fall in love again

Chapter 232 Bonus Extra: Jiang Yu's Short Stories (08)

At noon, I made an appointment with Xu Ran to go shopping. I passed by a newly opened bakery. The owner of the bakery was very familiar. Xu Ran and I walked in to have a look.

Really acquaintance.

It is Yang Fan's wife Deng Qing.

Deng Qing has always been a slovenly housewife in our two impressions, but Deng Qing in the bakery is a gentle baker.

Deng Qing was obviously stunned when he saw Xu Ran and me, and then pulled out two chairs not far away, "Sit."

Xu Ran and I looked at each other and sat down slowly.

"you……"

I watched Deng Qing open his mouth, and before he could say anything, I heard Deng Qing open his mouth and say: "I divorced Yang Fan."

Xu Ran let out an expected "ah".

Yang Fan's virtues are well-known among their classmates, and they don't know why Deng Qing put up with him for so many years, but they all tacitly agreed that they will divorce sooner or later.

"Want a piece of cake?" Deng Qing got up and went to the side to pick up some new products, and handed them to us, "Low sugar and low calorie."

"Thank you." I took a piece and tasted it.

Although it is low in sugar, it is still very sweet.

Xu Ran ate it just right, "It tastes good, I'll buy it back for my daughter to taste."

"No need to buy it." Deng Qing said: "I have been classmates for so many years, I will give it to you."

"You also know that we have been classmates for so many years."

Xu Ran gave her a reproachful look.

After chatting for a few words, the deadlock between us was broken.

Xu Ran clapped her hands, and then said, "Don't tell us about the divorce."

Deng Qing lowered his eyes: "I'm embarrassed to speak, it's not something honorable after all."

She married Yang Fan as soon as she graduated from university. After marriage, she has been working as a housewife at home. She has no stable job, no stable income, and even no basic social interaction. She is basically out of touch with society.

After hearing Deng Qing's words, I slowly lowered my eyelashes, and ate the cake that Deng Qing handed over in small bites.

Divorce is indeed not a very honorable thing, and there is no need to say it everywhere, but people around you should be notified or should be notified.

"Fuzi." Deng Qing called me: "Are you and Zou Yao ready to have a baby?"

"I was going to ask for it." I replied.

Deng Qing was obviously stunned when he heard this, and it was Xu Ran who was beside him who opened his mouth and said, "You two are destined for each other, and you two are getting divorced."

The first two people to get married were also the first two to get divorced.

After Deng Qing realized that he had picked the wrong topic, he said, "Sorry."

"It's okay." I said, "It's not a disgraceful thing."

Deng Qing lowered her eyes, she pursed her lips, and asked after a long time: "Zou Yao is also..."

What she said later was not complete, but I probably guessed what she meant.

"No." I replied to her, "That's not the case."

Xu Ran on the side was stunned for a while, and it took a while to realize the hidden words between the two of us.

"The two of them don't know what's going on, so they're going to divorce." Xu Ran still didn't want me to divorce Zou Yao.

"Is it during the cooling-off period?" Deng Qing opened his mouth and asked.

I gave a "huh" and then slowly opened my mouth and said, "Today is No.18 day."

Deng Qing nodded and said, "There is still a chance."

"What chance?" Xu Ran tilted his head and asked.

Deng Qing said that he didn't look at Xu Ran, and his gaze fell on me who was looking down at the floor.

She looked at me and curled her lips bitterly, and then said: "As long as one of the husband and wife disagrees with the divorce, your marriage will be inseparable."

I looked up at her.

Of course I know this, but I'm not sure whether to do it or not.

It was not me who proposed the divorce, I was just a passive recipient, and it was difficult to take the initiative after getting used to the promise.

Deng Qing said: "Zou Yao is different from Yang Fan."

Zou Yao's circle of friends is full of me, but there is no figure of Deng Qing in Yang Fan's circle of friends.

Zou Yao is very kind to me, so good that the colleagues around me envy the relationship between the two of us.

When my colleagues asked me if I had ever quarreled with Zou Yao, I had to think about it for a long time, seriously thinking about what happened when we got along these years.

We have always been very harmonious, there has never been a particularly big quarrel, everything is logical and natural.

