About the fact that I accidentally turned my sister into a cripple

Chapter 449 In the end, Tianhai Qimingyue still chose to keep the love in her heart
I don't know what kind of mood it is.

I don't know how to describe my mood at this time.

Tianhai Qimingyue faced the person in front of her, never thought that he would think so from the beginning.
"So what are you going to do?"

"Is it important?" Sakakihara asked softly.

"Of course it's important. I want to know your answer."

Sakakihara Le's gaze stayed on her face for a second longer, shook her head, and took the initiative to shake off her hand, "Qi Mingyue, it doesn't matter what happened."

"Then what do you think is important? After making everyone no longer need you, a person chooses to take everything and leave alone? What good will this do for you...? The good will always be left to others, what about yourself ?”

Tianhai Qimingyue completely understood.

After he was completely angry, this guy knew that with his own personality, he would continue to make the people around him uncomfortable and painful.

Sister, Suzu, Zhixue, and herself... are all like this.

That's why. After that, he deliberately said those exaggerated words to himself, and continued to encourage and cultivate Ling Yuzhixue's growth, so as to fulfill his sister's dream.

This bastard just understands his own mistakes, and knows that there is no way to solve these mistakes. No matter which side he chooses, he will hurt the other side. That's why he pushes everyone's back, and when he hates him, everyone doesn't When I need him again, go away silently.

".idiot."

Tianhai Qimingyue thought for a long time about this kind of person who wanted to carry all the negative emotions with him, and finally could only find this word to describe him.

".Call me again?"

"It's you idiot, idiot."

Although it is a little tired, but now, Qi Mingyue still looks so domineering, Sakakihara Le sounds even more tired and uncomfortable.

"Okay, okay, since you hate me so much, then don't talk so much in front of me, you leave me alone—"

Under the street lamp, Sakakibara hadn't finished talking, when he raised his head, he saw the little crystals in the eye sockets of Tianhai Qimingyue.

Why, why are you still crying?

Besides, she is Qi Mingyue, can she cry?
Sakakibara found that Tianhai Qimingyue's eyes staring at her were not only tears, but also the true feelings that she did not express in her heart as her eyes trembled.

what is this.?

Can't bear to bear yourself?
From her point of view, the things she did were not enough to make her angry?
Sakakihara Raku didn't want to escape from their side, but he was by their side, which would only make them have unpleasant things again and again.This brings pain to everyone, and also makes the wound in everyone's heart irreparable.
Since Qi Mingyue hates herself so much, since Ling, Zhixue, and Liuli have all suffered injuries because of her.

Then, let "they no longer need to be by their side" and let them "be able to rely on themselves to live happily forward". In this way, it is enough.

"Then what should you do?" Tianhai Qimingyue asked this question again on the bank of the Thames.

What should I do.?

To be honest, I seem to have never seriously thought about it, nor have I seriously done this problem.

In my previous life, I was miserable, and there was no one who could like me.

Hmm. Probably because of this relationship, I want to take care of the unloved guy around me again and again.I want to give them warmth and care.

This is also equivalent to redeeming myself who was suffering in the past.

I don't want them to end up in a miserable situation like my previous life.

What should I do.?

I really never thought, or that as long as I can help people who are in the same situation as me, I can gain happiness and salvation from it.

It's the same feeling as the children who grew up in the orphanage, who don't want their own children to become orphans in the future when they get married and start a career.

"You bastard...always."

"Why am I always like this, Qi Mingyue, don't you have the same stinky problem? You have a poisonous tongue, you are also arrogant, and you are also very noble. You are so uncomfortable that you are dying, but you are still talking hard. You insist on saying that you are fine. Are you fine? You are really fine." I don't know yet? Is it fun to come to England to play pretend games with me while talking about hating me? Since you hate me, why don't you go away?"

"Because you are always such a bastard."

"how do I?"

Before Sakakibara could finish her words, she felt something bump into her arms.

He looked down. His hands had already subconsciously placed on that flaxen hair, and she had already placed her head on his shoulders. Their heads intertwined with each other, and every breath was full of familiarity. Fragrance of green apples.

There are no words, only the wind whistling by the river.

This is probably because Tianhai Qimingyue wants to use practical actions to convey her inner thoughts to herself at the moment.

——Still, I don’t want you to leave.

She hugged her waist tightly, and the words spoken through the movements of her hands were so clear.

However, Sakakihara Raku didn't find it warm.

