Phoenix and Legend

Chapter 87 Farewell
At 6 o'clock the next morning, the wind stopped and the rain cleared up, but it was a more bleak world, with haggard locust leaves drooping deeply, and fallen flowers floating with thousands of pieces of sadness.

Caining dragged her dark blue suitcase and walked slowly towards Wutong Station. Every step she took, she felt her legs weighed a thousand pounds. She missed this small town so much. The closer she was to the station, the more painful Caining's heart would be, and the pain felt like a heavy pressure in the air.

Caining bought the ticket at Wutong Station, and when she walked into the waiting hall alone, she felt even more desolate in her heart. Two months ago, she and Jinlin went to Jicheng together to chat and laugh, recall the past, and wait for the arrival of the train. Now , Alone, alone, heartbroken, why is it that I am the only one left in the legend of the phoenix that we have a tacit understanding?Caining's tears blurred her eyes for an instant, as if she felt a strange world, full of unknowns and fog.

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At 7:[-], Mei Ning found a letter beside her pillow, she was at a loss for a moment, "Sister Cai Ning, Sister Cai Ning—" Mei Ning shouted eagerly in every small room, it turned out that Cai Ning had already left. "Sister Caining—why do you really have to leave? Why are you so cruel?" Meining's crisp voice was full of dullness and sadness.

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At 7:33, the train slowly drove out of the Wutong platform. The scenery outside the window became more and more misty, but Caining's heart became more and more clear. She thought, no matter where she went, she would never forget Jinlin , can't forget this wonderful Phoenix legend.

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At 7:55, Mei Ning brought Cai Ning's letter to Jin Lin's home with a particularly sad heart: "Brother Jin Lin, sister Cai Ning is gone, she asked me to pass this letter to you."

Jin Lin couldn't believe his hearing, he was extremely surprised and asked: "Meining, what did you say?!"

"Sister Caining left the small town and went to the big city..." Mei Ning lowered her head and said very sadly with tears.

Jinlin anxiously opened the letter and wrote:
Jinlin:

When you read this letter, I have already set foot on the train to a foreign land. Forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye. I don’t want to leave, but I have to. I don’t want to affect your family harmony after marriage because of me. Forget Me, maybe we are destined not to have this fate in this life.

I have thought more than once that even if I meet you as a "third party" regardless of my dignity, you will be very pitiful and sympathetic to me, a woman who has been deeply hurt by love, and I will also because of this To obtain joy and happiness, but kindness and morality have to make me give up this cheeky idea, because doing so is not the Caining that makes you pity.

I stared at the dark blue suitcase, sad, it made me feel the sadness of our true love, I used to naively think that after we met, we would draw a perfect symbol for our heart-to-heart gazing, but But it is not as simple as I imagined. The entanglement of contradictions and feelings, the entanglement of wandering and separation, and the entanglement of internal and external factors make me extremely tired and sad, but as long as you confess like a poem , can make me excited and strong, because you are my only love and true love, and my heart is born of love, for our Phoenix legend.

But now, I still wear that hypocritical ring on the ring finger of my left hand, pretending to be a married woman, and comically performing the love that makes me pitiful, but I don’t care about all of this, because I can’t get fate , I can still get feelings, but I can't get the marriage that I miss so much, and I can get the treasure that you regard as life. I can't get the love in reality, and our Phoenix legend, Jinlin, you don't have I found out that what I got with kindness, purity and strength turned out to be imprints in my thinking, scars in my hopes, and cracks in my fantasies.

In countless nights, I suffered from insomnia, I smoked cigarettes, the smoke permeated the light marks of years on my forehead, and the coughing sound made me vent my pain to my heart's content, it made me lose the woman's Dignity, dark red lips, and brown eye circles make me look sexy and hesitant. I am not such a person, but facing my long-awaited and unintentionally lost love, I am at a loss, lonely and helpless. Maybe it's my strong struggle and weak cry.

When I saw you with her, I could only immerse myself in the dark rain, let the rain torture me mercilessly, but I was still strong, I didn’t give up because of this, I was still full of hope for a turnaround, but Our miracles are based on Mei Ning and Nan Nan's illness, how can I feel at ease, even though I also advocate materialism like you, but I no longer bear the condemnation of my heart all the time, is it our fate? Is it the curse of goodness and the mercy of evil?This kind of fate is meaningless to me, so this is a belief I choose to leave, and this is my humble way of thinking, but I firmly believe that the true love between us is kind, and it will always be as pure as orchid!
Jinlin, I'd better leave the "Phoenix Villa" to you. The key is in the drawer of my desk. Without you, what's the point of that villa?I have wanted to go many times to feel your most sincere breath and purest love for me, but without you, there is only boundless desolation and sorrow. Forgive me, I really don’t have the courage to face it.

