35 this year

Chapter 31 Self-righteous sense of sacrifice
Chang Qing originally thought that after the incident in the hospital, his relationship with Xu Hong became closer, and what Xu Hong said inside and outside the meaning had already regarded him as a boyfriend. Why do you need to say more?As a result, when he contacted Xu Hong again at night, Xu Hong was neither cold nor indifferent again.

Chang Qing asked Xu Hong if she was still in the hospital and he wanted to go to see her, but Xu Hong couldn't return home and she wanted to sleep.After sleeping, Chang Qing never contacted Xu Hong again. Chang Qing thought that Xu Hong had slept a little deeper, but Chang Qing didn't contact Xu Hong again until Monday.

Seeing Sheng Min, Chang Qing asked her if she could contact Xu Hong, Sheng Min stared at her innocent big eyes and said yes, she just sent me a few links saying that this dress suits me.Chang Qing frowned, feeling baffled.After returning to the office, Chang Qing asked again, "What's wrong with me? Why are you ignoring me again?" This time Xu Hong came back, and Xu Hong replied "No, busy." Busy?Chang Qing even wanted to call to expose her, and he was busy just now when he was free to send a message to Sheng Min to find clothes?But Chang Qing still held back, he told himself to hold his breath.

Chang Qing sank for a while, but couldn't stand it anymore.He sent another message saying, "Let's have dinner together tonight, I'll order a restaurant." Xu Hong replied, "I have to work overtime today." Chang Qing felt that he had offended Xu Hong somewhere, but he couldn't figure out where.

Just thinking about it, Xu Hong sent a transfer of 1000 yuan, saying that it was for Yuhe, so he must accept it.Chang Qing pondered, I am short of your [-] yuan?What I lack is you.Seeing that he didn't accept it, Xu Hong said again, "You will feel sorry if you don't accept Yuhe." Chang Qing still didn't want to talk to her, Xu Hong divided the money too clearly, maybe it was good in the eyes of other men, this girl Not greedy for money, but in Chang Qing's view, it doesn't smell like that at all.A girl who calculates money too clearly with you is obviously drawing a clear line and doesn't want to have anything to do with you, so the fool is complacent at this time.

Looking at Xu Hong's dialog box, Chang Qing directly changed the remark "good girlfriend" to "a hard nut to crack".Chang Qing had just finished editing when there was a knock on the office door, and the person who came in was Sheng Min.

Seeing Sheng Min, Chang Qing was startled, looked at the time, and said, "You haven't left yet?" Sheng Min replied, "Leave right away." Chang Qing asked again, "Is there something wrong?"

"This week's Christmas Eve, do you have time? Huang Guanyang said he would like to treat you to dinner. Thank you for introducing me to work."

Chang Qing originally wanted to say that there is no need to be so troublesome, but after thinking about it, he asked Sheng Min with a smile, "Is Xu Hong going?" Let's go, let's go together, I'll ask her out." After speaking, Chang Qing nodded.

Before Sheng Min went out, Chang Qing seemed to remember something and asked, "Are you still used to it? Do you have any problems at work?"

Sheng Min thought about it for a while, and said, "It's okay, I can still handle it, thank you." After speaking, Sheng Min went out.

"Christmas..." Chang Qing said to himself, thinking about preparing a gift that Xu Hong would want to be his girlfriend after seeing it.

This year's Christmas Eve is on Sunday. From Monday to Sunday, Chang Qing didn't feel Xu Hong's enthusiasm at all. Although he didn't lose contact, he never replied with more than five words. Chang Qing was also angry, so angry. Even ignoring her for two days, Chang Qing still didn't want to take the initiative to talk to her until the two of them sat helplessly together.

Sheng Min felt that the atmosphere between the two was not right, so she quietly asked Xu Hong who was sitting next to him, "Did you quarrel?" Xu Hong shook his head, smiled freely and said, "No."

Chang Qing didn't look at Xu Hong or anyone else, just focused on the menu, and Huang Guanyang joked, "You've already memorized the menu, what else are you looking at?" The restaurant has reasonable prices and appropriate dishes. Since Sheng Min thanked him, Sheng Min even told Huang Guanyang that she would pay for it this time.