My colleague looked at me in disbelief after hearing this, and then asked me if I had any tricks.

I said: "I don't have any clever tricks, and he has always accommodated me in my life, and he has arranged everything properly..."

After listening to my words, my colleagues are very envious, envious that I have a husband who is so good at making arrangements.

However, I feel that those things are very common, and there is nothing to envy. I feel that his kindness to me is taken for granted.

As I am used to promise to him, I habitually abide by everything about him.

Zou Yao and I haven't quarreled in ten years, and even the only quarrel that counted as a quarrel ended without a problem because of my promise, and finally I ushered in a divorce.

Recently, I have been living in the dormitory of the school, and my colleagues around me have also noticed my strangeness, but everyone didn't say anything, just thinking it was a very common thing.

Some people even approached me and said that they felt that I was gradually becoming more popular.

At first, I didn't realize what kind of popularity they were talking about by "popularity", so I opened my mouth to ask.

The colleague laughed when he heard this, and explained: "It looks like a person."

"Don't I look like a human being?" I opened my mouth and asked suspiciously.

A colleague said: "He is a person, but he was an unpopular person, and now he looks like a popular person."

He used two "popularity" in a row, but I didn't understand it. In the end, another colleague came to explain and I didn't understand.

The "popularity" he mentioned means that I have normal emotions.

Before I went to work, I always had a straight face, and my expressionless appearance looked very stiff.

Although I still have a straight face now, it can make people feel sad, so they say that I have "popularity".

But why is sadness like a person?Isn't it like when you're happy?

When I think about it carefully, I seem to seldom be happy.

They were not the first to say that my expression was stiff, so when I heard those words, I subconsciously fell silent for a moment, and naturally remembered the day when I took wedding photos with Zou Yao.

The photographer asked me to laugh, but I laughed stiffly, so I looked very ugly.

So much so that when taking pictures, the photographer said that I looked like I was kidnapped by Zou Yao to get married.

"Fuzi, have you ever thought that the reason for your divorce with Zou Yao may be because of your personal feelings?" Deng Qing and I have known each other for a long time. Compared with Xu Ran, she who doesn't communicate often Get to know me better.

Xu Ran heard the sound and asked, "Why?"

Deng Qing looked at me, pursed his lips and said, "Fuzi may have apathy."

I looked up at her in surprise, but didn't speak.

Deng Qing is not a doctor, but he has keen observation skills.What's more, she and I have known each other for ten years, and have already figured out my temperament.

Xu Ran said "Ah?" and asked in bewilderment, "What is apathy?"

Deng Qing explained: "Emotional indifference is a type of mental illness. A person who is ill is very indifferent to friends around him, and has symptoms of indifference to the things around him. Even if the things around him are harmful to her own interests, she There won't be much reaction."

"Really?" Xu Ran looked at me beside me wonderingly, but didn't notice anything unusual: "Why can't I see anything?"

"You are always careless, so naturally you can't see anything." Deng Qing said.

Xu Ran: "..."

Deng Qing's emotions are much more sensitive than mine.

If Deng Qing was with Zou Yao, she and Zou Yao would probably have a very happy life.

If I were with Yang Kai, I would probably choose to spend my whole life with Yang Kai in a muddle. As long as he doesn't ask for a divorce, I won't have any other reactions.

After listening to what Deng Qing said, I was silent for a moment.

On the second day after I left Deng Qing's bakery, I asked for leave to go to the hospital, where I was admitted to the psychiatric department.

The result is indeed the same as what Deng Qing said, I do suffer from emotional apathy, but the doctor said that my emotional apathy can be cured.

I stared at the medical record in my hand and hesitated for a while, then my eyes slowly fell on the mobile phone pressed on the medical record.

Want to give him a call.

Just when I was hesitating whether to contact him, the phone screen suddenly lit up, and there was a string of unfamiliar phone numbers on it.

When I saw the string of unfamiliar phone numbers, my heart suddenly missed a beat, and I couldn't help feeling a little nervous.

The number is local, probably a new number opened by Zou Yao.

I thought about it, and after sorting out my thoughts, I answered the phone.

How happy I am when I answer the phone, how disappointed I am when I hear the voice.

