three desperate women

Pei Ziyang prepared everything and came to BJ with the nanny Zhao and Xiaoshu.

She didn't plan to drive and wanted to take the train, but it was inconvenient to go back and forth with the child.

The main reason was that she hadn't booked a hotel within three kilometers of the hospital at all.

In the end, she had no choice but to book a hotel that was far away from the hospital, and the price had already caught up with that of the Bencheng Hotel.

In order to facilitate medical treatment, she had to drive by herself. If she took the high speed, it would take 8 hours at the fastest. They also needed to rest at the service station every two hours.

When they set off, it was just dawn, but when they arrived at the hotel, it was completely dark.

After driving for a whole day, Pei Ziyang was exhausted, but fortunately Xiaoshu only took milk and medicine along the way and slept.

"Mrs. Meng, I'm going to bed first, so go to bed too, I have to drive to the hospital tomorrow morning."

"Okay, sister Zhao, rest!"

"You eat more or less, you haven't eaten much all day."

"I see, Miss Zhao."

Sister Zhao re-checked Xiaoshu's temperature and diapers, put Xiaoshu on the side against the wall, and slept beside the bed by herself to prevent Xiaoshu from turning over and falling out of bed in the middle of the night.

Pei Ziyang ate a few mouthfuls of bread, then went to the bathroom to wash up.

Sitting on the toilet, she looked at the missed calls on her mobile phone, all of which were from her mother, Zhong Xiuli.

She didn't dare to answer the phone, she was afraid that she would cry uncontrollably, but she couldn't tell her mother the truth.

She was thinking about how to reply to her mother. She couldn't make phone calls, so she could only send a WeChat message to report that she was safe.

In the end, she decided to say that she was on a business trip and was studying milk tea making techniques in isolation. She couldn't answer the phone in time, and she couldn't go back for a while.

She also made a special call to tell Meng Haixi and Liu Yini not to tell their mother anything about Xiaoshu's illness.

After sending WeChat messages to her mother, she finally breathed a sigh of relief, put her phone on the sink, and started brushing her teeth.

Looking at herself in the mirror, she was also startled, as if she had lost a lot of weight and aged a few years.

Her chin was so sharp that it could poke people, and there were two big dark circles hanging there, and there were two puffy bags under her eyes.

Her entire face was pale, her hair was getting thinner day by day, the neck lines on her neck were deepening, and the nasolabial folds were also getting worse.

After rinsing her mouth and washing her face, she didn't even use facial cleanser, her face was not oily at all, it was dry, and her skin was starting to break out.

She just wiped her face dry with a towel, walked out of the bathroom, took off her coat and pants, and lay on the bed.

Sister Zhao, who was tired all day, had already started to snore in a deep sleep. Pei Ziyang turned and looked out the window, but he couldn't even see the moonlight.

She tried her best to fall asleep as soon as possible, but no matter how much she tossed and turned, she still couldn't fall asleep, and then she thought of Lao Jin.

Just a few days ago in the afternoon, Lao Jin, who was sweaty and out of breath, suddenly appeared at the door of his house.

"Pei Ziyang, I heard that you are not getting a divorce again?"

"Well, come in and sit down for a while!"

Pei Ziyang was taken aback for a moment, then she nodded slightly and replied.

Lao Jin took off his shoes, went barefoot, reached out and opened the door to the maximum, then walked into the living room and sat on the large black leather sofa.

"Have a glass of water."

Pei Ziyang went to the kitchen to get a cup of warm water and handed it to him, then sat down on the single sofa next to him, not daring to raise his head.

"What's the matter?" Lao Jin asked.

"I'm sorry, old gold."

"Then you have to tell me why, or I won't leave."

"Old Jin, you are a very good person, it's my fault, I don't deserve it."

"What is not worthy? If you really say that, Meng Haiyang is not worthy! Did he do something immoral again?"

"What Meng Haiyang did has nothing to do with me!"

"Then why did you cancel the divorce registration?"

Pei Ziyang didn't speak, she didn't know how to answer.

That's right, since you don't want to have anything to do with Meng Haiyang, why don't you get a divorce? Normal people would think so, so she must be abnormal.

"Is it related to Xiaoshu? Meng Haiyang is a bastard. He is not worthy of being a husband, let alone a father. He is not a man!
I never saw him in the hospital, or even heard him call you! . "

"Uh, that's right!"

"I don't understand, Pei Ziyang, what exactly are you thinking?"

"Old Jin, I don't know, maybe I really have a mental illness, I don't know what I think.

As soon as I saw Meng Haiyang's indifference to Xiaoshu, I didn't want to get a divorce, I just didn't want him to get away unscathed.

Lao Jin, am I also bad? "

"Ziyang, you are the best, kindest, and purest woman in the whole world that I have ever seen except my mother, really.

You know my heart, I like you, the first time I saw you, I couldn't help falling in love with you.

I know you have a husband, you are pregnant, you are not so beautiful, you are an ordinary person.

