endless roses

Chapter 1 A Night Intoxicated by the Spring Breeze

I drank too much coffee, very high concentration, and recently I was in a state of drunkenness, always wanting to laugh.One night, I went for a walk by the lake with my friends, and even danced gently under the lights.Evening wind, jazz music, the sound of lapping lake water, and moonlight.

Today is Xiao Mo's birthday, she asked us to bring a few small fireworks and make an appointment to take pictures by the lake at night.

Zhongzhong straightened his temple hair, took out the lipstick he carried with him to touch up his makeup, and said to himself in the mirror, "I am that Legal Blonde."

I turned to Tangtang, smiled and asked, "What about you?"

"I'm Dachang." Wearing a short floral skirt, she smiled brightly, and the ribbon on her shoulders was gently lifted by the wind.

"Where's Xiao Mo?" I asked.

"She, she is a civil servant." Tangtang said.

"Add one, besides a civil servant, she is also a senior musician. What about me?" I looked at Xiao Mo, who was leaning on the railing and thinking.

"You are a philosopher."

"You are a philosopher." Zhongzhong also agreed, and handed over the camera together, "Meier, try it for me, is this angle good?"

The spring in March is not coming, and the weather is still very cold. She is wearing a long white dress, which is so soft and beautiful against the reflection of the lake and the city.

"Low your head a little bit, yes, look in the direction of the tree, okay." I pressed the shutter.

"Okay, set up your pose, and now let me take the picture for you, Master."

"Ha ha, alright."

"Meier, you seem like a literati from the last century." Zhongzhong said.

"what?"

"Look at this picture, it's strange, you're smiling, but it looks like you're crying, but you can't say anything." She held the Polaroid photo paper in front of her face.

"You could call this 'Sad Laugh'" I said.

"Meier, you're drunk."

"Yeah, you are all here on such a beautiful evening, and you don't want to leave."

Thinking of Zhongzhong's poor health, Tangtang going to study abroad, their smiling faces, bright eyes, and youthful faces, I suddenly longed for time to stop here and stay in this night forever.

Xiao Mo motioned for us to come over, played the song "light in the sky", stood on tiptoe, and turned around under the street light. She was wearing a tube top and long hair in the weak light, as if she had come from an oil painting. The girl who walked out.

"I miss that ghost so much," I told her.

"What ghost?"

"I always have someone I like in my heart, but I'm not sure, I want to give up."

"What do you mean not sure?"

"He is the lover of my dreams. However, because I have been secretly in love with him for many years, any contact will definitely destroy the beautiful fantasy. I don't understand. I want to tell him everything, including my feelings. I think I love him, but I don't I know my true heart, and I don’t know if it can be called love.”

"Why can't it be?"

"Love should be exclusive, but when I think of his past relationships, I'm actually very happy to have such a beautiful girl with him. I'm so relieved. It's so strange. Are you listening?"

"exist."

"Maybe I regard him as my elder brother, perhaps as a friend, as the person I love the most, but if I really regard him as my lover, why don't I have the slightest thought of wanting him to be my own alone."

"Meier, have you ever thought that you don't love him, you just want to be."

"Ok?"

"You can always love him like a ghost, a person who understands you, a good friend, there are many kinds of feelings in this world, maybe you understand each other, like Boya Ziqi?" Xiao Mo smiled slightly, she It is also such a wise friend, "There is no need to worry about whether it is love or not."

"Well, I want him to be my lifelong friend, just like you guys."

"Of course you can, why are you so sad." Xiao Mo patted my head.

Thinking of the undecided encounter between myself and Zai Liang, the next step, I don’t know what to do, thinking of giving up Tang Ji and treating him as the only one who can’t be offended forever in my heart, I don’t know if it’s right or wrong.

"I wish we were always this good."

"Yes." Xiao Mo said, "It will always be this good."

"I don't want to graduate, I want to stay with you forever, I want an internship in my senior year, and I'm the only one in the dormitory."

"It's okay, Mei'er, everyone is not far away."

La La Land, fireworks, fiery trees and silver flowers, everything became hazy, and no one drank alcohol, they were all intoxicated in the spring breeze.

Occasionally thought, what will happen in the future?Filled with sentimentality, life never goes well with predictable endings, I'm a pessimist of absolute optimism, the exact opposite of Specter, alas.

The text in the notebook that night:
I had a beautiful dream about youth.On a bright afternoon, the four of us were laughing, waiting for the shutter to be lightly pressed in the same picture frame, the wireless style and grace, as well as the spring breeze and green grass, just like everyone had a picnic in the egret garden that day,
Blowing the wind of Dushu Lake.I was awakened by the silver bell-like laughter from my friends in my dream, and I was very touched when I woke up.

(End of this chapter)