35 this year

Chapter 83

Just when Chang Qing was crying with Chang Xin, and Wang Yihan was arguing with Sheng Min, Chu Yunxing appeared in Xu Hong's company.Xu Hong expected many people, such as Chang Xin and Yu He, who might appear in his office to persuade her, but he did not think of Chu Yunxing.

When Chu Yunxing first arrived at Xu Hong's company, Xu Hong was sleeping in Qi Chaoli's office. Qi Chaoli hadn't been in the company recently, and Xu Hong was in a trance. His whole body revealed "dead breath". Qi Chen felt that she was pitiful. to die.Xu Hong went back to the dormitory last night. When Qi Chen heard someone open the door, he went out to take a look. He saw Xu Hong dragging his suitcase into the room. Seeing each other, both of them were stunned. Confused, Xu Hong thought that Qi Chen was no longer living in the dormitory, and Qi Chen thought that she would not come back.

Looking at Xu Hong pulling the suitcase, Qi Chen asked, "Are you running away from home again? You have a bad problem." Finally, the muscles on Xu Hong's face pulled a smile and asked, "Why do you still live here, with your body like this? , shouldn’t someone take care of it?” Qi Chen said, “Come back and pack something, thinking it’s getting late, so I’ll just sleep here for the night.” Xu Hong nodded, without saying anything, he pulled the suitcase towards himself. house to go.Qi Chen saw that she was exuding the aura of "please don't get close", so he didn't ask any more questions.In the evening, when Qi Chen went to the bathroom, he heard Xu Hong's intermittent crying coming from the room again. He thought to himself, Xu Hong looks very shrewd. Not open yet.

Because Xu Hong cried too sadly the night before, it was too distressing, and when he entered the company today, his eyes were not swollen, and he was sitting there sleepy, Qi Chen felt a little distressed again, and urged her Go to Qi Chaoli's office and lie down on the sofa, thinking that Qi Chaoli is not here, if Qi Chaoli is here, seeing Xu Hong like this, he must take her out, thinking not to destroy the office here Spirit.

Chu Yunxing stood at the front desk, waiting for someone to find Xu Hong. Qi Chen just came out of the office. When he saw Chu Yunxing for the first time, Qi Chen's eyes lit up. He looked good, but when he heard the front desk said he was looking for Xu Hong, Qi Chen narrowed his eyes again, thinking that the matter was interesting, but he never expected that Xu Hong not only blossomed, but also scored twice?

In the spirit of gossip, Qi Chen walked to the front desk again, and then asked Chu Yunxing, "I heard that you are looking for Xu Hong?" Chu Yunxing nodded, and Qi Chen asked again, "Well... can I ask who you are?" ? I can help you find someone.”

Chu Yunxing took a look at Qi Chen, and felt the "entertainment" in her eyes.As for Chu Yunxing, he would not give anyone a chance to misunderstand or watch a play, so he just said, "Chu Yunxing, Xu Hong's cousin."

Hearing Chu Yunxing's name, Qi Chen squinted his eyes again, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, thinking that the name was really good, but unfortunately, it turned out to be Cousin Xu Hong, so there was nothing to see.Qi Chen lured Chu Yunxing to Qi Chaoli's office, and said, "She, I don't know what's wrong these two days, she's not in the mood, she's been sleeping all the time, I just thought that our boss isn't here anyway, let her sleep in the boss's office For a while." Chu Yunxing complimented very well, "It's her blessing to have you as a good boss." Qi Chen felt such a compliment when he heard this, and thought, this man is really boring, but he is also , Old man, what's the point? It's very boring.

Qi Chen gently pushed the door of Qi Chaoli's office a crack, and seeing Xu Hong still lying down, even curled up, Qi Chen wondered if the air conditioner was turned on a little low.Qi Chen walked into the room and felt that the temperature is not low, why is she always curled up like this.Qi Chen gently pushed Xu Hong twice, then called her twice, and Xu Hong opened his eyes.

Xu Hong opened his eyes, and Qi Chen waited for her to wake up before saying, "Your cousin is looking for you." The name Xu Hong lay back again, bored on his face, and said, "Just say I'm not here."

