine Springs to make amends to my parents!"

Wet blood slowly flowed out from the wound, Zhou Bingquan's vision became blurred, he could only see Lin Xuansu crying and laughing like a lunatic.

Since when do memories overlap?

Zhou Bingquan felt that he saw the young girl Lin Xuansu. She was walking in the ancient and fortified corridor of Lin's house. Countless lights and shadows passed through the gaps in the low wall, falling on her body scattered and colorful.

She turned her head to look at herself, her eyes were so clear that they were spotless.

He had just proposed marriage to her parents, the Zhou family was a prominent family, and everyone was happy to see the marriage happen.

He wanted to go up and talk to her, but before he could say anything, he heard her say, "Mr. Zhou, I can't marry you."

Why can't it?

What he wanted was never impossible.

Zhou Bingquan saw the blood on Lin Xuansu's face splashed from his wound.

A spot of scarlet fell on her face.

She doesn't seem to have changed at all in all these years.

Aging and illness are the punishments given to him by God. As for her, her life has been devastated because of him, and even God can't bear to add even the slightest sorrow to her.

(End of this chapter)