Although I will rarely smile in the future, my tears will also become less and less, because I will go on bravely, please rest assured, I will always be the strongest woman in your heart.

Goodbye, Jinlin, the greatest love in my heart!
Please respect my choice, don't call me, don't come to me.

treasure!

彩宁
After reading this letter, Jinlin was almost desperate, and his heart was so hurt that he couldn't add it. He deeply felt how heartbroken Caining was when he wrote this letter, and maybe he would never see her again. She is gone, that sentimental but strong-hearted woman, who is beautiful and quiet but pure and kind, where is she? I have to find her, even if I spend my whole life to find her. He took the letter and walked anxiously out of the house, feeling the pain in his eyes instantly.

It was dark in front of him, and his hand was pressed against the wall of the old villa in pain, the dust was scattered, and the sky was full of clouds and smoke.

Mei Ning hurriedly chased after her, grabbed Jin Lin's hand and cried bitterly: "Brother Jin Lin, where are you going to find it? You should respect Sister Cai Ning's choice. You and Bai Fei'er are going to get married soon, don't you want to marry me?" Let Sister Caining watch you live alone for the rest of your life, let's be realistic and don't live in legends." Mei Ning's desolate words made Jin Lin's heart ache, and he stood in the courtyard of the villa and shouted to the sky: "Cai Ning——" the voice echoed for a long time, as if the whole world could hear the most mournful cry from his soul.

Mei Ning helped Jin Lin back to the living room, sat on the sofa, sobbed with tears in her eyes and said, "Miss Cai Ning is in pain, when I helped her pack the suitcase last night, her tears seemed to soak the whole suitcase, Cai Ning Sister really doesn't want to leave you, but what can I do, in fact, I know very well that Sister Caining hasn't worked in Lanhua Commercial Building for the past two years."

Then Mei Ning confides in a very subtle way:
"Sister Caining's husband, Qin Tian, ​​asked her to quit her job first, raise a boy for him, and then go back to work. Sister Caining agreed, but Sister Caining is... Qin Tian said to her, if you... Never go back to work. Although there is a nanny at home, sister Caining has to take care of all the housework. Although she works hard every day, she still feels very happy, because Qin Tian treats her a little better, Caining My sister was also very moved. She also thought that although she and her husband had no love, after all, marrying him was also a kind of fate, and she tried her best to meet all the requirements of her husband. One day, sister Caining went to the hospital for a physical examination by herself, but inadvertently Seeing Qin Tian and a beautiful woman shopping arm in arm, she felt very sad. However, after Qin Tian returned home, Sister Caining not only did not criticize him, but also tried to persuade him with good words, hoping that he could rein in the precipice, but Qin Tian But Tian couldn't listen to it at all, and instead became more blatant, hated her even more, and often disliked her for losing her youth. More than a year has passed, and Sister Caining has not been able to..., she was already very painful and He blamed himself, and he was much older, but Qin Tian lost patience with her. Not only did he not have any comfort, he even filed for a divorce with her. In order to give her daughter a complete family, Sister Caining still worked hard to keep her husband. But the sky said that she was a woman of..., Sister Caining agreed when she saw that there was no hope, and after the divorce, Sister Caining moved to a very old building where her mother used to live in."

After Mei Ning finished speaking, she continued to say with great emotion: "Sister Cai Ning said, you have been her hope of living these two years, and every day in her spare time, she misses the meeting with you that seemed like a world away, but she just purely put this She recalled everything as a legend, and did not integrate it into her family. She said that people can have fantasies, but they must not be regarded as a burden on the family, let alone a realistic hope. Later, Sister Caining recuperated at home After a while, I went back to work in the Lanhua Commercial Building, and you met again. You know, every time she sees you, she has the fantasy of confessing to you, because Sister Caining knows very well that you have an unforgettable love for her, but She is not sure whether you are in the same situation as hers, but she feels sure, so she gives you her most sincere gaze."

Caining's past made Jinlin feel soul-stirring pain and unparalleled sadness... But it may be too late, encounters admiringly, love each other by fate, but are teased by fate, the most beautiful true love in the world may be It's just so frustrating.

