Qingchuan History

Chapter 164 Walking Barefoot (Part [-])
She took a deep breath: "No wonder you were in the Imperial Garden, you could tell Pengxi Mountain in one mouthful; when you saw the red ginseng in Xishifang, you could tell the difference at a glance. You have never been in the Imperial Medical Bureau Poor, how can you tell the grade of red ginseng? You, a person who was trapped in the deep palace at the age of ten, how can you know so many strange places and things? You even lied to me that you heard it from a weekday banquet. This For two days, I thought about it day and night, all the inexplicable details that I didn’t take seriously these years have all the answers.”

Her expression at this moment is extremely difficult to describe, it seems to be angry, but it is more like mourning.The pupils surrounded by black and blue eye circles were full of tides, sinking deep like a whirlpool, but they never gushed out.

"That's because I'm stupid. If it were Elder Sister, Ruan Xueyin or Ji Wanling, I'm afraid I would have seen the clues. For eight years, you and I have been together day and night, and it turned out to be a game of chess played by those ambitious people! Thank you Ci, I also became a chess piece on this board!"

After saying this, she was taken aback for a moment, remembering the lunch in Xiaomo's Sui Yu Xuan when she was in Xiling.About the royal family, the country, the status, your or my fate.

"Oh, I forgot again. Since I was born in the game, who is not a chess piece? I just didn't expect that a person like me can have so many uses and can play a role on different chessboards."

Ah Ji didn't go to Xiling, so she didn't know about Ruan Zhong, let alone the terrible conversation in Sui Yuxuan.So she was very surprised by the look on Chunfeng's face at this moment.

For eight years, she hadn't seen her like this.Those girly feelings suddenly disappeared when these words fell, and there was an unprecedented sense of bewilderment that faintly revealed the meaning of resignation, just like the autumn scenery outside the door at this moment.

"It's not that serious." Looking at her appearance, she was a little worried, and said almost without thinking: "You are different from me. Mrs. Dingzhen and His Majesty the First King loved you very much, and now you have the King and Eldest Sister to protect you." , you still have Xiao Mo. Those of us who were born in temples may have something to do, but everyone's situation is different. If it weren't for me, no one would use you as a pawn. In my heart, you would also Never a pawn."

It was consolation, and after going around, the topic finally fell back to heavy, "I'm sorry. I didn't choose this road, and I didn't choose its way. But the result is that I used you, and Very thorough."

Gu Chunfeng didn't know what to say.Of course she was angry and hurt; also sad, almost indignant—

Because of the fate of the aunt, the disregard of family affection of the Shangguan family, and the indifference and selfishness of the Shangguan concubine.

As a result, after two days and nights, she was exhausted physically and mentally. After thinking about it, she didn't know who to blame for this situation.

"Ninth brother wants to let you out of the palace. Do you still want to go home?"

Ah Ji didn't seem to reject this question, and said after a long while:

"The vast Qingchuan, where is my home? The one you mentioned may not be counted anymore. Before I was ten years old, I recalled the appearance of Cangwu's home every day, for fear of forgetting; after entering the palace, there are too many You have to adapt to the situation, there are too many people to recognize, too many things to do, gradually you don’t have time to remember, and you really forget. To be honest, Linghua Palace still looks like a family.” She looked at Chunfeng suddenly laughed,

"Do you remember, when we moved into the Linghua Palace, it was completely different from what it is now. From the garden plants to the layout of the hall, Yuniang and I rearranged it."

Gu Chunfeng blinked his eyes and thought for a moment, then nodded and said: "I remember. At that time, not long after my concubine passed away, I was very sad, and you and Yu Niang were responsible for all the affairs. You are also really good, but at the age of 15, you can command a There are many palace people who are older than you. You are so precocious and well-organized, you are no longer ordinary capable. But I have never doubted that it is because you have another identity and another career, so you have tempered your ability. "

Ah Xie didn't mind these words, and continued with a calm expression: "In retrospect, the days when I managed and managed the Linghua Palace were the happiest times in these years. It was fulfilling, down-to-earth, and very fulfilling. You have always been arrogant and indulgent." , during that time, because Mrs. Dingzhen passed away, her temper became even worse, and others didn't listen to what she said, except me."

When she said this, Chunfeng also remembered a lot of things, stared and said: "You still said it. You knew that I was sad and had no appetite at that time, so you forced me to eat. I left, and you chased me all the way with a bowl. You are everywhere in such a big Linghua Temple. I was 13 years old at the time, and I was not a two-year-old baby, and I had to chase after him for food, so many people were watching, what did it look like!"

Auntie raised her eyebrows when she heard the words: "By the way, you were 13 years old at that time, and you didn't dare to sleep in the dormitory by yourself. Baba asked me to sleep next to you. Isn't this like a two-year-old doll? But how can there be a slave to sleep?" The principle of the master's bed, in the end, I can only lay a mattress on the floor next to your bed, and sleep for half a year, fortunately, it is spring and summer, so I didn't freeze to death."

Chunfeng laughed, and then frowned: "But later on, you developed leg pain, and it hurts when the weather is cold. You are young, and I don't know if it is the root cause of the disease at that time."

Auntie also laughed: "I lived with my adoptive parents when I was young, and the family conditions were not good, maybe I was left behind at that time."

Chunfeng was a little frustrated, and suddenly remembered something, and said embarrassingly:
"But you are not a slave. You are also a master."

Auntie didn't respond to this sentence.Her state today is much calmer than when she was interrogated a few days ago.Or rather, indifference.

"Recently, I've been thinking, in fact, the things I've been caring about all this time are just some obsessions. My so-called noble background was given by my biological parents; my not-so-noble life path was also given by them. Got it Or lost, yes or no, yes or no, it all starts with them. So should I be a master or a slave? The fate of a person may not be determined by birth sometimes. Blame myself for not breaking this fate earlier .People can choose at any time. It just depends on what kind of obsession is holding you back at that moment.”

Chunfeng didn't quite understand these words, but she felt angry again: "They lied to you. If you knew that they were lying to you, maybe you would have made a choice earlier, like now."

"You don't blame me anymore?"

Seeing how she gritted her teeth, Auntie felt a little relieved.

"I don't know." Gu Chunfeng murmured, his eyes became blank, "I said to myself, it's just passing the news, not killing people or having a bigger conspiracy. Although you also did something to brother Jiu in July, After all, it didn’t work out. I heard that you didn’t really intend to harm him, but to test my sister-in-law?” She shook her head, “You people have too many thoughts. As for the matter of the hut this time, I don’t know the details, but it seems that the main The responsibility lies with Shangguan? After all, no one was killed, and you are not considered a heinous crime."

For some reason, after hearing these words, Ai's body felt cold, and the cold spread from the bottom of her heart to her back, so that she couldn't stand the trembling.

"Are you cold?" Chunfeng looked into the dark hall, "It's too wet and cold here, your leg hurts, but it happened again?"

(End of this chapter)