I'm the director, I'm not bad

These days, if you want to ask where is the best place to go for business banquets in Yanjing, they are high-end ones. Nine out of ten people will tell you that it is heaven and earth.

One is the rules, the other is that the younger sister is beautiful, and the third is "safety".

Don't worry about any guests coming, from crushes to waiters and even toilet cleaners, you don't have to worry about your information being exposed or what to do.

This is also the place where Wang Sicong called to play today.

There are quite a lot of people.

Both men and women.

Don't ask people what they do, or how they got here.

I was called here today to praise Xu Xin and "The Wind".

From the time Xu Xin and the others finish their meal to this point, it's okay to say that they welcome each other, or that they hug each other.

Under the deliberately created class, the charm of the night scene began to bloom slowly.

Xu Xin hadn't been to this kind of place for a long time.

At this moment, the room is full of fragrant wind, and he is also restless.

However, the more agitated he was, the calmer he became.

(When everyone was singing and dancing, he took a glass of wine and sat in a corner, looking at the crowd drinking and laughing, as if in a daze.

Until the young master who had just finished drinking with a group of Xu Xin's younger sisters who didn't know where they came from came over.

"What are you doing? You don't fit in at all."

"I'm afraid of making mistakes."

After taking the little cigar handed over by Wang Sicong, he touched Wang Sicong with the cup and said:
"The daughter-in-law is not allowed to touch her, she is very restless. You have to restrain yourself."

Hearing this, Wang Sicong didn't say anything.

Nod slightly:

"Then next time, let's play more cleanly. Today, Bullet is clamoring to find more sisters to accompany him. It's not from here, and I don't know where he found it. It seems that they are all models or something that Wanwan hangs around here. . . . "

"I can see that it has a Wanwan accent with one mouth.

After Xu Xin responded, he said:
"Anyway, just be careful, don't let anyone take a mobile phone to take pictures there or do something else."

"Oh yes, I remembered what you said. Did you watch the Apple conference two days ago?"
.
What the hell? "

Seeing Xu Xin's surprised appearance, Wang Sicong was speechless for a while:
"Forget it, it's okay. When we leave later, you come with me in the car. I got two mobile phones for you and Dami..."

"how is it like?"

"Just... the one with a touch screen. Smartphones, let me tell you, are amazing!"

"..."

After hearing this, Xu Xin looked at his Nokia, a little speechless:

"Then why don't you use it?"

"Fuck, that thing needs to be cut out. I bought the tool, but it hasn't arrived yet. I can only put the SIM card in after I cut it out."

"It's quite troublesome..."

"No, but the function should be useless. You'll know it when you use it. By mistake, Lin Gou..."

Following the direction he pointed, Xu Xin saw Zheng and the two girls there... probably because he won the game, and the two girls kissed him on the face.

"..."

Xu Xin was speechless.

I always feel like I see my old self.

However, the two sitting next to Lin Gou were also chatting.

Huang Xiaoming and Yang Ying seemed to be talking about something.

Pretty happy.

And to the side...

Liu Yifei sat there alone like a fool.

Others don't talk to her, and she doesn't talk to others.

It looked out of place.

Xu Xin thought for a while, then turned to Wang Sicong and said:

"Okay, get out of here."

"...?"

The young master said in his heart, you don't want me to be a dish anymore.

However, he saw Xu Xin take out his mobile phone after saying this.

He decided not to go.

Moreover, his eyes were fixed on Xu Xin's cell phone.

I want to see what tricks this grandson is going to play.

As a result, he sent a message to Liu Yifei:

"You come to my place."

"...Your uncle's."

After cursing, the young master obediently got up and went to join Jay Chou who was doing magic tricks for a few girls.

……

"what's wrong?"

Carrying her handbag, Liu Yifei walked over, holding her glass of wine.Xu Xin unscrewed the bottle of Macallan in front of him:

"Try this?"

"Uh.……"

Looking down at the red wine in her quilt, she nodded:

"it is good."

So Xu Xin took another clean cup from the cup holder, put two cubes of ice in it, poured a third of the Macallan and handed it to her.

Qianbei's voice was hidden in the restless music.

"You really don't fit in."

Hearing this, Liu Yifei, who took a sip of his wine, glanced at him and said:

"Aren't you the same?"

"It's not the same, I want to be the same as a few prostitutes."

Pointing to Wang Sicong, who hooked up with a girl on the shoulder and watched Jay Chou do magic tricks with a group of girls, Xu Xin smiled and revealed the silver ring on his left hand:
"But I'm married."
.
I'm also not used to being in contact with strangers.But tonight I am very happy, because I rarely participate in such lively occasions.

