endless roses

Chapter 76
Life is too short
Cloudy, no rain, with what I don't know what I love, I walk on the song.

After exiting the subway station, the woman in the white skirt stood on a round stone bench. For a second, she mistook her for some kind of ghost. She looked at me and then at her companion, and jumped off the top with a smile. The coat is fluttering.She's not a ghost, she's a human being, and I'm so sad about her ordinary and boring life.

Slanting and panning up there, they have all kinds of flowers in their hands, holding yellow flowers, one or two roses, long branches in boxes, or holding or bunching.In the subway, they were rushing to various places, took one more stop, and got off at Hongzhuang. Once again, they forgot that this station is the boundary of Tongli Muli. If I want to go back, I have to wait for the next stop at Hongzhuang Going back, that's four stops.

Two glasses of brandy, I love brandy, spirits refreshing, drunk but not drunk.

Pushing open the door of the dormitory building, many cats with yellow spots on their backs were grinding their claws on the insoles, and they were already wearing collars. We were startled by each other.

A few days ago, I saw it taking a nap on the sofa of the apartment on the north side in the afternoon, and it also put its hands on the steps of the -1 floor, and ran around the whole building, calling at the door of the dormitory from time to time, and even bumped into it guarding the outside, the door downstairs As soon as it opened, it took advantage of the situation to come in.

Recalling many things, remembering many things and not remembering many things.Walking on the road, I suddenly feel that I need a roll of black tape to seal my eyes, don't look at it, don't let those trivial things engrave naturally.

Remember some trivial things, as trivial as possible, because I didn't want to do this in the next few letters, so I mixed them in.

(One)

The water bottle was broken, and the boiling water splashed on the feet and the ground. The girl who was blowing her hair downstairs looked at it in surprise. I was standing there blankly, thinking about how to clean the puddle of water on the ground. Forget it, give it to my aunt.The garbage room is not far away. I picked up the split part of the water bottle shell and put it back together. The inner liner was not broken.Walking back and stepping on a puddle of water on the ground, it was clean, and another sense of guilt swept over me. This is a puddle of water that shouldn't have appeared.Is this the concern, I don't know.After returning home, I was too lazy to look for burn ointment, so I just applied some face cream and borrowed a friend's hot water to make coffee.

(two)

Drunken with coffee, in a hazy state of intoxication, I reviewed Borges's Quixote and Tron. He is a dream of loops, loops, and many stories are like this.

(three)

Zhang Zaozhi's "A Moment Like a Star" made me blush and my heart beat; Shen Hao's poems made me silent; I still didn't know what to say in Love's gentle cursing.

(four)

Paula McLean is more likable than Hemingway, but her biographies are not very readable. I have read so few biographies that I forgot whether it was the one who drove Hemingway's car into a tree.Also because she used to admire war correspondents when she was a child

Titanic 2012 rerun.I watched it at that time, and suddenly recalled the plot of Rose throwing the heart of the ocean into the sea in my childhood, and mistakenly thought that I had some kind of ability to predict the future in the past.

(Fives)

Yesterday, a man leaned against a poster in a subway station, which showed a police officer about his age saluting.The knife-shaped hand of justice protruded from his neck, like a tumor in this real man.

The first employee asked the second employee how to make it. The second employee squatted on the ground and smoked, and said: bake at 145° for 45 minutes.The smoke cleared, but he was still dignified; the small door by the roadside was an art world, with many oil paintings hanging, and a man with melancholy eyes was sitting; outside the other small door, there were many flowers and plants in the south of the Yangtze River. There are many calligraphy and paintings spread out on the floor, and oranges are piled on the wooden bank; the old man who sells wreaths is holding up his flowers, elegant and beautiful, as if begging, waiting for passers-by to buy them with kindness.

(six)

He untied the matching ribbon of the black and white plaid skirt from his waist, clutched it, and looked at his young self in the dressing mirror.She changed into another light blue cotton plaid skirt, with a little gauze on the top of the skirt, and flowers and cats embroidered at the end of the gauze.

At night, I heard that the spare headphone cable was knotted, and I heard the sound of the metal wire inside, so I kneaded and listened repeatedly, and suddenly dreamed, the voice said: unless it touches the data next to it, for him "brain!" Another dream , the voice said sadly: rotten is air.

He used to always say: You are the continuation of my life.

When I enter the elevator door, I always rush in, the airtight and secluded space, panic.

The trendy man had pigtails tied into the back of his head, propped up on the ice cream cabinet with one hand, and held a cigarette in the other.

(Seven)

Eco said: In the past, roses were named after them, but today people hold them in the name of roses.It's great that there are still people who remember the rose. It existed and was commemorated, but they don't know where it will go in the future.A hundred years later, people learned from ancient books that people in the past held the name of rose, but there is nowhere to test it today.

She continued to be fragrant in the land of oblivion.