But, you are a great woman in my eyes and you have a heart of gold.

I, Lao Jin, have seen thousands of women, but not many of them can catch my eyes and my heart.

When you smile, I feel that my whole world is full of sunshine.

But there is no way, you have a family, I can't do things that break my bottom line.

So when you need help, even when I think you need help, I will be everywhere.

And when Meng Haiyang came back, I was afraid that you would make things difficult, so I had no choice but to watch you from afar.

But you are not happy at all, because your smile never appears again, and you always have tears in your eyes.

I thought that I would be the stumbling block in your marriage, so I walked away.

However, I found that I am not, I am not by your side, you are even more unhappy.

You have premature labor and hemorrhage. I just listen to other people tell me about it, and my heart feels like a knife is piercing my heart!
Then you cut your wrists and committed suicide. I looked at you with a pale face from a distance, and I, a man in his 40s, cried so hard that I couldn't help myself.

In the eyes of others, I am an arrogant, cynical, and sophisticated person. No one will know what I am thinking.

But I'm in front of you, I feel like I'm a young boy, seeing you is like seeing the girl I love.

Can you understand?Pei Ziyang?What the hell are you doing? "

"I'm sorry, Lao Jin, stop talking, I beg you!

I can't, I can't, I don't deserve your love.

You go, Lao Jin, let's not meet again!
Just pretend that I committed suicide by cutting my wrist that day, and go to another world to accompany my father! "

After she finished speaking, she held back her tears and walked into the bathroom.

She heard the door shut gently with a click, and she washed her face before coming out.

She looked at the empty living room, and there was still a cup of steaming hot water that no one drank, feeling lost.

Xiaoshu's cry brought her back to reality, she got out of bed as soon as she rolled over, and quickly hugged the child in her arms.

"Sister Zhao, you sleep, I'll coax him!"

As soon as Xiaoshu felt the scent of her mother, her crying became quieter. She touched the child's forehead, but it was still a little hot.

She put a fever-reducing sticker on Xiaoshu, changed her diapers, and Sister Zhao got up again to make some milk for Xiaoshu.

Xiaoshu drank a few sips, slept for a while, and then began to vomit, and fell asleep after vomiting.

"Ziyang, I can wash the clothes tomorrow, you can hug him to sleep!"

"Sister Zhao, you can go to sleep, Xiaoshu still puts you there, I don't think you will wake up again. I'm going to wash the clothes, or it will stink tomorrow!"

"Then hurry up and go to bed early!"

"understood!"

After Pei Ziyang washed Xiaoshu's clothes, she lay on the bed again. She couldn't think about it anymore, and she had to go to the hospital to fight tomorrow.

She found a sleeping pill, swallowed it, and took a few sips from a half bottle of water.

Set the alarm clock on the phone, and after half an hour, I fell asleep.

The next day, Pei Ziyang and Sister Zhao took the child to the hospital all day and did all the checks, from head to toe, carefully.

The results of the examination would not be available until tomorrow, so she had no choice but to drive back to the hotel with Xiaoshu and Sister Zhao.

When she went to the doctor with the results, she couldn't hear the doctor's explanation clearly. She was in a daze, and her head was so heavy that she was about to fall to the ground.

She only remembered one sentence, that is, there is no cure!

She squatted in the toilet cubicle of the hospital, howled and cried, and finally fainted in the toilet!
When she woke up again, she was in the observation ward of the emergency room at Children's Hospital.

"Are you awake? How do you feel?" A doctor asked after checking her IV.

"It's okay. I'm all right, doctor."

"You have low blood sugar, haven't you eaten? I gave you a shot of glucose, stay for a while, go back!"

"Thank you doctor!"

Pei Ziyang heaved a sigh of relief, leaning against the bed, looking at the children in the emergency room, his eyes began to shed tears again.

She turned on her mobile phone and registered online on the platforms of major hospitals. If she wanted to take Xiaoshu to look around, she would definitely find a way.

She believed that Xiaoshu would definitely be cured, so why was he declared to have an incurable disease?

She paid the medical fee and drove back to the hotel. Sister Zhao looked at the tape on her hand and asked:

"Mrs. Meng, what's the matter with you? Are you on a drip? Why did you come back?"

"It's okay, a little hypoglycemia, didn't sleep well! I got an injection, I'm fine, sister Zhao."

"what did the doctor say?"

"Well, the doctor told me to go to another hospital for another look. I've registered them all, so I'll try them one by one."

"Okay, you can eat first, I ordered takeaway!"

"Thank you Sister Zhao, I will transfer your money later!"

"Oh, no, there's not much money for a meal."

"Sister Zhao, I have already thanked you a thousand times for your coming, how could I let you spend money!"

"Don't say that, Mrs. Meng, I'm paid to come here, and you also paid me.

Besides, you used to be very kind to me, you need me, and I will return it! "

"Thank you! Sister Zhao, if you don't come, I really don't know what to do!"

