Endless vast other world

Chapter 35

When Anaissa heard this, she froze in a daze.

Then.The poor child began to tremble all over.

Like a leaf in the wind.

Been here for so long.This lonely and helpless girl has exhausted her energy long ago.

Every day every night.Anaisha, who was exhausted, returned to her room.The only thing she can do is to lean on the old sofa and be in a daze quietly.

On the road of pursuing her ideals, she has already exhausted herself.

All that is left is exhaustion, confusion, and confusion.

In this incomparably vast world, where is there any place to love this girl?
The world is so big, but there is no room for it.

Anisha is just a child born in a small family in a small city.After being selected by the prophecy of the chief royal fortune-teller Edama, he came to the numerous royal capitals, and came to Helenburg, where there are so many masters.

When she first arrived, the only thing that greeted her was strange eyes from others.

She doesn't have Ke Ni's supernatural talent, Pu Lifu's outstanding achievements, and Fu Nuo's prominent background.

She's just a little person.That's all.

once.Fu Nuo was very troubled by the rumors and rumors that she entered Heilenburg because of her father's relationship.

But what Fu Nuo didn't know was.For Anaisha, Funuo's troubles can even become Anaisha's happiness.

Because Anisha is a little person who has never been paid attention to.

She doesn't even have the right to be gossiped by others.

When this little girl, wearing half-new clothes and carrying the little luggage left, came to Heilenburg to report.She was like a wild dove that accidentally flew into the swan's habitat.

People may wonder.Why bother?Why come to Hellenborg?Is it self-defeating?
Wouldn't it be nice to stay in the small town where you were born and be the daughter of an ordinary family in a remote town for the rest of your life?

It's not "bad", it's "can't".

If you are called by the kingdom, you must come.

This is not what Anisha can resist.

Under the torrent of the times.Individuals simply cannot control their own future.

As a person, I can't help myself at all.

Backtracking and following it, the road is long and difficult.

But even so.At the beginning, Anisha was still full of beautiful imaginations about the future.

When facing this bleak future alone.But once upon a time, Anaisha also had faith in her heart.

She really believed it.One day, everything will be fine.

She lives in the gutter, and she still insists on looking up at the starry sky.

She is like a mouse.Even in a bustling square, you can only hide in the shadows.

Who wants to live like a mouse if they can live a human life?
Anesha cannot live as a human being.

However, she is not reconciled, and will be a mouse all her life.

so.She must carry the burden of life all the time.Must look as usual, swallow the pain of life alone.It is necessary to climb to a high place like a bloody head.

She sincerely hopes.someday in the future.I can use a blooming posture to complain about the humiliation that was once despised.

so.If you say, if you can get sincere love, as a reward for your hard work.Perhaps, Anisha would not be sad because of the rough life in front of her.

This is the root of Anisha's longing for love.

Love will be a breakthrough point in Anisha's life.

Now Anisha's life is rigid and rigid, like a layer of ice that cannot be broken through.

Anaissa is trapped under the ice.Wrapped in bone-chilling water, she was freezing to death, drowning.

And love is like a hammer that cuts through the ice.

What Anisha needs is a hammer.

But it's just a hammer.

Perhaps even Anisha herself didn't realize this crucial issue.

That is.All she needs is a hammer.

She doesn't care who that hammer will be.What she wanted was a hammer itself.

That hammer, maybe it will be Hannes, maybe it won't.

But it doesn't matter.Because Anaissa doesn't care who the hammer is, she just wants a hammer.

Until the end, Anisha couldn't think clearly about this issue.

In her opinion, she must have a hammer to be rescued.

And, she was wrong.This hammer can only be the noble young man in front of him.

She's too young, she's too young.

She really doesn't know.There should be countless people to choose from, just like flowers.

People like Lucia, Miriam.They play in the garden all year round and linger among the flowers.Therefore, they are always able to casually and carefully select the flowers that suit them best.Yes, not necessarily the most beautiful one, but the one that suits you best.

