Cross the ancient times with golden fingers to farm and raise cubs

Chapter 101 Depression

Xu Wanrou grabbed the clothes on her chest and breathed heavily. She tried her best to think about her son and daughter, Qing Nian and Zhi Nan who were only three years old, and it took her a long time to recover.

She knew she was sick, but no one could cure her, she could only adjust by herself.

Xu Wanrou lay on the bed with her eyes closed, trying her best to recall the sweet and happy moments with Brother Qi, the happy moments with her family, the warm moments with her children, slowly and slowly. , fell asleep.

If Yu Xiaoxiao were here, she would know that it was depression, and if it was serious, she would even commit suicide.

The house was completely quiet, and when Yang Lian came back at noon, the house became lively. Seeing Qing Yun who was willing to leave the room, Yang Lian's creases came out of her smile, and she kept muttering: "Just come out, just come out, what's the matter?" We are all here..."

Qing Yun smiled shyly, a little embarrassed, but she also knew that Auntie was really happy for her.

"Qingyun, what do you want to eat at noon, tell your auntie, auntie will make it for you, we want to eat and drink well, nothing is important to your body, what can't be done, you are still young, you are thin-skinned, gossip Gossip is really nothing, if you don't want to hear it, we can just stay at home and live a normal life..."

Qing Yun nodded, indicating that he knew.

Since I vented at noon, I don't feel so sad anymore, and I can accept that I am not my own.

It's no big deal, even if I'm not my own, so what, the kindness of nurturing for more than ten years can't be faked, and the love for more than ten years can't be faked, and I'm no more loved by my family than my eldest sister Or the difference between other siblings.

Besides, I'm not my own, so there's nothing I can't accept, I'm lucky enough.

Why do you have to embarrass yourself and hurt those who really love and love you?
Besides, even after these things happened, the whole family was dragged down by me and no one spoke badly to me, and they were all concerned and worried. Pressure, I just want to make myself happy and happy, what right do I have to torture myself and make my family feel uncomfortable and worried.

Seeing this girl's appearance, Yang Lian really thought it through, the stone in her heart was finally let go, and all the worries lingering between her brows disappeared at this moment.

After dinner, Qing Yun took the initiative to take care of the children, and Yang Lian went to deliver the meal. Seeing that the atmosphere at home was much better, Yu Xiaoxiao felt much happier, but she was still a little worried about Xu Wanrou.

I don't know if it's an illusion, but Yu Xiaoxiao always feels that there seems to be something wrong with Xu Wanrou, but she can't tell the details, and she can't figure it out, so Yu Xiaoxiao plans to find someone to talk to.

I asked her to eat at noon, but she didn't eat, saying that she was a little tired and wanted to sleep for a while, and then eat after waking up.

Knocked on the door, but there was no sound from inside, Yu Xiaoxiao listened carefully to the shallow breathing inside, Yu Xiaoxiao's heart skipped a beat, she didn't care so much, she pushed the door open and went in, only to see Xu Wanrou grabbing her clothes, His face was lifeless, like a stranded fish, with his mouth open but unable to breathe.

Yu Xiaoxiao hurried over to help her up, ripped off her hand that was holding on to her collar tightly, gave Xu Wanrou time and time again, and whispered softly: "It's okay, it's okay, breathe, take your time." Come on, don't worry..."

In Xu Wanrou's dim eyes, there was finally movement, slowly, slowly, and it took a long time to move, tears fell from the corners of her eyes, and her breathing became more and more ups and downs, Yu Xiaoxiao was so scared that she broke out in a cold sweat.

There is nothing wrong with Xu Wanrou, why is she so scary just now.

Suddenly, Yu Xiaoxiao thought of a possibility. Being physically healthy doesn't mean mentally healthy. It might be some kind of mental illness.

Yu Xiaoxiao and the others finally came back to life, and then asked softly: "What happened just now? Can you tell mother? If you don't want to, then forget it and wait until you want to talk about it."

Xu Wanrou's voice was very ethereal and ethereal: "Mother, I seem to be sick. I have an invisible disease. Sometimes I can't control my sadness, I can't control my tears, and I even want to go crazy and seek death. I don't know what's wrong with me, sometimes I feel that it's hard to even breathe, my whole body seems to be floating, separated from everything, I can't touch it... Sometimes I feel sad and want to be like that When you die, you will be free.

But I can't bear it, I can't bear my child, I can't bear brother Qi...

Every time at this time, I can only rely on recalling the good memories of the past to free myself from that unreal feeling. "

Is this depression?
I heard that people with depression are the kind of people who sometimes feel separated from the world, feel unreal and illusory, feel sad and cry for no reason, and even commit suicide.

Isn't this the end of the calf?

I only see Chinese medicine, and I have never seen anyone treat depression patients in my previous life, but Xu Wanrou said that she recovers slowly every time by recalling happy and happy days, which proves that it is effective.

Then let people accompany her more, take her out for a walk more, and keep happy and happy, so even if it can't be cured, at least it won't get worse, right?

Hey~ Why are you so fragile, why do you have to think about it, no wonder I used to see novels and TV shows, those beauties disappeared at a young age, let the doctors see it, and I came to an over-thinking conclusion, or Depressed.

In short, there is nothing you can do but rely on yourself, and then the beauty will disappear in a short time...

Wait, does this mean that depression has existed from ancient times to the present, but ordinary people have to worry about making a living every day when they wake up, and they rarely have time to think about it, while wealthy people don’t have to worry about food, clothing, housing and transportation. Things, more leisurely, have more time to think about things, it is easier to get sick.

The more Yu Xiaoxiao thinks about it, the more she feels that it makes sense. She must not let Xu Wanrou relax. When she gets busy, I don't see where she has time to worry about spring and autumn. She has to use up her abundant energy, and she must not be aware of it. When I go back in a while, I have to think about it and see how to get my family to cooperate.

hey~
Yu Xiaoxiao sighed again, it was really not easy for her, she was supposed to be in the retirement age, but she still had to take care of the whole family, before she only had to take care of the food and the physical, but now she even had to take care of the mental ones, The kind who are tired of good intentions, want salty fish, and don't want to turn over.

With a steady mind, Yu Xiaoxiao said to Xu Wanrou: "Wanrou, are you feeling better now?"

Xu Wanrou raised her hand to wipe away the joyful tears that flowed silently, sat upright silently relying on her own strength, and her voice was hoarse when she spoke.

"Mom, I'm much better, but I still can't control my tears."

"It's all right, then go and bring the child back, Yang Lian is also tired today, she has taken care of the child for a long time, now Qing Yun is helping to look after it."

While talking tentatively, Yu Xiaoxiao paid attention to Xu Wanrou's expression. She seemed to have heard before that they should not show the special treatment for their depression patients, otherwise they would make their low self-esteem and sensitiveness paranoid and aggravate their illness.

(End of this chapter)