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Chapter 33 33. Photos ([-])

Memory is like a kite with a broken string. An Sheng thought he had almost forgotten it as a photo floated a long time ago; The time was disintegrated and nothing remained, and he himself was submerged by the monstrous waves.

Memories are like a glass of strong wine, and An Sheng is a drunk person who hasn't woken up for so many years, maybe he never wants to wake up.

And he has always been deceiving himself that he has forgotten, but when Li Zhien lifted his fig leaf, he actually felt a little relieved.

An Sheng is a person who doesn't like to face it. He will avoid everything he encounters these years. He always thinks that escaping is shameful but useful.Over the years, he has avoided many things, and he gradually felt that there is nothing wrong with avoiding, isn't it just a little disgraceful?He doesn't care.

But what Li Zhien said today made him unable to escape.

Silent, bowed his head, twisted his fingers.

Anson is doing these things.

An Sheng never thought that he would behave like this in front of an outsider, and he felt that he was too much of a man.He didn't want to be seen like this, but suddenly he didn't even have the courage to raise his head. He was afraid to look at Li Zhien's eyes, and also afraid to answer Li Zhien's questions.

"It's okay, you don't need to say it if you want to."

Li Zhien's voice was as gentle as ice springs thawing and reviving everything.

"We all have secrets. I'm sorry I shouldn't have asked that question just now." Li Zhien apologized to him, "If you feel uncomfortable seeing this photo, I can discuss it with the boss and let him take it."

An Sheng raised his head and looked straight at Li Zhien, his eyes changed from the panic just now to the dull one now.

Li Zhien also didn't expect that An Sheng, who is carefree on weekdays, would become like before because of a photo. She didn't know how to describe An Sheng's expression just now, anyway, she could feel An Sheng's sadness.

Li Zhien stood up, ready to walk up to the boss and discuss about taking photos.

"Li Zhien." An Sheng's voice was a little hoarse, like an engine running out of gas, he stopped Li Zhien: "It's okay, let it go."

"But you seem to be suffering."

An Sheng smiled at her and said, "I just don't know how to answer you, it's okay."

Obviously An Sheng said it with a smile, but Li Zhien knew that he was faking it, his sadness was like a cup full of water, it would overflow if he touched it casually, and he couldn't hide it.

Li Zhien sat down again, the army pot was still steaming, but the two of them had no intention of eating now, An Sheng was still silent, while Li Zhien was looking at him.

After a few minutes of silence, An Sheng finally said, "She's not my girlfriend."

"Really." Li Zhien seems to have believed it now, "Then you looked very happy at that time."

An Sheng actually smiled, as if he cheered up again: "Yeah, thinking about those days now, I'm really happy."

"It can be seen."

Li Zhien felt that he must have thought of something happy when he smiled just now.

"At that time, I didn't like to talk, and I did everything by myself. Until I met her, she told me, you have to smile more, because if you laugh a lot, your troubles will be less."

Li Zhien: "That's why you love to laugh so much now."

"Well, I am indeed influenced by her words now."

"Then she is really a good person. Although you are in debt every day and you are annoying to talk, but you love to laugh and infect all the people around me. I think this is very good, really."

An Sheng was speechless: "Are you praising me or stepping on me?"

"Half and half, after you came, the little girl in our company was always amused by you and laughed, and the company is happy all day long, which is very good." Li Zhien continued: "But if you want to say less It would be better to have some dirty jokes."

It was obviously a sad memory link, but it was abruptly turned into a funny scene by Li Zhien.

An Sheng: "I..."

"What's the matter, let's continue."

An Sheng couldn't express his suffering, so he poured another glass of wine and drank it down.

"Where did I say?"

"You have to smile more."

An Sheng continued what he said just now: "I used to be very bored. When I was in college, I hardly had any friends. I was alone every day. It's not that I was excluded, but I couldn't fit into their circle. I also tried To get to know them is inherently socially phobic, and I really can’t take the initiative to make friends with them.”

Before An Sheng finished speaking, Li Zhien interrupted him: "Are you afraid of society? You forgot that when you came to work on the first day, you gave our company some girl teasing. Your soul is gone."

