Reborn, I will never be a licking dog

The moon is dark and the wind is high.

Xu Zhimu came to the window sill and thought about it.

There are two families facing each other in this kind of old family courtyard. The rooms where Xu Zhimu and An Xiaomi live are separated by a layer of wall in the middle.

This time I will go to An Xiaomi's house, and I will definitely not be able to knock on the door directly, otherwise I will not be able to say anything in front of An's father and Xiaomi's mother.

Moreover, An Xiaomi finally patted her head three times...

Xu Zhimu naturally understood it as a hint that Sun Wukong was knocked on the head three times by Patriarch Bodhi.

The night shift came to meet each other at three o'clock.

Xu Zhimu pondered for a while on the window sill, there is a guardrail on the air conditioner outside the room, and he can climb over it.

Just do it.

Xu Zhimu pushed open the window, grabbed the railing next to him, and slowly put his feet on the outer unit of the air conditioner.

Moving a little bit over, he took a look. In An Xiaomi's room, there was only a little light from the desk lamp.

However, An Xiaomi sometimes likes to turn on a small light when sleeping, saying that sleeping like this makes her feel more secure.

Not far away, Xu Zhimu grabbed the railing on An Xiaomi's balcony, and grabbed his body over with force, but his arm was pulled by the belt, and there was a burning pain when he exerted force, and he slowly put the other foot on it. On the air conditioner outside her room.

Finally standing still, the curtains were drawn, and Xu Zhimu took a look through the gap in the curtains.

There was no one else in the room. On the bed, An Xiaomian quietly leaned against the head of the bed, holding a mobile phone in her hand, and occasionally picked it up to look at it, as if waiting for someone's news.

The desk lamp by the bed gave off a soft yellow light, illuminating the girl's pink cheeks as soft and waxy, like a piece of rice cake.

Xu Zhimu looked at her, stretched out his hand with a smile, pushed the window lightly, and there was a sudden movement.

An Xiaomi's ears moved, and when she turned her head, she saw a figure outside the curtains, hanging outside the window at this moment, and wanted to open the window to come in!

An Xiaomi was taken aback, and instantly took out a small pink stick from her bedside table and held it in her hand.

The next second I wanted to call someone.

"Xiaomi, it's me, it's me."

Xu Zhimu also hurriedly spoke softly, in case An's father found out about this, he probably would be caught and sent back to be beaten by the seven wolves in the next moment.

An Xiaomi was only slightly surprised for a second, then immediately put down the things in her hands, trotted over with her bare feet stepping on the ground.

"You, how dangerous is it for you to climb the window?"

"Do you think my uncle and aunt can open the door if I walk through the main door?"

The window was pushed open by Xu Zhimu. He grabbed the edge of the window and climbed up directly, but when he turned over, his arm touched the railing next to him and was scratched.

"hiss……"

Xu Zhimu hissed subconsciously, the scraped place happened to be the place where the belt was pulled today, it was hot.

"Are you OK…"

An Xiaomi noticed a red spot on her arm, even a little purple in the middle, it was scratched, and it seemed that the skin was slightly torn.

Distressed in the past to ask.

"It's okay, the minor injury will be fine in two days."

Xu Zhimu finally stood on the floor of the room, feeling much more stable in his heart.

Seeing that he was fine, An Xiaomi slowly faded the worried look on his face, and turned to have a gloomy gaze: "What are you doing here, and you sneaked into the room in the middle of the night, like a flower picker..."

"Didn't you tell me to come?"

Xu Zhimu spread his hands with a smile, and then pointed to his head: "Some people hinted that I would come here in the middle of the night, I should not have misunderstood it."

An Xiaomi watched him wrinkle his little nose lightly at last, and then said angrily, "I asked you to send me a message, who asked you to climb the wall in the middle of the night, if you fall and become a vegetable, I will I can't afford it."

"You don't need to pay, just take good care of me every day, just send water and food."

Xu Zhimu smiled and pinched her pretty face.

"I don't take care of you, I beat you every day!"