Just when Xu Hong said this, Chu Yunxing pushed the door open and said, "I thought, my family, Changqing, was going to die." Chu Yunxing's words annoyed Xu Hong again, and Xu Hong sat down slowly. stand up.Hearing him talk about Chang Qing, Qi Chen had doubts in his eyes and face, Chu Yunxing shrugged and said, "Why, isn't her fiance's cousin her cousin?" Qi Chen thought, this old man is not only boring, but also Old and cunning.

Seeing that Xu Hong also sat up, Qi Chen said, "Sit down, I'll get someone to pour tea for you." Xu Hong said while putting on his shoes, "No need, let's go to the coffee shop downstairs." Qi Chen felt that this The two of them must have wanted to talk about why Xu Hong was so depressed. Whether it was based on the mentality of watching a movie or caring about Xu Hong, Qi Chen said, "I will go too."

Xu Hong glanced at her and said, "Pregnant women should drink less coffee." After finishing speaking, he stood up and led Chu Yunxing towards the gate. Chu Yunxing turned his head to look at Qi Chen, feeling that this weird-looking woman's face was full of tears. lost.

Standing in the elevator with Xu Hong, Chu Yunxing said, "Your colleague still cares about you." Xu Hong glanced at him slightly, then let out a sigh of relief, and asked, "How did you find this place?" Chu Yunxing frowned He said, "Is it hard to find? Didn't you show me some of the things you took before? After listening to Chang Qing, it is easy to find your company's headquarters, and then find the address of the branch office. Look at the recruitment website. It's easy." Xu Hong thought, this is true, as long as you want to find it, how can there be people who can't find it now.

After getting out of the elevator, Xu Hong led Chu Yunxing to the direction of the coffee shop, and Chu Yunxing asked again, "Why, I didn't react at all when I heard Chang Qing?" Xu Hong said as he walked, "What reaction do you want me to have?" Cry immediately?" Chu Yunxing snorted and said, "If you are really so free and easy, don't be so half-dead."

Xu Hong turned his head to look at him and said, "I am now, at least, broken-hearted, losing the love of my life. Shouldn't I be a little depressed? Should I go all over the world to have fun and find some young people to celebrate?" Chu Yunxing thought, you It doesn't have to be so ugly to speak.In the past, Chu Yunxing really felt that Xu Hong was sharp-tongued, but now he only thinks that she is mean.

The two ordered coffee, and then sat down in front of the glass window near the street. After sitting down, Chu Yunxing felt that Xu Hong was written with "dead life" again.Xu Hong looked at the people coming and going on the street, and thought, it really is summer, and the people passing by put up parasols, thinking that it was winter last year, when she was sitting here, people were still in a hurry , thinking that walking faster can avoid the severe winter.Thinking of that day, Xu Hong thought of Chang Qing again. It was on that day that she felt that she liked Chang Qing.

Seeing the sadness on Xu Hong's face again, Chu Yunxing asked, "Tell me, what's going on."

Xu Hong still looked at the street and said, "Why are you here?"

"Who else do you want, Chang Qing? Chang Qing, you almost killed me."

Xu Hong lowered his head, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and said, "Human, it's not so easy to die."

Chu Yunxing didn't want to have any detours with Xu Hong, so he asked again, "What's the matter?"

Xu Hong looked out of the window again and said, "I used to sit here for a whole afternoon, watching these people come and go. That day, I needed to do something. relationship, but if I don’t handle it well, I will lose my job. As for me, I just think that I am so old, and my parents keep asking me for money. What should I do if I lose this job, so even if I feel It was embarrassing to deal with it, and I made up my mind to deal with it. At that time, I suddenly thought of Chang Qing. At that time, I just rejected Chang Qing. I thought he would ignore me, but when I was After the man poured tea all over his body, he still appeared when I left the gate of the teahouse. I felt so good, it was so good to see him, and I felt relaxed when I saw him. You know, Chang Qing That man was gentle, even when he saw me like that, he didn't ask me what happened, he didn't ask me unless I told him, and he doesn't know what I did that day until now. The two of us have been arguing a lot lately, There are various reasons for the quarrel, including you. He always said that I was prejudiced against you, but when I thought about it carefully, it was not a prejudice, but a disturbed conscience. Those previous behaviors helped the same people deal with the troubles they caused, and in order to keep their jobs and get promoted faster, they became friends with her... I am very contradictory, right? But these often Qing didn't even know, he thought it was my outstanding ability that was appreciated by the boss, heh..."