"Then what do you usually do?"

"stay at home."

Liu Yifei shook her head slightly:
"My mother is afraid that I will be bad, and that people outside will "bad" me... If she knew that I was here today, she would have come to pick me up long ago."

"So when are you ready to face the world alone?"

"I've been prepared."

Before she finished speaking, Xu Xin glanced at her.

And at this glance, Liu Yifei saw an emotion from it.

regret.

He, after hearing his answer, regretted it, and picked up the wine glass.

Waiting for myself.

"Ding."

After the two glasses touched each other, Xu Xin drank the wine in his own glass in one gulp.good.

He's getting a little bit of the subtle leathery taste of the Macallan.

Well, of course, it may also be an illusion caused by the taste of the cigar.

But... Lao Wang's preference for this wine cannot be faked.

A bottle of Macallan 25 years old sells for at least [-] to [-].

Turn over here directly.

Sixty thousand a bottle.

After the smoky and slightly heavy wine was poured down his throat, Liu Yifei recalled the look in his eyes just now, and suddenly asked:

"Why are you looking at me like that?"

"It's a pity."

Xu Xin shook his head slightly.

…pity?
Liu Yifei was a little puzzled.

Until I was asked a question that seemed simple but was extremely difficult to answer: "What do you want to be an actor for?"

"Uh.……"

"I don't mean any childhood aspirations, or parents' sustenance, etc. I mean personally, what are you an actor for?"

"..."

Liu Yifei thought about it, and vaguely felt that the question he asked should not be so simple.

But I can't figure out what it is for.

can only say:

"For this dream."
.
Dream is to be an actor? "

"Correct."

After she gave an affirmative answer, she saw Xu Xin shaking his head slightly.Obviously, very dissatisfied with her answer.

"Is there something wrong with my answer?"

Seeing her questioning, Xu Xin picked up the wine bottle.

While pouring her some wine, he said:
"You actually didn't figure it out yourself, did you?"

"..."

"Because I think your answer is very guilty."

how about you?What do you want to be a director for?
Liu Yifei seemed a little unconvinced.

"because I like it."

Xu Xin gave the answer very happily.

Then, he picked up the cup, leaned on the sofa, threw the cigar into the ashtray, and lit a cigarette again.

Cigars are nothing but lungs.

Smoking is still a little uncomfortable.

"I said I changed overnight, do you believe me?"

"...?"

Because of the change in Xu Xin's posture, she also had to lean on the sofa.

But because of the height difference, when she listened to Xu Xin's words, she had to get closer.So at first glance, the distance between the two is really ambiguous.

But Xu Xin didn't care.

Liu Yifei didn't feel it either.

"That day. I remember it very clearly. It was the end of the first half of the freshman year. I'll tell you, my position in the director department was paid for by my dad with the sponsorship fee."

"..."

A little dark history was spoken from his mouth.

But the attitude is very calm.

But it made Liu Yifei feel the same...

because……

So is she.

"Have you seen the news about the first half of the freshman year?
"I've seen it, and I've heard it from Mimi. You often skip classes, sleep, and drive a Ferrari every day at the school gate...to show off."

"Ha~"

Xu Xin chuckled and nodded:
"Well. That's right... My change was actually very sudden. After half a semester of this drunken life, at the end of the freshman year, I was still living in the school dormitory. The end-of-term party in the school dormitory, I invite The food they ate, the wine they drank, and then they also came to this kind of place..."

Speaking of this, he paused before saying:

"Anyway, after getting drunk, I had a dream."

"……Dream?"

"Yes. I can't remember the details of the second half of the dream. But I remember the first half very clearly... I dreamed that I returned home from Yanjing. My childhood friends helped me to clean up the dust, and we went to a nightclub. Then... it was like we walked across each other. You drank too much, and I drank too much. We just bumped shoulders..."

"Ah."

Liu Yifei listened carefully.

"After bumping like this, I was annoyed. Anyway... I was young and frivolous, I dreamed that I was fighting with someone. I smashed that person's head with my mobile phone... and finally smashed him into a vegetative state .”

"Uh...was it a dream?"

"Yes, dreaming."

Xu Xin nodded.

And Liu Yifei showed a look of peace of mind.

Startled.

"After smashing him into a vegetative state, I have money. I lost money, but after I lost money, I was fired from Beijing Film Academy because of this. I live this kind of drunken life every day.. I wandered in society A few years ago, my dad took me to the mine to find a job in an energy company. That’s probably what it meant, and this was the beginning of my transformation.”

"..."

Under Liu Yifei's strange eyes, Xu Xin said with a smile:

"Really, isn't it ridiculous?"

