rose in his heart

Chapter 246 A Letter You Are The Vine
The smell of alcohol on his body rushed to his face, intertwined with her breath, sensing his wild and rainy breath, Xing Zhu felt for a moment that the drunk person seemed to be himself.

She was put down in a trance, sinking deep in the soft fabric.

From the beginning to now, Chu Jin has been encroaching on her breathing, hardly giving her a chance to relax.It was rare for her to see Chu Jin like this, and now besides a feeling of being unable to adapt, there was also a surging emotion in her heart.

The corners of her eyes were red, and her thick eyelashes were stained with tears and drooped in a frown, as if she was so pitiful.

"Chu Jin..." She couldn't bear to call out to him in a low voice.

Chu Jin's movements stopped in an instant, and he stared straight at Xing Zhu, wondering if Xing Zhu's tears wiped his face, leaving a wet trace.

Xing Zhu raised his hand to wipe off the trace, and whispered, "Shall I get you a hangover soup?"

Chu Jin just looked at her like that, as if he was looking at something else through her.

Xing Zhu was about to say something, but he leaned over, clasped her neck firmly, and sealed it again.

Xing Zhu groaned, and no longer had the right to speak.

The drunken person seems to be his nature, he doesn't say much and doesn't explain, he is completely action-oriented, so strong that he doesn't give people any chance to react.From breathing to space, everything was eroded by him.

He conveyed to her a feeling that he wants her to be the only one in the world, and she can only have his feeling.

The pouring rain outside the window, the pattering rain seeps into the breath and pores of the people in the rain curtain, damp and exhausted, but the sound of the rain is so clear, the rain is so cool and fresh, no one wants to go back to the room.

The sound of thunder followed, and when the thunder and rain were intertwined, it was so vigorous.

During the excitement, she suddenly heard Chu Jin whispering in her ear.

The voice was indistinct, perhaps because her consciousness was indistinct at the moment.

But she could clearly hear Chu Jin say three words.

"sorry."

"..."

Who is sorry for whom?She always felt that in these things, she was the only one who was wrong.

Under the pouring rain, while she was sinking deep, she heard him continue, "I shouldn't have put you in a place where I forgot me before, and I shouldn't have used my own thinking to judge your memory when you lost your memory. The crime should not have wasted so long, should not have left you alone..."

Xing Zhu's breathing was intermittent.

Chu Jin was really drunk. Although he was conscious, he might not be able to control himself now.

He continued, "You should treat me like that. Even if you really forget me, I can accept it. I can't accept that I hurt you, I can't accept that I have looked at you with prejudice for many years, I can't."

"No……"

"Do you hate me, baby, you are so pitiful, I still have to misunderstand you."

The moment he heard the word pitiful, Xing Zhu was silent for a moment.

She seldom heard others use this word to describe her. She heard that only when she truly loves the other party will she feel that the other party is very pitiful.

She knew that Chu Jin loved her more than she loved herself.

"I'm not pitiful at all now...nor have I been before. Don't think too much about it."

Chu Jin's breathing became heavier, crushing her ear, and slipping to the corner of her lips.

"I'll be nice to you in the future, forgive me, okay?"

Xing Zhu's breath was swallowed, and he could only barely utter a good tone.

He should only be exporting unilaterally now, and he can't hear what she said at all.

Xing Zhu didn't force himself to speak anymore.

Chu Jin continued to talk a lot in her ear, from the first thing to the last.He said that at the beginning, when he had a fever, he really didn't want to open his eyes for a moment. He heard her voice in his ears all the time. He wanted to look at her and see who was talking, so he persisted. go down.Many times in the future, when he felt that life was meaningless, he would also dream of that time. He thought he was going to die, and she saved him.People don't suffer all the time, he knows.

The rare sense of logic in his words is not very strong, Xing Zhu listened for a while before he understood what he meant.

"At that time, why did you want to open your eyes and look at me so much?"

"A few years ago, someone said that I am a vine, as long as there is a little stretch around it, it will spread and grow until it becomes a towering tree... If I am a vine, you are a tree."

Probably the kind, at the end of life, a dead tree comes back to life.

Unable to experience what he has experienced, Xing Zhu has no way to fully perceive the emotions in his heart.

She can only express it with her actual actions.

"The memory you lost must be that time."

"Yes."

Chu Jin's eyes became more and more red, until finally, he seemed to want to embed her into his flesh and blood.
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late at night.

When Chu Jin opened his eyes, Xing Zhu had already fallen asleep in his arms.

Sober up.

The temperature of the air conditioner in the room was turned on a little high. When he looked down, he could see the fine sweat on her forehead, which had tangled her hair.

He got up and took a wet towel over there, carefully wiped off the sweat, and then walked out of the room, throwing the wet towel into the trash can.

He didn't turn on the light, fearing that the light would spread to the bedroom and prevent Xing Zhu from sleeping well.

The emotion in his heart was so heavy that he couldn't express it.

He walked to the study room where he worked, opened the drawer, took out a pack of cigarettes, and lit it in the night.When the flame burst out from the lighter, taking advantage of the flame, he saw that there seemed to be an extra piece of paper in the drawer.

He thought it was an instruction manual for something, and when he pulled it out and was about to throw it away, the moonlight outside the window dimly illuminated a corner of the paper.

[2021/11/21]

[A Jin, when you read this letter, I must not be by your side. 】

His movements froze instantly, and the soot fell on the back of his hand, and he didn't even notice the pain.

Chu Jin's heart skipped a beat, he sat down instantly, and turned on the lamp on the table.

The warm-colored lamp completely exposed the original appearance of the letter to his sight. Black and white characters were densely written on a full sheet of A4 paper.

The messy feeling in his heart suddenly disappeared at this moment.

His eyes followed that sentence and continued to look down, silently crushing out the smoke.

He sat here late at night, reading the letter for two hours.

In fact, it takes about 10 minutes to watch the whole thing, and he watched it over and over many times.

There are many inner voices that Xingzhu has not expressed to him.About amnesia, about her guilt towards him, about what kind of person his love made her, about her timidity and hesitation.

She has never been a genius in verbal expression, but no one can compare with her in terms of elaborating on paper.

(End of this chapter)