The palace is quiet, and the empress of the cold palace is acting as a demon

Chapter 269 Wasted Time

After that day, Ju Silan ordered people to move all his belongings out of the west courtyard and send them to his Epiphyllum Bookstore, and he never saw Qin Wan again for seven consecutive days.

Qin Wan wanted to explain to him after his anger subsided, but he avoided seeing him even after waiting for seven days.

Qin Wan was completely annoyed. Early in the morning, just after dawn, she rushed into the Epiphyllum Bookstore angrily with her skirt in hand, and slammed on the door of Ju Silan's room: "Ju Silan! Open the door and make it clear! My Qin Ever since I married you, I have done what I said, with a clear conscience! Why do you ignore me like this!"

But in the next second, Qin Wan was completely stunned.

The door of Ju Silan's room opened, and it was Tweety who walked out.

Cui'er looked at Qin Wan with flickering eyes, lowered her head, and admitted her mistake: "Young...Young Madam, it was the Young Master who asked me to..."

At this time, Ju Silan came out of the house in disheveled clothes, looked at Qin Wan coldly, and handed a letter of divorce to her: "This is the letter of divorce. From now on, you Qin Wan will no longer be my young lady at home. .”

Qin Wan looked down at the divorce letter in disbelief, and asked tremblingly, "Why do you divorce me, Ju Silan?!"

"There are three ways to be unfilial, and having no offspring is the greatest. The Qin family doesn't want to have children, so they can't stay any longer!" After finishing speaking, Ju Silan turned and entered the room, and closed the door with a bang.

Qin Wan clutched the divorce letter, as if someone had poured a bucket of ice water over her head, making her whole body cold.

She tore up the divorce letter to pieces, threw it on the ground like snow, and said angrily: "Ju Silan, I don't want this divorce letter! I won't leave Jujia either! You don't want to drive me away!"

After speaking, Qin Wan's tears fell, and he was wronged and didn't know what to do.

Obviously happiness seemed so close, even within reach, but when she stretched out her hand, it always came to nothing in an instant.

Qin Wan returned to the west courtyard and stared blankly at the sky, which was as blue as wash, with occasional clouds.

She looked at the jadeite hairpin broken into three sections in her hand, the beautiful little Suzaku was exquisitely carved, it fell on a branch of crabapple, it looked so energetic.

Qin Wan took a deep breath, thinking of Cui'er she saw from Epiphyllum Book Garden, she clenched her fists tightly, her heart ached so badly that she could barely breathe.

All the memories came flooding back, and she chased a dream for nearly 300 years, which ended in a letter of divorce.

She didn't believe it, she didn't believe that Ju Silan would be so heartless.

Therefore, Qin Wan continued to do what she should do as usual, serving her mother-in-law, taking care of her sister-in-law, and taking care of all the business at home.

Mrs. Ju knew that Qin Wan and Ju Silan had conflicts, and tried to make peace many times, but Ju Silan's temper was as stubborn as a steel plate, and she never gave Qin Wan a chance to reconcile.

Qin Wan lived at home for another three years, except for receiving a letter of divorce from Ju Silan every Qixi Festival, he never said a word to her.

Qin Wan always stood in front of the epiphyllum book garden with the divorce letter, tore it to pieces, and then turned and left.

Qin Wan doesn't believe that Ju Silan doesn't like her, doesn't love her.She thought that as long as her heart was strong enough, as long as she insisted on not leaving, Ju Silan would definitely see her again.

But what Qin Wan never expected was that in the spring of the fourth year, when the crabapple trees in the courtyard had grown to the height of a second-floor building, there was news that Tweety was pregnant from Epiphyllum Bookstore.

It took Qin Wan five whole days to slowly accept this news. She shed all tears, was completely bearish, and no longer wanted extravagantly.

Qin Wan then persuaded Mrs. Han to hand over all the keys in her hand, and moved out of the house, and lived in Jiuzishan Lianhua Nunnery outside Chizhou City.

She told the old lady that she could make room for Tweety, but the title of Mrs. Jujia would always belong to her, Qin Wan.

The old lady was reluctant to let go of Qin Wan, so she agreed.

In the days that followed, Qin Wan lived in the nunnery, chanted scriptures and ate fast with the little master in the nunnery during the day, faced the Buddha, and begged for Ju Silan's safety and health. This was the only thing she could do for him again.

Qin Wan didn't understand that in this relationship, what she did and how she did it was all wrong in the end.

Is this the love calamity that is more difficult to overcome than the thunder calamity in the legend of the heavens?
It's really hard.

The great loneliness slowly ate away at Qin Wan's spirit. She was like a moth that had lost its purpose. Without a fire to pounce on, she completely lost the meaning of light.

Suddenly, Qin Wan wanted to go home, her mother, and Qin He.On this road in the mortal world, Qin Wan walked for nearly 300 years. She felt that she had traveled too far with her memories. She even forgot where her home was and how to find it.

Qin Wan locked himself in the lotus nunnery, and in addition to growing flowers and vegetables, he also practiced calligraphy and copied scriptures, and spent five years like this.

In the past five years, she still received a letter of divorce from Ju Silan every year on Qixi Festival.

She tore up the letter of divorce in front of the messenger, and watched the man leave with a smile.