An Xiaomi snorted, then turned and sat on the bed.

He also patted his own bed board, motioning for Xu Zhimu to sit over.

Of course, Xu Zhimu was more respectful than obedient, and walked over to sit on the girl's soft and fragrant boudoir bed.

Boys' beds, no matter how thick they are, will always feel a little hard after sleeping for a while.

Adolescent boys always have a childish look under the quilt.

And most of the girls' beds are always soft, and the fragrance seems to be soaked through.

"Why did uncle beat you so hard...does it still hurt?"

An Xiaomi looked at the marks on his arm, and cautiously reached out to touch it.

"Don't beat me hard, can Uncle An relieve my anger? If you don't take this beating, maybe the next time we can sit together with you kindly, I don't know how long it will be. If you get a beating, I will reconcile with you sooner. It's a good deal."

Xu Zhimu looked at An Xiaomi with a smile.

An Xiaomi also bit her lips slightly, and looked at him quietly: "You scumbag with a greasy mouth...don't move, I'll get you a hot towel and apply it."

With that said, An Xiaomi got up first, and went to the bathroom lightly to get a hot towel.

Xu Zhimu looked at the bed, there was still a small black stick. He remembered that when he came in through the window just now, An Xiaomi mistakenly thought it was some bad guy and took it out for self-defense.

Xu Zhimu looked at it, a little pink stick, and a cute bunny sticker, this style always feels a bit familiar...

Xu Zhimu pressed the button on it, and then heard a "buzzing" sound, and there was a whistling sound from the front opening.

"This……"

"Yaya gave it to me, it's specially used to guard against certain perverts!"

An Xiaomi came back with a hot towel, watched Xu Zhimu play with the electric shock prod, and said teasingly.

Xu Zhimu finally remembered that this big white rabbit sticker really belonged to that girl Bai Yaya.

An Xiaomi put Xu Zhimu on his arm with a hot towel, and then took out safflower oil to help him rub it gently.

Xu Zhimu looked at An Xiaomi. The girl didn't seem sad or in any other mood.

It's as if what happened today never happened.

It's just that Xu Zhimu came today to talk to her.

No longer trying to make mistakes, Xu Zhimu said, "Xiaomi, what happened today... I always feel that all my previous efforts have been wasted?"

An Xiaomi paused as he applied the safflower oil, a trace of guilt and apprehension flashed in his eyes.

"No way... Isn't this good, so we can be like before..."

"But I don't want to be the same as before, and it's impossible to be the same, Xiaomi, isn't this what we've been looking forward to?"

"Zhimu, do you think I'm getting cold feet again?"

An Xiaomi asked him softly.

Xu Zhimu met her clear eyes, and then sighed: "The beating I received today was for nothing."

Seeing his aggrieved appearance, An Xiaomi slowly lowered her head and kissed Xu Zhimu's injured arm lightly.

Soft lips, like petals that have just bloomed, can heal all pain in an instant.

"Don't be angry, okay?"

An Xiaomi looked at him coquettishly, her big eyes blinking pitifully.

"Stupid you, you still kiss the safflower oil you just applied."

Seeing her like this, Xu Zhimu really didn't know why he was angry with her.

"As long as it's yours, I don't think it's dirty."

An Xiaomi stuck out her pink tongue at him.

It's just these words...Xu Zhimu couldn't help but want to interrupt.

"Okay, let's be serious."

"You take off your clothes first."

An Xiaomi suddenly wanted to take off his clothes.

"???" Are you so eager to take action?

"What are you doing, I am very serious today!"

Xu Zhimu spoke uprightly and untied his belt by the way.

As a result, An Xiaomi gave him a hammer on his chest, her pretty face was red, and she gritted her teeth: "You are going to die, I asked you to take off your shirt, didn't you get hit on your back too?"

"Ahem, isn't it easy for me to take off my shirt like this..."

Xu Zhimu coughed dryly, and took off his shirt directly, revealing the red and swollen marks on his back from being pulled by the belt.

Because the back is the focus, the marks on the back are the most serious.

