Rebirth of the courtyard, the start is 80s

After hearing Xiang Dongfang say that they are the same kind of people, Cao Zhiqiang touched his nose in a rare way.

Only those who are very familiar with him know that this small gesture of touching his nose shows that Cao Zhiqiang is a little embarrassed.

Because Cao Zhiqiang knew very well that if what Xiang Dongfang said just now was true, then the other party was a real prodigy and he was a fake prodigy.

At the very least, Xiang Dongfang's English and Japanese were learned by others, and they learned it by themselves under such conditions.

As for Cao Zhiqiang, English is fine, but as for Japanese, it is purely by cheating the system.

Although the results are the same, one relies on real skills and the other relies on cheating, the essence is still different.

Don't talk about anything else, let's just talk about ideas, Cao Zhiqiang's ideas are ordinary people's ideas, and Xiang Dongfang, obviously, not only her thinking is different from ordinary people, but also her thinking is different from ordinary people.

If Cao Zhiqiang had been a child prodigy since he was a child, he wished to pretend to be superior all day long, how could he be like Xiang Dongfang, deliberately hiding his clumsiness and being ordinary, and deliberately obliterating everyone?
And Xiang Dongfang's father, a high-ranking official, if Cao Zhiqiang were replaced, he would definitely be as pretentious as Xiang Dongfang. He would not be like Xiang Dongfang. Instead, he felt uncomfortable with having such a father, and even didn't like others to treat her well.

Because according to Xiang Dongfang, although her father married her a stepmother, no matter whether it is her father, her stepmother, or even her half-brothers and sisters, they are very good to her, but there is nothing to be sorry for her. The place has always been caring.

But living in such a loving family, Xiang Dongfang felt very uncomfortable and disgusted, so he wanted to escape from that family and stay far away.

It's like, the better I treat you, the more you hate me. Is this a normal person's character?

But on the surface, Xiang Dongfang didn't see any problem at all.

If Hao Shuwen hadn't found out Xiang Dongfang's heel back then, and Xiang Dongfang had been cheated by himself today, and told these secrets, Cao Zhiqiang had always thought that Xiang Dongfang was a strong woman who was greedy for vanity and would use any means to climb the ladder.

But now it seems that things are not like this at all, at least she is not greedy for vanity.

Because what Cao Zhiqiang can give to Xiang Dongfang at present is definitely not as much as Xiang Dongfang's own father can give.

But Xiang Dongfang flattered herself just like those ordinary citizens, just to stay by herself, instead of straightening up and telling her father to help her arrange work to stay.

That's right, although Xiang Dongfang's father, Minister Xiang, is an official in the south, he has a wide network of contacts, and there are many old comrades in arms with high positions in the capital.

After all, it is hard for ordinary people to imagine that a person at Minister Xiang's level has a network of contacts.

Even Hao Shuwen said that the combined energy of her father and her father-in-law is not as powerful as that of Xiang Dongfang's father.

Because Xiang Dongfang's father was a powerful local official, he was different from Hao Shuwen's father, a senior military officer who had retired to the second line.

So as long as Xiang Dongfang calls her father, her father only needs to call a friend to arrange for Xiang Dongfang to stay in the capital. Go to an important post, and it is no problem to make a career in the sky. …

But Xiang Dongfang didn't take this shortcut at all. He insisted on staying through his own efforts and his relationship with Cao Zhiqiang.

Cao Zhiqiang didn't believe that Xiang Dongfang knew his identity as a time traveler.

That being the case, there is only one explanation, what she said is probably right, she really doesn't want to get involved with her family.

"You've got to think about it." Cao Zhiqiang suddenly asked Xiang Dongfang again very seriously, "If you're talking to me, it's like starting from scratch without much extra help.

But if you get through your father's relationship, let alone staying in school to become a teacher, maybe you can directly enter a position and become a cadre. You are really willing to give up your father's relationship and energy, and rely solely on your own strength to start from scratch. Fumbling? "

"Of course I would." Xiang Dongfang nodded, "Otherwise, when I entered school, I would spread the word about who my father is, so why keep my name incognito, and when people ask, they will only say that I am the child of an ordinary worker.

Even if I were willing to reveal my father's real identity to the school, the school would have already arranged for me to become a full-time student, and there was no need for my father to come forward. "

"That's true." Cao Zhiqiang nodded, "But I'm still wondering why you don't use such a strong background? Proper use of family background is something a smart person should do, right?"

Xiang Dongfang suddenly raised his head numbly, looked at Cao Zhiqiang fixedly, and then said calmly: "Since you and I are the same kind of person, you should be able to know the reason why I did this, so why bother asking. "

"Me?" Cao Zhiqiang was taken aback for a moment, then frowned resolutely.

Immediately afterwards, Cao Zhiqiang shook his head: "I'm sorry, maybe we are all different from ordinary people, but people are different, and I may not be able to understand your thoughts, so I'm afraid I don't know the reason why you did this."