The call was not from Zou Yao, but from the insurance company.

A few nights before Zou Yao and I filed for divorce, Zou Yao rear-ended someone else.

The insurance company couldn't get into Zou Yao's phone number, so they called me and asked me to try to contact Zou Yao.

Zou Yao and I haven't finished the divorce procedure yet, we are still husband and wife now.

After hanging up on the insurance company, I put my medical records in a bag and took a taxi to Zou Yao's company.

A colleague from Zou Yao's company said that Zou Yao hadn't come to work for a while.

He asked for a month's leave, and it is said that he is going to travel.

I slowly lowered my eyes when I heard those words, and suddenly remembered the pictures about Zou Yao and him blowing the sea breeze in Yang Kai's circle of friends.

The two of them went on a trip together.

But the insurance company was in a hurry, so I called Yang Kai.

Yang Kai told me that Zou Yao had already returned to Yaoming, and asked me to go home and look for him.

I said "um" in a deep voice, and then changed the address with the driver.

But after walking to the door of that familiar house, I was a little hesitant, hesitating whether to go in or not.

I haven't contacted Zou Yao for more than half a month since the Civil Affairs Bureau broke up unhappy last time. I don't know if he wants to see me at this moment, and I don't know if he will find me annoying at this moment...

I am not a person who is very considerate of others, but today I think so much that it even makes me feel strange.

If it weren't for the handbag containing the medical records about my emotional apathy from a regular hospital, I might really wonder if I was cheated.

After hesitating for a while, I pressed the doorbell anyway.

The doorbell rang three times, but no one answered.

I stared at the closed door and tightened the chain of the handbag, thinking about pressing it again. If he didn't come to open the door, it means he didn't want to see me.

Just as I was about to press the second time, the door that was originally closed was suddenly opened.

I stared at him and opened my mouth. Before I could say anything, he suddenly stretched out his hand and pulled me into the room, hugged me tightly, and carefully kissed my cheek as if he could.

There was a faint smell of alcohol on his body, he should have been drinking last night.

Although we haven't finished the divorce process yet, it's wrong to do this now. I reminded him subconsciously, but the moment I opened my mouth, he pressed my lips...

...

Xu Ran and Deng Qing are right, I don't want a divorce, whether it's my heart or my body, they are telling me that I can't live without him.

The moment I was brought back to the room by him, I heard Zou Yao say in my ear: "Since you're here, I won't let you go."

His voice was so soft and fast that I couldn't hear it clearly the first time.

After the end, Zou Yao told me that he didn't want a divorce, and what he said that day was all angry words, and he hoped I could forgive him.

He said that those who he said just want me to care about him, don't act like he doesn't care about anything.

I lowered my eyes again when I heard those words, and after a long silence, I slowly opened my mouth and said, "I'm sorry."

Zou Yao was stunned when he heard the sound, and looked at me calmly.

I looked up to meet his gaze and repeated, "Sorry for making you sad."

I told him that I actually didn't want to divorce, but that idea wasn't firm enough.

But Zou Yao seemed to have only heard the first half of the sentence, and he seemed to be pardoned when he heard that he didn't want to divorce.

He hugged me and kissed my forehead twice, and said excitedly: "As long as you don't want to get a divorce, everything is fine."

Zou Yao said: "Before, I couldn't feel your love for me, but your four words 'do not want to divorce' are the greatest love to me."

I looked up at him, with an inexplicable nose.

Before I came out of the hospital, I asked the doctor how to cure "apathy".

In addition to drug treatment, the doctor told me that we must first understand the definition of emotion.

what is emotion.

What is the method of expressing emotion.

After I came out, I searched the definition of emotion on Baidu, and it said that it is a kind of affirmation or negation of external things.

In fact, I don't quite understand these meanings, but now I seem to understand.

Emotions are the way to express emotions, and there are four kinds of emotions: joy, anger, sorrow, and joy.

When I heard Zou Yao say that he didn't want to divorce me, the joy that flashed in my heart was emotion.

Going to divorce on the first day is a mocking laugh and tears, but also an emotion.

And the miss of him after separation is an emotion.

In the process of getting along with him, I slowly changed a lot.During the period of separation from him, a lot has changed...

(End of this chapter)