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Chapter 125

It was a long dark night, the dim light in the corridor reflected a cold light through the glass above the door, and the cold wind blew the light blue linen curtains into waves.

Jinyue sat beside the hospital bed, listening to the barking of dogs on the street and the sound of firecrackers impatiently waiting for the Chinese New Year, a wave of melancholy surged in her heart.

Only by raising a child can she know her parents' kindness. In such a special season, she began to miss her parents again.

For so many years, she tried her best not to let herself fall into random thoughts, and tried her best to let herself accept this fact. At first, it was really unbearable, especially when she was free.

But as she gave birth to children and ran around for a living, she became more and more considerate of her parents' difficulties, and the more she did so, the more she regretted her original choice. If she worked harder, if she listened to her parents...

All these have become permanent scars, which will fade with time, but will never disappear.

Su Shen vaguely said that she was thirsty, Jinyue came back to her senses, turned on the light, poured a glass of water from the thermos, picked up Su Shen, and fed it to her. In just one day, she felt that her daughter She lost a lot of weight, and her eyes were sunken.

She asked her distressedly if she wanted to eat, Su Shen shook her head and said hoarsely, "Mom, I love you."

Jinyue's heart warmed and soured again, and two lines of tears flowed out.She hurriedly wiped her eyes, but she wiped more and more, so she had to use the excuse to go to the bathroom and put Su Shen to sleep.

Standing in the toilet, Jinyue couldn't hold it anymore, covered her mouth and began to cry bitterly.She hated herself, why she agreed with Su Shen to go to her uncle's house, and why she didn't take Su Shen to the hospital early when she had a fever.

If Su Shen really has something, she will never be able to forgive herself for the rest of her life.After hating herself, she began to hate God and fate again. Since they gave her a second life, why did they torture her again and again.

It wasn't until someone knocked on the toilet door that Jinyue wiped away her tears in a panic, and came out with her head down.

Back at the house, Su Shen hadn't fallen asleep yet, she was in a daze all day, she seemed to be more energetic, she moved to the left side of the hospital bed, signaling Jinyue to sleep on it.

The more sensible Su Shen was, the more sad Jinyue became and couldn't help herself. She endured the pain in her heart, tucked the quilt up for Su Shen, and said, "Go to sleep quickly, Mom needs to take care of the medicine."

"Mom, am I seriously ill?"

"Of course not. The doctor said that some naughty bacteria have penetrated into the body. Use these medicines to kill them, and Shen'er will be fine."

"Mom, I don't want to go to school after the new year."

Jinyue was surprised.

"Why? Don't you like school very much?"

"Dad is sick, and you have to work again. I want to help you take care of Dad."

Jinyue's nose was sore and she couldn't hold it anymore. She choked up and said, "It's okay, I have a mother. As long as you study hard, my mother is willing to do anything."

Su Shen nodded and fell asleep in a daze.

After two o'clock in the morning, all three bottles of medicine were infused, Jinyue felt weak all over, lying on the bedside, and unconsciously fell asleep.

Jinyue didn't wake up until the doctor's ward round in the morning. She rubbed her numb arm vigorously, only feeling a sore throat and astringent eyes.

The doctor registered the situation, gave some instructions and was ready to leave. Jinyue asked cautiously if he could take the child out for a walk today.

"You can go out for a walk after the infusion at noon, but don't catch a cold."

The market on New Year's Eve is almost the busiest time of the year.The snow had stopped, and the sun shone brightly on the white streets.

There seemed to be more stalls, and people going to the market came and went, surging with the crowd.Jinyue didn't dare to take Su Shen to the main street for fear of being crowded, so she wandered around in front of the shops on both sides of the street.

Su Shen seemed to have never seen such a grand market, her little face blushed with excitement, she pointed at those lanterns and toys, and yelled to show her mother.

Jinyue asks Su Shen what she wants.

Su Shen thought for a while and said, "I don't want it anymore. Dad has already bought me new shoes. Let's buy a gift for my sister and brother."

Jinyue patted Su Shen's head and said, "Okay, let's go over there and have a look."

The further you go down, the less traffic there is, but the more toys the children have, Jinyue asks Su Shen to help her younger siblings choose. Su Shen chooses a bunny headband for her younger sister and a wind-up frog for her younger brother.Jinyue asked her to pick one for herself, but she still said that she already had a present.

Although the sun was shining and the snow was slowly melting, it was surprisingly cold, and Jinyue didn't dare to let Su Shen stay longer, so she took her back to the hospital after a stroll, and bought a catty of oranges on the way back. Seeing the look in Su Shen's eyes when she passed the orange stand, she knew that she wanted to eat it.

Although the New Year's Eve market is lively, it is also short-lived. At three o'clock in the afternoon, the crowds almost dispersed. They all went to prepare the New Year's Eve dinner. All kinds of candy wrappers and other residues and loneliness were left on the streets.

The stall owners selling vegetables and couplets are still shouting that the price has been reduced, but they can no longer find a buyer. Many people actually bought everything on the 26th and 28th of the twelfth lunar month. They came out at thirty just to join in the fun. By the way Picking up the cheap, of course, most of them join in the fun.

As soon as I arrived at the door of the ward, I heard the heart-piercing cries of children and the noise of adults. I went in and saw a young woman sitting on the edge of the bed in the middle, holding a two- to three-year-old boy vertically in her arms. The man next to him was bending over to tidy up the bedside table, and an old woman was wiping tears.

On New Year's Eve when the whole family was reunited, they happened to meet in the ward, and there was a feeling of sympathy for each other.During the chat, Jinyue found out that the little boy was burnt, and sat down on the stove in the winter.

"Oh, it's really a sin made in my previous life. I have to fry some oil rings today..." The young woman patted the little boy and said irritably and regretfully, "I know I can't count on it."

"Things have already happened, what's the use of talking about them?" The man said sullenly.

"You know Fengfeng is naughty, but you still let him stay in the room alone." The young woman glared at the old woman and complained dissatisfied.

"I just went out to pick up a basket of charcoal, alas." The old woman began to cry again as she spoke.

"Okay, okay, don't cry anymore, crying makes people upset."

The nurse came to ask the little boy to have a checkup, and the couple went out with the baby in their arms, leaving the old woman in the room.

The old woman still refused to look up or look this way, but sat on the edge of the kang with her back to Jinyue and wept.

Jinyue looked sad, so she took two oranges, walked over to hand them to her, and said, "Auntie, don't cry anymore, the doctor can help you."

The old woman sighed and said, "I have become a sinner."

"Don't think so, the child's mother is also angry for a while, so you don't have to keep it in mind."

The old woman shook her head.

　Today is the Mid-Autumn Festival, and I would like to thank a friend who brought me into the writing industry!
　　At the same time I wish everyone a happy holiday!
　　
　
(End of this chapter)