And Anaissa.She had never been in a garden and hadn't seen many flowers.She dabbled in too few flowers.

therefore.See her, even if it's just a flower.You will mistakenly think that it is the most beautiful flower in the world.

so.She would hold on to that flower.In order to get that flower, I am willing to pay any price.

In other words.Anisha is the kind of person who is willing to die for love.

This is what Lucia took advantage of.

In Lucia's imagination.For a shy girl like Anisha, when faced with Hannes' sudden affectionate confession just now, her reaction will definitely be surprised, excited, hesitant, and at a loss.

But Lucia didn't expect that Anisha was surprisingly calm.

After being silent for a long time, Anisha glanced at Hannes without hesitation.

"I just ask you one question. Can you guarantee that your heart will never change?"

This time, even a veteran in love like Lucia was frightened.

Lucia just wanted to tease Anisha a little, so that she could do things for her.

But unexpectedly, inadvertently.Lucia actually released a ray of light buried deep in Anisha's soul.

This light emerged from the depths of Anaisha's soul.Make her face bright and charming.

Lucia didn't expect that she would inadvertently stir up such a strong emotion.

"It's you, the princess in my heart!"

Like this love story.Lucia has heard it countless times in her life.

Lucia's heart has long been a frozen lake.No matter how much you throw stones into the lake, it's impossible to make any ripples.

All that can be obtained is the hard clicking sound when the stone collides with the ice surface.

Because the lake has long been frozen.

But Anisha, it is completely different.

Anaisha's heart is still a pool of clear water.

Just throwing a stone into it a little bit has already caused such a big wave.

Lucia suddenly felt a strange emotion.

Because she seemed to see her former self from Anisha's heart.

The one who used to believe in love persistently.For love, you can be yourself until death.

Lucia suddenly didn't want to lie to Anisha anymore.She wanted to call it quits.

Because she felt that she was not lying to Anisha now.

Instead, she was lying to her innocent self.

She really couldn't bear it anymore.

But suddenly.Lucia came back to herself.

I am doing this now, but for Gunnar.If he didn't do this, where would Gunnar have potions to strengthen himself?

No, you must be ruthless.

Lucia forced herself to continue chatting with Anisha.

"Can you guarantee that your heart will never change?"

Faced with this tricky question Anaisha asked, Lucia was not helpless.

Because she once, also asked Jod Sapen that question.

At that time.Lucia has just met Jod Sapen.Lucia at that time was as innocent and pure as Anaisha now.

She also once asked Jod Sapen such a question in such a tone.

then.Jod Sapen gave Lucia an answer.

to this day.Lucia still thinks there is no problem with that kind of answer.

At this time, Lucia was going to use the answer that Jod Sapen gave to Anisha as it was.

Under Lucia's control, Hannes did so.

He didn't say a word.Just a nod in an extremely graceful way.

Yes.Back then, Jod Sapen did the same.

It was this extremely beautiful movement that fooled Lucia.

The answer this question requires is not words at all.

What is needed is an action.

That is.an action.

This is the perfect answer to this question.

Lucia believed it.With this action, he could deceive himself back then, but now he can deceive Anisha.

After all, women who fall in love will become exactly the same.

It worked.

Lucia saw it.After seeing Hannes' perfect answer, Anaisa was obviously very satisfied.

In fact, it is more than just "very satisfied".

for a moment.Anesha was so happy that she almost fainted.

Girls like Anisha are actually not unattractive.Her beauty was sealed away.

Just like many girls, they have to wear beautiful clothes to show their beauty.A girl like Anisha has a poetic beauty only when she is happy.

Anaissa is a girl like a flower.Love, to her, is like dewdrops dotted.

When the dew falls on her body, she will naturally exude a kind of fresh, sincere beauty that is different from the current one.

When I first entered Herringborg.Anaisha once thought that she would enter a big warm family.

But she didn't expect it.In this "big family", she is just a burden.

During these years surrounded by a great sense of loneliness, Anisha felt like an outcast.

That's why Anisha longs for love so much.She regards love as the only life-saving straw.

Anaissa was like a wounded wild duck.In the cry of pain, love is still revealed.

all the time.in the eyes of others.Anaissa, is a withered flower.

