The palace is quiet, and the empress of the cold palace is acting as a demon

Chapter 150 From One Hell to Another Hell
Qin Wan was bored, except for calligraphy and sword practice, she basically had nothing else to do.

She felt that she was really frightened by fate, and now she could finally understand why the Hungarian poet Petofi wrote a poem like "life is precious, love is more expensive, if it is for the sake of freedom, both can be thrown away" .The experience and wisdom of the people can always be believed. There must be deep reasons for the world to regard these four sentences as classics.

In order to prevent Qin Wan from escaping, Ji Yan arranged round after round of 24-hour guards around the palace where she lived. After Qin Wan complained many times, Ji Yan made her sit in a wheelchair while drinking medicine and being watched by guards. Choose one of them.

Qin Wan felt that as long as her brain wasn't kicked by a donkey, she wouldn't choose to sit in a wheelchair again.

But in the end, Qin Wan still couldn't escape taking medicine every day.

Ji Yan asked the maid to deliver two doses of medicine every day, one was used to cleanse the residual poison in her body, and the other was used to recuperate her body.

Qin Wan asked Ji Yan many times what the second picture was for her to adjust her body, but Ji Yan always avoided answering, and Qin Wan smashed the second bowl of medicine every time, and Ji Yan finally told her the first picture. The second picture is motherwort, Qin Wan was so angry that he almost lost his breath.

Qin Wan felt that if she couldn't think of a way, she would really be forced by Ji Yan to give him a baby.

Qin Wan suddenly thought of someone who might be able to give her some guidance.

Under Qin Wan's persuasion, Ji Yan finally agreed to take her to Kongchuan Temple to meet Master Yunku.

Kongchuan Temple remains unchanged, with ocean-like bamboo forests, wooden temples, ethereal bells, and the scented air.

Qin Wan wanted to have a private chat with Yun Ku, but Ji Yan didn't object and waited for her in the front yard.

Yunku invited Qin Wan to sit by the fish pond in the temple, and thanked her for cooking the tea herself.

"Master Yunku, have you had a dream recently, is there any immortal Buddha to give me instructions?" Qin Wan asked anxiously.

Yun Ku shook his head, poured tea for Qin Wan, asked her to take a sip to calm her mind, and then said, "Is Qin Fei empress confused?"

Qin Wan nodded: "Well, I helped Ji Yan according to what you said before, he has inherited the throne now, I think I have almost done what I can do for the Kingdom of Shu, it's time to leave..."

Yun Ku asked, "Where is Niang Niang going?"

Qin Wan sighed, shrugged and said, "I don't know... I just know that I'm going to leave, but I don't have a home to return to, and I don't even have anyone I can completely trust and rely on. I died once in the saddest time, but I am alive again, my life is like a machine that cannot be turned off, forced to run every day, no matter what I have experienced, it is like holding a small whip behind to drive me forward."

Yunku said: "When there are no delusions, one mind is one Buddha country; when there are delusions, one mind is one hell. All living beings create delusions and create minds with their minds, so they are always in hell."

Qin Wan thought carefully about Yun Ku's words and said, "Master, you mean that I have too many delusions. But I don't think I am delusional. I am quite Buddhist?"

Yun Ku smiled: "Your Majesty, you can think about it, what do you want most now?"

Qin Wan immediately replied, "Freedom."

Yun Ku shook his head: "Then what does the empress want after she is free?"

"After freedom," Qin Wan looked up at Yun, "I want a place that really belongs to me, where I can relax, think about nothing, do nothing, and just eat and die."

Yun Ku said: "A place like that is also a cage, it is even more lonely than here, and it is more difficult to break free... The poor monk doesn't think that is what the empress really wants."

Qin Wan was stunned by Yun Ku, and suddenly realized: "Yeah, at least there are people here to talk to me. If I really live in seclusion, then I will be even more lonely. I... It seems that I am not a person who can completely live alone and enjoy loneliness. people."

"Your Majesty, think again, what exactly do you want?" Yun Ku asked further.

Qin Wan thought about it carefully this time, then shook her head: "I don't know."