(Eight)

Going to the movies with Zhongzhong, "The Wrath of Man", Jason Statham's melancholy and bewildered face appeared on the screen.A friend said: He is so cool.What impressed me deeply was that he lit up the little night light in the dark night and talked peacefully with his enemies.The only son died, and his ex-wife said: "You are cold! Cold! Cold!" He turned on the light in the study, and warned with his colleagues who spent the night: "Dinah, this is very important"; Said: "Liver, lung, spleen, heart." Then shot through one by one, the man fell down holding the wine glass, blood slowly oozing out.The film is really ordinary, but I wasted time watching gunfights and killings. There is no damn humanistic feelings, no questioning and melancholy, and I keep waiting for opportunities for revenge.

(nine)

These are all messy words. Forget it, I don’t like duplicity. Since my mind is muddy and empty now, what I write must be empty, just like the dull afternoon writing I mentioned earlier. If it is boring, write running words when you are running, expressing not only the state of mind at that time, but also the reflection of the state of speaking at the moment.In the afternoon, I said that I wanted to present the exhibition in the way of fine brushwork. As for the garden, it is naturally a way of wandering. It seems that I have talked about lotus. The way of expressing the mood that day is also matching, and the words and sentences can be played.

I realized that I wasn't drunk at all, maybe my body had adjusted itself, I was so sad, it was a pretentious pain because I couldn't be sad.

(ten)

I haven't seen the couple garden for a long time. It turns out that it is in the deepest part of the alleyway, and I walked through Moke garden and then went inside.

(eleven)

The sword that does not kill, the benevolent is invincible, is false.The benevolent man prays and blesses sinners, he has no enemies.

(twelve)
After leaving the Lion Forest, a young tour guide talked to the uncle about the grand proposition of "why companies are unwilling to go public".There seemed to be respect in the eyes of the listener, and they listened with their hands behind their backs, making half-understandable thinking.

The flow of people in Guanqian Street is like weaving, and there is a mechanical voice like "gold drops 50 yuan per gram, [-]% off all jewelry, [-]% off high-priced gold, first prize..." and the employees of the same store "Thank you for coming" such a mechanical voice.

She stopped the electric car and asked me if I wanted a cheap garden ticket. I smiled and shook my head, my eyes probably squinted.Her dignity and sneer were all lost with a wave of her hands, and there was another sentence that she didn't know whether it was for me or herself: "It's okay, it's okay."

(thirteen)
Tangtang and Zhongzhong came back with warm noise.

Tangtang threw down her schoolbag and fell on the bed, saying: "Mei Mei quickly help me take a shower and remove my makeup!"

Me: "Okay, now help you to use up the water in the water heater."

Tangtang: "You don't love me anymore."

Me: "I have never loved."

So Zhongzhong used the phrase "never" to give us a popular science novel involving ruthlessness and emotion.

Tangtang said hello to the curtain, I opened the bed curtain and asked what was the matter, she lowered her head and gestured for the clothes, I said, this dress is good, it matches your pink makeup very well, so she kept that one.

(fourteen)
Yesterday I went to Dushu Lake Theater with Xiao Zhongzhong to watch Guo Da's Man's Wrath, and talked a lot along the way back.When I was about to go back to school, I told her a lot of interesting things about movies and plants, and I also mentioned life and the future, which is the kind of ordinary boyhood that I hoped for.She said that the four of us are so lucky to be together, just like family.

(fifteen)
Why is my cheek flushed but still awake?

(sixteen)
At night, Guanqian Street radiates bustling beams of light. People are laughing and melancholy. It is the same tourists and night walks throughout the ages.Wandering in the meantime, huge loss.It sounds like my father said in the article about the beggar prince of Ningbo that the only big city that belongs to this person is the criss-cross road.As for me, once I come to a place, I don't need to talk about whether I belong to it or not.Encounter is fate, people and things, after walking for a while, bid farewell peacefully.Even though I often think about it and miss it, I must respect today. I don't like repeating the same thing twice.Furthermore, we always beautify the past, but in fact the past is not all beautiful.

([-])
She took off the inner bottoming shirt, and only wore a suspender dress, biting her lower lip with a look of contempt, trying to be a bad girl.Ask my friends: Is this possible?They say it's cool.

(Eighteen)
The exit of the Suzhou Museum is at the Zhongwang Mansion. I walked by and looked carefully at the English translation of "Slide Carefully". It is not Slide carefully, so it seems to be true today.

([-])
Listen to music.The lyrics flow to "drawing the sword and raising the eyebrows with pride and comfort", "smiling across the world and smiling proudly at the end of the world", "everything good is just intoxicated yesterday, and a touch of bitterness is today's taste", "the heart is like fire and passion is like fire".I really want, really want, it is a sonorous rose.

(twenty)
Take it easy, that's how it is all your life.

(21)

Participated in many meaningless activities, such as flower and bird exhibitions, painting exhibitions, movies, dramas, Pingtan, recitals, lectures, music festivals and concerts. Injury, crying and so on, finally can't do it.Not safe, and for no reason.This cross around the neck means nothing at all.The pendant already has a lot of minor scratches, and I only flip through the Bible very occasionally, even though it's not far away.I am a person without faith; and I envy them who have faith or don't think about whether they have faith or not.