This is a fact.However, her withering was not due to her own bad breed.

She just looked a little sallow because of the unsuitable water and soil.

Once she meets the right soil, she can immediately restore her youthful brilliance.

And Hannes' "love" gave Anaisa the right soil.

Anaissa sighed.

She said to Hannes: "Thank you... thank you..."

That's all she said.

Everything else is out of the question.

at this time.Lucia was really panicked.

As a succubus.For the first half of her life, she was of course busy dealing with all kinds of love.

Lucia treats love with a playful attitude.Talking about love once, talking about love once, to her, it's like going to an amusement park once.

She does not participate in the joys and sorrows of it.

She just watched with cold eyes.

But at this moment, at this moment.What Anisa brought to Lucia was a brand new feeling.

No.wrong.

Not brand new.is stale.

Lucia also had this kind of young, beautiful love.

only.As time goes by.The love in Lucia's heart was gradually eroded by time.Lost in memory, rusted.

Anisa just dug out this long-lost feeling from the bottom of Lucia's heart.

Then, it was placed in front of Lucia again.

The atmosphere at this moment is really too heavy.

Such a heavy atmosphere is really not suitable for the kind of love with pink bubbles that exists in the fantasy of little girls.

In order to lighten the atmosphere, Lucia wanted to say something witty.Lead the conversation to exciting topics.

but.Lucia has never encountered such a situation.She thought for a long time, but couldn't think of any suitable words.I had to say it hard.

"So you agree to be my lover?"

Anaissa nodded.

Then.Anesha and Hannes looked at each other silently.

Anesha held out her hand to Hannes first.

Hannes took it.

The two held each other's hands tightly.

Although, it is only possessed by Hannes.However, Lucia still felt it.Anaisha's hand was slightly hot.

Just this little detail.Lucia unexpectedly felt a throbbing feeling for no reason.

She hurried to forget.

at this time.There was a faint sound of footsteps outside the door.

Miriam should be back.

Lucia was a little nervous.If Miriam came and saw Hannes holding Anesha's hand, something would happen.

Anaissa was also nervous.She didn't want to expose her relationship to others so quickly.

Hannes leaves Anesha's hand and gets up to say goodbye.

Anaisa also reluctantly said goodbye to him.

In just a few seconds, Lucia also played a trick.

At the door of the pharmacy, Hannes turned around again.Through the open door, whispered to Anisha.

"Wait for me. I'll be back!"

Anaissa smiled affectionately.

Just as Hannes left, Miriam came in.

Fortunately, she didn't see Hannes.

Miriam just went out to eat under the pretext of eating, but in fact she wanted to avoid Hannes.Seeing that Hannes is not here now, she thought that Hannes had chosen to retreat despite difficulties, and she was very satisfied.

Seeing Anesha standing there blankly, Miriam thought she didn't care, thinking that the child was doing something stupid again.

Miriam hummed triumphantly, continuing her experiment just now.

And what about Anaissa?It was just now that he had recovered from that thrilling confession.

her cheeks.Still slightly hot.

Anisha looked at Miriam, who was humming a little tune and kept busy.

During the years of working silently in Hellingborough, Anisha always believed in it.Even if you live in the gutter, look up at the stars.

And Anisa's "starry sky" is Miriam.

In Anisha's eyes, Miriam is a perfect person.She has touching beauty, charming posture, amazing popularity, repressive temperament, extremely high level... She is almost a perfect woman.

Miriam is Anisha's idol.Just looking at Miriam made Anisha feel hopeful for the future.

In Anisha's imagination.Maybe in the future, there will be a day.I can reach Miriam's position.I can also have this kind of beauty, and I can also become the chief royal pharmacist...

But this can only exist in Anisha's imagination.

The name "Milian", in Anisha's eyes, can only represent an unattainable height.

Anaissa had been crawling alone in the night for far too long.She was out of breath.She really needs someone to say "come on" to herself.

Did Miriam do this?

No.

According to the system of the Herringborg plan.Miriam is Anisha's teacher.Her duty is to impart knowledge to Anaisha and teach her how to make potions.