Yun Ku smiled: "If you don't give birth to your mind with your mind, your mind will go into the void, and your thoughts will return to tranquility, from one Buddha country to another. Hell after hell. If you feel that you are going through hell from hell to hell, it's just that your mind is not calm."

"Then what should I do, Master Yunku?" Qin Wan asked.

Master Yunku bowed to her with one palm and said, "Your Majesty, if you can't figure it out, why don't you first look into your own mind and find Shiyuan, maybe you can find the answer."

Qin Wan, who was already confused after seeing Master Yunku, felt even more confused now, and was also confused and dizzy by the master's mysterious scriptures.

No wonder people say that "enlightenment" is very important, if you don't understand the profound meaning of the scriptures, you are nothing.

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Back at the Palace of the King of Shu, Qin Wan and Ji Yan ate dinner in silence.

Ji Yan didn't ask Qin Wan what she and Master Yunku had talked about, but after eating quietly, she put down the bowls and chopsticks, got up and was about to leave.

"Ji Yan, wait a minute." Qin Wan called him to stop.

"I still have business to deal with." Ji Yan had no intention of staying, he was afraid that Qin Wan would suggest that she would leave.

Qin Wan was a little angry. She stood up and looked at Ji Yan with a frown: "Ji Yan, avoiding problems is not the way to solve them. Can you stop being like a child? Even if you keep it from me, I know that the Beirong Army After counting the days, it’s almost time to arrive in Ba Kingdom, isn’t it? Your Shu army has 10,000+ troops and almost none of them are able to fight. How are you going to fight Bei Rong? You are different from Emperor Liang, Bei Rong’s policy towards Nan Liang It is determined, but the attitude towards whether to capture Bashu or not is ambiguous."

"Then what do you want me to do, and give you up like Emperor Liang did? Qin Wan, you also said that I am not Emperor Liang, I will kill anyone who wants to take you away, just like my father and king imprisoned my mother." Imprison you like a concubine for the rest of your life, let you stay by my side forever, let you be mine alone!"

"Your concubine mother...?" Qin Wan was puzzled, she had always thought that the king of Shu would abandon Ji Yan's concubine mother and concubine violently, but now she heard Ji Yan's tone was not like that.

Ji Yan leaned against the wall, looked at Qin Wan, and smiled bitterly silently: "People say that like a father, like a son, Qin Wan, I am the son of my father, and I will only do the same things as him."

"Ji Yan, what do you mean?" Qin Wan asked puzzled.

There was pain in Ji Yan's eyes, he took a deep breath and said to Qin Wan:
"Back then, my father and the king passed by the Xianxia sect and saw the concubine mother. He fell in love with the concubine mother and couldn't extricate himself. He even took her away by force and took her as his own. The concubine mother forced her to die, and she threatened her father. Wang, as long as he comes within three feet of her, she will kill herself immediately. Later, when mother and concubine learned that she was pregnant, she had to leave the sect and live alone in the dense forest of Wushan. Father and king would visit us every six months, but they could only stay in On the river bank where you and I practiced swords together, we looked at each other from a distance. Nine years passed like this. When I was nine years old, my father fell ill, and because of lack of heirs, the servant of the palm print came to my mother and concubine, begging her to look after me. In order to save face, I came to the Kingdom of Shu to treat my father and the king, and the disease was cured, but the father and the king forcibly detained the mother and concubine and did not allow her to return to Ba. The mother and concubine became ill due to fear and depression all day long because of losing her freedom, and soon became mentally ill. Something went wrong, she forgot everything, she couldn't remember her father, nor me."

Qin Wan looked at Ji Yan, the story turned out to be different from what she thought: "But why did your father hit you so hard and beat you so badly?"

Ji Yan recalled and said: "One time my father checked my homework, because I didn't finish well, my father was angry, and slapped me in front of my mother and concubine. At that moment, my mother and concubine returned to normal. , stood in front of my father and cried and begged him not to hit me. Since then, my father found that only when he treated me violently, my mother would remember who he is...so..."

"So he started insulting you and abusing you even more...but you didn't resist because he was trying to wake up your mother and concubine?"

