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Chapter 1457 No. 76: It’s not that I didn’t have a premonition

"Don't let your imagination run wild. In front of your goal, caring about other people's experiences is just a waste of time."

Putting away the good news on the screen that cheered him up, the demon put on an attitude of serious work and warned the overly curious horse girl.

"Let's not talk about whether yesterday's strengthening was truly worry-free. Even if the will training achieved unprecedented success in that way, the problem facing you and me is huge."

"Ah, practice, huh?"

I also understand the symbolism of Sirius.

Although the abrupt change of topic was suspicious, Omer's words were true. Sirius, who had thought about returning to the battlefield for countless days and nights, had never put it into practice because he had a clear understanding of the situation.

Just don't say that other people's words are rough, her own ability to express herself is not that refined either.

"Yes, practice, or the manifestation and linkage of will."

Omer calmly adjusted her chaotic statement.

"You should have heard more or less that in the trainer circle, there has always been an ancient school that claims to be pure."

"What?" Sirius seldom paid attention to the circle of trainers, but when it came to the ancient methods, she could recall some of the harassment she had endured in the past.

"Only the one who allows running?"

The original team of trainers of the Symbolist family, although they were basically guys who couldn't stay in the job for long, most of them had struggled hard with all their might.

Although in the end I couldn't stay.

Even more than half of them did not have a 'good end', and when they resigned either passively or voluntarily, they had varying degrees of mental abnormalities, which not only made mental health insurance shine, but also brought about a period of strange talk in the industry.

But at least Rudolph will remember them, and Sirius will remember them too.

Although the latter would often say with disdain that those losers were not interesting and there was nothing worth mentioning, she did write down what the trainers said.

Although she was too lazy and had no interest in reminiscing most of the time, she had few advantages over Rudolph, and her memory was one of them.

This was exactly the characteristic that Omar had noticed to some extent, so he just nodded.

"Yes, normally, trainers are quite free in how they train horse girls."

"Many trainers would consider training methods other than running to seek more significant training results, but those people would just let the horse girls run over and over again."

Indeed... When he heard him say that, he was reminded of the guy who always held a small notebook, which made Sirius' face fall.

Even in the symbolist training group that she had no interest in recalling, the dwarf was the most unlucky one in her opinion.

All they do is tell people to run, run, run. Which horse girl can endure that kind of training?!
Is that Miura Bourbon who works under this guy?!

"That's a very rude look," Omar asked, meeting her gaze, "You don't think I want to train you like this, do you?"

"No."

"You don't think I'm training Bourbon like this, do you?"

"Uh……"

"If it was Rudolph, she could repeat geography with confidence."

"Why mention her?" Sirius frowned, "and it doesn't sound like a good thing to say."

What does "she can repeat a grade with a clear conscience" mean? This sounds weird, and it's even weirder when you think about it. This guy is provoking himself and insulting Rudolph at the same time?

"It's just a matter of fact. How to interpret it is the next step," Omar said calmly, "I hoped you could show your attitude, but you care more about my opinion?"

"That's really ambiguous. I'm just affected by your daring to say bad things about Rudolph!"

"The first reaction is often the most convincing," Omar was too lazy to explain his words again. He just looked at the woman who let the topic drift away with a bit of helplessness. "But that's not what I want to say. I think I should ask you directly, what do you think of Rudolph's different reaction to my question than you did?"

"Have you really asked her?" Sirius raised an eyebrow. "Can you be sure that she will react as you said?"

"I haven't asked, and I can't be sure. She has more options to deal with it. This is just an inference based on the premise that you can't do it. She can do what you can't do."

"So you just want to say that I'm not as good as her?"

“…I hope you can come up with another solution.”

"Why didn't you say so earlier?" Sirius took a few steps away in a bad mood, then turned back, "Do you train those high school students in such a roundabout way?"

"It depends on the person, but it's enough." Omer clapped his hands impatiently.

"It's time to tell me your answer."

He was tired of the topic proliferating multiple times, so what were originally a few simple sentences had now become clear in their conclusion.

In this terrible conversation which at first glance seemed like he was playing the role of a riddler and Sirius was not smart enough to follow the conversation, he had already figured out Sirius's situation.

After all, he didn't really have a riddle, and Sirius wasn't really deficient in intelligence.

There is only one reason for the current misalignment, and that is that some people are not ready yet.