You must know that one or two hours ago, I was arguing with her at the bedside.

The relationship that has been estranged for a long time is so close again at this moment, Sakakihara Raku just feels very uncomfortable.

He sighed softly and said earnestly:

"...It was you who said you hated me earlier."

"I have to correct you a little bit. You are the one who hates this word first. I just said that I can no longer accept your infinite sympathy." Tianhai Qimingyue said calmly on Sakakihara Le's shoulder.

"But in July, didn't you get what you most expected in your life because of this sympathy?" Sakakihara opened her hands outward, and didn't choose to hug her actively.

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"Then that's not a reason for you to accept other women. I can't accept that you guy chooses to break your promise"

Hearing these almost whispered words
Sakakihara Raku once again heard the insecurities that existed in her heart in the past.
Why is July so insecure.?

It is not difficult to guess now. She is afraid of being abandoned, just like her mother left her alone on the country platform in the past.

What a lonely and noble person really fears in his heart is loneliness.

July is also such a contradictory person.

".You hug me like this, do you want me to leave?"

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"If you don't speak, it's your acquiescence."

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"What is there to miss about me, a rotten person? Feelings, feelings can't be responsible. People, people can't be satisfied. You have to keep messing with women. You are so good. Wouldn't your life be better if you left me? "

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Sakakibara waited for a long time, and saw Tianhai Jiuliuli smiling at her at the other end of the street lamp.

He sighed and averted his gaze.

"...When I was leaving for England, my aunt said something to me."

"What?"

"When you are angry, people will always only see the bad side of things. Just as in a quarrel, everyone will repeat the other's past mistakes. In a quarrel, you must devalue the other party to nothing. This is how you set up your victory.”

"What does Qi Mingyue want to use this to say?"

"This is irrational. Because it magnifies the worst side, it will only make the good side of the past disappear. Many things are not irreversible, but just dazzled by irrationality for a while. And I need to pay back Yours, what you brought me, I will never be able to repay"

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Hearing this, Sakakihara couldn't help feeling emotional.

Qiyue is actually talking about the care I gave her when I was a child, right?

Her feelings are too deep, and because she understands her own character, she has never felt safe.

"Not just at first, but something someone just gave me on my birthday"

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I don't know what to say.

It should be said that in July, is it too affectionate?
On the surface, she looks like she doesn't value feelings the least, but in fact, she is the one who needs feelings the most?
".I don't know who said that there is no need for gifts that day."

"Ugly, no need."

"Still talking hard. If I gave you an ugly one in July, you would accept it. After all, which girl is so stupid, and at this age still likes shark dolls so much."

"No need is no need."

"Still talking hard. But anyway, if you don't talk hard, you won't be you in July. Who doesn't know that you have a knife mouth and a bean curd heart. Did you rush to England to find me after listening to my aunt saying that I wanted to die? Who wants to die, just I just feel tired and want to go out, and find out if there is any other place that can make me happy."

Sakakibara looked up, and the night sky was filled with stars.

"Actually, I've made up my mind. I'm going to stay in a remote orphanage. I usually help the children there with cooking and homework. I want them to understand that they don't have to envy normal families. In this In the big family, everyone is brothers and sisters, everyone will support each other, and everyone will advance each other. There is no cynicism, and they never laugh at the shortcomings of the family members. Instead, they are friendly to tolerate and lead each other. He grows and changes."

"...It's really your style." Tianhai Qimingyue said.

"Haha, what else? If everyone can say thank you to me, I will be quite satisfied."

"It's no wonder that those children liked you so much when we were in the orphanage."

"Well, I'm not a person to say anything else, but I'm quite attractive to children."

Chatted up the chat.

The atmosphere has indeed eased up a lot.

"but."

Sakakihara Le took the initiative to push Tianhai Qimingyue away, "Jiyue. Only these things don't mean that the wrong things I did don't exist—"

In the middle of speaking, a slender index finger held his mouth.

Tianhai Qimingyue stretched out her hand. Although her eyes were a little red, she still had the usual faceless face:
"I know what you want to say? You think that the wrong things you did can't be dismissed as non-existent, and what you did will cause us to be hurt again and again by our side. But these, isn't it your arrogance, brother?

"Look at the older sister in the back, think about the current Ling, and recall the current Xue. Which one of them didn't have the appearance they are today under your good side? Have a different growth?

"Without you, Ling wouldn't have grown up so well in that family environment.

