Rebirth of the courtyard, the start is 80s

Time passed slowly, but Lou Xiao'e kept stroking the edge of the teacup with her fingers without saying a word.

Just when Cao Zhiqiang felt that it was almost over, he planned to find another topic and end the conversation as soon as possible.

Lou Xiao'e actually spoke again.

"You can say anything to me, say I want to take revenge on Silly Zhu, but I can't agree to that."

When Lou Xiao'e actually answered the question, Cao Zhiqiang raised his eyebrows: "Then you still go to Uncle Silly?"

"Why, can't we look for it?" Lou Xiao'e looked at Cao Zhiqiang with a half-smile.

Cao Zhiqiang frowned: "Aunt Lou, let me remind you that Uncle Silly is married."

"So what?" Lou Xiao'e said, "I know he is married, but being married doesn't mean he can't accept others, right? He can still get divorced."

Cao Zhiqiang was speechless for a while: "No, Aunt Lou, you just robbed it openly, right?"

"I robbed openly, so what?" Lou Xiao'e said, "At least, I robbed openly and not secretly through conspiracy."

"Is there any difference?" Cao Zhiqiang asked with a frown.

"Of course there is a difference." Lou Xiao'e said, "I approached Silly Zhu to make it clear and let him make his own choice! It was not a secret trick.

Humph, who doesn’t know how to use tricks?

Believe it or not, if I had resorted to tricks, Silly Zhu would have left with me long ago. Why should I wait until now? "

Cao Zhiqiang nodded: "I believe it, of course I believe it!"

"That's it!" Lou Xiao'e said.

Cao Zhiqiang thought for a while and said: "But even if you rob openly, is it wrong? You are in such good conditions now, and Aunt Qin only has a stupid uncle.

What if Uncle Silly is really shaken and leaves with you, leaving Aunt Qin alone, how pitiful would it be? "

"Poor?" Lou Xiao'e sneered, "Poor people must be hateful!"

After taking a deep breath, Lou Xiao'e continued: "Actually, I came to the mainland a few years ago when the country was just opening up.

The reason is very simple, that is, I found that no matter how much time passes, no matter how my life changes, I can't seem to forget Silly Zhu. "

After taking a breath, Lou Xiao'e sighed: "You are still young, and you may not have ever truly loved someone, so you may not understand that kind of emotion.

It's the kind of love that is very unforgettable when you really fall in love with someone, the kind of love that goes deep into your bones.

This kind of love will not change color over time, but will become heavier and heavier as time goes by!

Yes, you are right, I am not a good woman.

In order to make a living, I chose to marry someone else instead of staying together.

I never thought that what I did was wrong, nor did I feel that I was sorry for Silly Zhu.

But, but.

Although intellectually, I don't think I'm wrong.

But every time I dream back at midnight and see that the person next to me is not Silly Zhu, I always feel a huge sense of guilt and loss.

In order to eliminate this guilt and loss, I can only work hard, spend as much time on work as possible, and minimize spending time with my ex-husband.

It may also be because of this that my ex-husband and I spent less time together and separated more, so he gradually became like that.

I actually understand all these things, and I have also struggled with them and wanted to change them, but in the end I still couldn't get over them. "

Having said this, Lou Xiao'e took out her silk scarf, wiped her red and swollen eyes, and then continued with a stern expression: "Maybe you will think what I said is ridiculous, but this is the truth.

Of course, when I was young, I could dilute this longing by working hard at my career and raising my son.

But as my career gradually became more formal, there were fewer and fewer things that required me to do it myself, and my work became easier and easier.

At the same time, my son is getting older and needs me less and less.

In addition, my husband, ah, my ex-husband, has become increasingly distant from me.

As a result, I suddenly discovered that although I seemed to have a successful career and a happy family, I was actually getting more and more lonely.

It is precisely because of this loneliness that I miss Silly Zhu more and more.

As a result, as soon as the country opened up, I came to the mainland without stopping.

Externally, I want to be the first to eat crabs, because this is how I can get the maximum profit.

In fact, only I know that I want to get closer to Silly Zhu and know more about him. "

Cao Zhiqiang frowned and said: "Aunt Lou, what you said is a bit exaggerated, isn't it? Could it be that all the things you do in mainland China are just a secondary purpose, and the main purpose is to...get closer to my stupid uncle?"

"Why, can't you?" Lou Xiao'e smiled at Cao Zhiqiang.

Cao Zhiqiang shook his head: "It's hard for me to understand this. After all, in my understanding, love is not everything in life."

