adversity girl

Chapter 54 Goodbye
The elevator doors are open.

Gu Zhi's cold eyes became as gentle as before after blinking, and the heart that was still beating seemed to stop at that moment and then started to beat faster. He had fantasized about the scene when he saw the girl again countless times, but when he really appeared It is always different from what I imagined.

The girl glanced away at the number that was not changing, and when she looked up and saw the person she had forgotten, she realized that he had always existed in that place in her heart. At that moment, she only heard the sound of her heart beating extremely fast.

When the girl's innocent eyes lingered in his for a moment, the sound around the company became very quiet, at this moment Gu Zhi stopped breathing.

It seems that there is only one small fish swimming in a clear lake.

He only has eyes for her.

She originally thought that she could treat this person with the same composure as those people in the past, but her heart told her that she couldn't do it.

She closed her eyes and passed him by.

"Yan Manjia."

When she heard the warm voice like warm water that she wanted to hear the most, that sunny face was in her mind.

Yan Manjia took a quick breath, tightly closed her eyes and adjusted herself.When she turned around and opened her eyes again, she looked directly at the pair of eyes that were pretending to be gentle with her cold eyes.

"I'm not what I was."

"That Tuan Tuan Zhuan who was deceived by you...

"Stupid high school student."

Yan Manjia raised her eyes and slowly walked in front of Gu Zhi, and those eyes showed a sense of strangeness born of trust in Gu Zhi.

"I don't know Gu Zhi."

"I'm not Yan Manjia."

"I'm just myself!"

"I'll watch you fall with a smile on my face!"

The girl blinked away his glasses-free eyes, then stood upright and left after speaking.

Gu Zhi looked at the girl's back, and suddenly his head buzzed. When he was about to walk into the elevator, Lin He, who came out of the public toilet, was arranging his clothes and seeing that Gu Zhi was not in the right state, he hurried forward to help her. into the elevator with his right arm.

"I just have diarrhea and go to the toilet."

"You, what..."

Lin He pressed the floor and talked to Gu Zhi beside him.

Seeing him start to have shortness of breath, with his left hand close to his chest, and slowly kneeling on the ground, Lin He was frightened by Gu Zhi's behavior and his eyes widened. When he tried to help Gu Zhi up, he found that his eyes had already moist.

"She... said she didn't know... me."

"But I know her, Yan Manjia!"

The girl's indifferent words lingered in Gu Zhi's ears. He who had been prepared to face him a long time ago, when he really saw the rainbow-like smile on his face, he looked like he was a stranger to him. , The heart that has never been prepared will break the defense in a second.

He doesn't care if Yan Manjia treats him the same way he treats those people, but what he cherishes is that the girl's current strength is due to her past.

"Her eyes can deceive other people."

"But her eyes... haven't changed in my eyes."

Hearing these words, Lin He realized that Gu Zhi had met that girl while he was going to the bathroom, he sighed again and frowned.

I thought to myself, why is it when I go to the bathroom by myself?Really missed a good show.

"OK OK."

"You approached her as a teacher."

"She knows Teacher Gu."

"I just don't know your name, do I?"

Gu Zhi blinked his eyes and raised his eyes to look at Lin He's serious expression. After thinking about it, he felt that this was the truth, and the pain in his heart eased a lot, and he slowly stood up.

Touching his chest, adjusting his breathing.

Wiping his tears.

At this moment, the elevator door opened, and several employees stood in front of the elevator door. They saw a gentle and elegant young man in a white shirt, with a grievance on his handsome face, and looked at a handsome man standing beside him. He was quite a good-looking man with an incredulous expression on his face.

After Gu Zhi adjusted his state and walked out of the elevator, Lin He jumped out among the employees who looked at him strangely, and looked back at the doors that those employees closed after entering the elevator, with a puzzled expression on his face.

A figure gradually appeared on the unfathomable bottom of the blue world. The girl circled the school of fish and came out of the sea to the beach. Yan Manjia was wearing a one-piece suit that could fully absorb the seawater, keeping her body moisturized for a long time. state.

She was holding a bag of garbage picked up from the deep sea.

Looking back at the boundless sea, the girl felt very comfortable, and the overlapping and undulating waves rushed towards the girl.

Those bright eyes are full of blue sea.

"Put on quickly, is it cold?"

Wang Geyan put the windbreaker on his arm, and held the two shoulders of the clothes with both hands, and the girl put her hands into the sleeves of the windbreaker in his hand.

"I...I'm not cold."

"She is from the sea."