"Just because of a dream?"

"Yes, it was just because of a dream... Maybe it's because it's been too long now, and I can't remember many details of that dream. But at that time... When I woke up from the hotel, what happened in the dream Several years, or even more than ten years of life, just spun in my mind like this crazily. Do you know what my first reaction was after I was sure it was a dream?"

When he said this, there was a...very genuine expression of gratitude in his eyes.

Looking at the person next to him who was given the nickname Sister Immortal, who is the girl with a touch of white moonlight in the youth of many people, he slightly shook his head:
"I, absolutely, don't want to live the kind of life in the dream. I don't have big ambitions, just eat and wait to die. Although it is not harmful, it is a life of doing evil and wasting time!"

"..."

"So, I said to myself: I want to change my life...poof."

He took a puff of cigarette, although the smoke did not blow to Liu Yifei.

fugitive fumes

But it still got into her nasal cavity.

She... doesn't really like other people smoking.

I also don't like the smell of smoke.

It's just... for some reason, this time, she didn't feel any discomfort from the smell in her nose.

On the contrary, it was mixed with liquor, whiskey, and even cigars and tobacco, which made her smell...not good, but...very weird, as if there was a period of time hidden in it, and a...transformation The breath of taste.

Her throat moved.

Unconsciously narrowed his eyes.

This breath made her head a little hot.

After waking up quickly, he said:
"So, you chose to change your way of life?"

"Correct."

"Just because of this dream?"

After she finished asking, Xu Xin suddenly shook her head seriously:
"It's not a dream, it's real."

"..."

"Or, for me, it is true. In my dream, I experienced a period... or belonged to me, or... I in the parallel world experienced a real life! My statement is absurd ,Right?"

Looking at the silent girl, Xu Xin still smiled and shook his head:
"Actually, Yang Mi and I haven't talked about this matter... Let's treat it as a secret between us, how about it?"

Liu Yifei's eyes moved...

Sudden pursed his lips:

"Ok!"

"Actually, I also know that my statement is a bit ridiculous. But we are actors, right? Aren't we also playing fictional characters and their lives? So, I don't think there is anything wrong with my understanding. Well, it is true Indeed, it was because of this dream, and after I finished this dream, I told myself: Xu Xin, since you choose to change your way of life, then... you should grow up."

"So there is the script of "Not Drunk"?"

"Correct."

Xu Xin responded and picked up the wine glass again.

Seeing this, Liu Yifei also took the initiative to pick up the wine glass
"You still drink? This wine is quite strong."

Hearing this voice of concern, she shook her head slightly:

"You have a story, I have wine. Stronger... just right."

"...?"

As soon as these words came out, Xu Xin showed surprise as if meeting her for the first time.

But meet those eyes...
In the end, he chose to smile freely:
"Well, the story is wine...then wish our friendship last forever.

"Ding."

The glass hit another place.

After one gulp, the smoke gushes out along with the spicy alcohol.

Liu Yifei smelled this... breath again.

It smells really good.

It's not the same as the smell of ordinary people smoking.

Her mind wandered a little.

but
This time, she took the initiative to pour wine for the two of them.

I also hope that the ice cubes melted and shrank a lot, and each added a piece of ice. "and then?"

"And then..."

Leaning on the sofa, the mixture of Moutai and whiskey made his consciousness appear in a trance.

"I know her."

Honey? "

"Um heh heh."

Speaking of his wife, he inevitably had a kind of expression on his face.
Just by looking at it, one can tell how much he loves that woman's smile.

"..."

"But that's not the point. The point is that although "Not Drunk" is only 13 minutes long. But after all the filming... I understood: Well, sure enough, I like this job.. And since then, I In a real sense, choosing the job of directing has become my lifelong career."

The topic circled around and came back again:
"Look, this is what I mean to you. I do this job because I like it. I really like this job. I'm a director and you're an actor. . . You are Liu Yifei!"

"..."

I don't know why, suddenly

The slightly abrupt last sentence made Liu Yifei feel a little...

strange emotion.

She heard longing.

I heard regret.

There was also a smell of anger and indisputability.

And a... It may be the illusion of drunkenness, or other distressing... All of a sudden, her emotions showed signs of breaking the embankment.

And in order to prevent this emotion from spreading...

She shook her head and picked up her glass again.

Drank the drink by himself.

Smoky flavors of sherry casks, hints of leather.

The sweetness of dried fruit.
And the pungentness that went straight to the forehead at the end.

It made her eye sockets slightly red.

Fortunately.

At the moment the lights are enchanting.

dim.

Give her the best cover possible.

And Xu Xin didn't notice her movements, and he didn't even notice that there was anything wrong with his tone.