"That's you men!" Lou Xiao'e said, "For us women, no, or for women like me, love may be everything."

Wiping the tears from the corners of her eyes with a silk scarf again, Lou Xiao'e raised her head and took a deep breath, and then said: "There are some things that only after experiencing them can you know what you really want.

For me, having a great fortune is not as important as having a true love.

Of course, at my age, it seems a bit pretentious to say this.

Then I will say something more realistic. "

Speaking of this, Lou Xiao'e looked at Cao Zhiqiang and said: "To be honest, although I have always loved Silhu in my heart and can't let him go, I am not that kind of real bad woman.

I know that after Sha Zhu and Qin Huairu got married, I once thought that if they were happy, then I wouldn't bother them.

However, I later heard that Shazhu still has no children, which surprised me.

Then, one evening, I unknowingly went to the alley on the other side of the courtyard.

Originally, I just wanted to take another look from a distance.

Who knows, I actually saw Silly Pillar!
At that time, Shazhu seemed to have just gotten off work and came to the gate of the courtyard, and then talked and laughed with a child.

After the child was taken away by the adults, Silly Zhu did not enter the door immediately. Instead, he sighed at the door.

After that, Silly Zhu turned his head directly and walked away with a heavy heart.

By some strange mistake, I followed him quietly, and then I saw that Silly Zhu actually walked all the way to Shichahai, and then just stayed there in a daze until the evening. "

Cao Zhiqiang was speechless for a while, feeling that Lou Xiao'e was simply stunned.

Did you secretly follow a middle-aged man before? This is too...that stuff.

Lou Xiao'e had no idea about Cao Zhiqiang's inner complaints, and still said, lost in memories: "I knew at that time that Silly Zhu was actually not happy.

At least, Shazhu didn't love Qin Huairu. He was just like me, he had no choice but to stay with her for the sake of living.

The person she really loves has always been me! "

Cao Zhiqiang couldn't help but said: "No, Aunt Lou, Uncle Silly just happened to be in a daze. How could you think of this? What evidence do you have to prove that the person he has always loved is you?"

Lou Xiao'e smiled: "I just know, because the place where Silly Zhu was in a daze was the place where we dated back then!"

"Ah? Dating?" Cao Zhiqiang was speechless for a while, "Did you still date back then?"

"That's right." Lou Xiao'e smiled, "Back then, even though my situation was very bad, I still had to live in the house of an old deaf lady.

However, precisely because of this, I saw clearly the true heart of Silly Zhu. The situation was quite special back then. Silly Zhu and I didn’t have many places to go, so we could only go for a walk secretly.

Among them, Shichahai is the place where I and I often go.

We often went there to walk and chat, and left many wonderful memories.

Especially the place where Silly Zhu stood in a daze was the old place where we often chatted at that time.

If Silly Zhu can go there when he is in a daze, doesn't it mean that he always has me in his heart?

Moreover, he suddenly went there after seeing other people's children.

This shows what

It shows that Silly Zhu actually always wanted a child, but never had one, so he always had regrets.

Silly Zhu and I have a child. I love him and he loves me.

We loved each other, but we had to separate due to various reasons.

Now that I am free, I want to come over and reunite with him. What's wrong with that? "

"Then it can't be at the expense of hurting Qin Huairu?" Cao Zhiqiang couldn't help but said.

Lou Xiao'e narrowed her eyes: "I know this, but I will make it up to her."

"Compensation?" Cao Zhiqiang couldn't help but said again, "Do you really think Aunt Qin can accept it?"

Lou Xiao'e smiled: "I think as long as I give you more, Qin Huairu will accept it."

Then, Lou Xiao'e said seriously: "Seriously, do you really think that Qin Huairu and Silly Zhu are together because of love?"

Cao Zhiqiang blinked: "Isn't it?"

"Of course not!" Lou Xiao'e shook her head.

Soon, Lou Xiao'e gave a faint sarcastic smile, then put away her expression and said: "Zhiqiang, you were still young back then, and you didn't understand or understand many things.

But, I had frequent contacts with Qin Huairu back then. I know who she is better than anyone else.

Qin Huairu, this woman, is different from me.

In her mind, nothing about love is important.

The most important thing is her children and herself!
She would do anything for her children and herself.

Thinking back to the beginning, her family was in difficulty, but thanks to the help from various families.

But why can she get help from others?
Isn't it just relying on her beauty and coquettishness?
Haha, when I married Xu Damao, someone once secretly told me that Xu Damao had secretly had an affair with her.

It’s just that I was stupid and straightforward back then. After hearing the news, I didn’t quietly search for evidence. Instead, I directly questioned Xu Damao.