"No!" Xiang Dongfang continued to look at Cao Zhiqiang firmly, "You know, you must know, but you don't say it! Because you are still wary of me!"

Cao Zhiqiang frowned: "What nonsense are you talking about?"

Xiang Dongfang showed a weird smile, and then suddenly said seriously: "Okay, since you don't want to tell, then I'll ask you too!

Since you are a child prodigy yourself, your talent has been outstanding since you were a child, and you have already discovered the difference between you and ordinary people.

Then why have you always been so stubborn and unmotivated, and waited until your parents passed away one after another, and life forced you to a dead end before you were willing to reveal your talent?
Don't tell me that you only realized it after your mother died. Others will believe this kind of nonsense, but I will never believe it.

The talents you are showing now must have been in you long ago, not suddenly.

The attitude towards life may be enlightened, and one can also be enlightened about a certain matter, but it is impossible to achieve an epiphany with a huge accumulation of knowledge.

If you have an epiphany in mathematics, physics and chemistry and solve some super difficult problems, I will not say anything.

But you can write such good poems and be proficient in English and Japanese. This requires a huge accumulation of knowledge. Even if you are gifted and have a photographic memory, it will not happen overnight, let alone rely on epiphany.

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Among other things, the poems you wrote are rich in content, and you can only write them after reading a lot of books. It is impossible to have such a huge amount of knowledge two or three months after the epiphany.

And your English and Japanese have definitely worked hard secretly, at least one or two years of hard work, it is impossible to reach this level after two or three months of secret learning after epiphany.

But I heard that your mother passed away, and you started the so-called epiphany, and it has been less than four months. During this period, you have to work, write poems and publish them, and open a publishing house, running here and there, where are you Time to study quietly?

Child prodigies also need to talk about science. Without enough time and precipitation, how can you have the performance you have today?

So you must have these accumulations early in the morning, those poems in the early morning, and English and Japanese in the early morning!

You know it early in the morning, but never tell anyone, and people never know that you know it, which is not right in itself.

Therefore, you must be like me, discovering your own uniqueness early on, and then hiding your clumsiness in your own way early, so that people will not see your uniqueness, and will not let others know that you are a child prodigy.

It's just my luck, my family has always been very good, I have never needed to expose myself to survive, and I have always been able to continue pretending to be an ordinary person.

But you are different. Your family conditions are not as good as mine, and life has pushed you to a dead end. You can only expose your talents and use your talents to rise.

During this period, you have been very careful everywhere, which is not like what ordinary peers of your age should have.

Maybe the epiphany is real, but your epiphany is to let you tear off the disguise of an ordinary person and stop pretending to be an ordinary person at all.

So here comes the question, you ask me why I don’t use it when I have such a strong background, I feel very strange, but what about you?
Why didn't you show your talents and abilities earlier when your parents were still alive?

If you show your talent early and break out early, your father will not be able to tell, but your mother will not leave so early! "

Seeing that Cao Zhiqiang remained silent with a sullen face, Xiang Dongfang smiled slightly, and continued as if I had seen through you:
"I was born in a high-ranking family. I am a child prodigy, but it is just the icing on the cake, and more praises; I am not a child prodigy, it is just a little less praise, and life will not be worse because of it.

But you are different. You come from an ordinary worker’s family. If you can show your talents early, you can live a better life. Then why did you hide your clumsiness before?

So there is only one answer, because you think that hiding your clumsiness and being out of the crowd can make your life better and easier! "

After hearing Xiang Dongfang's words, Cao Zhiqiang was speechless for a moment.

What can he say?
Could it be that he told her that Cao Zhiqiang before was really a second-rate young man, and that he didn't seek to make progress because of lack of ability.

The subsequent big explosion was only because of the rebirth after death, a new soul, and a new operating system internally updated, and it was a new operating system with plug-ins?
Seeing that Cao Zhiqiang was still frowning and silent, Xiang Dongfang smiled again: "It seems that I have hit the mark."

After sighing, Xiang Dongfang said again: "Nowadays many people envy and praise child prodigies, but they don't know the distress of people like us.

When I was very young, I often had headaches because of the stupidity of the people around me, and because these stupid people couldn't see that I hated them, but instead envied me in various ways and made excuses for me. …

I used to deliberately find fault and violate church discipline, but I didn't get the punishment I deserved, only got more praise, saying that this is a maverick, and that this is what a genius should look like.

If it was just like this, I would bear it.

Although the people around are stupid, just don't associate with them.

But later, I surreptitiously overheard the teacher telling my parents that a child prodigy like me should be sent to some kind of juvenile class.

I secretly inquired about the situation of the juvenile class, only to realize that something was wrong.

What juvenile class, to put it nicely, isn't that a prison and a cage?
From then on, I began to observe those stupid people who I looked down upon before, or ordinary people.

