I promise

Chapter 283 You Are My Longing
Mu Dian could not refute.

She said many things that hurt Chang Qianfo, all in order to push him away, and they were not true.

Chang Qianfo's voice was soft, it was a soft and lowered request: "Dianke, can you tell me what is in your heart? Tell me about you and Jin Yanchen, and you treat me."

She always wraps herself in a hard shell.Even though these days, she let go of herself and always showed a soft and charming side in front of him, there was always a layer of fog behind her, so she couldn't see clearly.

He has always trusted himself, but this time, he is a little worried about gains and losses.

What responded to him was Mu Dianke's silence.

The long, seemingly endless silence exhausted Chang Qianfo's enthusiasm and hope, as well as Mu Dianke's restraint and patience.

She finally spoke softly.

"When I was very young, I knew I was going to marry him when I grew up. He was... very nice to me."

She thought about it, and said, "It's a particularly good one."

Even after so many years, she can no longer combine Jin Yanchen with the spring breeze boy in her memory. She is still grateful for the kindness he once treated her, which cannot be erased unconsciously.

"The elders of both families are willing to join me with him. I am also willing to follow him.

So at that time, I spent more than half of my time at Jin's house, all with him.

I thought it would be like this for the rest of my life.

Later, something happened to the Jin family, and I was expelled from Luoyang by Mu Cangping, and I was exiled to Xiliang.

He found me in Xiliang, brought me back to Ming Palace, and still treated me well.

But the fourth aunt didn't like me, so he gradually alienated me.

Later, his attitude towards me became worse and worse, and he avoided me like the plague.I've been sad, and I've tried to keep it, but in the end it didn't work.

Then I got tired of it and thought about leaving.

I have escaped three times in total.

The first time he sent someone to arrest me and imprison me for half a month.Then he released me, and sent his handmaiden, Fernian, to guard me.

The second time, when Fu Nian let me go, he killed Fu Nian.Except for Zhaoyang and Zhaohui, he didn't leave any of the people who served me beside me.

I had to go back again.

Then I ran away again.After I settled the people around me, I walked through the desert to the Western Regions alone, trying to find out the culprit who poisoned the Jin family back then.

Later, I met my enemies in the desert, and encountered a hurricane while fighting.When I awoke, I found myself rescued by a silk caravan.

I walked in the desert with the camel team for more than 20 days, and when I was about to leave the desert, I went back again.

Because I discovered that I am actually not as powerful as I thought.Leaving his shelter, I am like a lone boat on the sea, a lone camel in the desert, it is very difficult for me to survive, let alone take revenge with my own strength.

Staying by his side, at least you don't have to worry about making a living, and there are people who can take advantage of you, it's better than fooling around without knowing anything..."

Her voice was very calm, like a still deep lake with no wind or waves, with no waves.

But Chang Qianfo felt distressed.

How much pain does a 17-year-old girl have to go through before she can tell such a cruel past in such a calm tone.

He still remembers that when Su Yi was ten years old, he once went to Kunshan Mountain behind Changjiabao to gather medicine by himself, but got lost in the mountain.When he found Su Yi, it was almost dark. Seeing her flustered and helpless appearance, and her dry and peeled lips due to dehydration, he felt that his heart was about to break.

Su Yi was only trapped in the back mountain for one day, while Mu Dianke walked in the desert for more than 20 days.

He couldn't imagine what kind of despair and loneliness she was trudging through the vast yellow sand under the scorching sun.

He reached out and hugged her into his arms, his voice was low and full of pain: "Dian Ke, you still have me. Without his protection, I can protect you."

Mu Dianke shook his head slightly: "Actually, I noticed you the first time I saw you on Luoxia Street.

Standing in the crowd, you are so eye-catching, just like the brilliance of the sun, no matter how you hide it, you can't hide it.

I knew then that we were different.

You are the proud son of heaven, you are destined to walk in the sunshine, serve the world, and accept the admiration of the world.

And I'm just a demon girl with blood on my hands.Killing evil all over the body is not tolerated in the world.

You shouldn't let yourself be contaminated with the stench of the rivers and lakes for me. "

Chang Qianfo said: "I'm not as good as you imagined, and I have killed people. Dianke, I am a man first, and then a doctor. If I can't even protect the person I want to protect the most, what will happen to me?" How to hang the pot to help the world and help others?"

He finally asked: "Dianke, do you love me? Just like you once loved Jin Yanchen, do you want to be with him forever?"

Mu Dianke said: "Do you still remember the picture of Siwuzhai? The picture of rain' rain dwells in the clouds and comes out of Xiu, and the water falls and the stone sees the sky'?"

Chang Qianfo said: "Remember. The shopkeeper of Siwuzhai said, you always look at it, but don't buy it."

Mu Dianke said softly, "I like that painting very much."

Her eyes looked at the void, as if she had nothing to send, and she was extremely helpless: "You are like the character in Siwuzhai. You are upright and magnanimous. It is what I yearn for, but I am afraid of it. rather than unattainable.”

Chang Qianfo knew that Mu Dianke had been avoiding himself, but he didn't know that she had such inferiority complex.In addition to being distressed, another uncontrollable excitement rose from the bottom of his heart, causing his voice to tremble a little, and he repeated her words: "I am the one you yearn for..."

He couldn't help himself, holding her in his arms, he didn't know what to do, and murmured: "I know, I know."

He took her hand and put it on his face: "Dianke, look at me, touch me, I'm right in front of you, within your reach."

Mu Dianke lightly stroked Chang Qianfo's face, his lips slightly curved into a smile, but his eyes were sad.

"Qianfo, I can't promise you anything. I don't know when that day will come. Three years, five years, or ten or twenty years? I don't even know if I can live to that day.

Even if there is that day, so what?No matter how big Changjiabao is, it will not be able to accommodate a small me. "

She choked up, looked at him, and two lines of tears flowed straight down: "Thousand Buddha, a person will not only love one person in his life. Once, I also thought that Jin Yanchen was my heaven, and I couldn't live without him." .I also thought that I would never love anyone again in this life...

You will meet the girl you like again, and you will want to be nice to her, and you will want to bring her back to Changjiabao to protect her for the rest of your life...just don't tell her that you used to be nice to me, she will be unhappy... "

She choked up and couldn't speak, turned her head away, avoided his gaze, gritted her teeth, and said cruelly: "Me too, I will soon forget..."

Before he finished speaking, his eyes suddenly darkened.

Chang Qianfo suddenly lowered his head and sealed her lips with his mouth.

He pressed his face against her forehead, and his usual gentle voice was stubborn, like an aggrieved child pleading: "I won't like other girls anymore, and I won't let you forget me."

(End of this chapter)