Reborn I just want to concentrate on studying

Chapter 352 Because of you, I want to be a warm person

The things in the dream are quite abstract, it's hard to tell what happened, but the general feeling is accurate, and the feeling of Xiangyan is very close to reality.

The next day was a rainy day. I was still in bed. I could already hear the pattering rain outside the window. I moved slowly to the side of the bed, opened the curtains, and saw that the city outside the window had been completely submerged in layers of rain curtains. In the middle and nearer places, a few umbrella flowers swim slowly. Most people don't like to go out in this kind of weather, and they look bleak. But in a farther place, the cars and people on the street follow the buildings. Blurred and invisible.

This kind of weather is really hard to make people have the interest to go out.

Yi Yang leaned against the head of the bed, closed his eyes, and recalled what happened last night, feeling a little funny.

In fact, last night was a very good opportunity...a chance to complete the last step with Jiang Lili.

In the end, he didn't implement it, not that he wanted to be a saint on purpose, but he felt the hesitation in Jiang Lili's heart, and she hadn't thought it through thoroughly.

Maybe throwing her down by myself, being more resolute and domineering, can make a logical breakthrough in the relationship... but it's actually not necessary.

I want it, of course I want it, but I kept it clear at the last moment, partly because I was in a hurry yesterday and didn't prepare products like DLS, and now if I accidentally win a prize, it will probably scare her.

But more important is another reason.

Thinking of Jiang Liming being ignorant, but always pretending to be mature, and always pretending to be a guide, he felt amused.

This is actually an exciting taste.

In his heart, he hoped that those things would be initiated by Jiang Lili.

She liked playing her sister, it made her happy, and why didn't she?Pretending to be at a loss, and arousing girls' motherhood, desire for protection, wildness, and desire to conquer, actually has a different flavor.

In this process, what she gained was a sense of accomplishment and the joy of conquest, and what she gained was the happiness that ordinary people cannot replicate and experience.

Boys dominate, and in that matter, as a domineering guy, he guides girls a little bit. This kind of relationship is so common that you don't even have to experience it yourself. You can understand the emotions after a little thought.

It's not really interesting.

In the case of Jiang Lili and him, it is almost difficult to find a second example: a sister who obviously doesn't understand anything, but has to play the role of a guide. Brother, don't be nervous, don't be nervous, this, that, and this, it's fine, look, isn't it very simple?Yes... that's right there... Thinking about that picture, it's really...

It's hard to stay calm.

So don't worry, this matter is completely dominated by her, it has beauty, and it is the beauty that shakes people's hearts, any initiative from oneself will destroy this beauty.

After thinking for a while, the corners of Yi Yang's mouth rose slightly, proud of his small thoughts.

The so-called fun is to find the fun that belongs to you and her alone in the stereotyped relationship between the sexes, and you don't have to care about how other people play.

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Because of the rain, today's itinerary to go out has been temporarily put on hold. Of course, there was no plan to go out at first. It doesn't matter where. What matters is who you are with. Sitting on the sofa while watching TV while chatting, all have wonderful fun, will make people feel happy, and are worth experiencing carefully.

Staying at home, there is no need to change clothes. Jiang Lili wears a loose nightgown. Whether her skirt or trousers are good, there are very few lengths above the knee, and often only the calves are exposed, but this is also easy. What Yang admires about him is that she is sexy, and her sexy never lies in exposing her body parts to the air. Her sexy comes from her character, her understanding of female charm, and her understanding of male emotions. understand.

After breakfast, Yi Yang moved two chairs to the balcony of the living room, made a pot of lemon grapefruit tea, and called Jiang Lili. The two faced the French windows, looking at the city in the rain, chatting while drinking tea.

A long time ago, he fantasized about living such a life. To see whether a couple is happy or not, there is a theory that it depends on the amount of useless information exchanged between two people. The more it means, the happier it is. The more nonsense, the better the relationship... In fact, it makes sense. The Chinese people like to think about problems and output opinions. This has formed a practical national character, but it also deprives many people of emotional experience. Nonsense is relative. For dry goods, pouring out emotions, telling stories, and talking about how you feel about a thing, these are all "nonsense", but the listeners will feel very comfortable and relaxed.

"I don't intend to go to my mother..." Yi Yang sighed, and smiled wistfully: "To be honest, I don't know how to face her."

"She is related to me by blood. Half of the blood flowing on my body comes from her. This is a fact that cannot be changed. Therefore, whether I want to or not, there is no way to change the fact that she is my mother. If I really see her one day, I will still call her mom, but this name can't carry more things..."