Qin Wan felt that she had done nothing wrong and should not be treated like this by him.

So she never accepts that he doesn't want her anymore.

This is Qin Wan's bottom line and cannot be crossed.

The next day, Zhu Er, the old lady's personal maid, hurried to the Lianhua nunnery to look for Qin Wan, saying that the old lady was sick with anger, and half unconscious and half awake, she kept calling Qin Wan's name over and over again.

Qin Wan hurriedly packed her things and followed Zhu Er down the mountain. On the way, she asked what happened, which made the old lady so angry.

Zhu Er told Qin Wan that it was Cui Er and Chang Gong's affair that was discovered by the old lady, and it was only after a whip that she learned that the young master was not the young master's own at all.

"In these years, the young master has never touched Tweety from the very beginning. He just used her as a cover, especially when the young master knew that Tweety was pregnant by accident, he helped her hide it and identified Tweety and the child of the long worker as My son is just to satisfy the old lady's wish for a grandson." Zhu Er said to Qin Wan, "The old lady was angry with what Cui'er did, and at the same time angry with the young master for driving you away, so she fell ill."

Qin Wan's whole body trembled when he heard that.

She returned home, and as soon as she stepped over the threshold of the gate, she saw Ju Silan waiting for her in front of the hall.

When Qin Wan saw Ju Silan again eight years later, the first thing she did was to slap him hard.

That slap Qin Wan carried the anger of being wronged for eight years, exhausted all his strength, and didn't care that Ju Silan was a patient.

But then, Qin Wan hugged Ju Silan, buried her in his chest and cried loudly.

"Is that enough?! Isn't it enough?! How do you want me to prove that I like you, I love you?! You're going to spend another eight years on me to see if I will change my mind and remarry?" Qin Wan cried Ju Silan cursed loudly from here, "I tell you, no matter it's eight years, 80 years, or 800 years, I, Qin Wan, like you, even if you don't want me, even if you lose me!" I, I like you too, I, Qin Wan, am a person who accepts death, and liking someone will never change!"

Ju Silan's eyes were wet, and she hugged Qin Wan tightly with her backhand.

At this time, his body was exhausted and weak, and he no longer had the strength to keep Qin Wan out.

"I want to let you go, why don't you go? What are you planning to accompany a dying person like me?" Ju Silan asked Qin Wan weakly.

"I said before, I only want my husband's love, and I don't want anything else." Qin Wan choked up, she already felt that Ju Silan had become as thin as a breeze.

Qin Wan didn't feel that time was pressing before, and if there were no accidents, as the orthodox concubine of the Qin Ye royal family, her lifespan could be equated to infinity.

But now, Qin Wan felt that every moment was urgent and scarce.They have wasted eight years in vain, and there are not many years left.

Qin Wan moved back to the family mansion again, and stayed by Ju Silan's side every day.

Seeing her return, the old lady's health gradually improved. With the old lady's consent, Qin Wan transferred all the medicinal materials business at home and exchanged them for money and house land deeds for storage.Some of the servant girls were abolished, leaving only a few of the old lady's confidantes to take care of the old lady's daily life.

And she and Ju Silan are like ordinary couples. Qin Wan cooks, cleans, decocts and serves tea during the day, and reads to Ju Silan by candlelight at night, and later she tells him interesting stories about heaven , telling fairy stories, telling her that she was a little fairy from the heavens, who came to the world to survive the catastrophe, and he was her catastrophe.

Ju Silan smiled faintly when she heard it, and slowly took Qin Wan's hand with almost no strength: "I'm sorry, Wan'er, I was wrong..."

"Well, it's all your fault! It's all your fault!" Qin Wan cried and said, "Because of you, I can't survive the calamity, and I can never go back to the sky and continue to be my fairy."

Ju Silan wiped her tears with guilt: "It's a pity that this mistake, I can't correct it in this life, I will make it up in the next life, okay?"

Qin Wan said angrily: "In the next life, I will never look for you again. Even if you find me, I don't want you to get me so easily! I want you to feel how hard and how hard it is for me to chase you. Bitter, how lonely!"

"Okay." Ju Silan agreed with a smile, "Wan'er, if you have any regrets, tell me, and I will make up for you together in the next life."

Qin Wan thought for a while: "You didn't even come to pick me up when we got married... You were also awkward when you were exposing Xipa and drinking Hebei wine..."

Ju Silan: "Then I will give you the best wedding."

Qin Wan: "I also want a new hairpin that can't be broken or thrown away. The one you gave me broke before I wore it. You don't even know how much I love you."

Ju Silan: "Well, I remember."

Qin Wan: "I still want a child that belongs to us, and the two of us will watch him grow up, get married and have children..."

Ju Silan nodded: "Okay, I understand."

In this way, less than four months passed in a peaceful and peaceful life, before the crabapple flowers in the yard bloomed, Ju Silan passed away.

In the end, they didn't see the sea of ​​crabapple flowers blooming in the yard of their house together.

After Qin Wan settled in the old lady, according to Ju Silan's wishes, she took a boat to the middle of the long river and sprinkled his ashes on the long river.

Looking at the ashes that passed away with the river, Qin Wan felt that there was nothing left to cherish in this life, so she jumped into the long river, letting the river roll her tears and slowly drown her...

(End of this chapter)