Yan Manjia put the bag of garbage behind, put on the clothes and adjusted the sleeves, looking into those unique eyes, she knew that Wang Geyan cared about her, but although she blurted out, the other self in her heart It really hasn't appeared in a long time.

Standing on the sea water floating over my feet, looking down at the waves caressing me and then returning to the sea, my eyes follow the waves and raise my eyes, quietly looking at the boundless blue world.

"Is she still in my heart?"

Yan Manjia, who had already started to feel unwell, did not choose to just stay in the bathtub filled with water in the bathroom, but went to the sea.

On the verge of cardiac arrest, she jumped and quickly swam to the depths of the sea.

It took a long time for the girl to come out of the sea. After finally recovering her breath, she sat on the shore of the reef, calmed down and looked at the sea and fell into deep thought.

Why can I breathe freely in the sea even though I can't swim, and can swim freely in the deep sea.

Why do I always feel empty in my heart, as if she really doesn't live in my heart, but I feel that she is in my body.

And this feeling will make her puzzled.

"It's going to rain."

"do not worry."

Yan Manjia ran into the forest behind her, took out an umbrella from the grass and hid it behind her, then ran in front of him.

"Look."

Yan Manjia opened the umbrella and handed the white umbrella to Wang Geyan on tiptoe.

He saw that the umbrella he had designed and made before appeared in front of him again, and he was very pleasantly surprised.

The girl with a smiling face in front of him and those piercing eyes made him very happy.

"I thought...you forgot."

"I said I would take back the memories that belong to you and me."

"This is a symbol of our first meeting."

"It's so meaningful, how could I forget it."

She opened the perennially rusted door again, passing the creaking sound of the door by her ears, raised her eyes and looked at the place where she had lived for 17 years, those days are still vivid in her memory, and she stepped into the door At that moment, looking at every place in this room, I recalled the unbearable memories from my childhood to my youth.

The long bamboo whip in the corner next to the toilet still has bloodstains that she can't erase, as well as the bloodstains from her neck on the white wall in the living room. She rubbed her eyes and those memories kept flashing by, swallowing The saliva in his throat was so bitter, he turned around and opened his eyes, and saw the dark room with no sunlight.

What caught my eyes was the me who used to be curled up in the darkest corner when I was a child, tightly wrapping my painful body with my hands, watching the whip waving and lifting, beating my body over and over again, I have long been used to it. I will cry again, and I will never look at this woman in front of me with only evil eyes but a smile on her face.

Walking through these places to his own room, he held the white umbrella kept in the drawer tightly in his hand.

I closed the door with my own hands, trying to seal the memories in my mind in this room, but it was inevitable that I would not think of these pasts in the future.

"I'm really sorry."

"If only I could do my best at the time."

"You don't experience that either."

Wang Zhi, who was waiting outside the door, felt guilty, lowered his head, bent over and said to Yan Manjia what he had kept in his heart for a long time.

"You never hurt me."

"There's no need to say that."

"It's none of your business."

Yan Manjia looked at the person next to him. Uncle Rong told himself that he had sent someone to guard him. Originally, Wang Xunrong wanted to punish Wang Zhi for not doing his duty properly, but Yan Manjia was stopped. She wanted to give Wang Zhi another chance. Stay by my side to make up for the duty I didn't fulfill.

Wang Zhi raised his head cautiously to see the girl's indifferent expression, thinking of the miserable situation of those who hurt her, he couldn't help but feel a shudder in his heart.

"Who is here?"

Yan Manjia walked down the stairs and stopped in front of the downstairs neighbor's door. When an aunt opened the door and saw that it was the little girl upstairs, she was very puzzled.

"Is there a problem?"

"I'm coming to see my puppy."

Yan Manjia responded with a polite smile, and then took off her shoes and walked into the aunt's house barefoot. Without the aunt's consent, the aunt wanted to stop the girl, but was stopped by Wang Zhi, because the aunt My impression is that a man on the top floor entrusted him to raise the puppy. He didn't want to agree, but Wang Xunrong promised to give her a high maintenance fee every month.

The girl searched the whole house but found no trace of the puppy, only saw a puppy nest in one room.

Yan Manjia originally wanted to take advantage of their unpreparedness to see if they took good care of the puppy.

"Where is the puppy, where did it go?"

Suddenly, a primary school student walked in leading a puppy. The girl saw that the stray dog ​​she had ventured to bring home was now wearing clean little clothes. Still chewing.

The originally anxious expression also became indifferent, and the worry about it in my heart gradually disappeared.

"Let's go."

