Rebirth, my green plum is not pregnant

Chapter 132 Su Wan is seriously ill. (seeking subscription)
People will learn to release, but they will gradually close
Su Wan, who just came back, can keep her "different", has a magnanimous attitude, and can control everything.
She has changed, and she is shrouded in the confidence that she gave herself and God gave her.

But she is clearly not such a person.

Su Wan is weak. It can even be said that if she wasn't weak and hesitant, she wouldn't have said so many things she didn't know, and wouldn't have had so many regrets.

She is such a person, she is such a person, although she learns to pretend and change, but when the torn mask falls off, the self hidden in the bottom of her heart is released again
The room was dark and there was no movement.

If the living room is tense and anxious, then there is some inescapable silence in the room.

It was still the same until Xu Wenjun entered the house.

"Xiao Wan."

Xu Wenjun turned on the lights in the room, probably because the light was too glaring, Su Wan lowered her head dumbly, buried it on her knees, and didn't say a word.

But she really heard Xu Wenjun's voice, her hair was untied, her hair was disheveled, and she didn't have the radiance before. It can even be said that this is the most indescribable Su Wan that Xu Wenjun has seen since a long time ago. as if dead in spirit,

It's not her kind of dodge to avoid questions that makes people angry.

Instead, he was really dead, and he no longer had the energy to face him.

But she still cried, this voice will make her sad, make her angry, not angry with Xu Wenjun, she hates herself, starts to hate everything about herself, hates all the choices she makes
If she didn't repeat the exam, if she followed the steps, if she didn't just say she didn't know, if she didn't lose Xu Wenjun, it would be great.

His eyes were already swollen from crying, but they were buried on his knees, and the tears flowed down again, and even crying was just numb tears.

How long has it been since we saw you?Two days, or three days?

Xu Wenjun felt that it might be a psychological effect. Su Wan seemed to have lost a lot of weight. She was relieved to let go of her brother and sister-in-law's decency.

Xu Wenjun walked over. Su Wan was hiding herself in the corner. I don't know how long she had kept this position. Xu Wenjun wanted to help her and go to bed, but she didn't have any stress reaction to Xu Wenjun, she just didn't say a word , eyes lost,

But the knee had been bent for too long, and she couldn't straighten it. She didn't say it hurt, but she cried more tears and looked more painful.

Xu Wenjun didn't know what to say at the moment, he carried Su Wan back to the bed, and didn't know if her legs could be straightened now, let her curl up on the bed, sit on her bed, tighten the quilt for her, everything Don't ask, don't say anything,

You can't let Su Wan be like this, anxious.
Xu Wenjun put down all the problems and helplessness, and just gently asked the most urgent question at the moment.

"Are you hungry? Do you want some porridge?"

There was no sound at all, Su Wan waited until her knees had slowly straightened her legs, her helpless eyes looked at the vast expanse of whiteness, the ceiling seemed boundless, yet trapped in a corner, within reach but hard to touch
How much do you love Xu Wenjun?

For Xu Wenjun, she is a calamity he cannot escape, a corner of his heart that cannot be avoided.

As for Su Wan, he was also a young girl who had been with her for many years. She had to admit that if she didn't know, she wouldn't care about anything, and if she had nothing, knowing and understanding would be painful.

It can be said that Su Wan, who has lived the most beautiful life ignorantly, does not understand love, and does not love Xu Wenjun that much, but it must not be said that Su Wan does not love Xu Wenjun anymore.
From the appearance of Qin Muge, Su Wan woke up, she has loved Xu Wenjun for ten years, and she is unwilling.
Maybe the current Xu Wenjun, the current Qin Muge, and everyone in the present don't know how much she loves Xu Wenjun, so much that she loves her as if all the goals are only three words.

And when she saw that everything was the same as before in the third year of high school and the same as before in the hospital. Things were pushed to the most unexpected situation by her again.

She doesn't even know how she should face Wenjun, facing a world that may not have Wenjun, and may never enjoy Wenjun's warmth.
If Xu Wenjun seeks a relief after coming back from being hideous for more than ten years, then Su Wan has been in love for more than ten years, regretted for more than ten years, and came back to find a remedy
"But I messed it up, I messed it up with my own hands."