Only then did I realize that ordinary people's lives are better.

On the contrary, for those who are misfits, their future life may not be so good.

So in the beginning, in order not to go to the youth class, I started to pretend to be mediocre, and I pretended to be mediocre bit by bit, showing a state of hurting Zhongyong who was exhausted.

Sure enough, they found that I was no longer special, no longer a genius, and their attitude towards me was completely different.

Slowly, I began to realize that pretending to be an ordinary person and living among ordinary people is actually pretty good.

Although the lives of ordinary people are dull, at least they don't have to worry about it, they don't have to have so many burdens and responsibilities, and they don't have to worry too much.

I pretend to be an ordinary person, and I can easily handle various assignments, and I can do what I want with the extra time.

But if I was considered a prodigy and sent to some juvenile class, I would definitely not be like ordinary people. I would be forced to learn things that I should not learn at my age early on, and I would shoulder responsibilities that ordinary people do not need to bear early.

Someone else might be happy to serve their country, but I don't, and I hated the idea early on.

Why do people have to live for the country, the people and the collective instead of living for themselves?
So I hide my clumsiness, I pretend to be an ordinary person, but I just want to avoid some responsibilities that I shouldn't bear, and want to live a more comfortable life.

As for whether I hate my family, it's also because I don't want to be kidnapped by that family and give everything for that family in the future.

Ordinary people may envy me for having a father who is a high-ranking official, but I know that power and responsibility are equated.

The more I get in that family, the more I have to pay back in the future.

Among other things, if I rely on my father's strength to find a good job, then what will I pay back in the future?
That must be to repay my marriage, to marry the man my father favored or appointed, and to have a well-matched political marriage.

Moreover, just because I am my father's daughter, once I take what he gave me, I will not be able to resist confidently when he arranges my life in the future.

Because if I resist at that time, he will think it is for my own good. My so-called resistance and ideas will definitely be regarded by him as young and ignorant, rebellious and stupid.

Parents often think that they have rich experience and that what they arrange for their children is the best, but they never care about what their children really think.

Especially for someone like my father who has always been a high-ranking official. He usually holds a high position and is used to bossing around. He is also talkative at home and never cares about what his children think. …

My younger brother is an idiot who only knows how to obey. My younger sister is a bit smart, but she probably wouldn't dare to resist her father.

In other words, if I don't think of a way sooner, then I, the eldest sister, will inevitably become the first victim in the family.

What's more, you should have seen Dream of the Red Chamber, right?A person does not have a thousand days to be happy, and a flower does not have a hundred days to be red.

My father is at the height of his power now, with a high position and authority, but who can guarantee that it will be the same in the future?
I don't want to be a victim of my family, I want to live the life I choose, so I choose to hide and stay away, and unless I have to, I will never reveal my relationship with my father, and I don't even have contact with them at ordinary times.

In your case, although my family background is different from mine, but if you compare your heart with your heart, you must have had a similar experience with me, and you must not want to be a special person that attracts everyone's attention, and then bear some special responsibilities that you are not willing to bear.

You must be like me, wanting to secretly hide your clumsiness until you grow up, and then go out to live alone, relying on your own ability to live the life you want to live.

It's just that your fate is a bit bad. Your mother's death and your younger sister have to be raised, so you have to expose your talent.

But what's the matter, once your talent is exposed, you will attract the coveted eyes of others.

I think that you, the president of the publishing house, are probably not what you are willing to do, but you were forced to be the one who was forced to be on the shelf, right?
If it weren't for the factory leader insisting on letting you be, you, a 19-year-old young man, how could He De become the president of the publishing house?

Others only see your infinite scenery, but I see your sorrow and helplessness.

After showing your talents, you are forced to stand on the stage, forced to carry a burden that you don't want to bear, and have to carry the burden for others. It must be difficult for you, right? "

Speaking of this, Xiang Dongfang looked at Cao Zhiqiang's silent face, sighed suddenly, and reached out to touch Cao Zhiqiang's head.

"I understand, I understand everything!"

"Others envy the talents of people like us and call us geniuses."

"But they don't know that the title of genius itself is our shackles."

"The stronger our ability and the more different we are, the more people will be interested in our ability, and the more people will want to use us."

"It's like a Chollima. The Chollima discovered by Bole is the worst Chollima, because people have to give more expectations and be forced to exert more abilities. In the end, they have to become tools of others and keep running to death!"

"Others are going to hurt Zhongyong, but I think he is a really smart person."

"Only when you know how to hide your clumsiness, if you understand how to be oblivious to everyone, can you get real happiness, and you can have spare energy to truly grasp your own life."

"Only I can see the distress in your heart, and only I can know the helplessness in your heart."

"The same kind, we still have to get together."

"Otherwise, you'll feel lonely too."

"That's why I gave up my disguise and came to your side, just to walk with you."