wild ambition

Chapter 68 Thank you for being born
Shi Yun ignored the noise in his ears, and the warm voice was mixed with other sounds in the air, all of which were blown away by the wind.

The sound of the powerful engine became louder and louder, Shi Yun raised his eyes, and saw a silver and black locomotive first came into sight.

It was Zhou Yisui.

Shi Yun watched Zhou Yisui, who was wearing a helmet, getting closer and closer to him. The moment he braked, Zhou Yisui turned his hand on the steering wheel and pulled Shi Yun closer to his body in a half-circle gesture. territory.

Because his speed was too fast, there was a gust of wind when he came over, and the two strands of dragon whiskers left in front of his forehead fluttered in a mess. She stared blankly at him without blinking her eyes.

Zhou Yisui tore off the helmet with one hand, his hair was flattened, and his bangs were slightly long, covering his forehead limply, looking very obedient.

Xu Ye, who was not far from him, immediately took off his helmet with a gloomy expression.

He stared at the two cars, as if he didn't understand the reason.

"Every part of your bike is the best, but the mistake is that the best doesn't mean it's the best for you."

"..." Xu Ye looked away awkwardly.

When Yun was wondering whether to accompany Xu Ye to the competition, a piece of news solved her troubles. Similarly, it also allowed them to end their last summer vacation in the second year of high school ahead of schedule.

A message was sent in the class group that the mobilization meeting for the third year of high school would be held in the afternoon of the day after tomorrow.

A few people rushed home, and it was already past nine o'clock in the evening when they arrived home. Shi Yun met his aunt, and then realized that her father hadn't come back yet, so he went upstairs after drinking a bowl of porridge.

It may be that her emotions have been too high these days, and she doesn't feel sleepy at all.

Tossing and turning, just when sleepiness hit, a light and regular sound came from my ear.

Shi Yun was a little vigilant, and when he heard the door being opened, Shi Yun closed his eyes with his back to the door.

The tip of his nose was filled with the smell of tobacco and alcohol from the intruder outside the door, Shi Yun frowned slightly.

Maybe Shi Yun hasn't come back in his memory yet, Shi Songwen sat on the chair in front of the dressing table by the bed without restraint.

"Is it you?" His drunken eyes fell on the bump on the bed.

No one responded, he thought it was his fantasy again, rubbed his eyes with a drunken smile, "You are so bad, you won't let me go until you die."

At that time, the hand hidden under the quilt was suddenly clenched, and it was self-evident who this "you" was.

"Is it my fault that you died?" Shi Songwen's voice became louder, "Is it my fault? If you didn't insist on going your own way and leave me and Shi Yun, would you still die? You said it was because I was too utilitarian, then What am I for? Isn't it just to catch up with your footsteps?"

Shi Songwen was dizzy in front of his eyes, a little nauseous, and slowly said, "Since college, I have been chasing and pampering you, but you are good, only Shen Ze is in my eyes, how is I worse than him?"

"Even if I forced you that day, you always distanced yourself from me with a cold attitude, and later married me for the sake of Shiyun. From the beginning to the end, you probably didn't put your heart on me at all, did you?" Laughing like crazy, talking a lot of drunken things, Nong Nong staggered out the door.

The suffocation in the room made her breathless, and she breathed hard.

She always thought that her parents fell in love with each other in college, and then they got married and gave birth to her naturally. There was no parental love, no love crystallization, everything was her fantasy.

She clutched the quilt tightly, and her scarlet eyes shed tears in self-blame and remorse, which wet the pillowcase.

...

The mobilization meeting was held as scheduled, Shi Yun's face was pale, and the thick dark circles under his eyes were extremely conspicuous.

She mechanically applauded and swore together with the people around her. After an unknown period of time, she heard the end of the two people and dispersed with them.

It was the climax of going home at this time, people came and went, many cars were parked on the side of the road, leaving them with a road that they could only walk alone.

They were one in front and one behind, Zhou Yisui's body completely covered Shi Yun's figure.

Suddenly the person in front stopped, and Zhou Yisui also stopped.

Shi Yun turned his head, "Zhou Yisui, you don't want to go home, do you?"

Zhou Yisui hesitated a little, the loneliness on her face was extremely obvious.

When Zhou Yisui agreed, Shi Yun walked towards the nearby bus stop.

Xu Ye was dragged to some reception by Xu Jingzhi early on, and his ears were rare and pure.

At this time, it is the most peaceful and leisurely, and the sun is gentle enough.

Shi Yun raised her head, the sun was shining on her half-closed eyes, three or two birds were playing in the blue sky, landed on the treetops, and flew into the distance.

Zhou Yisui stood in a row with her. When she closed his eyes, he couldn't help but look away. He didn't like the summer sun very much. It was scorching and dazzling, but now he thought it was cute.

"Where are you going?" He asked, his eyes falling on the bus information next to him.

Shi Yun shook her head, she didn't know where the end point was.

"We will take whichever bus comes first."

Zhou Yisui turned his head to look at her, her eyes were a little lonely, and her expression was not very good. It should be said that since seeing her today, she has not been in a very good mood.

