endless roses

Chapter 127 Solo Travel and Solo Walk
The main body is still there, and it has a suitable environment for growth.

I like this guy, the three views are so compatible.Because he doesn't bother me, I don't bother him, many people become bosses after falling in love, that's bad, he is afraid, and I am also afraid.Each other has their own hobbies and space, and likes to be attached to each other so that they are missed but not disturbed.If many years later, I could still meet once a year, I might fall in love with this guy.

He loves to travel and visits all over the world, no matter how big or small, the best thing about solo travel is that he can change the itinerary, which is very convenient.I love to travel with my mind, and walk all over the corners of my heart, no matter how far away, the advantage of solo walk is to let go, maybe full of thoughts, maybe occasionally without me.

Maybe like the story of "one day", I will miss him forever, no matter whether we will be together in the future, we should love each other like friends, no, I don't know if this is love, it doesn't matter, just always care about it.After experiencing it firsthand, I suddenly understood.

Is he sleeping well, is his journey safe, is he lonely occasionally, these are not my thinking items, I said it because I wanted to have fun, but it turned out that I really didn't care.I know that he will sleep well, will be safe, will be lonely occasionally, and will miss himself for a few minutes or even 10 minutes on a busy day, and I will occasionally think of him during this day, and then a bright smile will appear in my heart .Miss, what a wonderful thing.

I can’t describe this kind of liking. It’s not about discovering the liking of a true person, nor about agreeing with each other. It’s not about being wronged and living, and obeying social rules. Many rules seem unbelievable to me, and so are he.Today, with strong emotions, there is happiness in it.

At three o'clock in the morning, I burst into tears, which did not fall. I was enveloped by a kind of great happiness, and felt that I was blessed by fate, because one day I could finally put down my thoughts, and most of the time, I forgot. kind of.I admit that even for people who might love, most of the time, it is unexpected.I admit that for a loved one, a fraction of the time, emotions and thoughts can be overwhelming.

One day, I want to leave for Huaiyuan, I want to go to the dilapidated and boring former residence of Haizi, because I want to go, that is the place I once dreamed of, it is boring and ordinary, but I think.Although his relationship with his family is not good, the former residence was repaired by his parents with manuscript fees, and I later found a few of his disgusting poems, and most of them are very ordinary, only a small part of them are amazing, and as time goes by As the time passed, that bit of amazement was also fading away.I know Celebrity Home is a backwater, I know it's pointless...

But, I'm going.Why?why are you not going?
Sitting across from each other in a cafe, his hands touched my hair for the first time, and many days later, she put her hands on his outstretched palms, and I took them, tight , and release it.Later she said, "I will always value you." This is also from someone who hates saying "forever" and doesn't believe it.However, when it comes to emotions, I believed there was such a thing at that time, because I could control my state of mind.Cherish forever, it's so easy for me.I like to hug, to hold, to be held, with my head lightly tilted on someone's shoulder, my temples against his head, and to say things that don't matter.

Xiaoxiong's ticket went with Fang Xue, because three tickets were issued and I tentatively asked him, if you don't like me, I will go with my friends, okay, is he going out with my friends so as not to disturb me? Thinking of going on a date with me to watch another movie, huh.

In the future, I also don't want to get married. I will have a lover, maybe always, maybe never; and marriage, at least the kind of marriage we see today, I will refuse.Children, yes, I like children, their innocence, their laughter, and the sunshine of the kindergarten girls I saw in the art center, I love them so much.

I like to be cared for, I like to be taken care of, is that all I want?I don't know, maybe I will be greedy in the future and hope that my lover will always be by my side?

I cried today and then the tears came down, it wasn't about patience, it wasn't about some kind of self-defeating saying: well, I'm a bad girl, break it, I feel emotions, big emotions and light smiles all over me, that There is no bitterness in the smile, I am blessed by fate...

Maybe once a year, maybe one day there will be no meeting in this life, that is a long distant future.Yes, I fell in love, in a love that is deformed in the current cognition, but extremely healthy. Maybe it is more appropriate to use feelings. Maybe I don’t love him, but I like him for real. What I like this time is not the feeling , but he, as I love myself.

I've never said "I love you" to anyone, not to him.

Suddenly, traveling alone became a little more attractive. I also wanted to travel all over the mountains and rivers alone, and I wanted to travel far with a collection of poems.

"Just give this song to my beloved you~", I like when he sang this line, at first I thought it was a bit silly, but later I thought it was very precious, life is beautiful.I said that love is easy, love everything and nature, but he can't treat people; he is very cautious, generous and sincere about liking, and doesn't mention love at all.We have known each other for a short time, and we like each other, but love means commitment, and commitment must be kept, no matter who it is, it is not easy to talk about it, this is a very serious matter.

This is my first relationship that I am immersed in and really feel happy. It is not necessarily love. Love involves too much, and it is far from that point. It is very good at the moment.What will happen in the future?What kind of life will I have in the future?A single old lady who takes regular walks for an early morning meal?a poet?Essayist?Staff somewhere?
Dream, I closed my eyes, I saw and heard a little boy crying in the market, he said "but that's not going to be good" and ran away, "that" refers to a big boy in the shape of a snowman Toy.He has never spoken so many words with a woman, still in Chinese.We have a wonderful feeling that it doesn't need to be overcome, it doesn't need to be related to "compromise" and so on, it's not two lonely people who find a harbor, maybe two happy boats meet and look at them strangely, such a strange man, such a strange man Woman, with a worried look: "It won't hide an anchor to trap me, it won't turn into a boss to restrain me, right?" Knowing that there is no need to worry about it, I don't want to use "pale" to smear those eyes Yes, it's romantic, it's pure, the puzzled expression like a small animal is him.He said that I looked so worried, I said, no today, you are so cute, I want to touch your beard, so I put my arms around his head and stretched out the other hand to scrape gently Furry cheeks.

They never talked about "love", and maybe there won't be any in the future.Thinking of this, there was a moment of small loss, and then joy, I love, I love such prudence, love this behavior that does not insult love itself, the third time, I mentioned, thank you for the blessing of fate.

Imagine that one day my lover is unwell, and I will stay in front of the hospital bed, maybe knit a sweater, read a book, or go out to buy fruit and eat it by myself.I gnawed it by myself because people are unconscious in this hypothetical situation, so I must eat it next to me when I buy delicious food.Even if I wake up and can’t see me, it’s okay, I definitely don’t think I don’t care, because since a lover must know me, I naturally know that it is impossible for me not to care, this is not something to consider... Will I be buying baked goods? Cold noodles, mainly because I am a little hungry now. The last time I ate cold noodles was in high school. There are several different tastes there. There is a female vendor selling vegetable burritos who has been improving according to my taste. Her family has chopped peppers... I still want to take the delicious food to affect this patient, maybe I will be awakened by the fragrance, er, it will affect my health or the doctor will say no... This is a part of War and Peace, she is knitting a sweater next to her lover, "She, knit a sweater for me, put it on, she said she looks very handsome", this is a song with either good or bad mood.

July 6, morning

Text has a timeline, have you noticed it?The emotions and states at each point in time are different, as are the situations.

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