Dragon Clan: Reboot Life

Chapter 55 I will applaud you
It is still an empty, long tree-lined path.

But this time he was not alone, Lu Mingfei and Qilan walked slowly side by side.

"I joined the literature club when I was in high school. The Chinese teacher told Lu Mingfei that since you are a cadre of the literature club, you should represent our class in the school's speech contest."

"At that time, I prepared carefully for a long time, wrote a speech draft of thousands of words, rehearsed it repeatedly, and even marked every point in the speech where the audience should laugh and applaud. I don't know why the Chinese teacher chose me inexplicably, but I didn't want to let her down, and I didn't want to make my first speech a laughing stock and walk off in disgrace."

"I originally planned to start with the whole flower work. Do you know the flower work? It's just..."

Lu Mingfei smiled and continued,

"It's a little trick that can arouse everyone's interest and enthusiasm at the beginning."

"The opening remarks I prepared at that time were as follows: Dear school leaders and students, hello everyone, I am Lu Mingfei from Class Three (1) of Senior High School, and the title of my speech this time is "Thank you for having you". Mr. Lin Yutang once Say, 'A great speech should be like a girlish miniskirt, the shorter the better...'"

Lu Mingfei stopped and straightened his clothes, as if he had returned to the past.

He smiled flatteringly and looked forward, in front of him were the classmates who were sitting in the auditorium.

But his voice stopped abruptly at the end, and the voice that sounded again was slightly faint and confused.

"In the remarks of my speech, there should be laughter and applause at this time, so I paused and showed a flattering smile to everyone in the audience..."

"It is true that some people responded to my flower work, but just as they started laughing, the school's vice-principal, who is known for his pedantic attitude, coughed in a low and scary voice. When I saw those students who wanted to laugh, they immediately shut up. Everyone is quiet, the entire auditorium is silent."

"It's ridiculous. The auditorium has never been so quiet. Even if there are teachers shouting for silence, there are always some students who are restless. But at that time, needles could be heard in the auditorium, and everyone watched quietly. look at me..."

Lu Mingfei raised his head, looked at the boundless night sky tonight, and whispered the story hidden in his heart.

Chilan is also a good listener.

Even though he frowned a few times on the way, he never interrupted Lu Mingfei's words, he just listened to him, showing that he was thinking.

"I originally wanted to be the hero who greeted the applause, but in the end I was greeted with thousands of pairs of eyes like knives."

"At that time, my mind was full of thoughts, why didn't they applaud, why didn't they laugh? Later I realized that it was because the vice principal didn't like that uncivilized opening, even though it was Mr. Lin Yutang's original words."

"He didn't like that opening line, so he coughed low to warn me, and everyone present."

"The vice-principal expressed his dislike, so who would be willing to fight against the authority of the vice-principal for a bad boy?"

"Nobody's, at least not in that auditorium."

"In the end, I can only bow and apologize to everyone, saying that I am not ready yet, sorry, I abstain and quit."

"I prepared carefully because I didn't want to end in despair, but at that time the whole auditorium was expressing its clear-cut attitude to me. They don't like me, they don't like me, and they don't like me!"

"What else can I do? I can't continue talking. Every look from my classmates cut me open like a knife. I can only step down in disgrace and meet everyone's ridicule afterwards."

"That was the first and only speech I gave in my life. Since then, I feel that I have no eloquence, I can only say bad things, so I always say bad things."

"How can people who never feel how important what they say are serious?"

"Qilan, you invited me to join the Freshman Association, and even wanted me to be the chairman..."

"I'm sorry, I was very scared at that time, because I don't know why you value me so much. I think there is no reason for it, just like my Chinese teacher asked me to participate in a speech contest."

"If there is no reason to value it, it will only usher in two-way disappointment in the end."

"But...it wasn't until much later that I realized I was wrong again."

"How can I judge my future life by my past experience?"

"How can that auditorium represent the world?"

"Whether the world likes me or not depends not on the people in the auditorium, but on my friends!"

"I once let myself down, and then I let down the people who are willing to trust me. I have walked so far, but I have always been muddled, and I have nothing to grasp."

"And now I recall this past again, only to realize that they should have laughed at me afterwards, because I gave up first, and I gave up on myself in that speech, how could they not laugh at a person who gave up on himself? "

Qilan was silent for a long time.

He originally thought it was just a chat among friends, but Lu Mingfei's words were so heavy that he didn't know how to answer them.

He racked his brains and used all the knowledge he had learned before.

He wanted to speak deafening words to the man in front of him who seemed to understand something, but who seemed to be still in a daze.

He wants to tell him that something is not right, is wrong, that this world is not like this!

Qilan finally spoke.

But what he said were not deafening words, but his past.

His voice was low and hoarse, as if he had been thinking for a long time.

"My word spirit is a prophet. I can see fragmented hazy pictures when I was very young. At that time, I didn't know what it was, and I always said it inadvertently. Every time what I predicted would come true, someone started Afraid of me, thought I was a monster, a lunatic, even my father started to be afraid, and then he sent me to a mental hospital, I was very depressed, felt that the world was strange and scary, everyone seemed to be looking at a monster look at me……"

The more Qilan spoke, the more excited his tone became, and the speed of his speech became faster and faster, and the veins on his forehead were exposed.