He didn't know how to comfort people, and he thought of many feasible plans in his mind. Before he could implement one, the No. 22 bus stopped in front of them.

After scanning the QR code to get on the bus, Shi Yun sat in the single seat in the middle, and Zhou Yisui sat behind her.

She opened the car window a crack, and as the bus moved, it brought a gust of wind.

The bus stopped and went, and groups of people passed by in front of her, without blinking her eyelids.

Zhou Yisui looked at the head that was still raised high, the long hair was pulled into a low ball, very gentle.

A strand of hair didn't know whether it was untied or well tied and slipped down, falling on her thin back.

Zhou Yisui raised his hand and touched it lightly with his fingertips. The strand of hair swept across his fingers with the wind, trembling unconsciously.

He retracted his hand as if suddenly awake.

Shi Yun said very little today, and there was an unprecedented silence between the two.

She seemed to have lost her strength and wanted to wander freely in the world, but she had an indescribable fetter.

The shaking of the bus made Shi Yun feel a little sleepy. She leaned against the window, and the noise of the streets seemed to be blocked out of her ears.

When she was drowsy and her mind was gradually drifting, she was suddenly awakened by Shi Songwen's voice.

The moment she woke up was very sensitive, all hearing and touch could startle her, and her heart was pounding too fast, which made her a little uncomfortable.

A hand suddenly appeared behind her and patted her lightly.

Zhou Yisui was already standing beside her, she was sweating profusely, and frowned imperceptibly.

"Let's get out of the car."

Shi Yun looked outside and nodded.

After sitting on the bus for a long time, they came to the most remote place in the city, Meihai.

There is a small sandy beach on the calm seaside. When the sun sets, there are still many people sitting on the beach. Two or three groups of children are gathered together, vaguely talking about what kind of castle they want to build.

Shi Yun stepped over here wearing white shoes, leaving footprints that were not deep or shallow.

The orange-yellow light of the setting sun sank into the sea of ​​plums, and Shi Yun watched for a long time, watching the last ray of afterglow being submerged.

"You said, is it voluntary?" Shi Yun said suddenly.

"Who?"

"It's nothing." Shi Yun turned around, and when she left, she saw some sand on the shoes from the corner of her eye. She stomped her feet, and the sand seemed to stick to it, and she couldn't clean it no matter how much she wiped.

She polished her shoes in a hurry, and the speed of her hand was getting faster and faster.

Zhou Yisui wanted to pull her up, but when his hand was hanging down, he changed the direction and helped her pat the dirt on the shoe.

But the shoes were a little cleaner, but Shi Yun's mood didn't improve, her eyebrows were abnormally red, and she was still muttering something.

There were more and more people who noticed something was wrong, and they all looked this way. Zhou Yisui looked around, took off his school uniform jacket and put it on Shi Yun's head.

The movement of Shi Yun's hands stopped, and the whole person seemed to be still.

When the crowd dispersed, Zhou Yisui helped her up and left the place.

The lights of the amusement facilities around Meihai are all turned on, illuminating the night.

Zhou Yisui walked over with a bottle of water and a bag of wet wipes in his hand, while Shi Yun still bowed his head as he left without saying a word.

Passing the water to Shi Yun's hand, he squatted down, untied the opening in the middle of the wet towel with knuckle fingers, pulled out a wet towel and gently wiped it repeatedly on Shi Yun's white shoes.

"Okay, it's clean." Zhou Yisui put the wet towel aside, saw Shi Yun's eyelashes tremble, and his dull eyes gradually recovered.

Zhou Yisui still maintained a half-squatting posture, looking at Shi Yun at the same level.

At that moment, Shi Yun looked at him with complex eyes, but also hidden a touch of sadness.

"Zhou Yisui." She looked straight at him, with unusual self-blame in her tone, "How good would it be if I hadn't been born?"

When she really waited for Shi Songwen in the room last night, when she heard Shi Songwen chanting her resentment and longing for Zhao Chen, when she knew that she was born not because of love but because of Shi Songwen's compulsion , she is loathing herself, disgusting her own birth.

It was her existence that caused Zhao Chen to lose his marriage and broke all of Zhao Chen's principles and bottom lines.

The laughter of the children on the playground came over, which was completely opposite to their current emotions. Zhou Yisui felt a little distressed, and raised his hand to pat her, but was controlled by reason, and stopped in mid-air, unable to get up or down.

Shi Yun didn't think too much about it, he held his hands softly, and pressed his palms to his face.

In the softest and most sensitive place, the delicate skin on her cheeks pierced her heart like a needle, making people shiver.

Shi Yun closed his eyes, erased the remaining memories in his mind, and the inside was clean.

The children's laughter, the sound of the wind, and the sound of sea water gradually entered my mind, and my restless heart was healed by these sounds, and there was a moment of peace.

"Thank you for being born." Zhou Yisui said softly, "Thank you for giving me another life that shouldn't have been born."

Zhou Yisui gently brushed her hanging hair with his other hand, her breathing gradually became steady, and she seemed to fall asleep quietly.

(End of this chapter)