Xu Hong laughed almost at himself, which made Chu Yunxing feel distressed again. He said, "This matter has nothing to do with you. It has nothing to do with you from the source. You don't need to blame yourself for this kind of thing. And it's just this one thing. You have nothing to do with Chang Qing."

Xu Hong looked up at Chu Yunxing and said, "Do you know what the biggest problem between me and Chang Qing is?" Chu Yunxing looked at her incomprehensibly, and Xu Hong continued to say, "It's too fast, it's too fast. I haven't started with Chang Qing yet, from the first day we met, his goal seems to be very clear, he wants to get married, no matter what, he will get married as soon as possible, even if I say , The time of marriage is controlled by me, but he never let me control the rhythm. We met on the premise of getting married, and he proposed to me not long after we got together. It's hard not to say that we are just in love I was dizzy for a while."

Regarding the speed of Chang Qing and Xu Hong's marriage, Chu Yunxing has always felt that it was too fast. They have not been together for a long time. If Xu Hong hadn't suppressed them, they might have obtained the certificate during the Chinese New Year, but if this is the case If not, they really don't have much time together formally.Thinking of this, Chu Yunxing lowered his shoulders a little, leaned forward and said, "Chang Qing is indeed pressed very hard by his family. If he doesn't marry you, he will marry someone arranged by the family, such as Jing Jing." .”

"So, he kept pushing me forward, and we didn't have time to get to know each other well. He should have told you the reason for our breakup, right? To be honest, it was really shocking to me, but in detail Looking back, it’s not unacceptable, just like what Chang Qing said, his house and his car are his courtship capital, would I like him without these? I can’t even be sure, so I can’t be sure if I had been with him before If you live the same way, will he still like me? In fact, as long as the time is long, we can communicate and understand these problems. After a long time, I will always know that he has noticed it from the beginning. I always feel that I Age, not to mention being with other men, even being divorced and having children is not a big deal, so I always thought I found a good man. When men all over the world require women to be chaste, he didn’t ask Let me tell you, I think he really only loves me, I didn't expect him to know from the beginning..."

"You also said that this is not a big problem. Maybe Chang Qing just forgot, because he really doesn't care. He cares too much about you, so he forgot."

"But, Chu Yunxing, what am I to him? A person who is so eager to get married, what am I to him? A tool for marriage?"

"Xu Hong, don't you think you are extreme? You are too extreme. He loves you and wants to marry you. There is no conflict at all. He even said that he wants to marry you because he loves you. "

"But does he understand me? In such a short time, does he understand me? Does he know why I always put Sheng Min and Yu He first? He always said that I value Sheng Min and Yu He more than him , but does he know why? I am noble, rational, and kind-hearted, so I am willing to help others? No, because I can find sufficient sense of superiority in them. Everyone has the same starting point, and they all graduated from the same school , about the same age and looks, but I found such an excellent boyfriend, whether it is Huang Guanyang or Wang Yihan, Chang Qing is hundreds of times better than them, good-looking, good-natured, good-natured, the key is to treat me Ok so who's to say I'm not trying to show my superiority when I'm helping them? Other than that, it's the same women starting out, I have a better job than them, I make more money than them, I can take advantage My resources and my major help Yuhe find a part-time job to make money. I can even sympathize with her poor child and help her fight against her unreasonable in-laws. I can also help Sheng Min sort out her work and think about letting her leave Stay away from rotten men, but who can say that when I help them, I don't have a little vanity? I can't find this sense of superiority or vanity in Chang Qing. Chang Qing Qing, his family background is better than mine, he is a better person than me, and even the job I am proud of is better than me. Chang Qing always feels that his work and everything he has are given by his family, but if he has no ability, he will sit Come to this position, does he think I can't understand, every time he comforts me, I feel that he is treating me as a fool..."

"Xu Hong, you are too competitive..." Chu Yunxing felt that all the problems Xu Hong mentioned are very common in any couple, whether it is a couple. Want to make the rest of your life easier? If you are looking for Huang Guanyang or Wang Yihan, you might as well break up and get divorced. It's really not as good as being single if you live too badly.

