Crown Jewels

Chapter 38 The Secret of the Iceberg

Shen Lanqing's slightly drooping eyebrows and eyes raised, her eyes were calm, not surprised.

She gently shook her head towards Gu Baozhu who was looking at her, her smile softened her face, and the aloof coldness faded away.

Watching Gu Baozhu's figure leave, the tenderness in Shen Lanqing's eyes slowly faded away.

Cigarettes curled up on the table, and graceful white smoke flew out, but it made the atmosphere in the room even more peaceful.

What's embarrassing is that there seems to be silence in the room where no one wants to speak, or who doesn't know what to say.

Lu Jiuxi looked at Shen Lanqing, and the guilt in his eyes was fleeting.

The voice of deliberation came, still clear and clear.

It is difficult to hear the suppressed emotions, as if the elders were simply teaching.

"Lan Qing, Your Majesty has set up a girls' school, and you are the only female student except for Nanping Princess among the four."

"At that time, His Majesty will definitely be more interested in you. Have you thought about how to deal with it?"

The mellow male voice came to my ears, obviously with concern, but Shen Lanqing frowned slightly.

As the sun sets, the light in the house gradually dims.

Lu Jiuxi closed his eyes and waited for a while before he heard a cold sentence from the woman opposite.

"no!"

"This is the manuscript I drafted. It records some questions that His Majesty may raise. You can advance—"

Before Lu Jiuxi finished speaking, he was interrupted by the girl's cold voice.

"Shan Zhang, I don't need it!"

The tone is obviously flat, but it seems to contain thousands of thoughts.

Looking at the girl's tight lips, stubborn eyebrows, and Lu Jiuxi's stiff face, they all lacked the handsomeness of the past.

The atmosphere was stalemate again for a while, and his voice was calm, with some helplessness in Xun Xun:
"You also said that I am Lu Jiuxi, and I am also the head of the Huangu Academy, and you—"

After taking a deep look at Shen Lanqing, Lu Jiuxi continued:
"It's a student from Huangu Academy!"

"Since you are my student, then even in front of His Majesty, you must not lose face."

"You are not the only one involved in the ceremony, I hope you will think about it—"

Shen Lanqing looked at that sanctimonious face in the afterglow of the setting sun, and the "fake benevolence and hypocrisy" showed the care for her from the upper class.

She suddenly had the urge to give up on herself.

Yuanshan Handai's face was stained with a coldness that didn't match her temperament.

The corners of her lips curled slightly, revealing a thousand sarcasms, and the joy of revenge in her eyes.

"If that's the case, then let the head of the mountain be the master and remove my status as Dian Ye."

"Anyway, after all!"

"What about me has nothing to do with you!"

Seeing the last few words uttered between the woman's lips and teeth, Lu Jiuxi's face was finally stained with a haze that did not match Qingjun.

Seeing this, Shen Lanqing sneered slightly, but her eyes were covered with such pleasure.

"Shen—Lan—Qing!"

Lu Jiuxi's emotions did not collapse, and he slapped the manuscript in his hand on the table with a muffled sound, and couldn't help but say the words that were stuck in his chest these days.

"Whether you like it or not!"

"You have half of my flesh and blood on your body, you have to admit that I am your father!"

"Father--"

Ah?
Shen Lanqing muttered in her mouth, suddenly raised her head, the end of her eyes were smudged pink and tender.

Yuan Shan Handai's demeanor was gone, and the corner of his mouth was full of mockery.

"Father? You let me admit that you are my father?"

"Ah."

The woman shook her head lightly, seeming to find it extremely absurd.

"In the past 14 years, there has been no role like a father in my life!"

"Now that you suddenly appear, you make me willingly call you father?"

"Lan Qing, I—"

"Enough! I don't want to hear your explanation."

Shen Lanqing closed her eyes and tried her best to calm down.

Opening his eyes again, he just quietly looked at Lu Jiuxi, who was admired by thousands of scholars, and questioned him in a calm tone.

"You said you are my father, I have lived for 14 years, can you participate half of it?"

"Since you can't do it, why did you let her give birth to me?"

There was guilt in Lu Jiuxi's eyes, but he, who had been respected all the year round, even at this moment, his face still showed no signs of aging.

On the contrary, the years have added a bit of mature elegance to its romantic style.

Through the person in front of her eyes, Shen Lanqing suddenly saw her own humble biological mother who had been bowed down by the world and had already appeared old.

The corners of Shen Lanqing's lips curved sarcastically, and the suppressed snort was full of bitterness.

"You know, without me."

"Even if she meets you in her life, she can find an honest family in the future and live a comfortable life in peace."

"But, you just let her give birth to me!"

Lu Jiuxi clenched his fists tightly, and Shen Lanqing's questioning made him feel heartbroken.

There is no father who does not look forward to the arrival of his child.

But now, his own child is questioning her existence...

His gaze was fixed on the burning cigarette falling from the incense burner.

Shen Lanqing suddenly wanted to pour out everything that was heavy on her chest.

Even with these 14 years, she and her mother have had a precarious 14 years.

Shen Lanqing took a deep breath and closed her eyes.

"You know."

"In order not to let me be a slave or a prostitute, she willingly degenerated in the wind and dust."

"She got stuck in the quagmire because of you, but got deeper and deeper because of me."

Her tone was very light, like a thin cicada that could be broken at any time.

"In order to let me live innocently, she slavishly bowed down in front of my benefactor."

"In order to make my school agree to accept me, she took the initiative to tear her face and put aside her self-esteem."

Shen Lanqing stared blankly, as if thinking of something, suddenly fell to the ground, with deep self-blame and guilt in her eyes, she said in a daze:
"But originally..."

"She obviously! You can also rely on yourself and walk out step by step."

"No matter how difficult it is, there is still hope."

But, you wanted her to give birth to me back then!

Pity flashed across Lu Jiuxi's eyes, and he approached Shen Lanqing, raising his hand tremblingly, wanting to pat her on the back to comfort her.

But at the moment before the physical relationship, he was suddenly pushed away without mercy.

Shen Lanqing wiped away the tear stain indiscriminately, as if it didn't exist in the first place.

She propped herself up on the ground and looked down at Lu Jiuxi, who was half squatting.

The emptiness in the woman's eyes has been replaced by complaints and deeper self-loathing, and the cold words sounded again.

"I hate you, it's your irresponsibility that pushed her into the abyss."

"So, why, you can stand high and be loved and respected by the world?"

The words that hurt others are also the sharp blade that hurts oneself.

Shen Lanqing's expression was painful, her eyes flashed horribly, she took a deep breath, bit her lips and said:
"But you know what? I actually, actually hate myself more!"

"Because of my existence, she will never be able to climb up"

"Why, I can live innocently, but she! But she will be as humble as dust and rot in the mud."

The catharsis of emotions unleashed all her strength like a cocoon, and also allowed her to regain her sanity for a short time.

Looking at the manuscript, Shen Lanqing was stunned for a while, and finally got up to pick it up, and then replied politely.

"The head of the mountain made a point, and the students will remember it."

"If there is nothing else, I will go first."

Shen Lanqing adjusted her mood and left without looking back.

In the dimness of the solitary house, the curling cigarettes obscure the figure hidden in the darkness...

(End of this chapter)