rose in his heart

Chapter 146

Xing Zhu frowned after listening to the song.

It's very nice, her frowning has nothing to do with the tone of the song, it's just to make sure that Chu Jin sent her the song.

Why is he so...

Xing Zhu couldn't tell her how she felt, but felt that he seemed a little naive.As the relationship progressed, his buried childishness was gradually exposed to her eyes.

She turned back to WeChat and sent him a message.

The message seemed to have fallen into an invisible abyss under an invisible cliff, without even an echo.Xing Zhu simply called, but Chu Jin didn't answer the first one. She called two times in succession before the call was connected.

Xing Zhu whispered, "What are you busy with?"

Chu Jin's voice came from the other end of the phone in a low and cold voice, as if he wasn't the one who attracted her attention by posting Moments.

"Nothing, just lie down at home."

This is the most relaxed time of Xing Zhu this day.

Listening to his voice, she lay down directly on the bed, looking at the strange things in front of her quietly, her mood was very calm.

"I met a guy today," she said.

Chu Jin asked, "Male and female."

"In your world, human beings are only divided into men and women, and there are no other social roles?"

Chu Jin let out an oh, and answered angrily, "It's a man, isn't it?"

Xing Zhu hummed.

Chu Jin snorted coldly, and there seemed to be a ball of fire in the refined words.

"Bye."

"Wait a minute, do you want to eat vinegar from a 40-year-old man?"

Chu Jin didn't respond.

Only then did Xing Zhu continue, "My uncle, I didn't expect to meet him so soon. He took me to my grandparents' house, where I rested tonight. You called."

Hearing that Xing Zhu was willing to explain, and explained clearly, Chu Jin's voice softened a little, "Okay, are you having fun?"

"Generally, it's mainly because I have something on my mind."

Chu Jin asked her back with an indifferent attitude, "What can get into your heart? I asked you to wait for me at home honestly after a few days of business trip. You ran away in a blink of an eye without heart and lungs, and my phone also disappeared." Just hang up. You are so chic, what can get into your heart?"

His voice is flat, with just a slight pick up in the end.

Xing Zhu heard the gun and stick between his words.She wasn't angry, or in the mood to go around in circles with him.

She just looked at the snow-white ceiling in front of her and said in a trance, "My mother passed away."

Xing Zhu could feel that when her voice fell, Chu Jin's voice fell silent almost instantly.Even the sound of his breathing that could be heard before has become solemn.

Maybe she said this too suddenly.

But Chu Jin's reaction doesn't matter to her now.She didn't care about his reaction, didn't need his sympathy or anything else.

She just wanted to find someone to talk to, and Chu Jinhui was the only one.

"But it's not today. It was four years ago. She has been dead for four years. I just found out these few days. During these four years, I thought she was doing well, and I even had the idea of ​​complaining occasionally. Now Think about it, people can't be too self-righteous, and they can't think that they are the only victim in the world."

Xing Zhu's voice was very soft when she said this, so soft that if you didn't listen carefully, you might not know what she was talking about.

But Xing Zhu knew it, and Chu Jin heard it.

He was just cooperating with her and being a qualified listener.

After she finished what she wanted to say at the moment, Chu Jincai said, "Nothing is perfect in the world, and so are people. You can't do better, don't put yourself under psychological pressure and burden."

Xing Zhu hummed, lowered his eyes lightly, "I know, I didn't burden myself psychologically. I just feel a little regretful that I couldn't say a word to her. I don't blame her. That is to say, as you said, nothing is perfect in the world. Bar."

Chu Jin doesn't have many faults, but the one that doesn't comfort people belongs to the most obvious one.He is an activist, and in his eyes, any emotions that cause internal friction do not need to exist, so when a subordinate says that he is under too much pressure when reporting back business, he usually puts down a sentence, "If you are under pressure, you can choose to leave. "There are even more exaggerated replies.

This kind of disposition, at best, is decisive, at worst, it is impersonal and ruthless.

But for such a ruthless person, when she heard Xing Zhu calmly say that she just felt sorry, she would also feel as if her heart was being grabbed by something, and her breathing stopped for a while.

Chu Jin thought, Xing Zhu only needed these few words to eliminate all his dissatisfaction with her that he had accumulated before.

He lit a cigarette, looked at the night outside the window, and whispered, "When my parents died, I watched by the side, watched the car overturned and fell off the cliff, and watched the terrified eyes of the two of them, although that I was still young, but I still remember the feeling that my heart was about to burst. I would rather be the one who died. Later, when I grew up, I also had a kind of regret, regretting why I couldn’t take them with my bare hands. I got my car back. Later, I accepted my own limitations...Xing Zhu, we are only human beings, not gods, and not omnipotent."

Xing Zhu only knew that his parents were dead, but he didn't know that there was such a thing behind it.

It's like Chu Jin didn't know about her mother until now.

Xing Zhu hummed silently, hummed again, turned over and sat up on the bed, rubbed his hot and sour eyes, and then replied, "I think the same as you, I know I have limitations, so It's pretty peaceful now."

Chu Jin's voice was low and hoarse, and he coughed lowly, "Calmness means that you have good control over your emotions, but it doesn't matter if you want to flood your emotions for a short time, as long as it doesn't hurt your body." Body."

Xing Zhu felt that she lacked paternal love, so she always wanted to become a strong and calm person in her bones, and she might have done it, but it was only superficial.When she really encountered something, she kept calm, and it was easy to be crushed by Chu Jin's sentence "it's okay to flood emotions".

"What emotions do I have to overflow with?" She bit her lip and said, her voice had become sobbing and suppressed in silence.

Chu Jin comforted in a low voice, "Anything is fine."

Crying is a shortcut to vent emotions. All the unspeakable things buried in the bottom of my heart can be mixed into the falling tears, and then evaporate in the air.

Her character is doomed that she will not cry loudly or scream and collapse. Even if she cries, she buries herself in the pillow and clenches her hands tightly until bright nail prints appear on her palms. give up.

Chu Jin listened to the voice from the other end of the phone, the cigarette case was empty, but his eyes were still gloomy.

(End of this chapter)