Xu Hong turned his head and said, "You all say that I am competitive, but I just want to know, what is my value to Changqing? Can I only provide him with the value of love, but when this love disappears? ?Love is not long-lasting, it will get tired, it will disappear, and when everything disappears? We will also quarrel, and we will get bored with each other. Do you know what concessions Chang Qing made in order to be with me? Lied to his parents, he told them that I am obedient and kind, but am I obedient, am I docile, am I kind, I am really not kind at all. I used to think that I was very kind, but I didn’t dislike Nuonuo, I even like him very much, but am I kind in this way, no. When I watched my dad's burial, I knew that I was not kind at all, I was even vicious, you know watching The soil is buried below, what am I thinking? What I think is 'great, so Chang Qing will never see such a father in his life, and Chang Qing's parents will never know what my family is like for the rest of their lives ', after all, who would not care about the behavior of future in-laws? This is related to family education, so, thinking about this at my father's funeral, am I kind? Am I worthy of talking about marriage with Chang Qing? If I Marrying Chang Qing like this, I can pretend that I have never thought about it in my whole life, but when the love disappears, will Chang Qing feel that he also lied to his parents? Did Chang Qing become like me, selfish and selfish, to deceive her parents?"

"Wouldn't it be a pity if you lost Chang Qing just because of these?"

"It's a pity, when I think that he will marry someone else in the future, my heart hurts. When I think that I may never see him again, I feel so sad that I want to die, but what can I do? He said that he must get married this year. If I say let's postpone it, let's get to know each other well, he will agree, but I have seen enough of that kind of grievance. Do you know what he promised me before? He then I like children. At this age, he wants children so much, but when I said that I would ask for them in a few years later, he didn't even refute, but is he really willing? No, just tell me before that marriage is up to me He never gave me enough time to control the result. When we get married, he will definitely have a child again immediately, forgetting what we said before, and even the child is the bond that maintains us, thinking if we After getting married, when the love is gone, we still have children, but when I give birth to a child, I just want it to be happy, I just want it to feel good to be born, not to let it watch the quarrel between parents , I have had enough of that kind of life, and I don't want my children to do the same."

"You say that, it's too unfair to Chang Qing, how do you know that your love will disappear, how do you know that he will force you to have a child immediately after getting married? Xu Hong, you are too selfish .”

"Maybe, I was selfish when I was with him at the beginning, because I did something against my conscience, so I hid in him when I saw him, time and time again, one after another, and used him to escape all disasters .Maybe...I really don't love him."

The coffee was finally served by the waiter, but Chu Yunxing had no idea of ​​drinking it. Chu Yunxing felt that Chang Qing had missed the opportunity to regret it. He gave Xu Hong time to reflect. Qing still has a chance to make a comeback, but Xu Hong came to the conclusion of "I don't love him". In this way, Chang Qing really has no chance forever. His younger brother, how will he survive this catastrophe.

"Chu Yunxing, Chang Qing has always suspected that you like me, do you want to have a play with me?"

Chu Yunxing showed a ridiculous face, and said, "Xu Hong, don't be self-righteous. If you want to dump Chang Qing, you can find a way by yourself. As long as you can live with your own conscience, don't try to pull others. Chang Qing is my younger brother. We It is impossible to do anything to be sorry for him in my life, I really looked at you as a woman differently before, but now I also feel that I am blind, you are really not worthy of Chang Qing, you should get out early." After finishing speaking, Chu Yunxing stood at the station Get up and leave.Xu Hong laughed again, thinking, thank you, thank you for not spilling that coffee on me.

After Chu Yunxing left, Xu Hong sat in the coffee shop for a while, thinking that she really doesn't love Changqing, she loves it, loves it very much, she has never met such a good person in her life, but what should she do, she There is no way to make Chang Qing wait for her, and she can't continue to marry Chang Qing. After seeing his selfishness clearly, Xu Hong is even afraid of bringing Chang Qing to be selfish. How many things have been done to get married, Chang Xin and Chu Yunxing have been dragged into the water by them, even his parents, Xu Hong doesn't know how he coaxed them to give up meeting their future in-laws.Chang Qing, I'm sorry, it was indeed a catastrophe to meet me.

(End of this chapter)