"Uncle is too aggressive... Fortunately, there is no bleeding, otherwise it will be troublesome, please bear with me, I will rub it for you..."

An Xiaomi's distressed voice trembled a little, and slowly warmed up the safflower oil, and then gently rubbed it on Xu Zhimu's back.

"Zhimu, tonight, I heard all the words you said...you are so nasty~"

An Xiaomi spoke softly, with an irresistible smile in her voice.

"Although it's a bit greasy, fat meat is still meat. I like it very much."

An Xiaomi smiled, and Xu Zhimu looked at her expression, knowing that the girl was deliberately trying to ease her embarrassment.

"Well, I'm not angry, but you have to give me a good explanation."

An Xiaomi rubbed his back slowly, and said after a while: "Zhimu, even if I didn't say those things today, can uncles and aunts really accept us?"

Xu Zhimu also thought about it, and it must be impossible to accept it within a short period of time.

"However, at least they need to know about us. Time will gradually get used to everything, just like we have been strangers from the beginning to now."

"If this is the case, our goal has been achieved."

An Xiaomi took his words, looked at Xu Zhimu's stunned expression, An Xiaomi continued: "Anyway, now parents and uncles and aunts already know about us... Uh-huh, if I don't say that today, do you think we are going to be together?" How long will we have to wait for a chance to have a good talk together?
It's what you said, time will get used to everything, but the premise is that we still have to live together, I have this, so that we can restore our previous life faster..."

"Excuse."

Xu Zhimu interrupted her directly, and the girl's soft little hand paused.

"An Xiaomi, we are childhood sweethearts, we have lived together for 20 years, what's on you that I don't know?"

Xu Zhimu raised his eyes and looked at him.

"...Why does it sound a bit perverted?"

"Don't spoil the atmosphere! Be honest."

"Oh……"

Knowing that she couldn't hide today, An Xiaomi lowered her head, pursed her lips lightly, and then said, "Zhimu, I actually know how you feel, and I also know that you have been preparing for today for a long time, and you have made a lot of preparations." Great determination, I am also very happy that you are so brave to say that you like me in front of your uncles and aunts, but..."

"But what, do you still want to sneak away alone?"

As Xu Zhimu spoke, he remembered An Xiaomi's leaving without saying goodbye in his previous life, like a nail.

"Xiaomi, I know you don't want me to be sad for you, but there are some things, leaving without saying goodbye is the biggest harm to the other party."

An Xiaomi lowered her eyes slightly, she looked at Xu Zhimu, and touched the scar on his back.

"Zhimu, I didn't mean to hide anything from you, if possible, of course I want to be with you forever.

However, with my own body, I don't even know if there is any hope or a future. "

There was some sadness in An Xiaomi's eyes, and some open-mindedness after being helpless. She looked at Xu Zhimu and touched his cheek.

"Actually, even without Sister Ningqing, the two of us might not have such a bright future.

So with the appearance of Sister Ningqing, I can rest assured. At least, even if you don't have me in your world, you can still be very happy. "

An Xiaomi's words seemed to be really relieved, but there was still some helplessness in her tone.

In the past, An Xiaomi would not say these words, but now, she can finally say them unabashedly.

"Xiaomi, as I said, I will invite the best doctor in the world to provide you with the best hospital, and I will definitely cure you!"

An Xiaomi looked at his serious and even somewhat serious expression, but couldn't help but smile.

The corners of her eyes were slightly moist, but her smile was unusually warm. She said sweetly, "I believe in you, but I also know my illness. Even the best doctors and hospitals in the world cannot guarantee a 100% success rate." .”

"The odds are high, believe in yourself..."

"But I really don't want to gamble anymore, Zhimu, I know you want to compensate me and give me an explanation, but in fact you don't owe me, on the contrary...all this is the result of my own willfulness."

An Xiaomi was still smiling, and she poked Xu Zhimu's cheek: "Besides, I said from the beginning that I don't need anything from you. I like you, and you like me too... I used to worry that if I didn't You won't be able to accept it.