"...Yes." Ji Yan breathed out slowly, "Later, the father and king also went crazy, and began to collect virgins who looked like mother and concubine, insulting and whipping everyone who didn't agree with him, becoming manic, violent, and unbearable Resisting in any way...all the people around him can only avoid being punished if they curry favor with him."

"But does your concubine mother still reject him even if she loses her ordinary consciousness and memory of him?" Qin Wan asked.

Ji Yan looked at Qin Wan and nodded affirmatively.

"..." Qin Wan bit her lip. It turns out that there are some stories that cannot be taken out of context. "I killed your father, do you hate me?"

Ji Yan shook his head: "Maybe he is also waiting for someone to end his life... After all, he has never been happy."

Qin Wan walked up to Ji Yan, but didn't know how to comfort the young man who was telling the truth from the bottom of his heart.She suddenly remembered the way she used to hurt him by deliberately not empathizing with him before. At this moment, she felt a little guilty, and she really felt that she was a little cruel.

"Ji Yan, I should have asked you this story earlier. I'm sorry, I made a rash judgment. I thought your father and king treated your mother..."

"It's nothing, everyone who doesn't know the inside story thinks like you that father has been imprisoning and torturing concubine mother." Ji Yan smiled at Qin Wan in relief.

"Actually, your royal father and concubine mother are the ones who are really torturing each other... In this competition between them, no one wins in the end." Qin Wan suddenly realized.

"Yes. Qin Wan, do you know that when I was a child, I always couldn't understand why my father was so attached and loved my mother, but my mother always refused indifferently and arrogantly. There was even a period of time when I deliberately opposed my concubine to vent my anger. I am dissatisfied with her. Before I met you, I was resenting her. If she could accept her father early, I might live a very happy life. At least I won’t be beaten to wake up the memory of my mother and concubine... "

Ji Yan smiled wryly, and he looked at Qin Wan with her reflection in his eyes: "But I now know that my father was wrong at the beginning, even if it was because of love and affection, it shouldn't be when my mother refuses." Doing such a thing... After I met you, I realized that my mother and concubine were proud all her life. She never accepted or gave in to her father. She was so stubborn that even if she lost her life, she would not accept her fate My mother and concubine are so proud, it was the father whose selfishness ruined her, and he deserves to die. Qin Wan, I am afraid that you and I will be like the father and mother...but I don't know what to do with you good."

"Fool, I am me, you are you, we are not them, we will definitely find a good way to solve the problems between us." Qin Wan stretched out his arms, gave him a hug, and then asked: "Then your concubine mother Where is the person now? Is she okay now?"

Ji Yan took a breath: "I'll take you to meet her."

Ji Yan led Qin Wan through the royal palace of the Kingdom of Shu, through a small path lined with hydrangeas taller than a person, and came to a secluded and quiet courtyard.

Ji Yan pointed at a woman in the sea of ​​blue and purple flowers from afar. Her appearance was [-]% similar to Ji Yan's. Her skin was as fair as snow, and her eyes were as beautiful as a doll. If Ji Yan hadn't said that she was his concubine, Qin Wan would have thought that Sitting there was a girl of sixteen or seventeen years old.

At this time, she was sitting on the exquisite stone chair, with a noble and dignified temperament, quietly raised her head and looked at the sky, with a smile on her lips, no hatred in her eyes, only the clouds in the sky.

The moment he saw her, Qin Wan suddenly understood what Master Yunku said: If you don't create your heart with your heart, your heart will enter the void, and your thoughts will return to tranquility.

Ji Yan pulled Qin Wan up to her, and said softly, "Concubine Mother, my son is here to see you."

Ji Yan's mother still looked at Yun as if she didn't hear it.

Qin Wan thought for a while and said to her, "Concubine Xue, Your Majesty has passed away..."

At this time, Concubine Xue's expression froze for a moment, her eyes looking at the sky gradually became moist, and then a tear fell gently from the corner of her eyes.

　Hydrangea flower language: pride and indifference
　　It was very difficult for me to write this chapter. I wrote and deleted it.

　　I just don't know if I have conveyed all the content and emotions of the story I want to express to everyone.

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