"Zhixue is without you, and she is still spending every day in her old home in a daze.

"Without you, my sister will only be under the control of my mother to fulfill her dream of being a star in the art world.

"It's all because of you, brother, that they have the light they are today."

Tianhai Qimingyue's eyes shone brightly, and her tone softened accordingly.

"Brother, never only see the bad side of things, everything has good and bad. Even if they and I will think you are a jerk at some point, but this does not mean that you are good, just disappear. If it is not because of you For the good of everyone, we will not get together at all, and experience a different life in a tortuous but fun life.

"If Ling knew that you would leave her side, she would definitely cry the worst, leave all her work, and desperately want to find you. For her, after more than ten years of experience, you are her life partner. The same is true for Yuki, my sister, and me.

"Brother, when you save us, we... will also care about you.

"Brother, your position in everyone's hearts is far more important than you think."

The wind by the river was blowing the girl's flaxen hair.

Sakakihara Raku looked at her real face, her sky-blue moistened eyes, and her throat followed the water beside her, rolling gently.

He didn't know why, but smiled lightly.

You laughed heartily.

Then it was interrupted.

"Of course, there is a premise." Tianhai Qimingyue crossed her arms.

"What...?" Sakakibara was stunned that this warm moment was interrupted within a moment.

"Explain clearly why you chose to bring Zhixue back, and how you plan to arrange her."

". She really looks like a young lady, high above you."

"Shouldn't this be a question?"

"Yes, yes, Second Miss Tianhai, of course you should ask. But according to Second Miss, do you want to get back with me? Sorry, I don't agree."

".To be precise, after realizing that you are not that selfish, I want to take back what I said before—wait, what do you mean?"

"How can someone get back together within three months after breaking up? I think it's good to have less restraint on weekdays."

".Do you think I haven't said enough? Do you want me to say it again?"

"." Sakakihara just wanted to make a joke, but she didn't expect Tianhai Qimingyue to care about herself again.

It was rare to see Tianhai Qimingyue being so sincere, and he didn't mean to be joking at all.

Clenching his fists to his mouth, he coughed twice and said:
"Ahem, don't worry, I really don't mean to seek death. From the very beginning, I just wanted to go out and find something to do."

Tianhai Qimingyue stared at him with half-closed eyelids, "Speaking so lightly, I just want to fly away behind everyone's back."

"...Don't worry about these details. Also, what do you think about Zhixue in July?"

Tianhai Qimingyue first sighed helplessly, then crossed her arms and said:

"What happened to Zhixue was not your fault or her alone. I never hated her or anything, but I just feel that your previous behavior is unacceptable to me."

"now what?"

"It's also very annoying now. But since Ling said that she is not married, I still don't understand what she means? Now it's just one more bell."

Tianhai Qimingyue said, put her hands down again, sighed and said, "Last time, Zhixue's casual response was taken as the truth, and it's also my fault. Because of that, Zhixue's problem surfaced earlier. Come out of the water, but since you can handle grandpa, brother, then presumably there won't be so many troubles in the follow-up. In addition, if you hadn't argued with your father and grandpa, brother, my sister and I would not be able to live so comfortably in the back. From now on For one thing, I still want to thank you."

"Reconciled?"

Tianhai Jiuliuli, who had been watching for a long time, appeared behind her younger sister at this moment. She was extremely happy to see that the two of them could communicate so calmly.

"Look, look, Le Jun, I said that Qiyue followed me from Tokyo because I was worried about you."

"." Sakakibara Le Duo looked at Tianhai Jiuliuli, who was dressed exactly like Tianhai Qimingyue, and remembered what happened tonight, "Today, all day——"

Tianhai Jiuliuli explained with a smile: "It's me in the morning, and July in the afternoon! Then I'm in the bathroom, chatting with Le Jun at the hotel entrance. It's actually July."

The one who lost his high heels is July.? !
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"Le Jun has been deceived. Can't tell the difference?"

"...Don't play like this in the future, I don't recognize it."

"It can only be someone's problem that they can't recognize them." Tianhai Qimingyue interjected.

Tianhai Jiuliuli hugged her younger sister's arm and smiled: "Isn't it interesting? Besides, Le Jun, where will July stay tonight? Can't let her open a hotel room alone, it would be nice for me to chat with her at night. "

".I sleep on the sofa."

"Not sleeping together?"

"...anything will do."

(End of this chapter)