But now, you have Sister Ningqing, even if I'm not here, you can still live a good life. I let go of the burden, but I'm getting more and more greedy... It's like at the beginning, I just wanted to stay in silence It's just beside you..."

People are always getting more and more greedy, just like many people just want to know each other's name at the beginning.

Moreover, people are not gods after all, and An Xiaomi is just a girl of eighteen or nineteen years old after all.

It is impossible to ask her to be comprehensive like a saint. Youth, who doesn't do one or two stupid things.

An Xiaomi softly clung to Xu Zhimu's ear, and her fragrant voice circulated between the two of them.

"Zhimu, you said that if I chose to leave you silently when you started to change in your third year of high school, wouldn't these things not happen anymore, and you don't have to be so entangled, or I'm too greedy..."

Xu Zhimu turned his head, met Shang An Xiaomi's watery eyes, reached out and pinched her cheek.

"Could it be that these things won't happen if you leave?"

Xu Zhimu squeezed her a little harder: "Who in this world can say that he is not greedy. Since I met you in this life, then don't even think about running away. Just run away after flirting. Don't you think you are a scumbag?"

Having been pinched in the face and scolded as a scumbag, An Xiaomi's cheeks were flushed, a little unconvinced and a little guilty.

"Zhimu, if I can be as healthy and healthy as a normal girl, then I will definitely fight for our happiness, after all... I am the girl you have liked the longest in your life and has occupied your entire youth!"

An Xiaomi said with a little pride that she was most proud of her childhood sweetheart Xu Zhimu for nearly 20 years.

Xu Zhimu's entire youth was contracted by her alone, which is an advantage that even Sister Ningqing does not have.

"Zhimu, if I say what we want to be together with you today, it will be a hurt to both the family and Sister Ningqing.

If I am healthy and healthy, I still have enough time to slowly compensate them.

But my body is like a time bomb, maybe one day... I don't want to hurt them, but I don't even have a chance to redeem myself..."

An Xiaomi finally expressed all the concerns in her heart.

It is inevitable for people to do wrong things, but if there is no chance of redemption, all that is left is harm to others.

This is unfair to the family, unfair to Ningqing, and even more unfair to Xu Zhimu.

Xu Zhimu looked at her, this young girl who was always optimistic and cheerful, but she was always planning for the worst...

"Zhimu, do you still remember what I said to Uncle Xu today?"

An Xiaomi suddenly mentioned this again.

Of course Xu Zhimu remembered and nodded.

An Xiaomi looked at him and hugged him gently: "If God can bless the operation to be successful, it means that God agrees with us to be together. At that time, even if you want to, you won't be able to get rid of me!"

Xu Zhimu looked at her as if he saw a day in the third year of high school.

An Xiaomi raised her white neck, like a proud swan, and said, "You want me to be your girlfriend? Well, as long as you can be admitted to Binhai University, I will promise you..."

This scene is so similar.

But this time, it was An Xiaomi's last gamble with his own life.

Xu Zhimu stared at her blankly, and finally showed a little smile: "I have been drawing pies for others all my life, and you are the only one who draws pies for me again and again."

"So... I'm still very special with you?"

An Xiaomi was even a little proud, but the tears accumulated in the corners of her eyes still revealed the emotions in her heart.

Xu Zhimu looked at her, and finally spoke softly.

"You always have been."

A few words fell in An Xiaomi's heart, as if they had planted a seed that could be reborn from the ashes.

Her smile is like a gardenia blooming in spring.

Life is like summer flowers, bright and dazzling.

Here we come, I originally wanted to make a big chapter, but I still couldn't stand it.

This plot can finally come to an end.

Regarding An Xiaomi's question, I have read all the questions that everyone raised, and I have answered some of them in this chapter, and there are still some awkward points, which may be because I did not express them clearly.

No one is perfect, and it can be regarded as a growth process. If a person knows that he will leave soon after all, he may also do some radical things, which is generally a good direction.

It is estimated that this kind of long inner drama will be less in the future.

In short, the ending is good, and the ending is not too far away.

Thank you all for your support.