Because in essence, what he wants to express is the meaning of the following passage; "I am a director, and Liu Yifei can only be a puppet in my hands in my movie. You, Liang Bingning, Wang Zhiwen... all The actors, crew members, and the final person in charge are all me. Because I am the director, I am the soul of the whole play... Do you know how much sense of accomplishment this job brings me as the master ?”

This is what he wants to express.

Therefore, he didn't know what kind of emotional collision he had just said in Liu Yifei's heart.

He just stated his thoughts truthfully:

"It doesn't matter how big your wrist is or how strong your dragon is. In my crew, it's a tiger, you lay down for me. It's a dragon, you curl up for me. Because I am the soul of a play! This kind of control Desire and a sense of accomplishment are one of the driving forces behind my love for this job. I am like a mastermind behind the scenes, and I can present the world in my heart to everyone at will...I think this may also be one of the charms of art Bar.

"..."

In Liu Yifei's silence, Xu Xin stubbed out the cigarette, looked at her and continued:
"As for Yang Mi, do you know why she became an actress?"

"It's also because you like it?"

"No, she wants to be a big star."

"Uh.……"

"it is true."

It seems to be because of drinking, so his memory is particularly clear at this moment, and he unconsciously recalls everything when the two of them walked in the afternoon at Dashilan...

"She has liked acting since she was a child, and she made up her mind to become a star. Although she often brags to me, she probably went to Tsinghua University if she didn't act... But it is true, she really loves this industry. She wants to To become that kind of big star that attracts everyone's attention, and in order to become this kind of person, first of all, she knows that she must continue her own job, that is, an actor. There must be enough works to be remembered by others... and only after having these can she go to To be a big star. According to her words, if the acting skills are not good, you are only a star at most. Before you want to be a big star, you must first be a good actor. This is her understanding~
"Uh.…"

"Do you know why I told you this?"

"why?"

"Because I think you're lost."

"I don't know whether you want to be a star or a big star. But I really feel that you are lost and deviated from the path. Of course, you can also think that I am preaching...but more, I think it is as a The intuition of a director. You give me the feeling... a bit similar to Shang Zhongyong. It seems that... you have no one to remember except "Tianlong", "Sword" and "Sculpture". thing.

And now you are in the gangster circle, and what are you doing... In fact, you are still staring at those big productions or what are you doing... In fairness, what you gave me The feeling is that whatever you play is Liu Yifei.Do you know what I mean? "

Under the drunk eyes, there is a factual statement that Liu Yifei is most powerless to refute. "Others say that you can't jump out of the frame of a fairy sister, but I don't think so. It's not that you can't jump out of the frame of a fairy sister, but that you can't jump out of your own frame. No matter what you play, you are still Liu
One fee.Pretty...sad.Because..... I don't know how many more years you can consume yourself.But if this continues...you may be just Liu Yifei in your life.

And in ten or 20 years, maybe you will still have a market.But...you are still Liu Yifei.It's just that Liu Yifei, who lives in the memory of this generation's growth, was ignorantly dreamed up by everyone... If you don't pursue change, it will really be too late.These are the most truthful words I want to say to you after going around such a big circle. "

The drunkenness in Xu Xin's eyes faded temporarily.

Looking at the girl in front of him, he spoke from the bottom of his heart:

"To observe, to understand, to feel, to bravely go out of your comfort zone. I believe in a sentence that director Zhang said to me, which is called: Art must be deeply rooted in the soil called the people. Without the soil, art is doomed to be a castle in the air, a flashy thing.

That's how you feel now.....I don't know what you want to pursue as an actor...but...even for Yang Mi, she knows it very well.She wants to be an actress before becoming a big star.And as an actress, what she wants is for people to forget her name, forget her fame, and forget everything about her when they see her performance.

She dedicates everything to the role she plays, which is the highest respect she can give the audience.And in the same way, if the audience can completely forget her as a person and only remember the role she plays, that is also the highest courtesy the audience can give her.In business, she wants everyone to remember her name.But in movies and TV shows, she hopes everyone will forget her.

This is the path she is taking now... I don't know if this path is of reference to you. But as a friend, I think even if you don't use it, don't go... But it is okay to use it for reference.

Speaking of this, he looked at Liu Yifei who was in deep thought.
Don't continue to say more.

Instead, he picked up his cup.

After finishing the drink in one gulp, he let out a long sigh of relief.

The breath brushed against the tip of Liu Yifei's nose who was sideways and silent again.

Her nose moved...

Because of his words, in his overwhelmed rationality, he caught the signal of this breath.

No tobacco smell.

but………

It smells good.