Seeing that Chang Qing ignored Xu Hong, Huang Guanyang asked Xu Hong, "Would you like some wine?"

Xu Hongyi wanted to ask Sheng Min, "The one I drank last time was not bad. Is there any today?" People are fighting too.

Sheng Min hesitated and said, "The owner of this house brewed it himself, and the bottle from Chang Qing last time." After speaking, Sheng Min glanced at Chang Qing.After finishing speaking, Sheng Min lowered his voice and asked, "What's the matter with you?"

Seeing how restrained Sheng Min was, Xu Hong thought, at any rate, it was Sheng Min's first time to treat guests during the festival, so he didn't want to make it ugly.Xu Hong coughed, raised his voice and said, "This week is busy, our company recruited a few new people, I was training, and I was working on a new product plan, and I didn't reply to a few messages from someone..."

"How many?" Chang Qing was a little unconvinced, and Xu Hong frowned.Chang Qing thought, forget it, what can he do to Xu Hong?She gave a reason, although it is not reasonable, but even if she gave a step.Thinking of this, Chang Qing stood up and went to the bar to get drinks from someone.Xu Hong lowered his head slightly, thinking that it was too easy to coax.

When Chang Qing came back, Xu Hong was praising Sheng Min's new necklace. A small diamond was inlaid in the middle and hung around his neck, which looked small and restrained. Xu Hong even praised Huang Guanyang for his ability to choose gifts, which seemed unassuming.What Xu Hong said made Huang Guanyang happy, so Huang Guanyang winked at Chang Qing. Chang Qing looked blank, and Huang Guanyang said, "Stop pretending, you are so good at playing, which festival doesn't you prepare a gift for your girlfriend?"

Xu Hong raised his eyes to look at Chang Qing, Chang Qing seemed at a loss, kicked Huang Guanyang under the table and said, "When will I know how to play?"

Huang Guanyang told Xu Hong and Sheng Min like leaking secrets, "When he was young, the girls on our street liked him. He chased every one of them. Every year and festivals, especially Christmas and Valentine's Day, who are romantic, He chose that little gift from a tricky angle."

Looking at Chang Qing, Xu Hong nodded and said, "It's really a different way." Xu Hong thought that although she failed to make a date with Chang Qing in the end, it is rare to take a girl to a massage or spa.Chang Qing couldn't figure out whether Xu Hong was angry or joking, so he poured her a glass of wine and said, "Don't listen to his nonsense, it's not like you don't know about my past."

"Who hasn't clicked on it yet." After Xu Hong said this, Chang Qing looked up at her with jealousy. Indeed, Xu Hong's 20-year-old did not have Chang Qing, so Chang Qing would not know that he was once a simple "deceitful girl". "How did she fall in love? The current Xu Hong, 35-year-old Xu Hong, has a gentle and dignified appearance, even the hair is full of tenderness, but sometimes his temper is really not so cute.

After a meal, several people in their 30s and [-]s all talked about work.Xu Hong said that she had recruited a few new people recently, full of energy, but because of too much energy, she seemed not so concerned about doing things. Huang Guanyang immediately echoed that he had known this a long time ago. At the time of work, there were a lot of demands, such as complete benefits, getting off work on time, nothing to do.Hearing what he said, Chang Qing asked him why he switched from director to business. Huang Guanyang once again said that the director said it was nice, but his director didn't make money. He wanted to save more money to marry Sheng Min.Speaking of getting married, Xu Hong looked at Sheng Min in surprise, and Sheng Min blushed, feeling Huang Guanyang's thoughtfulness again. Can such a man who thinks about each other's future not be considerate?

Seeing Sheng Min blushing, Chang Qing quietly glanced at Xu Hong who was sitting across from him with hope in his eyes. He hoped that Xu Hong would see the meaning in his eyes, but Xu Hong ignored him, and only looked at him lovingly. Sheng Min, Chang Qing sometimes wondered if she had a deeper friendship with Sheng Min than with him.