Oh, it's me again, it's my hands again
Am I a waste?
Is it useless?
Do you think you are smart enough to be different?
"Should I just stay in the corner obediently, don't talk, don't expect anything from myself, just hide in my corner, that's the place that suits you."

Su Wan has completely denied herself. Even when she saw Xu Wenjun now, she wanted to escape and hide herself. She felt that everything about her was unworthy. She even threw herself on Xu Wenjun and hugged him tightly. Saying loudly that you don't want to leave me is unworthy.

A woman who dumped Xu Wenjun several times, oh, I don’t deserve it, I deserve it. Died in this corner, silently.
Horror, Su Wan's feeling, as well as her current state, made Xu Wenjun feel fear.

Xu Wenjun had thought that as soon as he entered the room, Su Wan would rush over and hug him tightly, saying that I was wrong and I regretted it, I, I should not have left you, should not have repeated studies, should not have left Xu Wenjun in the capital, Sorry, I can't forget you.

I also thought that she would hold on to me completely and make trouble for no reason. Xu Wenjun thought about many, many things.

But really, really, never thought about it.

Su Wan didn't say a word, just hid there.

Don't even dare to look at him.

This.
If a person collapses, but she is still talking to others, it means that she still has hope in her heart, but if a person collapses, she has no sound and is completely numb, either she is dead, or she is communicating. on the road to death.
Death in a double sense.

Because her spirit has long since died, and she no longer even has the desire to survive.
It was the first time Xu Wenjun was so flustered, but he was afraid that anything he said would not be Su Wan's life-saving straw, but a reminder for her. He could only stay by her side, never leaving her, right by her side.

Quietly.

Time passed by, and the muffled sound was very soft. Aunt Su and Uncle Su, including Xu Wenjun's parents, didn't dare to make any noise and crept up from downstairs.

Seeing that Su Wan would let Xu Wenjun approach her, and let him support her on the bed, she finally breathed a sigh of relief. At least, Xiao Wan let people approach her, let Wen Jun approach her, and they would not be able to touch Su Wan.
And only half a sigh of relief, because Xiaowan still looks like that, lying on the bed, only tears, but not crying, still quiet, like death, eh
Looking at Xu Wenjun who seemed to be silent and helpless, the adults left for a while, not daring to disturb.

Gently brought the door over.

After a while, the smell of porridge drifted down the kitchen. Xu Wenjun's mother carefully brought a bowl of preserved egg and lean meat porridge to Su Wan's room, and then gently waved to her son.

Xu Wenjun took a piece of paper, gently wiped the corners of Su Wan's eyes, then covered her with the quilt tighter, got up, left the room, and locked the door, "What's wrong, Mom?"

"I made some porridge for Xiaowan." The mother held the bowl in one hand and the spoon in the other, and blew on it from time to time, sighing several times, "You take it in, try it, hey, you won't eat it for a few days Stop drinking, how can this work."

Xu Wenjun took the bowl without hesitation, "I'll try, you go down first, I'm here."

"Well, hey" Mom looked at Xu Wenjun, hesitant to speak.

"Mom, tell me what you want"

"I don't know if it's right to ask you to come back. Xiaowan became like this, me, and your Aunt Su and Uncle Su actually have something between you. We don't know the details. Xiaowan kept saying sorry yesterday. You. Logically, I shouldn't call you back. You have Mu Ge, so you can't get involved like this, but Xiao Wan watched her grow up. Before, I always thought that we would become a family."

As my mother talked, the tears couldn't help falling down one by one, she quickly wiped them with her hands, and then said, "But mother really can't stand it, Su Wan like this doesn't seem to be able to survive. Su Wan, let you come back to meddle, don't blame your mother for being sorry for you and for Mu Ge."

Xu Wenjun bent down and put the bowl on a chair. It could be seen that the family members were really worried.

There is paper in the bag with me, I took it out, wiped my mother's tears, and then handed the paper to my mother, "What are you talking about? I will come back too, how could she be sorry for me? Hey."