Li Zhien would never believe An Sheng's fear.

"I... I was social terror at that time, but now I have become thick-skinned." An Sheng paused and said with a heavy tone.

"Okay...then you can continue."

An Sheng took another sip of wine, regained his previous state, and opened his mouth slowly.

"My college life is just like what I told you before. I thought I would always have that personality, but one day I met her; it was the girl in the photo. She was very cheerful and special. Understand me, she taught me a lot of things, she is the third person who treats me so well in my life." An Sheng fell silent while talking.

"Then why are you not together?" Li Zhien asked.

An Sheng just shook his head and didn't answer Li Zhien.

He didn't want to say any more, and he decided to seal up this memory.

Li Zhien didn't ask any more questions, just followed An Sheng's example and finished the wine in the glass.

"Since you told me one of your secrets, let me tell you one too." Li Zhien said and looked at An Sheng: "Actually, I have dreamed of someone every night when I go to bed these few years."

"Huh?" An Sheng looked like he was eating melons: "Who is it, the lover of my dreams?"

Li Zhien looked at An Sheng, and said a little ridiculously: "I hope he is the lover of my dreams."

"I once made a mistake, and that mistake almost made me live in guilt all my life."

"Ouch..." An Sheng asked curiously, "What's wrong?"

Li Zhien lowered his head, memories flooded up, and after a long time he said, "I can't tell you."

It doesn't matter to An Sheng, it's better to keep the secret in your heart.

"Actually, I can't empathize with you, and I don't know how guilty you are, but it's been many years, maybe people won't blame you anymore, why do you have to paint yourself as a prison?"

Li Zhien looked at An Sheng, unable to calm down for a long time.

……

"Come on, touch one." An Sheng picked up the wine glass.

Li Zhien also picked up the wine glass, "You have to say something when you touch one."

An Sheng thought for a while: "Then I wish you no more guilt as soon as possible."

Li Zhien touched An Sheng's wine glass lightly: "Then I wish you a speedy escape from memory."

Compared with the street lights outside, the restaurant's lights were a little less bright, but a little more gentle. Under the dim light, An Sheng and Li Zhien clinked glasses, and then they drank them all in one gulp.

"There are so many things, are you sure you don't want to eat a little?" An Sheng who put down his wine glass picked up his chopsticks and said.

Li Zhien shook his head: "Forget it, I can't eat it."

"Okay, then I won't be polite."

An Sheng lowered his head and began to eat. After coming out of the sad mood just now, he looked very hungry now, and he didn't have the slightest sense of appetite when eating, which really ruined his appearance.

Li Zhien didn't say anything about this, but silently picked up the kettle next to him and poured him a glass of water, and told him to eat more slowly.

An Sheng couldn't take care of so much, he was already hungry, but now he was even hungrier after the delay just now, so he just buried his head in eating and didn't look at anything.

If you look at it from the outside, under the dim light, the dishes on the table are steaming, An Sheng is eating with his head down, and Li Zhien is staring at An Sheng.

The picture actually has a beautiful feeling in a busy city.

……

An Sheng, who was full and full, came out of the shop with the food he hadn't finished eating before, and Li Zhien, who was standing next to him, put his hood back on his head.

It was no longer raining, and the surrounding wind was already a little chilly on his body. Li Zhien tightened his clothes and said to An Sheng. "How to go back?"

An Sheng took out his mobile phone, "Call another car and go."

Li Zhien put his hands in his pockets and looked around: "How long has it been since you took the bus."

Hearing what Li Zhien said suddenly, An Sheng thought for a while: "It seems like a long time."

Li Zhien suggested: "Then do you want to take the bus?"

An Sheng felt a little interesting, he hadn't taken the bus for a long time, since he came to school today, he wanted to find out how he felt when he was in school.

"Okay, there happens to be a station in front of the school."

Li Zhien nodded and followed An Sheng.