The third time I mentioned that plaid skirt, I would unbutton the top button every time I put it on, and tie a black ribbon around my waist, as if it came from the last century. After sorting out the closet, I found many chocolate stains on the green gauze.

(22)

A friend said many years ago, "What you said is all so-called", very true, not only so-called, but also false.Later he said: "Some of your words are right, for example, philosophy is poetry, and it must be pure enough." If you meet me now, you should show more disdain, and disdain each other.

(23)

The steam mask has arrived.In high school, it was often used with earplugs, but now I don’t need earplugs, and I can’t sleep anyway.I can listen to the rain all night, just like I used to be able to sit for more than ten hours a day in school for several months, wandering around.I really want to be wild.

(24)

This folding fan is so light that it seems weightless in the hand, I like it very much.Bamboo is no better than many rough woods, it is refreshing and cool enough.

(25)

"I want to touch the coolness of that bracelet", wrote in the composition of the fifth grade, and the teacher said that the synaesthesia is very good.

(26)

I went to the re-enacted concert, and they said, "Fu Jiu" and Ka Kui's voice are very similar. It was the first time I bought a concert ticket. A few of Beyond’s favorite songs in high school. When I was repeating my studies, I was in a bad mood for an evening study. I was not ready to go out for a walk in the evening.

(27)

For a certain period of time when I was eighteen or nineteen, there was no excuse.After class, I asked my teacher friend to take a chair to sit down and chat, two math classes.That was the first time I talked to people about my unfortunate childhood experience, and it involved the source of my distrust of people. I usually just talked about life and subjects.He was shocked, then angry, but as a teacher, he could only sigh, and finally suggested that he should not talk to his boyfriend in the future.After all, I was lucky. In the first 19 years, I didn't have the same experience as Lin Yihan, and I grew up safely.No matter how the outside world changes and the situation changes, as long as I still love myself, that's enough.

(28)

Small things are as perfect as they are perfect, and life is exquisite and exquisite, all of which can be thrown away.They don't belong to me at all, I can go wherever I want
It's a big house, and few people I know can explore in my own house like I do.Last time, why did I say it was not built for living? It was originally built in a hotel style, with more than 40 rooms in a commercial-residential house, a bit like the abandoned elegant residence they moved to in "Ghost Mother".I also used to count windows, doors and steps at home, and dare not walk in my own house in the dark night. Qiao lived in a new house in 07, and things changed in 08. Life is really ridiculous.Now, it has been changed again and again, and I have been circling with the tenants for more than ten years, and the electric meter is pulling the wires. Even the power supply of my room has to be moved from another wire upstairs to turn on a weak incandescent lamp.The family is down and even in debt, and there is a dilapidated ghostly house. She is still guarding this hotel. What is a big house for me?unnecessary.

It was so cold, I could walk in the stairwell skillfully without turning on the lights long ago, and I no longer had to ask adults to turn on the lights in fear like I was when I was a child.Estella described by Dickens was also afraid of the dark when she was a little girl, but she has practiced indifference for a long time
People who know each other are called friends, and they will be friends forever.When it was time to say goodbye, I waved lightly, let's go, all I can do is watch him leave, and I can't say anything else.Although I often miss it in the future, I don’t want to go back to the past, not to mention that I have said goodbye to so many people and things, and I have learned to enjoy regrets.

As long as there is, still around, people and things, I treat them kindly.

I can't hold the guitar and play a complete song. It takes too much time and energy to play songs that are not rubbish. In the past, I would use the ocarina to play the opening song of the Kangxi Dynasty.

(29)

The fluttering butterfly mentioned earlier echoes the funeral flowers. No.20 Seven chapters: Concubine Yang plays colorful butterflies at the Dicui Pavilion, flying swallows weep at the red in the incense tomb.Bao's elder sister, Jin Chan, shed her shell and pretended that Lin's younger sister was eavesdropping on the secret conversation of the two maidservants, and rushed to the jade butterfly, while Bao Dai was weeping sadly on the hill.

(thirty)
Whenever the security guard is in front of me, I will obediently lock the car to prevent the car from being towed away.

(31)

A certain journal of Global Science, with a question on the cover: Is the universe silent or noisy, the home of astronomy.

I think, too much noise, no point of intersection, so it becomes the same plane and the same level, and finally becomes silence.

The huge roar of approaching a planet, blowing wind on the earth, and listening to speeches by my side all have a center of gravity.

(32)

SpongeBob SquarePants is my favorite animated image. Stephen Hillenburg is its creator. He died of ALS in 18 years.Life goes on and on, it is always optimistic and sunny, living is never boring, he is always smiling.

Rick and Morty traveled through time and space, burying those who died unexpectedly in parallel worlds in the backyard.The original world was in a panic, and life was relayed in the new time and space.

(33)

In a dream, he was lying next to his wife's bed, just realized that the servant would make a mistake and his daughter would die, and he said to himself, "Amy" to the window.Another one, Tangtang’s egg in the house is about to hatch, and Zhongzhong and I will take the elevator back to experience the process of being a grandmother.

5/20

(End of this chapter)