Cross the ancient times with golden fingers to farm and raise cubs

Chapter 174 The Dark Truth

She lowered her head so that no one could see the expression on her face clearly, and her voice was so flat that no trace of emotion leaked out, but what she said made everyone present feel as if they had been hit by a dull hammer.

"Instead of letting me stay at home counting the days and waiting to die, I would rather live a good life for myself in the last time."

After all, Yu Xiaoxiao got up slowly, leaving everyone with a lonely back, but the expression on her face was very flat, she could not hear the irritability and incomprehension of the two sons' words.

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Life is always like this, nine out of ten are unsatisfactory, among which is the reality and the two or three parts of the feelings, the real gossip will always affect the feelings, and the feelings are always mixed with rationality and sensibility Choice, to put it bluntly, is nothing more than selfishness and emotion.

They want her to stay at home safely like other old people, without causing trouble or worrying them, and they can also take care of her while taking care of their own lives without worrying about what will happen to them. Life has too much influence, and they feel that such a life makes them very comfortable.

But they are not themselves, so they can't understand their own feelings, and they always want to make themselves compromise for them.

Although she knew it was normal, she really couldn't be selfless enough to accommodate and tolerate them to suppress herself for the sake of their safety and selfishness.

She is still the Yu Xiaoxiao who came from the modern age without worries, the Yu Xiaoxiao who came alone and left alone.

What she values ​​most will always be herself. She can accommodate and tolerate for the sake of feelings, but she will never change herself for the sake of those feelings. What her growth experience taught her is selfishness, not kindness.

She has feelings and concerns for the two cheap sons, and there is a bit of fledgling plot in a strange world, but she doesn't think she needs to obey them for these, obey them for their feelings and selfishness.

Yu Xiaoxiao went back to the house and closed the door, and entered the space to get busy as usual, without taking the unhappiness just now into her heart at all.

And the other people in the yard, everyone has their own thoughts and reactions.

Shen Ye and Shen Qi felt somewhat guilty. They had always felt that it was only natural for their mother to accommodate them. Although they would be grateful, they felt that she was their mother, and she should tolerate and accommodate them for their sake. Yes, as usual.

After all, all the old people in the village are like this. In order not to trouble and worry their sons and children, these old people will try their best to do what they can, stay in one place safely, and let the children While being able to take care of your own life, it is good to have a little spare time to take care of them.

Now that they were specifically pointed out by their mother, they felt that they were using their emotions to coerce their mother into compromise.

They are worried about the life and safety of their mother who is away from home at such an old age. This is true and unquestionable, but also when the mother said that she was going to go out to experience, their first reaction was irritability mixed with worry, not pure worry. .

There is such a reaction, but because the mother has basically paid for them for so many years, and never bothered them, let them get used to it.

They subconsciously felt that it would be troublesome for their mother to go out to practice, which was beyond doubt.

The last words that mother said also hurt their hearts severely. Mother has worked hard for them for half her life, and there is not a single day when she ignores them. She lives happily for herself and does everything she wants matter.

The mother's words are also true. They know that the mother is getting old, and no one knows how long they will have a good life. It is really watching their friends pass away one by one, counting the days and waiting for death.

They can't feel this feeling, but it's not hard to imagine how miserable it would be to be plagued by this feeling all the time.

I and my younger brother have selfish intentions, but I am really worried about my mother. They don't know what to do to get the best of both worlds.

Although I also know that things are difficult to have both.

Although Xu Wanrou and Yang Lian were also touched, they were used to everything in the feudal society, because they were educated like this since they were young, so they didn't understand it very well, but they also knew that the mother-in-law and the head of the family were in a bad mood. So there was concern in his eyes.

Knowing that Ye is a young man, he suddenly had an urge to let his grandma go out and travel with him, but seeing the elder's face, he still held back and didn't say it.

The other children are more concerned and worried about their grandma and elders. They are still young, and the reality they are exposed to is relatively naive, so they are still very innocent and do not have too much selfishness.

Both Shen Ye and Shen Qi suddenly felt very tired and lost the mind to speak, so they greeted their children and daughter-in-law to go back to sleep, and then they went to the study one after another, and Shen Ye brought a jar of wine.

Shen Qi watched his elder brother come in, his eyes fell on the jar of wine, and he said in a deep voice, "Drink together?"

Shen Ye nodded, and the two of them sat in silence, drinking in silence, maybe a little drunk, Shen Qi spoke.

"Brother, do you think we should agree to mother's going out to practice?"

Shen Ye drank the wine in the glass, confused with the drunken eyes, and couldn't hear the emotion in his voice: "I don't know."

Shen Qi smiled wryly, filled himself and his eldest brother, picked up his own glass and downed it in one gulp, and the two fell into silence again.

After a long time, Shen Ye finally opened his mouth and said, "Maybe we should let mother live a good life for us, and don't be so involuntary."

Shen Qi supported his head, his eyes were drunk, but his mind was clear: "Mom is almost seventy."

Shen Ye smiled slightly with disdain: "This is just an excuse we came to cover up our selfishness. The whole family, except for Mother, is the only one who knows how mother treats her body, isn't it?"

Shen Qi took another sip of the wine, as if he was choking a bit, he coughed for a long time before recovering, squinting his eyes and said quietly: "Yes, mother has never been an ordinary person."

Shen Ye's eyes were blank, and his thoughts returned to the year when he was eight years old.

They didn't eat or drink and they almost starved to death. The mother had already swallowed her breath at the time, but she woke up again later, and she was able to conjure up to eat. At that time, he was extremely hungry, but his brain was not bad.

Moreover, his mother treated them so well later on, without any indifference and alienation from before. He still remembered that his mother looked at him and his younger brother with gloomy eyes several times along the way. He even heard that his mother wanted to exchange them for food, although In the end, he couldn't do it cruelly, but he still firmly remembered those things in his heart.

Maybe at that time, I had a faint guess in my heart, but he was only eight years old and his younger brother was five years old. He couldn't support himself and his younger brother, so he simply told himself that he was thinking too much, and he put all his thoughts into it. Keep it in your heart, and no one will find out.

(End of this chapter)