rose in his heart

Chapter 45 Medicine

Xing Zhu just said something casually, he didn't know what kind of waves this sentence would cause in some people's hearts, and he didn't care.

It's just that when Chu Jin saw her words, he still inevitably fell into a vortex of low tide emotions.

Modern people advocate exuding their own charm alone, and it is not recommended to unilaterally pour emotions.Because if the one-sided emotion is not responded to, it will be embarrassing, and it will become the so-called 'dog licking'.

When gathering with friends, Chu Jin never got involved in any topics related to "dog licking".

He feels that he is really not qualified to judge others, and he is similar.

Xing Zhu's favorite fairy tale male protagonist, he quietly changed his id for listening to books in no one's place.After knowing that she was broadcasting live by accident, I watched it for several years like clocking in at work, tirelessly.

And all of this, Xing Zhu didn't know.

While he was giving unilaterally, she was in love, dating, and living.Or maybe in insomnia, indulging, sad——

Whatever she was doing had nothing to do with him.

He's just been unilaterally 'licking the dog'.

All this is not Xing Zhu's fault, she has the right to live her own life and forget everything she wants to forget.

All this should be his fault.

But unfortunately, humans have never been creatures who can recognize their mistakes and correct them.

Chu Jin thought of that night a few years ago.

He shouldn't have reached out to cover her mouth, and he shouldn't have put that sour candy in her mouth.
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Time passed like a cloud of smoke, and in a blink of an eye, the next day arrived.

Xing Zhu glanced at the calendar when he was going out. Tomorrow is the National Day.

In the underground garage of the community, she drove back from the platinum mansion yesterday.

Opening the door, Xing Zhu got into the car.

Although he went to the hospital quite a few times, they were all in the past two years. Afraid of going the wrong way, Xing Zhu still set his navigation to Jiangcheng No.1 Civil Hospital.

When driving out of the community, Xing Zhu was blocked by a car in front of him.She calmly slowed down the speed of the car, and looked at the road ahead with her hands on the steering wheel.

A familiar figure of a man suddenly flashed on the right side of her line of sight, and Xing Zhu looked over unconsciously, but the man had already turned around, and she could only see his back.

Much like Zhang Kai, except for the slightly curved back.If there is no curvature of the back, she may directly see him as Zhang Kai.

Xing Zhu didn't have time to take a second look, the car in front had already driven away, and the car behind also honked its horn.

Xing Zhu withdrew his gaze and drove on the main road.

After 10 minutes of driving time, Xingzhu arrived at the door of the department at around ten o'clock.

There is a sign hanging on the door of the department, on duty today: Li Qiu

Psychology departments always make appointments in advance, and Xing Zhu had already made an appointment yesterday, and the two-hour period from ten o'clock to twelve o'clock belonged to her.

When Xing Zhu pushed the door open, Dr. Li had already prepared all her files and waited for her.

Seeing Xing Zhu come in, she had a warm smile on her face, "Miss Xing, you are more beautiful than before."

Xing Zhu thanked her politely, and didn't exchange a few words after sitting down. In the idea of ​​not wasting resources, Xing Zhu brought the topic to her purpose of coming here.

"I'm sure I've never seen that picture before, so why do I have that splitting headache? What triggers it? A hangover? I vaguely remember that same thing when I first lost my memory. It felt like it lasted half a month, this time, it was only one day."

Dr. Li smiled, "Don't be nervous now. The human body itself is complex and changeable. It's not a big deal to have a headache once in a while, and it's only for a short period of time. Don't be nervous. I heard you mentioned a hangover , What, is it the pain after a hangover?"

Xing Zhu nodded.

Dr. Li looked at her, "Why do you drink alcohol? I remember you told me that you had given up smoking and drinking when you came for a review."

Xing Zhu was silent for a moment, "Student reunion."

Dr. Li smiled, "Is it just a simple class reunion?"

"..."

This is the reason why Xing Zhu has come to the hospital less in the past two years.

The psychiatrist will always smile and press all your secrets, all your experiences and vulnerabilities in a gentle manner.

The situation of each patient is different, and some patients feel a lot easier after telling all the things accumulated in their hearts.But Xingzhu is different, she has amnesia, she can't know what is the root of the pain in her heart, and she can't solve it completely by speaking out, instead she will feel helpless and naked peeping.

Seeing that Xing Zhu didn't want to say anything, Dr. Li didn't continue to ask, and said, "Your physical condition is special, and other people's stress amnesia will recover in about half a year. You have far exceeded this half a year. From a medical point of view, you will recover again. It should be unlikely. But there may be some opportunities, not necessarily. So you have to adapt to the process of occasional pain, if you really can't bear it, you can choose to take painkillers."

After the words fell, Dr. Li comforted Xingzhu again, "I can also see you growing up from a 13-year-old child to a slim figure now. You have become stronger and stronger over the years. This is very good, no matter it is you It’s good to pretend to be strong, or to be strong from the heart.”

Xing Zhu lightly lowered his eyes, "Weakness and strength are the definitions given by society, so what if you are not strong?"

Dr. Li, "No, strength is a kind of protection given by the human body, not just a label defined by society. Think about it, if you are still hysterical when you were 13 years old...would you be satisfied?"

Silence reappeared.

Xing Zhu thought of the 13-year-old in her memory, and she was indeed broken and hysterical.Immediately after losing his memory and enduring a splitting headache day and night, his parents divorced.

Divorce is the choice of both of them, but Xingzhu is the one who was abandoned, when she was most painful, helpless and immature.

In the end, the custody rights fell into the hands of Xing Qin.

When she thought that Xing Qin really loved her, he led his new wife in without hesitation, and brought Xing Shuang with him.

Xing Zhu will never forget that scene, she is like a poor outsider.

Facing such a situation, how can she not be hysterical?
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At the end of the memory recall, Xing Zhu left with the checklist and some medicines that Dr. Li said could alleviate the frequent occurrence of this symptom.

The MRI still needs an appointment, so Xing Zhu went to get the medicine first.

After she finished taking it, she realized that these medicines not only regulate the nervous system, but also have many traditional Chinese medicines that calm the nerves and help sleep.

However, she did not tell Dr. Li about going to bed late and turning day and night upside down.

On second thought, Dr. Li has been a psychiatrist for so many years, maybe she only needs to have a few conversations with her to know what state she is in now.

(End of this chapter)