Strictly speaking.Indeed, Miriam has no obligation to be the guide of Anaisha's life as Anaisha asked.

Anesha asked Miriam to give her some guidance in life, and it was indeed difficult for some to force others.

but.Anaissa had walked alone in the dark for too long.Miriam is the lighthouse in Anaisha's eyes, able to illuminate Anaisha's darkness.

Like it or not, hope it or not.Miriam is the only light source in Anesha's life.

Only by looking at Miriam, Anisha has the direction of life and the motivation to move forward.

According to Anaisa.Although this is not an obligation, it is really necessary for Miriam to pass on the knowledge of life as her life mentor.

What Anisha wanted Miriam to teach her was not just the ability to refine medicine.What Anisha really wants to learn is how to dress up, how to improve her temperament...

Miriam hadn't taught Anaisa any of this.

Is it really asking too much?
or.In the simplest terms.What I want is an affirmation from Miriam.

but.Even this "affirmation" was not given to Anaisa by Miriam.

Anaisa also knew that Miriam wasn't treating her badly.For example, when doing experiments, Miriam will also carefully teach herself.Occasionally, Miriam would also care about her own life and remind herself to eat well on time.

but.Anaissa knew it too.Miriam didn't like herself.

Because I seem to never be able to learn Miriam's generosity, that kind of free and easy lingering among men.

There is only one kind of student that the teacher likes.Just like your own students.

It is precisely because of this.Although Miriam kept silent.However, Anisha could sense it.

Miriam has always looked down on herself.

That deep sense of contempt pierced into Anisha's heart like a knife.

Of course Anisha knew that Miriam despised her roots.That is, Miriam doesn't like Anisa's cowardice, and doesn't like Anisa's rusticity.

But is this Anisha's fault?

People with more social resources are more likely to succeed.This is true no matter what era it is in.

A person like Hannes is a great nobleman when he is born.His whole life will definitely attract the attention of all.

And the scariest thing is that.People like Hannes.They will ignorantly take it for granted.Everything you have is achieved through your own hard work.

so.They will take it for granted, to make rules.A set of rules that only benefit you.Then, savagely demand compliance from all.

even.They blame those who fail to play by the rules.

In the eyes of these successful people, those who fail to abide by the rules are all to blame.

This is like.In Miriam's eyes, Anisha is a self-deprecating person.It is because Anaisha doesn't work hard and can't be independent, which leads to Anaisha's numbness, her backwardness, and her mediocrity.

Is it really?

Miriam's beauty was not acquired.Anaisa's unremarkable appearance was not of her own making.

Can you blame Anisha for the mistake?

Anaisa also wanted to be like Miriam, possessing charming beauty, charming posture, amazing popularity, repressive temperament, and extremely high level... But, how could it be so easy?
Because of the long-term, in an extremely depressive atmosphere.Anaissa is naturally haggard and haggard.

even.Anaisa's body presented a sick condition.They all look deformed.

There are two things in the world that can help women rejuvenate.

One is beautiful clothes and the other is love letters.

to be honest.Girls can be very attractive only when they are in a happy mood and well-dressed.

And Anisha lives in this environment every day, how can she show her elegant side?
Anaisa has been doing her best to try to get close to what she longs for.Trying to get rid of that humble, powerless self.

In the end, it turned out to be nothing.

Not even a word of encouragement from Miriam can be exchanged.

therefore.For Miriam, Anesha is more of a kind of dissatisfaction.

This kind of dissatisfaction, like wildfire, quietly burned in Anisha's heart slowly.

to be honest.think carefully.Anesha seems to have some misunderstandings about the "teacher-student relationship" between Miriam and herself.

The relationship between them is so precarious.

What Anisha wanted was acceptance.

Miriam, on the other hand, couldn't give Anisa any real help.

then.Worship gradually turned into dissatisfaction.

I'm going to be independent from Miriam.

The seed of thought has already been planted in Anisha's heart.

future.This seed will germinate, take root, and bear fruit.

It will bear the most vicious fruit.

(End of this chapter)