Crossing the Nine Zeros: Becoming the Almighty Stepmother of the Three Villains

Chapter 230 Tears
"What should I do? Shanyue, what should I do."

At this moment, she finally felt the distance between herself and him.

One day, like every normal day, only to wake up and never see him again, never again.

My heart was very empty, as if a big mouth was missing.

"Calm down, don't show something wrong in front of him. He is trying to hide it, isn't it just to keep us from knowing?"

"I can't do it anymore, I don't want to hide it anymore, at least in the last journey of his life, I want to accompany him and leave the last memory."

"But memories are painful?"

The more beautiful it is, the more painful it will be. Those who leave will leave forever, and those who are alive will live a lifetime with memories.

Shen Junyang was thinking about this, so he didn't want them to know.

Li Baoer was very helpless, showing rare fragility, she was afraid of losing him, she changed from fear to calmness, but now she had to accept the loss, she couldn't do it, she couldn't do it at all.

"Bao'er, be strong."

Lin Shanyue comforted others like this countless times, but she was actually comforting herself. If she was not strong, what would the people around her do?
When Shen Junyang woke up again, he was lying in the hospital. Every time he fainted in the past, he was caught off guard, but this time it was extremely clear.

He truly felt that his body was not under the control of consciousness, it was limp, like a balloon.

With all strength gone, he couldn't control his body and let it fall to the floor like melted ice cream.

He stretched out his hand to grab something, but there was no one in front of him, nothing, and he couldn't grab anything.

As consciousness slowly...slowly fades away, there is no feeling of pain, no awareness of anyone or anything.

It's like being suddenly... wiped out of thin air, the feeling of emptiness, emptiness and disappearance cannot be described in words, nor can it be felt.

He fell into great shock and fear, and the torment of illness was no longer enough to make him fear.

It's just that this unconsciousness made him feel terrible.

He opened his eyes and saw Lin Shanyue standing beside him.

He subconsciously thought that the secret he had been hiding so hard had been revealed, so he didn't dare to look her in the eyes anymore.

He turned his back on her, fearing that she would be sad and painful.

Lin Shanyue asked loudly, "What's the matter with you? Do you often stay up late? The doctor said that you had low blood sugar and you were exposed to the sun, so you fainted."

His illness can't be found out unless he goes to a professional department for investigation.

So they didn't find out.

He was relieved, as long as they didn't know. "No. It made you worry, sister, where is Bao'er?" "She is also worried about you, but she is very angry because you don't care about your body so much, and she doesn't want to see you again." Shen Junyang was very weak, so he pulled himself together, Try to raise your voice, "I was wrong, let her in, I want to talk to her. OK?"

He wanted to see her, to see her, to touch her warm palm, to see her smile as bright as the sun.

He wants to really feel her existence, her temperature, and by sensing her existence, he can be sure that he still exists.

"Then you should be coaxed."

"Well, sister, don't worry."

"Then I'll call her."

……

"I've already told him that he fainted due to hypoglycemia, you must not reveal your flaws."

Li Baoer has been doing psychological construction for himself, reminding himself to forget the fact that he is sick and will soon die.

But that was too difficult, every time I think about it, my heart hurts a little more, and the tears can't stop flowing down.

What would the world be like without him?What will her life be like?She is used to his presence, is there any meaning without him?

"Shanyue, it's so difficult."There was helplessness and despair in her flat voice.

This kind of despair is indescribable in any language in the world.

Lin Shanyue hugged her in her arms, leaning against each other's necks in pain.

Lin Shanyue shed tears down her stomach.He choked up and said, "Yeah, it's really difficult."

Why don't you know it's difficult?It's too difficult, but so what?She can't do anything, can't do anything. "Go in quickly, he is waiting for you."

Li Baoer wiped away her tears with her cuffs, her red eyes definitely couldn't hide from Shen Junyang.

She opened the door and went in, seeing his haggard appearance, her heart was sour, and her tears couldn't stop streaming down.

Feeling powerless, she squatted on the ground and cried bitterly.

"What's wrong with Bao'er?"

She is constantly building herself up psychologically. He is very good and well-behaved, and he will live a long life.

She just looked at him like that, really wanted to engrave his appearance in her heart, like a tattoo that could never be washed off.In this way, he will remember it in his heart for the rest of his life.

Seeing that her tears were uncontrollable and falling more and more, Shen Junyang got up from the bed in panic.

She jumped up like a spring and hurried to hold him down, roaring: "It's all your fault, I'm worried. I told you not to buy breakfast, but you just did. You know that I rarely eat breakfast. You also called me at night. You have to go to bed before eleven o'clock, why do you have to stay up late every time?"

"I was wrong, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

"Then you promise me to go to bed early in the future. Is that okay?" "Okay, I promise you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

The two embraced and wept.It's just that Shen Junyang was crying silently, not daring to make any sound, biting his arm, forcing himself to suppress his tears back.

He kept saying "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." He tried to express his deep apology, but no matter how many times he said sorry, he couldn't make up for what he owed her.

One day he will leave her. At that time, she will be sad and he will not be able to see him. I only hope that she can come out as soon as possible.

Li Baoer cried loudly, venting the pain in her heart in this way.

Still perceiving his existence at this moment, the string in her heart became tighter, and one day the string would break, and then she would no longer be able to perceive his existence.

"Let's go, I don't want to stay here."

I have been a medicine jar since I was a child, and during the period of surgery and staying in the hospital, life was worse than death. As long as I smell the smell of disinfectant, I will feel disgusted physically.

He has been numb.

"Are you sure it's okay?"

"No, don't worry."

He patted his chest assuring her.

He gradually increased the dosage of his painkillers so that he could spend more time by her side without being noticed.

The three of them got into the car going back, and the three of them tacitly kept quiet all the way.

Shen Junyang tried his best to tell jokes to make them laugh, Lin Shanyue laughed so hard that her stomach ached, but Li Baoer couldn't even pretend,

I can't laugh, I just want to cry, I just want to hold him tightly in my arms, and let this moment press the pause button.

(End of this chapter)