After dinner, several people bid farewell, Huang Guanyang and Sheng Min walked towards the subway. Christmas, the streets were decorated with lights and festoons, and Christmas songs floated from various stores in different forms.Watching them walk away, Chang Qing looked back at Xu Hong again, Xu Hong had a calm expression on his face, and it was completely impossible to see what she was thinking about.

Although Xu Hong had been indifferent to him for a week, Chang Qing still felt that it was okay, Xu Hong had such a temperament.Thinking of this, Chang Qing posted it again, suggesting, "Would you like to go for a walk?" Xu Hong just drank a lot of wine, and wanted to sober up, so he followed Chang Qing and walked slowly towards the business district.

In fact, Chang Qing really wanted to hold Xu Hong's hand, or ask Xu Hong to hold his arm, but Xu Hong didn't have that intention, so Chang Qing didn't want to overstep.The two walked side by side, and Chang Qing said, "You were a little fake just now, weren't you?" Xu Hong looked up at him, and Chang Qing said, "Obviously Huang Guanyang's gift was bought casually, and you can boast about it. "

Xu Hong said with a calm smile on his face, "Minmin doesn't understand these things, and on this day, don't you just want to have fun when you send things. It's the icing on the cake, why bother to make people feel bad at this time."

Chang Qing nodded, feeling that what Xu Hong said was also reasonable, and he really wouldn't expose it face to face and make people embarrassing.Chang Qing looked down at Xu Hong, smiled happily and asked, "Guess what I prepared for you?" Xu Hong still looked up at him, and Chang Qing said dissatisfied, "Do you really think I am not prepared? Or you Not even curious?" Xu Hong lowered his head again and smiled lightly, she was either not curious or didn't care.

"I'll bring it to you when I go back later. In the car, I don't want to be seen by Huang Guanyang. If he sees it, I will make irresponsible remarks."

After Chang Qing finished speaking, Xu Hong smiled lightly, and then said, "But, I really didn't prepare a gift for you." Xu Hong didn't even bother to say a word because she was busy and didn't have time, she just didn't prepare and didn't want to prepare.Chang Qing nodded and said, "It doesn't matter, I'm not the one who insists on being rewarded."

Such a good temper, Xu Hong thought in his heart.

Walking, the two of them turned a corner along the street. After the corner, there was a shopping mall. With the atmosphere of Christmas, it was covered with dim yellow string lights. The huge Christmas tree was also decorated as a blue lighthouse. People gathered around The Christmas tree is being photographed and played, and workers not far away are still preparing snow-making machines.

Chang Qing stopped and said, "I used to read Ishikawa Takuboku's collection of poems, and there was a sentence in it, 'If you bury your hot cheeks in the soft snow, you want to be in love for a while'. I was looking forward to it when you left. Xue, I thought that if it snowed, I would be able to find a good opening to talk to you."

After Chang Qing finished speaking, Xu Hong looked up at him, and when Chang Qing looked at her, Xu Hong said, "Coincidentally, I have read that poetry collection too. Remember the phrase 'I tasted the taste of things too early'." Yes, I tasted it too early. Regarding the taste of life, Xu Hong tasted more bitterness than Changqing, and it was more bitter than Changqing. Compared with Changqing, She felt very sad.

Chang Qing looked at her, and asked earnestly, "Would you like to fall in love with me?" Chang Qing spoke too seriously, Xu Hong was a little tempted, but when he saw Chang Qing's expectant eyes, Xu Hong still dodged Looking away, Chang Qing felt as if he saw something broken, and his heart stopped for a beat.

It was a refusal, Chang Qing told him in his heart, "Eh?" Chang Qing was so disappointed that he let out a small sound.Xu Hong said, "It's time for me to go back. I have to go to work tomorrow." Chang Qing froze on the spot, stopped for a long time before catching up and said, "I'll take you back."

When passing by the Changqing car, Xu Hong said, "It's getting late, you should go back early, there will be traffic jams on a day like today, it's more convenient for me to take the subway."

Chang Qing grabbed her and asked tentatively, "What's the matter, what happened?" In Chang Qing's perception, the two of them were already boyfriend and girlfriend, and he thought that Xu Hong just wanted a formal relationship. Why did you refuse the ceremony to confirm the relationship?What went wrong, what did he not do well enough?

