covet her

Chapter 189

Jiang Linlin was puzzled: "Why don't you dare?"

"It's my problem." Lin Shixi sighed softly, "I just feel that I don't deserve it."

"How could it be unworthy?!" Jiang Linlin looked incomprehensible, wishing she could hold up a loudspeaker and shout in her ear, "Xi Xi, can you give me confidence?!"

"With your face, it's not too much to be a boyfriend of a basketball team, right? Why don't you deserve it?! You don't deserve it anywhere!!!"

"Look at those puxin men, they dare to chase big beauties with such a face that can only be said to have healthy features. You are a real beauty, and you are not confident?!"

Jiang Linlin's voice became louder again, grabbing her ears and growling: "No! You must give me confidence! Why are you not confident?!"

"I want to have a face like yours, let alone with Shen Wang, Shen Wang can only be my first wife, and I have to find the second room, the third room and the fourth room, and I have been looking for thirty rooms. I change men every day." Friends, every day is different."

Lin Shixi whose ears were numb from the shock: "..."

It's hard to say whether she has become confident, but Jiang Linlin is obviously overconfident.

At seven o'clock, the student union ends work on time and returns to class for morning self-study.

When Lin Shixi entered the door from the back of the classroom, he first glanced at Shen Huang's seat. He was still sleeping, with a baseball cap on his head, the brim of the hat was pressed down very low, and one arm covered most of his face, only showing the A sharp jawline.

Lin Shixi went around and went back to his seat, habitually flipping through the physics exercise book on the table.

There is still Shen Zhuang's handwriting on the book. When he gave her a lecture earlier, he directly wrote the process on it. His handwriting is very recognizable, beautiful and sharp.

It is completely different from her handwriting, and can be distinguished at a glance.

Lin Shixi stared at the exercise book for a while, then remembered what Jiang Linlin said just now, and felt inexplicably depressed. After a while, she sighed softly, and her shoulders slumped.

Shen Zhuang's voice almost bit the end of her sigh: "Why are you sighing again?"

The voice was lazy and vague, with sleepiness.

Lin Shixi paused, and looked behind her.

Shen Wang seemed to have just woken up, reached out and took off the baseball cap on his head, straightened his waist slightly, the cap was stuffed into the belly of the table, his black hair was scratched into a random and messy look.

There is a book stand on his desk, leaning to the right, next to Shi Sang's textbooks, leaving a gap of about fifteen centimeters between the shelf and the white wall on the left.

Lin Shixi usually talks to him through this secret passage.

Shen Zhu's hands were still resting on the edge of the table, leaning against the side window sill, with the other hand resting on his chin, looking at her with a little carelessness in his eyes.

Lin Shixi struggled for a long time, then sighed again: "Forget it."

Shen Li: "?"

Shen Wang finally experienced how uncomfortable it is for others when he speaks halfway.

Don't forget it, just speak up if you have something to say.

Shen Wang's hand resting on the edge of the table slightly stretched forward, his fingertips lightly placed on her shoulder, his brows slightly raised: "Whatever?"

Lin Shixi was poked back by him again, speaking a little vaguely: "It's nothing."

Shen Zhu gently hooked her collar with his fingertips, preventing her from turning her head: "Why are you hesitating?"

"Shen delusional."

"Ok?"

"I just think you are really a good person." Lin Shixi said sincerely.

Shen Wan: "..."

It is difficult to describe his mood at the moment in words.

Inexplicably, a good person card came down from the sky. If these words were said from other people's mouths, they would be less persuasive and only perfunctory, but when they were said from Lin Shixi's mouth, they would be extraordinarily sincere.

She really just wanted to praise him like this, without any other meaning.

This topic ended with the arrival of the "good guy card".

Morning self-study, there is no teacher in the class, only Director Qian, who likes to enforce discipline, enters through the back door, walks around the classroom, and then wanders out through the front door to continue to inspect the next class.

When Lin Shixi was staring at her diary in a daze, the girl in the front seat slipped a small note through the gap in the book stand.

Lin Shixi came back to her senses, the note was passed by Jiang Linlin, folded in two, with a small arrow drawn on it, and her name was written behind the arrow.

Jiang Linlin's seat was in the first row, most of the classroom was separated from her, and the note was passed on several times before it reached her hand.

Open it up and take a look.

Just two words: Are you confident? !
The exclamation point is shocking, occupying most of the paper.

Lin Shixi was silent for a moment.

If Jiang Linlin's gossip was focused on her studies, she might be the number one in the grade.

Lin Shixi held a pen in his hand, and poked the cap on his chin again and again, really not knowing what to give her in return.

Jiang Linlin's thinking was too simple. When she heard that she was unworthy, she subconsciously thought it was because of her appearance. In fact, appearance was the least important thing. There were some deep things that Lin Shixi couldn't tell her.

Because even if she said it, Jiang Linlin couldn't quite understand it.

Children from their healthy families usually have simple emotional thoughts. Girls are beautiful, boys are good-looking, and they get along harmoniously in daily life, so that's fine.

Don't think too much about other reasons.

But Lin Shixi couldn't help but think about it, there was an insurmountable gap between her and Shen Huang.

Shen Wang is too clean, he is really clear, his bones are full of magnanimity, there is no trace of malice on his body.

But she is different, she is full of gloom, and what is hidden in her heart is the hostility born from her premature experience of all kinds of things in the world.

Lin Shixi actually hates her own personality. Many people say that she is a very easy-going person, with a good temper, good speech, gentle personality, and sunny and cheerful, but she is not like that at all.

She is the exact opposite of those adjectives.

The extremes, stubbornness, indifference, and selfishness in her character were all put away by her, carefully hidden, so that no one else would find out.

To live in this world, she must wear such a mask.

Hide your sharpness, hide your world-weary emotions, and be a normal person in everyone's eyes.

Lin Shixi herself has worked hard. She tried hard to become a good person, but it was too difficult. The original family and her growth experience were like two scars, deeply engraved in her bones.

She doesn't trust anyone from the bottom of her heart.

This cannot be changed.

Lin Shixi felt that she was suffering from a kind of emotional apathy, she liked to be alone, she liked to be alone, she didn't like to communicate with others, and she didn't like to talk.

It seems that there is no way to get along with people for a long time.

(End of this chapter)