Even Bradley, whom he had known since childhood, had never seen Qilan, who had always been gentle, show such a gesture!
Lu Mingfei was stunned suddenly.

He had heard this story before, and Bradley had told him about it during the 3E exam.

But how can other people's narration compare to one ten-thousandth of the person's description?

He just had a feeling by accident, and confessed to Qi Lan about his past experience, just like the former principal, remembering his past self.

He wasn't feeling sentimental, he just wanted to share his feelings with Qilan.

In his last life, he was muddled for a long time, and finally came out when he couldn't avoid it. During that not too long time, while looking for the whereabouts of his friends, he thought about many things clearly.

It's just that no one could listen to his growth at that time.

Even Qilan, who worked so hard to find him, died early because of overdrawing his life.

Seeing Qilan again now, Lu Mingfei felt extremely complicated emotions in his heart.

He owed "I'm sorry" to Qilan in the previous life.

So he told Qilan the story of the past, and at the same time, he was reflecting on himself and letting go of his past self.

"On the day I was sent to the hospital, I stood in front of the window in the ward, stretched my hand out of the iron fence outside the window, and called out to my father, hoping that he would not abandon me, but he walked away like he was running away without looking back. .At that time I also felt very lonely, my family didn't like me, scared me, like the whole world didn't like me, until I met Bradley..."

Chilan paused for a moment, fixed his gaze on Lu Mingfei's eyes,

"I think what you said at the end is quite right. The people in that auditorium can't represent the whole world. The world is so big. One day we will meet people who like us and are willing to be friends with us, just like me! "

"The people in that auditorium don't want to be your friend, I do! Everyone in the fraternity is willing to be your friend!"

"We will not laugh at you, because we are friends, and friends will not laugh at each other, but encourage each other!"

"So never give up on yourself! Life is long, the world is big, and we will eventually meet the right people at the right time and place! They will fight the whole world for us!"

"Those who are willing to fight against the world with us are our true friends!"

"Lu Mingfei, I'm glad you can share your story with me."

"If I were in that auditorium, I would applaud you!"

The stars all over the sky are shining one after another in the deep blue sky, clear and bright.

Under the starry night, a handsome Indian boy embraced his new friend with open arms and solemn expression.

Lu Mingfei suddenly took a deep breath.

In fact, he understood the principle of "friends and the world" a long time ago.

He also treated this truth as a treasure and told the girl.

In this conversation, what he really wanted to express was the last sentence, which was the new insight he got today when he recalled the past.

As a self-abandoned person, what qualifications do you have to seek the applause of others?
On that rooftop, he once fantasized that a god-man would descend from the sky one day, pull the weak child out of the embarrassing world, and lead him into a brand new world.

But when he really stepped into the new world, he curled up in his nest like a wounded bird.

He never took the initiative to chase, but always imagined that someone could fall from the sky and pull himself out of the predicament.

Something for nothing?

What this word really means is getting something for nothing!

That's what he wanted to express.

He used to be a person who daydreamed all day long, fantasizing about getting something for nothing, even in the face of good-hearted friendship from others, he would retreat timidly instead of taking the initiative to meet it.

That's why he turned a blind eye to the hand of friendship that Qilan once extended, and even actively dodged it.

He wanted to apologize to Chilan.

But Qilan misunderstood him, and this misunderstanding made Lu Mingfei feel something even heavier.

He overlooked one thing.

People who are really willing to be friends with you will be willing to exchange their sincerity for their sincerity.

Everyone has something hidden in their hearts, just like the absolute domain in EVA, the absolute spiritual domain, that is the domain that only you know, the memories hidden there are usually not very good, there is nothing worth sharing, share with others It's like cutting yourself again.

But in order to comfort and persuade his new friend, Qilan told his past without hesitation, just to increase the strength of his words!

No matter in the last life or this time, Qilan is willing to exchange his friendship with his heart without hesitation!
While dodging people like Qilan, the former self lamented how lonely the world is...

Lu Mingfei suddenly wanted to punch himself hard.

An unspeakable and obscure aura permeated Lu Mingfei's body, and the surrounding trees were silent, not even the rustling of the wind blowing the leaves.

……

……

Lu Mingfei bid farewell to Qilan at the intersection, and agreed to meet in the library next time.

He didn't go back to the dormitory, but sat on a long wooden bench by the roadside.

The surroundings are quiet, and the school under the night is silent.

"Were you there that day?" Lu Mingfei suddenly sighed.

"Brother in, I stood by your side that day, holding your hand tightly, but you didn't feel it."

Lu Mingze who didn't know when he appeared said softly, "I won't hold an umbrella when you're in the rain."

Lu Mingfei smiled and said, "You must still be glaring at everyone in the field, right?"

"Of course." Lu Mingze laughed silently, "We are brothers, why would you let them laugh at you? I will stare back at everyone who laughs at you!"

"Then do you know what I'm thinking now?"

"I knew it before, but I don't know it now. My brother now makes me unable to figure it out."

"I'm wondering now...if I had stuck with it in front of everyone that day, would they have applauded me?"

Lu Mingfei said softly.

He was sitting on a wooden bench by the roadside, his gaze was deep and firm, and the night wind blowing through the leaves of the forest gently kissed his face.

(End of this chapter)