That person hated lying and also hated compromise, so he should have simply kicked away the assumption that "lying is not as good as others", but he was stumped by his first sentence and fell into hesitation, thinking "that would mean admitting that I was just imagining things".

Just when she was hesitating about what to say, Omar clapped his hands again.

"Run, and use the skills you have learned."

He said it indifferently, causing his rosy red eyes to reveal some rare emotions.

That's uneasiness.

In Sirius's opinion, Omer's reaction was just like a sloppy one, with a sense of "whatever, just run around", which made her immediately remember those faces that she would never remember before. The symbolic trainer team - called it this way, because she didn't want to remember everyone in it, even if she actually remembered them, especially there were two or three of them who could do what she wanted.

Just as Omer had guessed at the beginning: "a small to medium-sized dog that is more submissive and obedient, and maintains a low profile," "hand over the dominance, and then let her return the dominance because of her goodwill and trust."

Those days that seemed very ideal, beautiful and smooth did exist.

It's just that in Symbolism, at the prime of her career, such times were neither long-lasting nor complete.

Not only is it incomplete, it may even decay.

It was hard for her to accept how easily human hearts could change when she didn't know the whole story, and after she knew the whole story, it was hard for her to accept that human hearts could not stand the test.

Because it is hard to accept, she struggles.

In the darkness that she had been accustomed to since childhood, she only remembered the meaning of her name.

'Sirius is the brightest star', someone once said this, and it made her never give in when she was a child.

Then when she grew up a little, she learned that all the stars in the sky shine, and that Sirius’ brightness is not the highest, and there are even strong rivals like Venus in the solar system.

But she also heard this:

'Sirius is the brightest star, and she will prove it!'

She was willing to continue working hard for such words, and was also willing to look for the existence that could walk with her to fight against the darkness. The first person she looked for was naturally the symbol of Rudolph, with whom she had played, studied, and made resolutions since childhood.

Of course, when they were younger, she called each other more by nicknames.

Luna
It is a name related to the moon, derived from the biological mother of the childhood sweetheart, and also carries her expectations.

Like Sirius, both are celestial moons, and both glow in the dark.

The simple hope of children is just to stand together as one kind and carry out a small rebellion against the family together.

But as time went by, she began to realize that the moon did not shine.

At first, she found that her childhood sweetheart did not betray her expectations, but at the same time greatly exceeded her expectations.

Luna seemed to be about to become a sun, and unknowingly she had reached a place far away that was beyond her reach.

Can’t keep up…

She wanted to chase, she was chasing, but she discovered something during the chase.

The closer you get to the moon, the less noticeable the light of Sirius becomes, especially when the moon is disguised as a sun.

It shouldn't be like this.

She knew it.

That childhood sweetheart was never the real sun.

A dim moon and sparse stars is just a mediocre choice. The real Sirius should be clearly visible even with the moon next to it.

But why can't I do it?
But why can't I catch up?
When she had an answer that could tentatively answer this question in her heart, she finally felt completely exhausted.

Maybe this pursuit has been wrong.

The sun is fake, the moon is fake, and the light of Sirius is also limited. From the very beginning, the future has been doomed by the endless darkness in the universe.

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"Can you really have any clue?"

"What do you want to ask?"

The soliloquy beside the track in the specialized training ground originated from a conversation between a person and a sheep that was invisible to others.

Both of them were looking at the figure running on the track with the same expressionless look.

"Put aside the explanation at the beginning and let her run a circle first. Isn't it just to find the ball of yarn for the wool ball?" The sheep said, "I am not her, and you are not her either. There is no need for us to play dumb."

"My condition isn't much better, so you can be more tolerant of me."

"..." In the brief silence, Yang smacked his lips, "Isn't this what I asked for? Sacrificing the present for a momentary thought, is the future so important?"

"As long as we don't interfere and as long as we can control the variables, this problem, which is still within our tolerance range, is not a big deal."

"You don't have to think that they will all do bad things, especially Rei and Isamara."

"A sheep dares to say anything," the young man said with a smile, "Do you understand the concept of the king of beasts?"

"...So that's the reason. It's my fault for making such rash comments."

"Why bother apologizing? I'm actually looking forward to seeing how he reacts when you meet him."

"…Can't you infer his reaction?"

"Even if we share the same essence, we can't say we know everything about each other. With Sirius in this state, you shouldn't ask such questions."

"Have you reached a conclusion yet?"

"It takes luck to be lucky. Her luck has never been very good, has it?"

"Is it my luck to meet you?"

"Hard to say."