Qingchuan History

Chapter 393 Refining Heart
Gu Xinglang was startled.

Immediately laughed.Cold and mocking, it makes people flustered.

"She's figured it out."

Ruan Xueyin's fingertips hanging on the skirt trembled.

"It's ironic. She just said to me last night that she is willing to look forward, so you can assume it tonight. Are you making an appointment?"

I can't stand it.This is a moment of momentum, and this sentence is told on the spot.

So today Ji Wanling made an attack on the palace, because of this?
"Then what are you waiting for?" Her mouth was a little numb, but she reluctantly replied.

"I went back to Wanlan Palace last night." He paused every word, "Everyone in the palace knows, and Diyan has also come to deliver the message, what else do you want?"

Ruan Xueyin was also startled, then raised her eyes and looked directly at him,

"Don't do anything. In this generation, we never do what we want. We want one person for one life, but men are allowed to have three wives and four concubines by birth. I just stay with the person I like day and night, but I have to bear the infamy and be with a group of people I don't know at all. People fight hard."

Talking faster and faster, it shouldn't be, it's unwise.She forcibly slowed down her speech,
"I don't like it. I don't even like human society, let alone those despicable intrigues. The reason I'm still here, in the world's most beautiful cage and best deception, is because I believe you The promise of the white head. I have believed it, I just, "

no confidence.

No confidence in permanence and constancy.

Have no confidence in the integrity of the human heart.

I have no confidence in the vast and turbulent traditions of the heavenly family and the permanence of kings.

The only thing that can rest assured is time.And time changes everyone and everything.

So I still don't believe it.He was right.

"You're living like this," Gu Xinglang stared as if understanding what she hadn't said, "It's too tiring. You don't believe in anything, and you can't live with others at all."

Why not you.Ruan Xueyin suddenly thought.Sitting in this position, how can I believe anything.

all alone.Two people in their own predicaments, but they tortured each other here.

"So I am suitable for one person." Without saying a word, she drooped her eyes,

"Actually, my temperament is not very good. It should be said that I am very bad. I came to Qi Palace, and I realized why people say that beautiful girls are like spring flowers. They do have their own advantages, even if they are noisy or exquisite. , at least vividly."

She turned to look out the window.The window had been closed by Yunxi, and she couldn't see out at all, but she didn't turn back,

"Like them, you have some confidence in people and world affairs since you were born. The royal family is naturally incomparable with ordinary people's families, but at least your parents discipline you, and your brothers and friends accompany you. You are naturally close to people, and I believe it may last for a long time. This belief was reinforced throughout my teenage years. You are all in the same world."

At last she turned back and looked at him,
"I am not. I have no confidence since I was born. I have no mother, my father hates me, and the people around me are far away and not very friendly. Later, when I went to Pengxi Mountain, the teacher was also cold-tempered. My entire girlhood was constantly strengthened. Don’t believe it. I’m not in the same world as you, and you.”

She rarely spoke so much in one breath.And in the heart trace.Is it a big improvement?Gu Xinglang remained silent.

"It's interesting to say, but also very helpless. I am afraid that Jing Tingge is the only one who lives in the same world as me in this world. When she was in Pengxi Mountain in April, she also said that she has never really empathized. If it is not for personal experience, no one can. Really understand another person. So she chooses to be alone."

At Pengxi Mountain in April, Jiji said that if she wants to keep her by her side for a long time, she must truly understand her.Gu Xinglang suddenly thought.It happened so fast.

"My mentality must be ridiculous to you, even stupid." She laughed a little,

"I can't empathize, but I understand the truth. Just like you are firm at the moment, in my opinion, it is more like a youthful spirit. I don't believe it, but I don't believe it can last a lifetime. After all, this is just a promise. And promises are never responsible for time. "

A promise is just a word.

How many years and fierce world events can be resisted by one sentence.

"According to what you say, there is no solution to this question." Gu Xinglang looked at her quietly, "I have to prove it with my whole life."

"There is a solution. It is to do our best for the moment. So I said, I will deal with it side by side with you."

"But we can't have children."

The unsolvable is this.Because the unknown is the way forward.

Ruan Xueyin was silent.

"If you are really so cold-hearted," Gu Xinglang took half a step forward, lowered his head, and touched her face, "what is a child? If you want to leave in the future, just leave. I will take care of the child."

Her eyelashes trembled again.

"Sometimes I dream at night, always guessing why the person who gave birth to me left or is no longer around. I don't want another child to guess this thing again and again in dreams, and I don't want to have to tell him one day, Sorry, I can't continue to grow up with you, I have to leave."

Gu Xinglang's chest stagnated.

"Do you know how many women in this world have changed their minds and believed in many things after having children." He touched her arms on both sides with both hands,
"You have already lived in this world where I am. This world has a long life. My child and I will make you believe this every day."

"If you and I are only in the homes of ordinary people, or any big family in Jidu City, maybe it's fine. But you are the king."

Difficult to last long, even more difficult to be unique.It is difficult when you are in your own hands, but you can only compromise when you are involuntary.Probably of the limited or long years he spent with her, now was the best time.

"So there are two original sins. People's hearts are uncertain, this is one; the seat I sit in is not allowed to be alone for a long time than ordinary men, this is the second."

There are still many children to be born.

He smiled again, "It really is a knot. Even if you and I are willing to work hard for it and use all our strength to change the rules, how long it will take and whether it will succeed are unknown. And you don't want to bring your child into this unknown, lest you He will be bound by him in the future. Heh," he laughed out loud,
"Being alive for 21 years, this is by far the most difficult question."

He withdrew his hand, turned and walked out.

Ruan Xueyin only felt her heart sinking.She counted his footsteps, heard him open the door, and heard him call out to him.

"Arrange a bath."

he ordered.

The door closed again.

"You are ready too."

did not go out.Ruan Xueyin turned around in panic.He had turned back and was talking to himself.

"what?"

"You have never been in charge. Or should you ask your maid to come?"

Ruan Xueyin calmed down, "You,"

"Why didn't you snatch the door away in a fit of anger?"

She didn't answer or nodded, her eyes were affirmative.

Gu Xinglang was still standing by the door, "There was such a commotion in the Wanlan Palace today, and they all knew that I was going to see your illness. Now that I come and go, I go back with a dark face, adding speculation, which will cause rumors .”

He closed his eyes for a moment, sighed,

"You will repay your kindness with revenge, and you have failed me like this, but I can't ignore your life and death." While talking, he finally walked back, staring at her resentfully,
"It's called repaying grievances with virtue. Learn hard."

(End of this chapter)