Mei Ning wiped away her tears with an old white handkerchief, smiled and comforted Jin Lin and said: "Sister Cai Ning's trip may make her start again and forget all the pain. We should be happy for her. No matter where you are, you will always be her favorite person."

Jin Lin lowered his head and looked at the letter Cai Ning left him over and over again, feeling Cai Ning's pain again and again in his heart. When Cai Ning's handwriting changed from clear to blurred, his eyes seemed to be covered by a layer of The mist shrouded him, causing him to have many thoughts: What did Caining do in a big city alone?Will she apply for a job that suits her in a shopping mall or a large supermarket in a certain city?Will it also stand at the No. 7 cash register?Or will you choose another job?But where does she live?Living in a cramped dorm for four or eight?Who will take care of her if she is sick?Who will comfort her if she encounters setbacks?Who will help her if she encounters difficulties?In the confusion, he thought with great concern about all the possible problems that Caining might face. However, conjecture is an unknown result after all. Although it approaches inevitability according to his own thinking mode, chance still exists. Although Jinlin is a A loyal materialist, he also does not want to extend his conjecture about Cai Ning to bad results. He believes that the kind Cai Ning has been teased by love, and she will not encounter any unsatisfactory things again.

Mei Ning saw that Jin Lin was still thinking deeply, and felt very anxious in her heart. She could only do her best to bring Jin Lin to the most ideal state: "Brother Jin Lin, Sister Cai Ning is not only rich in wisdom, but also Very kind, she is like the goddess of purity, who can hold the torch of victory and light wherever she goes."

Although Mei Ning's metaphor seems to be inappropriate, Jin Lin has found spiritual comfort in Mei Ning's words, because the best guess is the ideal world in the unknown world, and the cloud of Jin Lin's mood is gradually dissipating : "Meining, you are right, thank you for your comfort, we should pray and bless Caining."

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Caining sat alone in front of the train window. She kept looking out of the window throughout the day, her eyes gradually became sore, and her face became more haggard. Suffering from mental torture, she could only use strength to support her thin body. How much she wished that Jinlin would sit beside her, so that she could lean on and lean on. Caining called Jinlin's name over and over again in her heart, with a lot of thoughts: Jinlin, where are you now?Are you with Mayfair? Although I am not jealous, I am very envious.You are the only person I love in my life, but now I have to bear the fate of loneliness and go away. Is it because of my strength, generosity, and kindness that I got a dream, a play, and a gorgeous cloud? , when the dream wakes up, the play dissipates, and the clouds drift away, I am left alone, living in this world with memories and nothing else. I do not expect my kindness to be rewarded, but my only What I need most is you, you are my everything, my soul, and the courage to live.Caining felt that her emotions were completely surrounded by grievances. She wanted to leave but couldn't leave her.

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At dusk, Caining finally couldn't bear the torment of inner sadness and the darkness outside the car window. She fell asleep on the table and fell into a dream in a moment:

In a foggy world, Jinlin called Caining by name, and kept looking for her, but she was standing in front of him, but Jinlin couldn't see, touch, or hear her. Sounds, isolated from each other in two different worlds.

Two anxious people are very close, but they can't see, touch, or hear...

After Caining woke up, there was silence on the train. Facing the dream, she was very sensitive and sad: Could it be that Jinlin and I didn't even have a fate to meet in the dream?Why so cruel?Caining's heart felt the pain of the wind and rain, and was continuously poured and melted by the suppressed tears, but she still did not forget the word "strong", she thought that her heart would never be broken, for the true love between herself and Jinlin It is even more necessary to cheer up.

Caining looked at the time, it was already 1:33 in the middle of the night, she bent down to rest again unknowingly, and the continuation of the dream appeared in her quiet world:
It turned out that they were separated by a huge and strange glass, and finally found the exit in the constant search for each other. Jinlin said very excitedly: "Caining, I finally found you. I wanted to give up searching for a while, but I didn't." I didn’t give up, I persisted driven by true love, persisted in your sentimental but strong eyes, Caining don’t leave me again, I am too painful.”

"Jin Lin, I didn't leave you, I can't, I can't for the rest of my life." Cai Ning said affectionately.

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On the same night, Jinlin also had the same dream.

Two people, one dream, really makes people sigh with emotion...

After Caining woke up from her dream, the sky was gradually getting brighter, and the sun soon came out. The sun shone on her thin face, shining brightly with hope, and Caining's mood began to feel better: Jinlin finally Here we come, although it is only in a dream, but everything feels so real, so enlightening and memorable.

(End of this chapter)