Yan Manjia walked out of the house, and when she passed by the puppy, she still didn't forget to take a look at it, and found that it was a lot bigger, and smiled in relief.

But after Wang Zhi walked out, the auntie gave the girl another look, and then closed the door with a "slap".

"Mrs. He, is the water ready?"

"Come on, right now."

Yan Manjia didn't care about going down the stairs again, she met a butcher who was about to go out to the pork shop downstairs, she quickly raised her hand to signal to Wang Zhi to stop him, the butcher held a pot of boiling water in one hand and a pot of water in the other. When he was about to go out with a water glass, he looked up and saw a burly man blocking the door, and behind him was a very familiar girl, and he remembered that she was the bad child who was often beaten by his parents for disobeying discipline.

"If you don't go to school, you'll be a gangster, hum."

"How to extort money from me?"

Yan Manjia came to the butcher and sized him up, then raised his cold eyes and stared straight at those bloodshot and lifeless eyes.

And Wang Zhi couldn't help laughing out loud when he heard this, and stared at the man in ordinary and old wrinkled clothes with puckered mouth.

"Because of you, let the previous me think."

"It was my obedience and sensibleness that moved her."

Although the girl stood in front of this person and spoke calmly, Wang Zhi who was standing behind her felt a sense of sadness.

"Thinking about it now, it just feels ridiculous!"

It was a holiday in junior high school. I cleaned the house as usual at home, and when I bent over and mopped the floor over and over again, I saw this pot of thick soup squatting on the stove in the kitchen, but I knew I didn’t have the good fortune to enjoy the pot. Food, even a mouthful of soup, is never extravagant in my heart. On weekdays, if my mother wins money playing cards and comes back happy, she may be able to eat a bite, but when she comes back with an expressionless face, she loses money. As long as she sees herself, she will pick up that The bamboo whip vented its anger on me.

Day after day, the scars on my body that have not had time to heal can no longer disappear.

But this time, I thought my mother finally found out that I was obedient and sensible, and she took the initiative to let me eat pork ribs and drink pork ribs soup.

"It has to be eaten up, and the soup can't be left."

But when my mother went out, her tone of voice was still as cold as ever, and the ferocity in her eyes still existed, but I didn’t care about it at that time. I was just immersed in the behavior my mother had never had before, and I was very happy in my heart.

I withdrew the tears of joy and ate the meat, but I always felt that the taste of the meat was very strange, but I didn’t want to waste the hard-won food, so I swallowed it into my stomach. I looked at the meat in the bowl and sniffed it. After sniffing, a pungent and unpleasant smell flooded into my nasal cavity, and I couldn't help feeling sick for a while.

Only then did I realize why it was that day, because I was just a trash can in her eyes.

Not only can it store leftovers, but it can also swallow rotten and smelly food.

"Pigs die because of people."

"What right do I have to dislike its meat?"

"I ate everything that day."

"Not even a drop of soup was left."

Yan Manjia was talking to that person with a smile, but Wang Zhi was shocked when he heard the girl eat a pot of stinky meat, but more of it was guilt and distress for the girl.

After listening to the words, the butcher looked guilty, and his eyes flickered and he didn't dare to look up at the girl, because in the eyes of the neighbors in this building, the girl was regarded as a ignorant person who was often called by her parents because she didn't listen to her parents. Beating, and the reason why they think so is from the mouth of the girl's mother.

"Since doing this line of work."

"You should be moral."

"One time, you will have more times."

"Have you ever counted, how many heartless meats have you sold?"

Yan Manjia pointed to the butcher's heart, with the corners of his mouth drooping, he raised his eyebrows and raised his eyes to look at the man dismissively.

Of course, the butcher is like a bright mirror in his heart, but of course he will not admit that he has done those immoral things, but the look of embarrassment on his face has already betrayed himself. Seeing this little girl in front of him talking and judging himself, in his heart He was even more angry, looking at the pot of boiling water in his hand, he had an evil thought.

At this time, Xiaoshen appeared in the corridor with a bag of snacks, and the butcher deliberately looked at the person behind Yan Manjia, so as to attract the girl's attention to look behind him.

"Be careful."

Wang Zhi noticed that the butcher wanted to pour the pot of boiling water on Yan Manjia while she was not paying attention, so he quickly turned around and used his body to form a shield to protect her, blocking the hot water that had just boiled for the girl.

"you you."

When Yan Manjia turned her head, she looked at Wang Zhi who was steaming all over with a dazed and surprised face. At this time, Wang Zhi had already started to experience pain in his back and slid against the wall.

(End of this chapter)