The surrounding area is quieter than before, and the campus is even quieter now than before. The lights in the teaching building have been completely extinguished. From An Sheng and the others, the teaching building has an inexplicable sense of terror, like the bridge often seen in horror movies. same paragraph.

It just rained, and there was a lot of water on the road. The two of them walked very carefully. This time, the two of them were not as chatty as they were when they came here. The way they walked to the station was very silent, and no one took the initiative to speak. Li Zhien walked with his head bowed, An Sheng looked ahead, and no one cared about anyone else. The only thing that was a little tricky was that An Sheng hung the camera around his neck. It seemed that he hadn't forgotten that he was Li Zhien's videographer.

Finally arrived at the station, there were occasionally a few cars passing by on the road, An Sheng went to the notice board at the station to study the route of the cars.

After confirming the train number and the time of the last bus, An Sheng walked up to Li Zhien. She was sitting on a bench at the bus platform with her legs stretched out, as if she wanted to show off her short legs.

"I looked at it just now, and there are still 10 minutes left for the last bus."

Li Zhien looked up at him: "This means, we can still get on the bus?"

"It's possible in theory, but it doesn't rule out that the driver wants to get off work early and drive faster, and has already passed our stop."

Li Zhien obviously didn't believe what An Sheng said, and turned her head to look at her feet. What's particularly interesting is that her legs are very short and her feet are also small. From An Sheng's point of view, it looks like a Barbie doll played by a child. Feel.

An Sheng turned on the camera, took a picture of her with the light of the street lamp, and then sat next to her, stretching out his legs on purpose, creating a stark contrast with her.

The bus station was a bit higher than the road in front. An Sheng straightened his legs, and his feet were just able to reach the lower part of the road in front of him.

And no matter how Li Zhien's feet were stretched, they were still some distance away from the road ahead. Seeing her trying to reach the curb in front, An Sheng couldn't help laughing.

"What are you laughing at?" Li Zhien said unhappily.

An Sheng shook his head and explained, "Nothing, nothing."

Li Zhien already knew that he was laughing at his short legs, so he lightly kicked his calf angrily: "What's the matter, don't you just have longer legs."

"Well, just have longer legs, nothing else." An Sheng echoed her.

Li Zhien was so angry that she couldn't speak, she had the feeling of shooting herself in the foot.

Seeing Li Zhien's angry look, An Sheng took a few more photos, and then admired Li Zhien's appearance at various times through the camera.

Seeing An Sheng staring at the camera, Li Zhien asked her. "do I look good?"

"It's pretty." An Sheng didn't look at Li Zhien, but was still staring at the camera.

"You're staring at the camera like that, and I have reason to wonder what you have in mind for me."

"If I want to think about you, I will just look at you in person. You are right next to me. Why should I flip through the photos?"

Li Zhien smacked his lips, as if for this reason.

"Then do you think I'm prettier or the girl in the previous photo is prettier?"

All women are jealous, and Li Zhien is no exception.

This time An Sheng raised his head, looked at Li Zhien, and said quickly, "She's pretty."

Li Zhien's expression changed instantly, he snatched the camera away, and shouted angrily: "Then she looks good, you go and see her, don't look at me."

An Sheng scratched his head innocently. To be honest, he didn't know why Li Zhien was angry, but he remembered a post he had read before.

A woman's temper comes when she says it, no matter where she is, no matter where she is.

An Sheng thought to himself, could it be because she said just now that Li Zhien is not as beautiful as the girl in the photo?

Then this is too wrong, why does Li Zhien compare with someone who has nothing to do with her?

Two beams of light shone in the distance, An Sheng stood up and looked from a distance, and found that it was the bus they were waiting for, so he said to Li Zhien next to him, "The bus is here."

Li Zhien still didn't give him a good face. When the car pulled up and the door opened, Li Zhien walked up with a black face, and An Sheng followed her. After paying the money, he saw Li Zhien sitting in the back row near the back door, and he also walked over , carefully sat behind her, for fear that he would accidentally offend her.

After An Sheng sat down, the car started, and the two sat one behind the other, feeling like a Korean drama.

　Four thousand words, I am exhausted.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)