Xu Hong shook his head and said, "It's nothing, I just drank and wanted to go back and rest."

"Do you want to take a rest in the car first?" Chang Qing opened the car door after saying that.When the car door opened, Xu Hong saw the orange gift box on the passenger seat.

Chang Qing also remembered it, and then raised the box and said, "Christmas gift, I asked my cousin, she said this is more suitable for women of your age, she helped me carry the goods."

Looking at the box, Xu Hong thought, he was right in not taking it out just now, it was too expensive, so precious that Huang Guanyang would feel strange, and so precious that Sheng Min would feel that the chain around his neck was worthless.

Xu Hong dodged again and said, "It's too expensive, I can't accept it."

"If there is anything I can't accept, I just bought it for you."

"Chang Qing, I hope you understand that even if I accept it, you will not get any benefit from me." Chang Qing didn't understand what Xu Hong was talking about, so Xu Hong said it a little more directly, "Even if I accept it today I won't go home with you either."

Chang Qing looked at Xu Hong, opened his mouth wide, and finally said in disbelief, "Oh, ha, I didn't think so, why would I think so, I know there are those who want to take the girl to open a room after giving the girl something, Treating someone to a meal is what I think, but I don’t think so, I just want to give something to the person I like.”

"What if I don't like you?"

Xu Hong spoke too decisively, and Chang Qing was stunned on the spot again. After a while, Chang Qing asked with difficulty, "Why?" Xu Hong didn't speak, and Chang Qing asked again, "Why? What did I do wrong? "Xu Hong still didn't speak, Chang Qing became angry, "Xu Hong, don't go too far."

"Sorry to disappoint you..."

"Xu Hong, what did I do wrong, what did I dissatisfy you? I am for you..."

"It's this sense of sacrifice!" Before Chang Qing could finish speaking, Xu Hong said it.Xu Hong said, "It's this sense of sacrifice that overwhelms me. You think you've done a good job, don't you, but in my opinion, in my feeling, no, it's too bad. I don't want In the future, every time you have a quarrel, you have to say 'If it wasn't because of you...' 'I'm for you...'. Whether you think you sacrifice or think you compromise, it is a burden to me , These are all your wishful thinking sacrifices, the self-moving with a sense of sacrifice, just like you buy such an expensive gift. When I accept it, I have to think about how to return the gift. I’m back, it’s a burden to me. Your liking is like this, just like this gift. When I’m with you, I’m just greedy for your house and your car. If I’m not with you, I’m lust So Zong is playing tricks. Your likes are too precious, and I can't respond." Xu Hongyuan thought she didn't care what the outside world thought of her, and at this age, she thought she could afford anything of value, but when Chang Qing While stumbling around her with a heart in her hand, she still heard other people's voices, Yan Feng's, Sheng Min's, Huang Guanyang's... those voices tore apart her self-esteem wrapped up one by one, everyone was saying She pretends to be noble and noble, but only she knows that all her indecision is just worrying that she won't be able to respond to her sincerity, and Xu Hong is worried that she won't be able to give Chang Qing happiness. Is it possible to restore the scoop according to the style on the book?
"It turns out..." Looking at Xu Hong, Chang Qing actually felt disappointed, "So in your eyes, it's so easy to get all of my things, Xu Hong, I'm afraid you're really You don't know me at all, do you? Do you think it's easy for me to buy this..." Chang Qing originally wanted to talk about what he paid for the "precious" in her mouth, but after so long, Xu Hong didn't know him at all, this woman is too selfish, selfishness should be taken for granted, Chang Qing was tired.

Chang Qing said, "Forget it, think whatever you like, whether you like to accept it or not, I am really not in the mood to send you back today, you can figure it out yourself." After finishing speaking, Chang Qing dropped the things and went to The car is gone.

Looking at the box thrown on the ground, Xu Hong thought, why did he put himself in such a mess?Why did he pour cold water on this happy day... Xu Hong had no choice but to pick up the box and walk into the subway.There are so many people in the subway today, Xu Hong is carrying such a precious box, which attracts attention.

Xu Hong thought, when will this aimless life come to an end...

(End of this chapter)