I'm sorry for her.
My mother was afraid that the porridge would be cold, and she hadn't eaten for a few days. Her stomach was empty, and it was not good to eat cold. She calmed down and patted Xu Wenjun's shoulder worriedly, "Su Wan has a diary on her, you Did you see it? There is a password locked, try to see if you can ask the password, or guess the password, if it doesn’t work, you can see Xiaowan’s reaction, open the diary, and see what she wrote, why in the end You, Auntie Su, and I can't get close, so we can only rely on you."

When Xu Wenjun just helped Su Wan, he saw that diary. He had read the diary in his previous life. Although he didn't know if the content had changed. Head, "I'll try, you go down, go to bed early today."

Wait until my mother turns her head three times and goes downstairs.

Xu Wenjun puffed into the bowl and held the bowl, opened the door and walked in again.

Su Wan's bedroom.

It is still clean and tidy. Although the family members are not allowed to get close, as long as they are not close, it is okay to clean up the house.

Xu Wenjun turned on the light, Su Wan really likes to curl herself into a ball now, so she curled up on the bed, Xu Wenjun took the diary that he took from Su Wan's arms without much effort, from the bedside cabinet He got up, put the bowl on the bedside table, looked at Su Wan who was lying down, put the diary on the bed, stretched out his hand, and silently supported her.

As for Xu Wenjun, I couldn't face it, but I couldn't refuse it even more. Xu Wenjun pulled her up with his eyes blank, "Sit down."

Xu Wenjun cleaned up, picked up the bowl on the table, and blew, "Come on, open your mouth."

Su Wan didn't seem to want to eat, she didn't avoid it, but she didn't hide either, she just didn't open her mouth.

"Hey, open your mouth and have a drink." Xu Wenjun's voice was gentle and soft, but Su Wan still didn't move or respond.

Xu Wenjun put the spoon by Su Wan's mouth, and gently persuaded her for a long time, but she didn't respond to her at all, didn't speak, and didn't look at her, but looked forward weakly. A little anxious, the tone was slightly heavier, "Hurry up, open your mouth!"

At this moment, Su Wan trembled all over and reacted a little, her lips moved cutely a few times before opening slightly.

Have a show?Xu Wenjun breathed a sigh of relief.

The porridge in the spoon was fed into Su Wan's mouth, but she wrapped it in her mouth, neither chewing nor swallowing.

The current Xu Wenjun, facing the pitiful Su Wan, couldn't say anything about China, so he said softly, "Swallow it."

After talking nicely for a long time, seeing Su Wan's expressionless look about to die of anger, Xu Wenjun tried to be like before, and changed the context, "Swallow it!"

Really useful!
Seeing that Su Wan refused to swallow, she actually grunted and swallowed the porridge.

"Co-author, now you still take the hard and not the soft."

Xu Wenjun had no choice but to tell her to eat it. This is a big improvement, so don't be picky, so Xu Wenjun fed Su Wan one bite at a time with a serious tone. Finally, Su Wan ate. A bowl of porridge was given to Xu Wenjun. Feed her and eat clean.

Xu Wenjun looked at her eating and even had a small face of aggrieved, feeling angry and funny, covered her with a quilt, put the empty bowl aside, Xu Wenjun went to bring her a glass of water, and the glass was stuck to her lips , She didn't open her mouth again.

Xu Wenjun had no choice but to slap her again, "Hurry up."

Only then did Su Wan open her mouth again, drinking water pitifully.

Xu Wenjun frowned.

He tentatively said that he would take her there to wash her hair, and then go out for a walk.

Su Wan didn't speak, she resisted a little, she shrank her whole body towards the head of the bed, Xu Wenjun tried to persuade her, but Su Wan didn't want to, after resisting, Xu Wenjun had no choice but to pinch gently.
Su Wan immediately became honest again.

To be honest, I let Xu Wenjun carry her to the bathroom, and looked at the lips slightly curled up, looking aggrieved.
Xu Wenjun frowned, looking at Su Wan with a sad face.
She seems ill.
And not seriously ill?

ps. It’s not bad, (the pen holder is a fresh graduate) I got up at 6:8000 for the interview today and took the car, and then I interviewed all morning, I was sleepy in the afternoon, I slept all afternoon and I was even more tired, and I was exhausted at night. I coded 4000. 4000, there is no way to only [-] today.

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