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Chapter 1544 No. 161: But Plan C is not needed
Despite the title of the King of Beasts, the King of Beasts' appearance is indeed like Omar's demonized form, which makes it fit in perfectly with Halloween, but it would be an extreme statement to call him a monster.

Both the induction cooker demon and the cursed armor are common visitors in European supernatural illustrations, far from being comparable to monsters.

Because of this, you can more or less perceive that Narita Shirahito's aesthetic is more like a simple fan of sharp elements rather than a monster lover.

Sharp enough, just like the claws of the raptor in her favorite raptor cafe, and just like the dark matter angel of energy she is most passionate about in GBN.

There is no doubt that what she likes is this kind of dangerous visual style that makes people feel like they will get hurt just by getting close to it.

Of course, there must also be a relatively conventional aesthetic design.

Otherwise, she should have visited the Sea Urchin Ecological Park instead of the Raptor Cafe.

You can't just throw a weird ball covered with thorns or a bunch of blades and ask her if she likes it, because she will just look at you as an idiot.

She appreciates the sharpness, but even more so the ferocity and strength that belong to the top of the food chain.

It condensed her unconscious longing and was the posture of the wild beast that had left a deep impression on her since she was a child when she followed her father hunting in the woods.

The gesture was cruel and bloody, which should have frightened a child of her age, but everyone knew the truth -

At that time, she was more afraid of darkness itself than prey, than the ferocious beasts that seemed to be able to turn her and her father into prey.

At that time, she was not pursuing the ferocious beauty of the beasts, but the fact that she was afraid of darkness brought her a sense of frustration early on.

It also brought early resentment.

And that unique aesthetic is a byproduct of this "intention to fight against darkness".

While her father warned in the hunter's way that the darkness would bring more than just horror and evil, the young child wondered how horror and evil could walk in the darkness.

If we can achieve what is common to both, will we not be afraid of darkness itself?
But she obviously couldn't do either of these.

Narita Shirahito stopped crying and making a fuss at a very young age, which meant that her older sister Pipa Chenguang always lacked opportunities to show care and concern for her, and her parents had little room to give her any instructions.

The only thing that can be used as a precious topic is his picky eating habit of not liking vegetarian dishes and only madly eating meat, making everyone feel that Bai Ren still has such an obvious little temper, and is indeed the youngest one in the family.

But she is obviously not such a perfect and worry-free child.

She just endures it.

Very good at keeping silent.

Always try to solve it on your own.

Even when they admit that they are incapable and rationally seek reinforcements, they will still subconsciously cover up their own shortcomings to make themselves appear not so weak and embarrassed.

She always holds on.

I have been able to hold on for more than 20 years, so I am well aware of my own shortcomings and stubbornness.

She knew very well that she really couldn't do it.

Unable to become something vicious, she could only become something terrifying on the track - but during that time, she could only become something terrifying on the track, and she almost couldn't bear the pressure brought by the fear and despair of others.

Her moral standards are still too high.

They always appear to be stoic and indifferent, and always run with great vigor, but they are always particularly concerned about other runners on the same track, and will feel lost, sad, and even guilty if they give up.

The so-called hungry wolf is actually a good boy. Not only can he only get a terrifying experience card in the arena, but he will also be suppressed by vicious public opinions from all sides as the situation deteriorates.

So, just like before.

She still couldn't defeat the darkness.

But this does not affect her life, nor does it affect her being called a 'monster that is not afraid of shadows' and mastering the inherent skills that can crush shadows at will.

Because long ago, she had been relying on spiritual energy and psychological suggestion to use shallow hypnosis to make the small nose patch an anchor of her confidence.

Yes, it is very convenient.

Just stick on the small nose patch, and you can ignore the deep shadow in your heart. Living in an era full of possibilities, there are many external objects and methods that can be used. There is really no need to seek ancient methods of self-breakthrough. Narita Shirahito has lived like this for many years, until now.

Her nose patches still work.

The competition will not prohibit this kind of energy-free effect, and it has even long been regarded as a decorative patch that is part of the image and an important component of the decisive suit.

She could continue to think, "Escape really works, sisters," but she obviously couldn't let it go. When she was alone, she would often look around and move to some cool and dim places, then carefully take off the nose patch and try again and again, but the results were not ideal.

Naturally she was unwilling.

Even if it was a perfect escape that lasted almost forever, it was still an escape, an escape she could not tolerate.

This dissatisfaction and unwillingness always stay in her heart, so that even though she has long given up the pursuit of her childhood words, the long-lasting and far-reaching impact still spreads silently.

That's her aesthetic.

The aesthetic that fully illustrates what "obsession is the result of wanting something but not getting it" not only brings her to the Raptor Café, but also leads her from the ordinary world of horse girls to another field full of violence, blood, and danger: mercenary.

The fact that Narita Shirahito once mingled in the mercenary circle has not only been reported in many places, but it is also officially recognized and printed on her peripheral cards.

That choice, which shocked countless people, caused the media to frantically hype up the end of the Triple Crown. There were even a lot of headlines with the word "degeneration" printed on them, making it seem like they had gone into the sea, but in the end, nothing happened.

It turns out that Narita Shirahito's role in the mercenary community is similar to Omer Linton's role in Penguin Logistics.

He fished for two days and dried his nets for three days. He had no intention of doing it seriously and just treated it as a temporary job or a hobby.

After the summer vacation, he would continue to visit several fixed locations in the school. His presence was so dull that the reporters would lose interest, as if he had become the leftovers that even hyenas would not bother to touch.

The matter eventually came to nothing, and only became a mystery in the minds of the few friends, relatives and fans who were still paying attention to her.

The more taciturn a person is, the more secrets he has.

——That being said, in the past, when we looked at some of Narita Shirahito’s actions, we could still find traces to follow, and we had never seen this horse racing girl do anything crazy.

The only thing I really don't understand is the small episode of being in the mercenary circle for two months, which was intermittent.

Of course they didn't understand, because even Narita Shirahito himself didn't understand.

When my form was declining and the trainer was so nervous that I had to stop playing, what I was thinking is now a mess when I recall it.

Registering as a mercenary seemed like a sudden idea. I don’t know what kind of expectations I had, but I only remember that I became more and more bored and disappointed, so I went less and less.

It seems to be just a boring memory of being young and ignorant, totally worthless to recall and explore.

——It is this kind of understanding that makes her further away from her true self.

She never likes to think about these things, and is never willing to analyze herself. She always rushes forward based on her own feelings.

While his immaturity surpasses that of the Sirius symbol, he also does not need to be forced into a desperate situation like the Sirius symbol to figure things out - Narita Shirahito is a complete instinctive person, always subconsciously pursuing a path closer to success.

Just like when I first joined the mercenary circle, I wanted to see how horrifying and vicious things could be integrated into the common characteristics of darkness.

She once caught a glimpse of the key to her own self-examination, but she couldn't figure out what it was, and finally returned in despair.

And now, she was subconsciously chasing the figure of the demon, and when the King of Beasts and Omer Linton appeared in the same frame, she became more or less aware of the discrepancies in her past self-perception.

The King of Beasts, which should have touched her aesthetic, which should have been a completely horrifying thing, failed to arouse her passion.

The fact that she chose to follow without hesitation during a stage where she should have hesitated surprised her even more, and it also finally revealed a fact in the most obvious way.

This has nothing to do with aesthetics, but rather a deeper level of trust and dependence.

That might be the plan I have been pursuing, and I never thought it would always be around.

Maybe you have found it

There are some people in this world who have never seen themselves clearly.

Even the clear and obvious logic was not noticed.