"You're welcome, eat something, you will have strength when you are full! Mrs. Meng!"

"Ok!"

After finishing speaking, Pei Ziyang ate up the takeaway, cleared the table, sat by the bed and looked at Xiaoshu.

"Mrs. Meng, I've always wanted to ask you, you know whether I should ask!"

"Tell me, Miss Zhao."

"Are you and Mr. Meng not divorced? Why haven't I seen him?"

"That's it! It's just separated, and I haven't gone through the formalities yet!"

"Oh, then I won't call you Mrs. Meng, shall I call you Ziyangxing?"

"Okay, my mother calls me Dayang! You can call me that too!"

"Dayang, hehe, you are not big, you have a thin and small body."

"Ha ha…"

"You've lost a lot of weight, Dayang, I remember the last time we met, it was when you were pregnant, at that time you were very fat and your face was round.

Goodbye this time, the face is so thin that it looks out of shape, you have to pay attention to your body, you still have children to support! "

"I know, I'm fine, sister Zhao."

"Children's sickness is indeed the most painful thing for mothers, and you wish you were the one who got sick.

I have also felt this way before, but it is a pity that life and death are determined by fate, wealth and honor are in the sky, and it is useless to force it! "

"Sister Zhao, I remember you have a child!"

"Yes, at the age of 20, just a few months after I left your house, my son was admitted to university.

But three months later, his college teacher called me and asked me to go to school.

When I came to school, the teacher took me to the hospital, where I saw my son, whom I hadn't seen for three months, in a coma. "

"What's up with him?"

"He has leukemia, the type that can't be cured by bone marrow replacement, and the type with the lowest survival rate.

It was my mother's negligence, he already had bruises on his body, I didn't care, I thought he was knocked somewhere.

He always said he was tired, and he felt very tired even after climbing three flights of stairs.I didn't care, and said he was a manly hypocrite.

In a month, a month, he lost all his hair, and then turned into skin and bones, and left me in pain.

I was in pain and I didn't want to live anymore, but before he died, he grabbed my hand and said let me live, I must live!
I live to this day relying on his last wish. Although I am in pain, I persisted. I live for him, and I want to live out his share. "

"I'm sorry, Sister Zhao!" Pei Ziyang burst into tears after hearing this.

"It's okay, I'm relieved now, maybe he doesn't belong to this painful world.

He doesn't have to be tortured here, it's good that he's finally freed and went to a world without pain. "

"Sister Zhao, my father is also. He has cancer and has suffered from the pain for half a year. Maybe they are all relieved."

"Yes, the most important thing is to be alive, everything else is not important!"

Xiaoshu woke up again, the two of them were busy, feeding milk, feeding medicine, feeding water, washing the vomited clothes, putting them to sleep, changing diapers...

Pei Ziyang visited every major hospital in BJ, but the result was the same. There was an 80-year-old doctor who told her to take the child home and stop looking at it.

She didn't know what to do. It had been more than half a month since they came to BJ for medical treatment, and she had already cried out her tears. If she cried again, she would probably bleed.

After packing her luggage, she had no choice but to rush back to Bincheng with her children and Sister Zhao, and was admitted to the Central Hospital that night.

Xiaoshu has already started to coma and was admitted to the ICU. She wandered outside the door, but couldn't get in.

"Ziyang!"

"Ni Ni!"

After hearing the news, Liu Yini rushed over and hugged Pei Ziyang who was about to collapse, and when she saw Ni Ni, she fell into her arms and fell unconscious.

"Ni Ni..." Pei Ziyang opened his eyes and saw Ni Ni beside the bed.

"Are you awake?" Ni Ni asked nervously.

"Where's the little tree?"

"Don't worry, it's still inside. The doctors and nurses have said that it's stable now."

"Ni Ni, the little tree is hopeless!" Pei Ziyang cried out excitedly.

"I, I know, Ziyang, let it be, okay?"

"I'm sorry for him, I shouldn't have brought him into this world, he came here to suffer, to suffer!

I regret it so much, I shouldn't have given birth to him, nii! "

"Ziyang, don't say that, being a mother and child is a blessing, just cherish it and remember it.

But everyone has their own destiny, what should be given up should be let go, Ziyang!
As you once said, there is hope only when you live, you have to live, okay? "

"Ni Ni, why is it so difficult to live? So difficult? I don't understand, I work so hard to live seriously, why does God treat me like this!

What am I doing wrong?What did Xiaoshu do wrong again?
The one who was wrong was Meng Haiyang, why didn't he get retribution, he would still have a son born to carry on the family line.

Why don't good people live long, why didn't Meng Haiyang die?Why? "

Pei Ziyang cried and cried, her cell phone rang, and Ni Ni handed it to her, she saw it was Meng Haiyang.

She immediately struggled to sit up from the bed, changed her mood, and exhaled steadily, but her eyes were blood red:
"Hey?

Alright, next Monday morning I will apply for divorce registration..."