As a result, of course Xu Damao refused to admit it.

Then I simply went to Qin Huairu alone to confirm, but Qin Huairu also refused to admit it.

But I know very well that Xu Damao did secretly use our family's food and bacon to secretly support Qin Huairu.

I don’t need to say more about who Xu Damao is.

Unlike Silly Zhu, he couldn't help Qin Huairu without any benefit, so he couldn't help Qin Huairu with good things for no reason.

So, although I had no evidence back then, but now that I think about it, if they had not had an affair, my name, Lou Xiao'e, would have been written upside down!

Qin Huairu can even provoke Xu Damao, so one can imagine how low her moral level is.

Why does Qin Huairu provoke Silly Zhu all day long?
Isn't it just because Xu Damao was warned by me that he didn't dare to help Qin Huairu anymore? Qin Huairu lost the support point of Xu Damao and could only find someone else?
At that time, apart from Xu Damao, only Si Zhu could help her.

Because Silhu is a cook, he can always make something good from the canteen.

Moreover, Silhu was still single and soft-hearted at the time, so Qin Huairu could always get something delicious as long as she pretended to be pitiful in front of him.

However, what you don’t know is that Qin Huairu was not just Silly Zhu back then.

Shazhu was honest. Although he helped Qin Huairu, he did not take advantage of her.

But before that, Qin Huairu had an affair with Deputy Director Li in the factory. Did you know this? "

"Deputy Director Li?" Cao Zhiqiang's eyes widened, "Wait a minute, you mean the Li Huaide who tried to molest Aunt Qin back then, but was chased away by his stupid uncle?"

"Yes, that's him!" Lou Xiao'e nodded with disdain.

Cao Zhiqiang frowned and said, "Wait a minute! I heard that Li Huaide wanted to tease Aunt Qin back then, but it seemed that he was beaten away by the stupid uncle. How could they have an affair?"

Lou Xiao'e smiled coldly: "Oh, that's all just a show. Qin Huairu acted like that because Silly Zhu was nearby at the time. In fact, they had already had an affair. Otherwise, how could Li Huaide dare to directly confront Qin Huairu? Use your hands and feet?
If they had nothing to do in advance, Li Huaide would go crazy and touch a widow directly in the factory? "

"How did you know?" Cao Zhiqiang frowned.

"Of course Xu Damao told me." Lou Xiao'e said.

"Xu Damao?" Cao Zhiqiang was surprised.

"That's right!" Lou Xiao'e said, "Actually, Xu Damao always had a grudge against Shazhu and Qin Huairu. When that incident happened, Xu Damao came back to tell me immediately.

When Xu Damao did that, he wanted to find someone to talk to and express his happiness.

Secondly, he also wanted me to dispel my doubts about Xu Damao.

After all, I still suspected that Xu Damao was having an affair with Qin Huairu, and I didn't fully believe Xu Damao's words.

That's why Xu Damao came to me to tell me about Qin Huairu and Li Huaide.

According to Xu Damao, Qin Huairu and the then director Li, also known as Li Huaide, had been secretly together for a long time.

In other words, after Xu Damao and Qin Huairu broke up, Qin Huairu had been looking to Li Huaide as a meal ticket to help him.

It was only later that Xu Damao secretly informed the tigress in Li Huaide's family about this matter. His wife got angry at that time, and there was a better Fuzhu as an alternative, so Qin Huairu broke off contact with Li Huaide.

Although Li Huaide and Qin Huairu broke up publicly at the time, they actually still kept in touch privately.

It was precisely because of this that when Li Huaide was drunk, he touched Qin Huairu regardless of the occasion.

The reason was that he thought Qin Huairu was still the same as before.

But what Li Huaide didn't expect was that Qin Huairu had already found a new home for Sha Zhu at that time, and knowing that Sha Zhu was nearby, he yelled.

Therefore, Silly Zhu has been kept in the dark.

The good widow that Silly Zhu thought was actually a helpless widow!
How could this person have feelings? Will you really cherish Silly Pillar?

Qin Huairu doesn't want to be separated from Silly Zhu, just because you can give her a good life, Silly Zhu, nothing more.

Since all Qin Huairu wants is a good life, then I will give her a good life.

I gave her a sum of money, a large amount of money, enough money for her to live a comfortable life with her children.

If so, I believe Qin Huairu will definitely agree.

After all, in Qin Huairu's eyes, everything has a price.

As long as I give enough, she will definitely give up Silly Pillar.

Do you think I'm right? "(End of chapter)