"Because I have no feelings, this is also a fact. I don't know if this is right or not, but it is true. I don't love her, and I don't hate her... Actually, when I was younger, I hated her more than others. Any emotional... When I was a child, there were many children in the small county, who would laugh at me as a person without a father or a mother. When it came to the parent-teacher meeting, it would be very painful, and the primary school teachers did not take care of me because of it. Therefore, I gradually developed a somewhat extreme personality when I was a child..."

"I'm very sensitive. I can always feel the emotions of others. It seems to be an innate ability. I can feel the malice of those children towards me. When I first used violence to counter this malice Afterwards, I felt their fear. Although they were still malicious, my own emotions became self-consistent and comfortable, so I went further and further on this road, and in the process, my hatred for her gradually faded away. Well, until now, neither hate nor love... Well, if I use an accurate word to describe it, it would be, forget it, as if this person never existed in my life."

Jiang Lili squeezed Yi Yang's hand with some distress, her nose twitched slightly, and two tears fell down.

Yi Yang looked at Jiang Lili in surprise, "Sister..."

Seeing Yi Yang's expression, Jiang Lili smiled through tears, and said, "Leave me alone, I'll just take it easy."

Yi Yang nodded slightly, looked at the quiet city outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, and said, "Actually, my personality is flawed, I am prone to extremes, and I am also very stubborn. It is difficult to change the things I believe in. There was a time when I was very depraved. Fortunately, I met my sister. My sister is like a ray of light in my life. Because of my sister, I became gentle, my extremes became decisive, and my stubbornness became Firm, now, I hope to become a warm person like my sister."

These words have nothing to do with rebirth.

Yi Yang is very clear that although rebirth has brought about changes in his cognition, it is only the result of realizing that he has no education and does not study.

The experience of the previous life just made him want to learn.

Rebirth is to give this obsession a chance to realize.

But the essence of his character has not changed.

If he hadn't met Jiang Lili, he would still study hard, maybe he could go to a good university, and change his own destiny... But that kind of self is more like a refined egoist, just like the self when he was just reborn , when evaluating some relationships, they almost always start from "what benefits he can bring to me". Gain something, even see the possibility of so-called "connection" from them.

And Jiang Lili taught him how to love someone.

Bring him a possibility of interpersonal relationship, a way of emotional communication without interfering with interests.

Emotional intelligence is just a kind of ability, a tool, and it is emotionless. He used to use this ability to be slick, to talk to people, to weigh the pros and cons, to balance all parties, to pry other people To achieve his own goal, and because of Jiang Lili's subtle influence, he can't help but use this ability to warm others.

Jiang Lili was a little embarrassed and said, "It's not as exaggerated as you said."

Yi Yang insisted: "Yes, yes, my sister said that if she misses me, she will not fall in love with other boys in the future? But why not? If my sister doesn't want me one day, what will happen to me?" Who can be the light in my life like my sister? Others like to use white moonlight to describe the girl with an amazing life, but I prefer to use golden sunshine to describe my sister. My sister is not white moonlight, but sunshine. It is the warm sunshine that dispels the haze and melts the snow for me."

Jiang Lili's eyes were watery, and he wiped his tears lightly again, saying: "It's raining outside, you still want to lie to my tears."

"elder sister……"

"Call me Li Li."

"Li... Li Li!"

"Stupid, come, give me a hug."

"Ok!"

"Oh, I can't squeeze this chair, come on, I'll stand up..."

"Hug me from behind like this, is my figure good? Is my waist thin?"

"I like any kind of you."

Jiang Lili rested his head on Yi Yang's chest, looked at the rain outside, and asked softly, "Yi Yang, do you like rainy days?"

"I didn't like it before, because I remember that the first woman in my life who could pull my emotions away was a rainy day when she left my life."

"Yi Yang..."

"But I like rainy days now, because I still remember that when the second woman in my life who can pull my emotions walked into my life, it was also a rainy day."

Yi Yang also looked at the rainy scene, hugged Jiang Lili tightly, and said softly: "My sister was barefoot that day, she was so beautiful, I can't forget it, I can't forget it in my life..."

"Okay... You, you have evil thoughts about me since you were so young!"

"There is nothing...that is pure appreciation of beauty..."

"Really?"

"real!"

"Is that so...Actually, it's not impossible..."

"what?!"

"whee……"

(End of this chapter)